Everytime I think it's gone
It always comes back, fills me
Tainting the smile
As if I never felt it, not seeing the happiness that was there
Fading away so quickly, not even able to share
Tasting the sweet bliss, again gone sour
Staining my lips
As if it never bled in me, not feeling the happiness that flowed
Flying away so swiftly, I never even showed
Here but it's not
Cold but slightly hot
Confused and shaking
Afraid and breaking
'Cause everytime I think it's gone
Shooting back through a needle, filling me
Bending the smile
As if it never burned, not feeling the happiness linger in the air
Decaying in seconds, like it was never even there

Darkness has fallen
Silence has over come me
Unclouded eyes can no longer see
Mouth so dry, I can't even scream
Crying inside, I'm ready to die
Take my life, take it please
It's the one thing you haven't stolen from me
Not afraid to go away
Facing my biggest fear everyday
Wonder why death seems so sweet
Then again, where else is there to retreat
Trying to hide through a drawn on smile
Falling back a thousand miles
Happiness has never shown it's face
Running from me, I'm through with this race
No more will I struggle to reach you
No more will I fall when I need you
No more will I cry to feel you
No more will I scream to see you
Not again will I try to remember
When you scorched my heart
'Cause you ran once I needed you most
You hid in the light
Where I can no longer go
Missing you bliss
Knowing I hate you, though I do miss your kiss
Pecking at my heart
Lying to me from the start
Never did you show
The things I really needed to know
Faded now, gone like you
Hiding where the rain freezes
And the fire burns too 

This one didn't come out near as good as the first. Comments on how to make this better are GREATLY appreciated. Thanks ^^;

**Chorus**
Sh-sh-shackled to the ground
Screaming with no sound
No one is found, no one is found
Shattered tears, shattered fears
Trapped inside, I'm-I'm trapped

Seeking for something, just something
Without a care, just, just anything
I'm incomplete, so I dream, d-d-dream
Dream of things, things I think I need
Laughing, HA HA, I'm laughing when I scream
Retreating to absolute nothing, nothing
'Cause I'm, CAUSE I'M, I'M

**Chorus**
Sh-sh-shackled to the ground
Screaming with no sound
No one is found, no one is found
Shattered tears, shattered fears
Trapped inside, I'm-I'm trapped

You left me alone, you left me chained, you-YOU
You left.. YOU LEFT ME UNTAME
Freezing rain, hits my face
My tattered body, tattered body
I'm breaking, BREAKING
I'm-I'm-I'M-I'M BREAKING

**Chorus**
Sh-sh-shackled to the ground
Screaming with no sound
No one is found, no one is found
Shattered tears, shattered fears
Trapped inside, I'm-I'm trapped (x2)

Tainted smiles, I'm no longer faking
Tired of trying, I'm tired of crying
I'm weak, WEAK
Dominated, warn down, dominated by this sound
I'M DOMINATED, DOMINATED
Laughing just to drown out the sound, the taunts, the constant taunts

As I break, alone, I break
Pleaing for the pain, the striking pain to go away,
Just take the pain, please, PLEASE TAKE IT AWAY
TAKE IT AWAY, JUST TAKE IT AWAY, TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME

Okay.. this is my first attempt at really trying to write a song. I hope you all enjoy it. oO;.. I just need a band damnit.. ><;;

**Chorus**
Painted on a porcelain face
Blank expression, now it's fake-fake
Smiles drawn perfectly, her imperfection
Drowning her, her imperfection
Bleeding her, bleeding
Fading away from this fake reality
Imper-imperfection

Alone in this world, so cold
T-T-Trembling in this suit, her plastic bones
Molded to a girl, she doesn't even know
Tainted innocence, Now unknown
To a place shes never shown
Blinded truth, now unfolds- shes blinded
Shes

**Chorus**
Painted on a porcelain face
Blank expression, now it's fake-fake
Smiles drawn perfectly, her imperfection
Drowning her, her imperfection
Bleeding her, bleeding
Fading away from this fake reality
Imper-imperfection

Glass shards eating her, they're eating
No one will ever see
These scars she hides inside, still bleeding-still bleeding as she goes
Another wound to help her flow-another wound
Another blade to give her self-control-another blade
'Cause they've-they've

