I can see it in your eyes,
And feel it your touch.
I know that you’re scared,
But you’ve never been this loved.

It’s a long shot baby,
Yeah I know it’s true.
But if anyone can make it,
I’m betting on me and you.

Just keep on moving into me.
I know you’re gonna see,
The best is yet to come.

Don’t fear it now we’re going all the way.
That sun is shining on a brand new day.
It’s a long way down and it’s a leap of faith,
But I’m never giving up,
‘Cause I know we got a once in a lifetime love.

Everybody’s looking for what we found.
Some wait their whole life,
And it never comes around

So don’t hold back now just let go,
On all you’ve ever known.
You can put you’re hand in mine.

Don’t fear it now we’re going all the way.
That sun is shining on a brand new day.
It’s a long way down and it’s a leap of faith,
But I’m never giving up,
‘Cause I know we got a once in a lifetime love.

I close my eyes and I see you standing right there.
Saying “I do” and they’re throwing the rice in our hair.
Well the first one’s born and a brother comes along and he’s got your smile.
I been looking back on the life we had still by your side.

Don’t fear it now we’re going all the way.
That sun is shining on a brand new day.
It’s a long way down and it’s a leap of faith,
But I’m never giving up,
‘Cause I know we got a once in a lifetime love.

Now here are the rules from the male side.
These are our rules!
Please note... these are all numbered "1"
ON PURPOSE!





1. Men are NOT mind readers.

1. Learn to work the toilet seat.
You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down.
We need it up, you need it down.
You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports. It's like the full moon
or the changing of the tides.
Let it be.

1. Shopping is NOT a sport.
And no, we are never going to think of it that way.

1. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want.
Let us be clear on this one:
Subtle hints do not work!
Strong hints do not work!
Obvious hints do not work!
Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's
what we do.
Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a Problem. See a doctor.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument.
In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 Days.

1. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't Expect us
to act like soap opera guys.


1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways
makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one

1. You can either ask us to do something
Or tell us how you want it done.
Not both.
If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during
commercials.

1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings.
Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We
have no idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will be scratched.
We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," We will act Like
nothing's wrong.
We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer
you don't want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine.
Really.

1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to
discuss such topics as baseball, the shotgun formation,
or golf.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!

1. Thank you for reading this.
Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight;


But did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.

ROTFLOL

Let me explain something idiots...


The following message contains a few errors... *ahem*
1: No one can track down your physical address. They can track down your IP's physical address, and then interrogate them until they get your addy... but that's not gonna happen. Your IP tells what computer you are on, not where it is setting. I can have the same IP address on my laptop in house, as I do in the next.

2: If I were going to die in three days... what is the cause? Someone is watching this world-wide post and checking to see who all doesn't repost? Yeah, and I'm the Pope. It's not possible. Even if they could, there is NO way to kill everyone that doesn't repost within those three days. Sorry, but true.

3: I "automatically" have 2 months of bad luck for opening... but if I repost it will turn to good luck. I'm sorry.. but if I don't repost I will die in three days, so how can I have bad luck for an additional fifty-eight days after that?

At LEAST... use common sense when making these stupid things so they don't controdict. Okay? Genius?



DO NOT OPEN IN FRONT OF PARENTS"!!!!!
DO NOT OPEN IN FRONT OF PARENTS...5 PPL ACTUALLY GOT KILLED BY NOT SENDING THIS PIECE OF MAIL.THE CREATOR OF THIS MAIL HAS A PROGRAM THAT WILL TRACK DOWN UR ADDRESS. WHAT DO U HAVE TO LOSE? UR LIFE. PLZ REPOST! THANK YOU AND HAVE A MEANINGFUL REST OF YOUR DAY



Sorry, but because u opened this you will die in 3 days. sorry. the only way you can reverse this is by reposting it within 5 minutes. good luck

By opening this chainmail u have been given bad luck for 2 months. If u repost this message then the bad luck will turn good repost as "DO NOT OPEN IN FRONT OF PARENTS"!!!!!

