hey kids another drunken journal for you to read adn tell your friends about. ps i will reply to messages when sobre! its 1am im so drunK! hehehe (this took me 15 minutes to correctly type out!!!)

so me and a friend and her bf (who is a friend nw... hes cool I DECIDED) went to a sweet show. i even saw some of the punks who i might add became fucking snobs since i dissed a 22 year old friend of theirs for fucking a 14 year old...or several of them! ok pedos are bad ok. oh yeah and i didnt sleep with some of them. whatever maybe im just not good enough for punks only to hang out with them just one year and they decide theyre too good for me...psh.

but yeah the night was fun. me and the girl nicole got drunk like the smae time. and i had double shots in each drink and she had some wine i couldnt stand OK. but yeah. it was great. pictures to come maybe. i look horible in half of them. possibly because im drunk and laygbign!..........laughing?
but ok the show was great. the first guy to come on sang all these love songs and made me think of a certain bitch with matted up hair (high fives matt) ...but no i even said i was spoken for WHEN SHE HASNT REPLIED TO MY FUCKING EMAIL YET!!!!!!!!!! god i hate her for it. anywys.

the second band was so fucking amazing. atrophy manuscript. ok yeah theyre popular and kinda emo. but live they are gteat. i couldtn stop staring at the bassist HAH. good times.

and then after the show we decided to go to the strip club where nicoles bf jef...wait no GEOFF..............works. and we didnt even play a game of fucking poool like we planned but somehow i found myself in the mens washroom singing to coheed adn cambria! HAH. and some chick hitted on me/. i had my mohawk up. omg. good stuff. lots of compliments. well ok about 5 but im used to more!!

and when we were leaving the fucking strip place (where mind you... i didnt see any strippers)_ this gurl that was hittin on me was like BYE BEAUTIFUL MOHAWK GIRL!!!!.... like how many peope is that i have have called me beautiful. i was reasuured back in the car. one of the guys that geoff worked with came along and all he kept saying was ARE YOU SURE YOURE A LESBIAN.....youre LYING.............//////////// but it was great when the chick (beuaiful mohawk girl) was talking to me saying how she got a hard on from mohawks i was like.......hmm guys and girls huh not just girls... (will be whore) but about the guy that wouldnt stop hitting ojn me mg I LOVE COMING OUT TO PEOPLE!!!! i let him put his arm around me then just paused and was like......................hey... um.i should tell you...im gay.

"are you fucking serious......................................"

and i was like.........."YUP IM GAY AS GAY CAN BE"

so that makes 2 random people i forced my gayness upon!! omg its soooo fucking gratifying.

but wow one thing i'll remember that nicole might not is ....

"hey ok becca becca BECCaaaa.... YOU'D rather come home with me than him right"


haha awww....drunken speak is cute.

but ok opinion part.. and for all 1 of you that read this... i think i might like a boy...but he doesnt wnat sex at all!! HOW AVBOUT THAT?!?!? i love guys... but dont wanna have sex with them ever. ...... i dont know abou tkissing... they kinda suck at it.....QWHAT YOU THINL?!?!?!?!? GUY THAT DOESNT WANT SEX?!?!? should i try it? and write abot it in a column for newyork times or something?

)carrie bradshaw(

omg i cant believe i remembered that. im so drunk.

0end drunk rant(

wtf my last journal didnt make sense there... woo for drunk rants.

well im going to rant here since most of my other sites my sister can find and i dont know if she'd wanna hear this. well im sure she'd share it with my mom.

well anyways, im fucking ready to move out. all my mom talks to me about is money. im fucking sick of it. i tell her i'll give her money for groceries but sorry if my geckos new home costed alot THEY NEED A DECENT LIFE TOO OK. fuck.

i dont have a relationship with any of them. if i just moved out to the south side (i live in the anus of the west side where theres nowhere good to work) i will be fine. seriously. walking to work everyday might be good for me anywys.

but wow. this is lame. i dont contribute. well they never give this lecture to my sister. wait... she does chores. yeah i guess that helps.

but seriously this is too much. everyday. talking to me like im a piece of shit because i didnt give her like what... 50 bucks?

fuck off. seriously.

hey im drucking dunk you guys

omg.... no i seriously didnt mean to make that mstake... but wow..... i got drunk and walked to the girl i likes house

and she wawsnt there

then i called and her boyfriend answered the phone.

holy shit it was akward. this is how it went.... satarting with him

helllo.......

hey umm is hailey there

nope.

is she at woooooorrrrrrrkkkkkkkkk.........

yup...who is THIS??

becca she told me to call and this is the number she gave me and umm tell her to call me back ok

ok... bye

(klik)

omg though......id never try if i was drunk. fuck.

atleast i can type about this shit hOHOHOHOHO!!!

