wow i havent written in here for a bit. well anyways that weekend was great. had tonnes of fun. yeeeaahhh.
other than that work work work and another show this weekend! WOOT!
its my birthday tomorrow. hurrah. i hate my birthday! every year it sucks and i dont want a party cuz i'll feel like a loser or theyre pitying me. hahaha. ah well this weekend will rock i might be on a bands dvd! hahahaha
hmmm so friday i went to a huge fire party thing in some guys back yard.. in which i can not remember his name. lmfao. anyhow it was real fun, gettin to see the scene gettin bigger. (not emo scene the street punks) they are so hot. well except the 17 year olds, all of em are fucking funny though. one kid had four coolers and got totally hammered and was pukin! hahaha! but now im startin to think about the guy that likes me and stuff and how hot he is.. maybe i'll give him a chance. i duno. but he told everyone about me and how hot i was! lmfao!!
other than that im hittin calgary this weekend to party with teh guys. i dont know how many girls will be there prolly like three. the ratio is really odd, there are like 8 guys to every girl! lol thats ok though. if i pass out we have agreed they will do a real hawk on me. i hope i pass out!
haha well about that show i was complainin about i went anyways and had a blast. even when my friends left the table to get drinks and smoke i talked to people i didnt know at all. two people i wanted to meet were there and i didnt say hi just insane i saw wrong and now one of em is movin in two days which kinda sucks!!!! but ooohhh well, sunday was a blast. i got hit on sooo much, and well i almost punched the shit out of some girl. that was hilarious.
hmmm so work is okay i work at tim hortons its not that bad youre ALWAYS busy instead of sitting around three hours like i did at jysk. i miss like two people from there but another person quit MUAHAHAHAHHH!!
well the guys like me there. the ones i talk to anyways. one i KNOW likes me, another keeps tryin to ask me out but isnt straight foreward its kinda annoying haha "i feel like a movie this weekend......" im just gunna tell him to get it over with so i can say no (or yes i duno yet!!) then this other guy im nice to (nice guy but....not my type aka 28 years old) he told me right to my face he thought i was attractive. so weird! i was just like "wow how did you do that" it takes a lot of guts to say it to someones face, let alone on the phone or someting!!
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(shoots noisey cricket)
....hmm what else... well i guess thats it for the few that read this! yaaahh!!
o btw the bald cutie thats a whore and stuff i decided i dont wanna date him maybe just... be ........ ya know... uh... FRIENDS sniccckkerrrr. hhhahaha. i still heart mike. godd i need some female friends i cant talk to my mom about this stuff!
music - distillers - the hunger
mood - ARGH!!!!!
oh nooooooooooooo
oh yeah i got a job at tim hortons! HAHAHAHAHAHA YAAAA at first its gunna be part time.. so crappy wage. but they said after three weeks i;'ll get 8.75. its a start, i was makin 8./50 at jysk. so whatever. im pleased. MONEYYYY! and im workin at some casual place tomorrow too so i get like 100 bucks. wheee/
ok bye imaginary biatches!
long entry ahead - get some coffee and sit down with me ..mmmmrroowww!
so how has everyone been? i havent really talked to too many people lately! (hi to the three of you that i do talk to!)
wheeee guess who read my email professing my stupid highschool feelings! thats right. she read it. but thats okay if shes not interested cuz i think i can live without that stuff etc.
hmmm im not gunna date that mark guy from brooks who moved to ontairo and came back. well ok he hung out with the guys i dated in brooks in grade ten so im sure hes just like them. (aka useless!!) he even thinks that when he gets his new 2006 car i'll go home with him. uuuh no if u wanna "date" im not a loose whore (thats why i prefer friends with benefits ho ho ho.)