You seemed like such a big part
Of my life and my heart
But the truth is I've found something new
And He easily towers over you


One of my friends wrote that... her away message always talks to this guy she's had a crush on forever... and this is awesome..

EPISTLE OF DEN DEN... TO ME... It's amazing. I tried to explain something to him. Then he finally gets it to click, and he gives me this about the subject! I love God and my friends!



I write to you from the inspiration of God. The past weeks I spent in GA were a blessing. But also a diminishing time for

my spirit, and body. The things that happened are of no importance now, they will be explained. I come North because

of God's calling.

I remember your belief of being perfect, and that is why I am writing this. Many of the "perfects" in King James'

translation refer to Holiness, and Sanctification. The reason you were chosen by God is because of your knowledge in

perfection, but also our friendship. Aside from God Himself, and Sherry, I more than anyone understand your nature.

I bring you here to reveal to you Sanctification. I write this to you to carry these things with you. Go and preach these

things, as you are called, but remember, study these things for yourself.

In Paul's letter to the Romans, Chapter 7, he does not understand his sin nature. Remember, he is saved, but he still

says something inside him wants to do wrong. However, Chapter 8 tells a different story. Paul is now "free from the

law of sin." We are saved and the sin is washed by the blood, but our hearts are still plagued with the law of sin. The

book says in many places, "Be Holy," "Be perfect" ... and you and I were taught that is impossible.

To say this is to say God's Grace is finite, adn that the blood is not sufficient to cleanse us from the law of sin. We

beleive a lie to say this! What snares Satan leads us through! But as we know, His Grace is infinite, and the Blood is

suffiencient. "We cannot be perfect!" as they say, but my friend read Chapter 5, verses 23 - 24 of the first letter to

Thessalonica. Faithful is He!

Sanctification does not bring itself on you. You bring it on yourself through the Holy Spirit. 'Tis not as a line graph our

walk, but a staircase. Be Sanctified and Holy, inquire our God to remove the sinful nature. The tree had already been

cut, but the root remains. Remove the root my friend, and preach these things unto all. Once Holy, the choice

becomes easier. Your sin will still effect you, and you still may make mistakes, but those times will now be fewer and

far between.

You are my voice at my long attended home. Satan's wily ways have brought gossip and untrue things to my name,

and it declines more and more. You know my heart my friend. But I tell you, do not save my name, instead bring the

awareness of Sanctification.

But as you know, I know your ways, as you know mine. Argue not with anger my friend, and always consider yourself

less knowledgable and lower than others, and God will lift you up as He has I. My name falls, but my spirit is lifted up,

and I give Him the praise. Study these things, and again I say, preach. The Grace of God be with you forever.

I was supposed to go to Ohio this weekend. I had it cleared with work... I was gonna leave today after work. Three hour drive, so I would have been there about 7:30 my time... got off at 4:00. But, I was informed that plans change and if I don't go in tomorrow (I already have 50 hours a week...) then I'm fired. They can't do that... but they will. >.< The big boss man said the same thing. But he did say he was sorry for disrupting my plans and he'd find a way to make it up to me. That means he's paying me overtime. YAY! I already have too much of that thanks... I can't go to see my fiance now... and I won't be able to go for a month now... it's planned for us to work Saturdays for a while coming up! I told them that, and that it's my family I'm working on and I want some time for her... they laughed and said they used to be like that, but now that they are older they realize how stupid thinking that is because work is all that matters. Soo... in a week or so when I find a job that won't screw you over, where to bosses don't yell at you that you'll lose your job because you refuse to work ONE Saturday out of forty... they aren't getting a two-week notice. As a matter of fact, I'm not even telling them I quit. I'm not going to show up for work one morning, and that's it. My voice-mail will be changed to "Hey... guess what? I QUIT!" so that I don't have to waste my time and minutes answering. Then I can't wait to go in to get my check and let them let me have it... and I'll get them for harassment (trust me, they HARASS me about working Saturdays. I refuse, they go on for twenty, thirty minutes about how I have no choice) and I'll go to the labour board. They will love that. I'm part-time. It's illegal to make me work this much, I just dont' complain because I could use the money. But I don't need 60 hours worth! The labour board will hang them. Plus, they will have to pay me compensation for the vacation, holiday, and benefits they haven't given me. That's why making me work like this is illegal. They don't give me anything... heh.... So, I guess I gotta wait until tomorrow to go to see Sherry Jo for one day... for a month!