(ps i hate when people visit my page everday and dont bother to ask how i am?)

yeah be a snob but icisit my page. yeah.,

PFT

iiiiiiiiii <3 im so posting another journal about it if she calls back!!! now to wait............and drink whle i wait.

im so drunk i randomyly wi[ped deoderant on my shirt......... and threw a glass and freaked out when it landed upsdie down

atleast i can still take goodo care of my geckos (fed them and misted them)
heheheheh!!!

HOHOHOHIAIAHAHAHAHAHH!!!

.........does anyone actually read this?

motherfucking rant time!!!!!!!

okay so apparently matt's brother in law found the right oppurtunity to assault him... ok well matt lied about going to school or something and the idiot freaks out and threw him to the ground and like strangled him or something... and called him a sinner??

a sinner.

we all know he wasnt mad about school. more like matt being a homo.

this is lame. why cant people just get over the fact gays exist and let them be? sure jesus says this and that and all us homos are going to hell... but so what? cant you just fuck off and let it happen? why cant they just let us live our lives

HEY LETS BEAT UP RANDOM FAGS FOR NO REASON!!
-this is what some idiot said outside of a bar before. FUCK.

i hate people.

on an annoying note... im waiting for someone to call.. because i feel like a loser making the first phone call... but what if shes doin the same thing. pft.

actually no god doesnt hate me

iiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

<3

you know what, i think god hates me somehow.

let's see... i finally like a girl that likes me back. and every fucking chance i have to see her is ruined. wtf?

i think my karma is just really bad. hehe.

i always tell the guys that wanna date me that i'll call them back and i never do xD they sound so sad too because they know its coming.

it goes like this:

"ok well i should let you go" -me

"sure, call me later?"

"yeah.... i have a few days off, i'll call you."

"SIIIIIGGHHHH... okay bye."

:D

oh crap......

i think i could be in love

_>

i really hope not.

dir en grey - fucking amazing. just.... YIII (will never be able to listen to them the same again)

i also got a sweet fedora hehe

oh and got hit on by a middle aged east indian women. she told me she loved me >_>

amist the excitement of seeing dir en grey in less than two weeks, i have felt a loss in many areas just tonight. so many things hit me at once! i dont know how much more weird news / crappy news i can receive.

listening to 'dead tree' by dir en grey doesnt help. but wow i love this song!!!

PETA - they killed 14 000 cats and dogs within 9 years. wtf?

a guy i almost considered dating is gonna "test the waters" with a chick i work with and umm yeah WEIRD.

then my best friend did the most craziest thing ever. im happy for him but it was so extreme and....um well i cant get into details. but i feel weird about it now.

and kinda behind in life. i dont enjoy it anymore..

bahhh!!!!! wait did i ever? well ok maybe a few months here and there

meh!

this is kinda creepy/funny;

Q1.
If you knew a woman who was pregnant, who had 8 kids
already, three who were deaf, two who were blind,
one mentally retarded, and she had syphilis, would
you recommend that she have an abortion?





Read the next question before looking at the
response for this one.





Q2:
It is time to elect a new world leader, and only
your vote counts. Here are the facts about the three
candidates. Who would you vote for?


Candidate A.
Associates with crooked politicians, and consults
with astrologist. He's had two mistresses. He also
chain smokes and drinks 8 to 10 martinis a day.


Candidate B.
He was kicked out of office twice, sleeps until
noon, used opium in college and drinks a quart of
whiskey every evening.





Candidate C
He is a decorated war hero. He's a vegetarian,
doesn't smoke, drinks an occasional beer and never
cheated on his wife.





Which of these candidates would be our choice?
Decide first... no peeking, then scroll down for the
response.
------------------------------------------------------------




















Candidate A is Franklin D. Roosevelt.
Candidate B is Winston Churchill.
Candidate C is Adolph Hitler.