but yes.... i am actually making friends here. i met one person and BLAM i know everyone associated with him almost! it's great haha they're all so nice (except this one fat kid he was an asshole but u know what he was fat and ugly so i dont care) but yessss the guy i got to kiss me in january when i was a drunken whore hasnt forgotten me though i met him once! ONCE! we went to his place last night and he was all happy and floaty i was there. he was like "omg im so happy you came" to the guy who brought me... lmfao! everything i said he just sat and smiled at me. it was crazy ive never had a guy crazy over me like that. he kept telling me theres no girls like me in lethbridge... wow the sexy punks must only be in the male variety here! but i hear hes a man whore. he has a stalker too.... he was telling everyone (loudly enough that i heard) that he was pissed his stalker was there cuz he couldnt talk to me. lmfao. i like him, hes waay taller than i remember though.. since when i saw him i was wearing my high heeled black pleather boots... ho ho ho.
it was funny i had to walk over his legs or whatever to get to the couch and i was like "exxuuusse me" (puts hand on leg) and he got all red and i fluffed his non existant hair and he high fived his friend he was that excited. lmfao! the people here are great. well except the one guy i almost dated in feb, hes a cocky bastard and he isnt as hot as some other people i know now! YAAAH! all the people i know here are sexy! its great!!! now to learn how to rollerblade properly and i'll have something to do with em :D
but hmmm other than that still jobless... might work at tim hortons since they start 8.75 thats more than i got at jysk...we'll see... since id know almost everyone workin there hahah....WHEEE
hmmm let's see whats new...... almost done school work! passin psych with a nice 95 average (sooo easy i love it) and math is going okay... uhh so far anyways!!! im almost done IM ALMOST DONE THE YELLOW TAPE IS WITHIN MY GRASSSPPPP!!!!
hmmmmmm.
ah, well. im bored. cheers imaginary people!
hmmmm... do do dooooooooo well i didnt get my vacation pay.. apparently it was in my other cheque like i suspected. thats kinda crappy!! I NEED A JOB AAIIIEEEE!!! i might work at this cruddy trailor place that pays like 10.70 or a baker place that doesnt pay much but thats fine with me money is muthafuckin money. :D
sooooo this guy really wants to date me. i think he thinks we're an item cuz i slightly held his hand so i wouldnt lose him at this club place. crap! hahahah! well... i mean hes really nice and he liked me for like... years (and hes easy on the eyes :P !) but i just dont wanna commit. i just wanna have fun. its hard cuz sometimes i get lonely and when you just want fun things dont get better for you. its just a spurt of fun then bam back at home alone. well i duno hahaha being drunk fixes everything (and kills my brain severely!)
but ya hmmm well the one guy i kissed on valentines is talking to me again, hes been depressed lately and now hes all "ooo lets hang out bla bla bla talk to you tomorrow heart heart flower" geez since when are drunks extra affectionate.. wait that can be alot of times (look at me for example). but yeah, hes so cocky but hes so sexy hahahaha id hang out with him but id never date him, thats for sure. im kinda glad i moved here... i met lots of sexy guys. hahahahah! (and one sexy girl...shes damn mufukin cute!! but whatever.. that'll never happen, i dont think i'll ever get a girl but she came close. she held my hand lots and blushed a lot teeheeeee (music note within brackets)).
but yes... thats my umm.,.... speech of today for anyone who even read this. lol.
argh ok two guys like me. one was my bathroom stall incident (for you that know about that.... lets se...uhhh jason?) but yeah, and the other is a guy that liked me since grade ten. its a pain cuz i like SOMEONE ELSE (well i like mister bathroom stall incident too but yeah....) it makes me feel bad though cuz the other guy...mark (not 33 year old mark) came here just to do something with me. i doubt anyone else would drive 2 hours just to do that....well except matt, my bestest friend in the world. ho ho ho.
well... my boss...well ex boss rules. apparenlty i was fired right and he filed it as me quitting. YEAH!