Darlin'.... hurry and move back! Stop being so selfish about "I wanna settle first." It's killing us both...

Stolen from [ShiftySkillet]
Quite awesome I must say...



The Soldier stood and faced God
Which must always come to pass.
He hoped his shoes were shining
Just as brightly as his brass

Step forward now, you soldier,
How shall I deal with you?
Have you always turned the other cheek?
To my church have you been true?


The soldier squared his shoulders,
And said, No Lord. I guess I ain’t
Because those of us who carry guns
Cant always be a saint.


I’ve had to work most Sundays,
And at times my talk was tough;
And sometimes I’ve been violent,
Because the world is awfully rough.


But I never took a penny
That wasn’t mine to keep...
Though I’ve worked a lot of overtime,
When the bills just got too steep.


Though at times I shook with fear.
And sometimes, God forgive me,
I cried unmanly tears.


I know I don’t deserve a place
Among the people here.
The never wanted me around,
Except to calm their fears.


If you’ve a place for me here, Lord,
It needn’t be so grand.
I never expected nor had too much;
But if you don’t, I’ll understand.


There was a silence in the room
Where the Saints had often trod.
And the soldier waited quietly,
For the judgement of his God.


Step forward now you soldier,
You’ve born your burdens well,
Walk peacefully on Heavens’ streets.
You’ve done your time in Hell.


For those who serve.
-Terry Murphy, E-19.

This was an I/M this morning from my best friend...

Zuriel Roni: hey walls, give me a call later or somethin, havnt heard from ya for a while...just a lil worried about ya, see how things are goin, ttyl buddy

I love my friends.

Now what? The ivory tower is down... and it just can't be put back up. I see it now. It's down, and I kinda like it, but I prefer my security... maybe if I stay busy enough and don't have time for anything else...

I spent my whole life building up this ivory tower, but now that I'm in it I keep wishing it would fall. Now that it fell... I'm scrambling to to put it back together. Do I leave my guard down, and leave the tower behind me, to forget what it once was? Or do I rebuild it, taller and stronger than ever before, with more reinforced fortification than ever thought possible?

One stone moved out of place, and I left it turned. In no time at all, it was crumbled about the floor. I could feel the cold rain all over, and I had no idea it could feel so... so... soothing, yet so harsh at the same time. When i finally recover, what do I do? That tower is lost, but I could build better, and hide in it just as well. Or should I stay out in the open...?

Choices
Current mood: disappointed



We're always stuck between the rock and the hard place. It seems to me that the more I go through life, the more I see how one choice can change everything. I mean, one little thing, one decision for the moment, they can really bother you later.


I have plenty of examples, but for the past few months, one has really been bothering me. Very few know what it is, no more will. It's personal. It... it drives me crazy. It shaped more than that moment. Months down the road I didn't notice, but now, four or five years later, I do.


Something I wanted but didn't know I could have, I turned away for something that I had but didn't want. Now, there's no turning back. Would I do things differently? YES. Why? Some things in life are just too good to pass up. We all have regrets. Maybe, this one thing made me who I am, completely writing my story from there on out. It define my devotion, my faithfulness to the ones I've declared it. Such as it may be, I would still have done it differently. Knowing what I know now, I was an idiot. But, now, I'm sort of stuck between a rock and a hard place. I have something strong, and dear to my soul. Yet, on the otherhand, I have something I had longed for, for the longest time. Maybe, just maybe, I'm not the only one who had these thoughts or still does...