And, by the way, on your answer to the abortion
question: If you said YES, you just killed
Beethoven.

work is a freaky ego boost.

the third man to give me his phone number is kinda stalking me though.

another woman at work told me i was beautiful... WHAT? the other one was always like "wow youre sooo prettyyy.."

oh and um... i have beautiful eyes and people envy my lips.

ugly...? my. fucking. ass.

omg people are cunts haha i got spazzed at for posting a journal three times by accident? on deviantart. lame!

i was called a stuck up cunt for not caring how "lame" and "weird" my rant was

and umm a stupid bitch for not caring that he was mad i accidentally posted it several times DUE TO MY BROWSER FREEZING haha

and im the idiot?

god!

dir en greyyyy in febbb LALALALALALALALALALLAAHH!!

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Very High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Moderate
Dependent: Low
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/index.html

hah! i had a dream that was totally fucked up!!!

i dreamt i was hanging out with my ex in his home town and his friends were there. then his girlfrend was coming in and i had to hide (shes a freaky bitch) it was really weird. then i was there with his grandparents hiding in the bathroom for some reason..... WHAT?

so then i came out and she was there and i complimented some cat she had on her shirt (WHAT?!) and she wasnt as freaky evil... she prolly didnt know it was ME (aka bitch that made her precious boyfriend upset) it was funny.

then randomly a tornado came and ripped everything apart. idont know why but momentarily i dream about tornadoes. hahah!




i duno i always have weird dreams that mean nothing. and usually end with tornados hahaha

ok so lets see lots happened in the first day of 2007:

i got invited to a fucking threesome with two girls but ... no thanks haha (aka fucking whores and i havent even met one of them)

i just got asked out by a guy friend... aah aah hhhh i saw it coming but i dont know what to do about it haha (this is jeff in lethbridge, jeff in edmonton doesnt even know yet... are we even an item I DONT KNOW, GODDDD!![not like id have sex with either haha][prefers male friends than male relationships!])

i have to go to a show with a guy that has a crush on me from work. how do i get myself into such things? well it will be fun but ... i duno haha

and in feb we're checkin out DIR EN GREY in toronto hopefully if i find 500 to spend.

and then in the summer we're having a road trip to the US! haha

and then hopefully sometime me and matt have time to egg and throw nails at cars!

oh and to top it off i found out today that i work with a chick that is my childhood friends step sister from moosejaw!! SMALL FUCKING WORLD haha i so have to meet up with him again. and i have some other peeps to meet in sask too.

yknow i just tallied up the amount of people who hate me... its so fucking amazing. i am seriously hated by lots of people. its a funny thing, to be honest. :D i find it amusing.

it's kinda sad but i didnt want most of them to like me anyways e_e just some days i think... hmm i wish we were still friends then other days it was like no wait selling me out does not compute to friends...

see to some people im just soooo uncool.. do i know why? not really. probably because i was a whiny cunt in highschool. that could be it. i was so fucking confused about things. or maybe its because... well i duno.

its just because one person hated me in a certain group so everyone followed along. surpise suprise eh???

lame.

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oh and one chick hates me because i had a crush on some girl and wait.... i dont know the rest of the story. she just freaked out. and still rants about it. sooo funny!
apparently to her my "journals dont have form" like wtf? who gives a fuck? hah!

yknow, i wonder why people visit my page everytime i write a journal but dont message me / reply to messages or anything. kinda odd.... hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm >>_>

well... seems like this guy i hang out with wants to date me. argh! i hate turning them down now haha ive done it so many times this year... lets see about five times. i coulda got that much hetero action but meh no thanks. i duno how to turn this guy down either he's so nice! AAGHHH!!!

i still wanna go to australia. SNIFFFF!

aarrghhH!! im having the hardest time finding a baby northern blue tongued skink... DAMN YOU STUPID CLASSIFIED PEOPLE TAKING OFF YOUR ADS BECAUSE I LIVE IN CANADA (breathes)

it takes time... le sniff!!!

i wanna go to australia. it would be sweet. :D

so okay check out my last diary. let me know if youre in.

http://www.ircf.org/projectheloderma/

thankyouuu

this goes to everyone who cares about herps and stuff!!! check out this site. donate even ten fucking bucks. i had three people do it already and some people from work are going to give me money to donate :D !! i really hate to see species extinct and shit. so here it is. this is to help a south american beaded lizard. there are only 200 left because of...well check out the site! if you care for reptiles GO LOOOOOOOK !!! please. for me. no ... for the lizard. im donating several hundred in the new year!

http://www.ircf.org/projectheloderma/