**Chorus**
Painted on a porcelain face
Blank expression, now it's fake-fake
Smiles drawn perfectly, her imperfection
Drowning her, her imperfection
Bleeding her, bleeding
Fading away from this fake reality
Imper-imperfection

Pretend she feels all bliss-pretending
Laughing uncontrolably, each time she slits her wrist
Sobbing, freezing tears, painted crimson, perfectly
Living in her imperfection
Imper-imperfection
Acting out everday with her perfect fake expression
Now shes-now-now shes

**Chorus**
Painted on a porcelain face
Blank expression, now it's fake-fake
Smiles drawn perfectly, her imperfection
Drowning her, her imperfection
Bleeding her,bleeding
Fading away from this fake reality
Imper-imperfection

Porcelain doll, her perfect smile, her perfect smile
Her fake perfection-fake perfection
Porcelain face, painted perfection
Drowning in her imperfection
Imper-imperfection
Plastic bones, molded to perfection-Shes mold-m-m-molded
As she dies in her imperfection
Imper-imperfection
Acting true, her perfect frame
Molded to perfect imperfection
Imper-imperfection (x2)

Forget the things that ment
Forget the things that never would mend
Rewind my mind
Starting over, maybe I'll find
Something worth my wasted time
Listening for a real clock chime
Freezing words in perfect ryhme
Tainted innocence, tainted smiles
Shattered pictures, scattered for miles
Screaming soundlessly, crying dry
Forgetting every time I'd try
Rewind this movie
Tired of waiting, I'm through, see
Watch my eyes, apart from me
See the lies, pointed perfectly
Through our minds, we'll never be
A realism of bliss
As cold pricks hearts, we kiss
Kiss the fake smiles away
Free our tears, let me say
Truth is here
It's obviously sheer
To our hazy human eyes
Falling back, rewind
Rewind our dreams
They never come true, with meaningless screams
These hopeless pleas
Worthless flowing crimson seas
Wasted time again, you see
Rewind our dreams, rewind our minds, rewind this movie, will never be

Smile bright
But stay out of my sight
Can't stand the sparke in your eye
The way your happiness flashes by
Don't rub it in
It's clear to see
You just know I want to be
Something of the sort
Instead of crying everynight
The happiness is there
You can feel my jealousy in the air
Trying to breathe steadily
Your just glad it's you instead of me
Don't boast in my face
You know I'm crying, but there is no trace
Both of us can see the pain inside of me
Wishing I could see the happiness you see

Loving you was easy to do
Needing you was just so simple
You made it easy, you gave me bliss
Lost without you, why'd we kiss
Not together
Alone and cold
Friends now, just to hold
Another pain, another blade
Another reason to hide in the shade
Thinking of you, day and night
Something about this just doesn't seem right
Not together now
Leaving me alone
Here without a tear to cry
Watching your face as it flies by
Make me think, we're not apart
It's all so hard
Friends you say
Then why'd we kiss
Trembling here, it's you I miss
Screaming, frozen words in time
With out you here, I can't even climb
Back up to my feet
Confused and scared, you've got me beat
Nothing more can I do
Even when I say I love you
Really you have no clue
How this hurts; shackled to the ground again
My heart won't mend
Smiling then, smiling bends
To a frown; Lost, not found
Listening to this sorrowful sound
Beads of blood hit the ground
Splashing back, hit my face
Search for you, there is no trace

I'm sick and tired
Of being told that I'm too young
To feel the way I do
Or even think the things I think
'Cause I promise this to you
You couldn't imagine the things I've been through
I may still be a child
That I know is true
But honey you have no clue
Of all the things I do
A child doesn't cut
Or cry for hours each night
A child doesn't scream
Because of all the pain inside
A child I may be
But that doesn't mean that I don't see
How the world has come to be
My body may still be young
But that doesn't mean I don't know these things
I'm sick and tired of being trapped
By this tight cold grasp
Keeping me from seeing things
That you know I've already seen
Just let me go
'Cause this I promise you
I know the things that are really true