Satisfied? Yes. Disappointed, in myself for being ignorant, but overall, no way. I have everything, or so I believe. The rock is to my back, letting me lean on it, taking refuge in its surity. The hard place, it's moving again, yet not too far away. Its presence is near, but not always so close as to feel the wind coming around the smooth textures. Yet, the image is in constant view...


Now, I have to deal with it. Time to suck it up. Who knows... I might have to trust the hard place over the rock, or the sands of time could turn the rock to dust, leaving me in the open. Or, still yet, the hard place could grow soft, and whither away, removing the torment... No, that is impossible. If the hard place is gone, the longing still stays... This is what they call "LIFE."

Yesterday is history.
Tomorrow a mystery.
Today is a gift.
That's why it's called the present!

The LORD'S Prayer (REVISED A BIT)



Our Father Who Art In Heaven.

YES?

Don't interrupt me. I'm praying.

BUT -- YOU CALLED ME!

Called you? No, I didn't call you. I'm praying. Our Father who art in heaven.

THERE -- YOU DID IT AGAIN

Did what?

CALLED ME. YOU SAID, "OUR FATHER WHO ART IN HEAVEN" WELL HERE I AM. WHAT'S ON YOUR MIND?

But I didn't mean anything by it. I was, you know, just saying my prayers for the day. I always say the Lord's Prayer. It makes me feel good, kind of like fulfilling a duty.

WELL, ALL RIGHT. GO ON.

Okay, Hallowed be Thy name...

HOLD IT RIGHT THERE. WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THAT?

By what?

BY "HALLOWED BE THY NAME"?

It means, it means ... good grief, I don't know what it means. How in the world should I know? It's just a part of the prayer. By the way, what does it mean?

IT MEANS HONORED, HOLY, WONDERFUL.

Hey, that makes sense. I never thought about what 'hallowed' meant before. Thanks. Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven.

DO YOU REALLY MEAN THAT?

Sure, why not?

WHAT ARE YOU DOING ABOUT IT?

Doing? Why, nothing, I guess. I just think it would be kind of neat if you got control of everything down here like you have up there. We're kinda in a mess down here you know.

YES, I KNOW; BUT, HAVE I GOT CONTROL OF YOU?

Well, I go to church.

THAT ISN'T WHAT I ASKED YOU. WHAT ABOUT YOUR BAD TEMPER? YOU'VE REALLY GOT A PROBLEM THERE, YOU KNOW. AND THEN THERE'S THE WAY YOU SPEND YOUR MONEY --ALL ON YOURSELF. AND WHAT ABOUT THE KIND OF BOOKS YOU READ?

Now hold on just a minute! Stop picking on me! I'm just as good as some of the rest of those people at church!

EXCUSE ME. I THOUGHT YOU WERE PRAYING FOR MY WILL TO BE DONE. IF THAT IS TO HAPPEN, IT WILL HAVE TO START WITH THE ONES WHO ARE PRAYING FOR IT. LIKE YOU -- FOR EXAMPLE.

Oh, all right. I guess I do have some hang-ups. Now that you mention it, I could probably name some others.

SO COULD I.

I haven't thought about it very much until now, but I really would like to cut out some of those things. I would like to, you know, be really free.

GOOD. NOW WE'RE GETTING SOMEWHERE. WE'LL WORK TOGETHER -- YOU AND ME.

I'M PROUD OF YOU.

Look, Lord, if you don't mind, I need to finish up here. This is taking a lot longer than it usually does. Give us this day, our daily bread.

YOU NEED TO CUT OUT THE BREAD. YOU'RE oVERWEIGHT AS IT IS.

Hey, wait a minute! What is this? Here I was doing my religious duty, and all of a sudden you break in and remind me of all my hang-ups.

PRAYING IS A DANGEROUS THING. YOU JUST MIGHT GET WHAT YOU ASK FOR. REMEMBER, YOU CALLED ME -- AND HERE I AM IT'S TOO LATE TO STOP NOW. KEEP PRAYING.