well other than that im a hermit lately. im avoiding everyone cuz i duno im a sellout. hahahahahhh..,
i made a plan... im leavin for trinidad as soon as i can! (aka next summer when im done school) YEAHHH!! hopefully its not so horrible i want to leave right aways. maybe it will be great and i wont have to come back hahahh yes i will live off coconuts and ummm hurricanes and german people taking over the mutha fuckin beaches! ya its true. thats friggin retarded. i mean give up being nazis get ur own damn beaches!!!!!!! >: \
hmm i havent written in here for a while....well let's see whats new for you imaginary people that read this.. (slaps jason who reads my journals on every site DONT U GAH>>>>>) anyhow.... well hmm i lost ma job, no biggie. im happy cuz now i can focus on school and shit. im so bored though. i hate not having a car. i would soo do more stuff cuz half my "punk" friends dont drive either! damn defying the rules.. etc. well they are the shit though. but yeah... iduno. im kinda lonely. blah! thats my extent of my rantin vent feelings time. well whatever. im meant to be alone i think, and thats fine with me. FUCK EVERYTHING WAH WAH WAH WAAAHHHHH (cuts self with boiled egg) nah im fine (aka jason dont even....lol.)
why do people keep other people on msn but not talk to them? whats the point really?!? can someone tell me this..........
whoah the string version of atreyus songs are lovely, go listen now! its brilliant!
music - metric - dead disco (they rule FUCK OFF)
mood - bored, worried about my gecko ITS LIGHT DIED O GODDD
ya... i got a day gecko. it was only calm when it was taking a shit. o god. haha. i have like three bite makrs from just puttnig it in the tank GODDD! it was a good deal tho. saved me like 50 bucks or something (that i spent at bps last night) haha boston pizza was interesting really.... i hit on a waitress it was great XD and then i wrote my number in the chocolate of our desert~ ya im a loser but who cares im not gunna see them again. we even dissed smoe bitch we went to school with and she was like three feet away listening. take that moustachio!
im alooonnee aahh matt went to medicine hat and everyone else doesnt matter cuz well theres only two girls here i sorta talk to but they arent really even friends (hello theyre girls ok)
but lethbridge is starting to be fun. im making friends. wheeeeeeeeeeee
ya we called a few of them the other night too, that was interesting. it was great pissing them off though. haha nnyyaaahh moosejaw is shit ok!!! why couldnt i be like this back then. im sure id have umm interesting friends rather than nerdy moosejaw friends... and umm well fuck brooks i dont care about them as much haha the preps there can all burn in hell (i also called one a bitch last night hehe)
ciao
haha tonight was fun. i got a new friend yey! blair. he's funny, and totally my type of person. he came back to the store to give me his number. speaking of fate hey invisible people!!
hes crazy... we started racing some dude on the roads home and we went up to fucking 160 i encouraged it! lol! i was like KILL HIIIMMM and we followed him to a store and chatted and we were all niec and once he drove away we were like LOSER nnyyaahh and drove away. it was fuunn. and i played pool!
aahh i duno anymore, i want a guy that'll treat me well, i want a guy to be mine and mine alone.. this guy doesnt want to go serious, i respect that. but i want someone to call my own. it's been long enough.
i just want to be happy again for real damnit. those years arent coming back.
(emo becca cuts arm off)
happy valentines day you fuckers!!! :D wow i almost got picked up today at work by a guy i talked to for like half an hour straight about nothing. it was funny. hes cool though. i sure have a funny way of making friends though!
but yaaaa i think ive decided im taken for now. well i kissed him. so ya.... i think you gotta consider it then. tonight was funny, i met his friends, and theyre great! one guy they call the wild card is fucking hilarious, i think we're gonna get along good.
hmmm other than that... i broke the shelf in the till at work! GO ME IM HARD CORE BABI!
and other than that.. ten days til i see my best friend ever im so happpyyy!
music - some oldies song i hear at work all the time
mood - wheee!
becca's going to see the boy i met at the concert again haha i think we might become an item. he's cute. he has a funny haircut now though. not mike tho, ive known him for like two years or something now. this guys name is greg. he plays bass. actually, so does mike. and so does the cute guy i got to kiss me on the cheek. haha wheee im a bassist sex fiend now!!!
but seriously greg started air drummming and it reminded me of things omggg it gave a weird reaction though (i got excited)! hahahahahahha
well..........
if any of you didnt catch it on my front page.... im on myspace now!!
http://www.mys
MUAHAHAHAHAHAH
la la la laaaa she aiiirrr humped mee and i got to piicckk her uuuppp aahh i love liking girls :D!