Something here has died
I felt it when I cried
No more happy smiles
No more silly laughs
Not again will I feel that warmth
Kissing at my heart
'Cause something here has died
I feel it somewhere deep inside
Somewhere, its now empty
The whole thing now killed
No more I love you's
Or even simple petty fights
No more making up
No more warmth
'Cause something here has died
I felt it here tonight
As the darkness came, no more light
Something dead now, deep inside
Not trembling or scared
Just cold and alone
With no more hugs
Or happy smiles
'Cause I'm away again
There is no bliss
Something here has died
I felt it when I cried

Needing to cry
But somehow I can't
Not knowing why
Open my skin
Still I just can't
Needing to scream
But somehow I can't
Wondering why
I even continue to try
Opening my body
Wanting to die
'Cause my emotions won't come out
Even when I try
Pressuring myself
To scream, to cry
But who can live like this
Beating their body
To make up for the tears that hide
And the screams that died
Long ago
Even before they showed
Becoming so used
To hiding whats inside
When the time comes to be free
Free never comes
Trapped here, alone
Needing to cry

Been let down
From my ownself
Smiles that I waited for
Smiles that never came
My joy just hit the floor
Thinking that another day
Would come when I didn't feel this way
Again I anticipated
Again my expectations faded
Wanting the bliss to live within
Again I see, it never gave in
Alone with no one to help me feel
This happiness, it's been killed
Caring a bit too much
For one apart from my ownself
Thinking that I could live
With the self-respect I didn't give
Bleeding tears
Lonely fears
Caring a bit too much
For one apart from my ownself
Did I really think
That people would throw away their selfishness
For someone who didn't believe in themself
Someone like me
That fears what there is to see
Ahead in life
I see nothing, I just strive
To have the joy that others do
To live the life that others hate
The life that others don't appreciate

Sweetest taste of fear
Blissfully crying crimson tears
Tainted joy and a smile faded
Alone and cold, I fucking hate it
All this anger, breaking, shaking
Waking up something inside
Weakening my body limb by limb
It hurts to live in this world of sin
Hauntiung faces
Taunting voices
I need to make my own damn choices

this is just something I wrote in math class.. Was bored and kinda not feeling well.. Had to get some feelings out...

Remembering all the times
I smiled without a doubt
I laughed inside, I really felt proud
Never did I cry
That was not a choice
I felt so intoxicated
With joy I felt I could never live without

Now when I try so hard
To remember when I was never scarred
When I didn't feel so faded, trapped
Alone or cold in a darkened box

Making my tears flow
Uncontrollably, I didn't even know
How can I remeber
The feelings I felt then
When now they don't even live within

Scared and broken
Shattered dreams, shattered movies
Scattered about, did I really know these
Feelings that scorched my heart
Now so cold
Never able to restart

Act as if I have the power
Then again, I fall, I cower
Feeling lost
Like I have no cost
Wonder why I try so hard
Knowing that I'll always be scarred
Alone without a hand to hold
Fear within, my heart is cold
Smiling to hide
The tears I cried
Trapped inside these tainted bars
Seeing your name in the stars
A mask tattoo'd upon my face
Only to hide the scars, no trace
Running away from the truth so clear
It's that, I truly fear
Without you in my world so dull
These lies I say, I try to hold
Screaming your name
Without you here I can't be tamed
Boiling blood
Turns to mud
Battered body, frail and weak
Without you here, it's hard to speak
Immersed with pain breaking free
Crying alone, trying to see
Wanting to break my body
Free myself of the pain you brought me

A flower reaching toward the sky
A horrid face flying by
Hit the ground, a flash of light
Screaming silently in the night
Flirting with death
Dying inside with every breath
This fear inside, dragging me down
Put on a mask, fake like a clown
Anger scorching deep inside
This fate to come, I can not hide
Counting the times I fought, I tried
All the times I smiled, then cried
The happiness that once burned within
The times my heart never did mend
Times when things really ment
A smile then, a smile now bent
Alone, afraid, tears, I'm drenched
Strikes against my frail body, I never once flenched
Trembling, cold, lost in time
Never again will I hear a clock chime