...pause...

WELL, GO ON.

I'm scared to.

SCARED? OF WHAT?

I know what you'll say.

TRY ME.

Forgive us our sins, as we forgive those who sin against us.

WHAT ABOUT LISA?

See? I knew it! I knew you would bring her up! Why, Lord, she's told lies about me, spread stories. She never paid back the money she owes me. I've sworn to get even with her!

BUT -- YOUR PRAYER -- WHAT ABOUT YOUR PRAYER?

I didn't -- mean it.

WELL, AT LEAST YOU'RE HONEST. BUT, IT'S QUITE A LOAD CARRYING AROUND ALL THAT BITTERNESS AND RESENTMENT ISN'T IT?

Yes, but I'll feel better as soon as I get even with her. Boy, have I got some plans for her. She'll wish she had never been born.

NO, YOU WON'T FEEL ANY BETTER. YOU'LL FEEL WORSE.
REVENGE ISN'T SWEET. YOU KNOW HOW UNHAPPY YOU ARE -- WELL, I CAN CHANGE THAT.

You can? How?

FORGIVE LISA. THEN, I'LL FORGIVE YOU; AND THE HATE AND SIN WILL BE LISA'S PROBLEM -- NOT YOURS. YOU WILL HAVE SETTLED THE PROBLEM AS FAR AS YOU ARE CONCERNED.

Oh, you know, you're right. You always are. And more than I want revenge, I want to be right with You.., (sigh). All right...all right...I forgive her.
THERE NOW! WONDERFUL! HOW DO YOU FEEL?

Hmmmm. Well, not bad. Not bad at all! In fact, I feel pretty great! You know, I don't think I'll go to bed uptight tonight. I haven't been getting much rest, you know.

YEAH, I KNOW. BUT, YOU'RE NOT THROUGH WITH YOUR PRAYER ARE YOU? GO ON.

Oh, all right. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

GOOD! GOOD! I'LL DO THAT. JUST DON'T PUT YOURSELF IN A PLACE WHERE YOU CAN BE TEMPTED.

What do you mean by that?

YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN.

Yeah. I know.

OKAY. GO AHEAD. FINISH YOUR PRAYER.

For Thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory
forever. Amen.

DO YOU KNOW WHAT WOULD BRING ME GLORY -- WHAT WOULD REALLY MAKE ME HAPPY?

No, but I'd like to know. I want to please you now. I've really made a mess of things. I want to truly follow you. I can see now how great that would be. So, tell me .. how do I make you happy?

YOU JUST DID!!

Poem for the month:

Up high, you think I'm painfree,
As if space makes me so glee.
I am walking a tight wire,
Stumbling thru misery's mire.
To you I'm more than a man,
But honestly, less I am.

I feel the chill of death's bands,
Wanting to grasp with cold hands.
It's something I can't explain,
Tho' tears fall down much like rain.
I'm one who is less tho't of,
That's why I'm Atmostrata.

I owe one man the world,
For He helped me to unfurl.
I owe one man my life,
Since He freed me of great strife.
To Him I am ev'rything,
So, for Christ my heart shall gleam.

Ack! I want to update my Elfwood site!!! I'm tired of waiting. So many wonderful chapters are waiting to flow to the page. Even more will be there come this weekend!!! Help Thomas someone!

I'm getting impatient with my latest drawing. The sooner it finishes, the sooner I can apply for the Art Institure Online, then I'll have to do the others from an old poll, but they won't have so much pressure riding on them. I'll put the works up tomorrow. My parents completely showed me how much they favour my brother and sister over me yesterday...

*Sigh* Contemplating whether or not to let my hair grow out. That's my poll. Um... that pic mentioned below has been on hold because of school reports due the sixth... so yeah. I'll finish it soon. Bye.

Started a pic of Blade in fighting position. I'm just going to do all of the choices that were chosen in my poll...

Started to update my Wyvern Library page. This might take a while longer to finish uploading before I send in a ticket.