Falling endlessly down
Tainted mirrors all around
A weary smile to hide my frown
Shadows tower high above
Feeling alone, here with out love
Compressed by fear
Immersed with tears
Wrapped in cold lace
It hurts, feeling erased
My thoughts, so distant
These voices, persistant
I scream, no sound
Trembling, feeling bound
Not free, no escape
These hands, feeling raped
Falling endlessly down
Tainted pictures all around
A weary smile to hide my frown
Sweet sorrow, not intoxicated
Feeling alone, it's elavated

Soon

Little angel of darkness
I want to say goodbye
I want to be free of your lie
Your voice already lives, I've been drawn
Your company is killing me
I hate this feeling, dead

When your gone would I miss you
Would I miss your haunts
If not, your taunts
Would I miss the smile, you never brought
If I did, would I be caught
I hope not

'Cause little angel of darkness
It hurts me when your here
All you have brought me is fear
Don't you understand
It's because of you that I can't land
On my feet; Your the one making me weak
Release me please, I can barely speak

When your gone would I miss you
Would I miss your hate
If not, your evil gate
Would I miss all those times I fought
If I did, would I get caught
I hope not

'Cause little angel of darkness
It's because of you that I can't smile
It's because of you, I've fallen back a mile
I can't stand to see your face
Here, there will be no grace
I'm going to leave soon
Just wait a little while
Soon, maybe I'll have a real smile

My smile, so faint
It's clear, it's fake
I'm sorry
I try
But it hurts, agony
It brings
To force this fake smile
I know you love to see

Sometimes, maybe
My smile could be real
But that
My dear, is just so rare
Only the times, I'm here
In your arms
Could my smile, so faint
Ever be complete

this is a short little poem I wrote to someone whom they don't know it's to them.. o.o' AND.. Shalt not find out. BWAHA! XD

Shattered Pieces

Could you find the shattered pieces
The shattered parts of me
All my memories and dreams

If you found the shattered pieces
Would you bring them back to me
Would you throw them all away
Or mend them like a puzzle
Racking at your brain

Each shattered piece
Holds a part of me
If you put them back in place
Would you see a mirrored movie
Of all my memories and dreams

If you found the shattered pieces
Would you even stop to think
Would you prevent a second glance
Or would you stop and gather them together
You'd be holding shattered pictures
Shattered frames and shattered movies
Of all my memories and dreams

Could you find the shattered piecies
The shattered parts of me
All my memories and dreams

If you found the shattered pieces
Would you help me to remember
Would you leave me lost and wondering
Or would you mend them like a puzzle
Racking at your brain

But each shattered piece
Holds a part of me
If you put them back in place
Would you see a mirrored movie
Of all my memories and dreams

As time goes by

As time goes by
I watch the hours, I watch the sky
I see the people
But they don't see me

As time goes by
I float away, I try to fly
Fly away into a oblivion
Away from here
Where the time passes
As I am unknown

As time goes by
I watch the texture on my ceiling
I watch it do nothing
I feel not what I'm feeling

As time goes by
I smile a bit of nothing
And watch it all pass away
Before my eyes
The paint chips peel away

As time goes by
I watch my naked walls
I watch them do nothing
Now I feel something
But I feel not what I'm feeling

Hiding

I sit, alone
By this cold wet window seal
I try, so hard
To look outside
But my eyes are far too watery
I can barely even see
I don't know what is wrong with me
I spend my days
My nights, all hours
Thinking about how life would be
If I hadn't done that
Or if I hadn't done this

I cry, alone
By this cold wet window seal
I think, so deep
Maybe I should go outside
And take a look from a different view

I stand, alone
Outside this cold wet window seal
I try, so hard
To look inside
But the window is far too foggy
I can barely even see
I don't know what is wrong with me
I spend my days
My nights, all hours
Thinking about how life would be
If I could see inside of me

I cry, alone
Outside this cold wet window seal
I think, so hard
Maybe I should go inside
And take a look at me from there

I sit, alone
By this cold wet window seal
I try, so hard
But there is nothing but darkness
I can barely even see
I don't know what is wrong with me
I spend my days
My nights, all hours
Thinking about how life would be
If I weren't hiding from everyone else
Or if I weren't even hiding from me