"I've Always Loved You"
By Third Day
I don’t know how to explain it
But I know the words would hardly do
Miracles and signs and wonders
Aren’t enough for me to prove to you
Don’t you know I’ve always loved you
Even before there was time
Though you turn away
I tell you still
Don’t you know I’ve always loved you
And I always will
Greater love has not a man
Than the one who gives his life to prove
That he would do anything
And that’s what I’m gonna do for you
Don’t you know I’ve always loved you
Even before there was time
Though you turn away
I tell you still
Don’t you know I’ve always loved you
And I always will
Don’t you know I’ve always loved you
Even before there was time
Though you turn away
I tell you still
Don’t you know I’ve always loved you
Don’t you know I’ve always loved you
Even before there was time
Though you turn away
I tell you still
Don’t you know I’ve always loved you
And I always will
I've always loved you
and I always will
I've always loved you
and I always will
I've always loved you
and I always, and I always will
I've always loved you....
What made her do it the first time? Was she given too much, or did she take on too little? Was it for many of her "friend's" pressure, or the betrayal of the single good one? The curiosity or the lust? The need or the want? The thought of it, sitting tidy in the wooden drawer, needing to add a touch of iron flavor the the bland meals cooked daily? None of those. Excuses could not release her, she thinks as she hears the wheels of the drawer turning.
Stop!! She screams. Her throat closes with the thirst for more. Just one! She thinks. I'll stop tomorrow.
Her hands cease their inward motion.
What if there is no tomorrow?
They inch it back a few centimeters.
A crack and a whip shudder across her mind. She clenches her teeth. The hunger of her dry soul takes her hands, pleading for her to end its painful misery, alone and driven with an empty, savage hunger.
The drawer stops. It is completely open.
She hears a noise, whipping about her ears and the clumps and strands of soiled hair. Only the rain. Just rain.
It was dark inside. The windows were sealed shut.
Where did everyone go? When she wants...when she needs them...to come back; to steal away the suicidal means of her thirsty addiction.
No one is there. Not even inside her sunken shell.
Hot tears taxed long past due fill the resevoirs of her face and flood in waterfalls off her chin onto the white tile of the kitchen floor, diluting the drops of cherry red that leaked like a broken faucet from her cloven heart.
Is it a dream?
A dizzy spiraling dance through the kitchen fills the depths of her eyes.
She lifts her hands to her face, bitter sweet release of all her emotions flowing down the bridge of her nose, dripping off the tip and filling the corners of her mouth.
She coughs.
Just one more...
A glimpse she catches, of a face that is not hers, staring through the window of her microwave. It is pale, and far beyond sorrow. Her orange-brown freckles seem to stand up and dance in the pale moon of her silky, stained skin.
More...another
Painstakenly, her rusted finger moves, one knuckle creaking, then popping to a deathly rythm as four others follow it. The dead weight of her black solace clangs amongst its puddles of pain that it took all its tainted pleasure in reaping.
What next?
She sniffs and wipes her tears, smudging the crimson that had begun to crust over below her eyes.
Still, there was no one.
They were severed, all around. All but one. They moved and squirmed as she slowly ascended the stairway, the pumping red avoiding its target and spilling into the canyon of beige carpeting outside the bathroom floor.
She undressed, and turned the knobs, and as the water filled the porcelain tub, she bandaged her crying wounds, as tightly as she could, shoving the massacred tissues back where they were so brutally dislodged from.
The water was warm. It seeped through the tightly bound cloth to her naked skin, drawing the anguish, the frustration, the utter loneliness the drove her broken soul out, staining the water a clear, blooming rose. Her empty eyes lay watching as a horde of angels gathered her floating soul from the drain for a funeral procession into the clouds.
i had the cutest poem about dog hair, but now i cant find it...so ill tell a story that i wrote over the summer instead...
She was the shy girl. She didn't talk to no one, so no one talked to her. She had asked special permission from the teacher (after hours of lecturing from her mother) if she could sit in the corner, meekly claiming she could see better from there. She reminded me of a little mouse--straigh
My reason for remembering her was that I sat in the back as well, at her right. She never looked up. It was as if someone superglued her line of vision to the desk. I rarely saw her pencil move, either. By the looks of it, she must have had a F average.
I had seen her after school in the parking lot, too, while I was waiting for my mom, who was late. Her mother slapped her, then screamed at her to get in the car.
I almost felt sympathetic. But not quite.
One day, she didn't come to school. It happened the next day, too. And the next. I was probably the only one to notice. After she had been gone for a week, I came to class on monday and went straight to the teacher. "Where's the girl who sits next to me?"
"You mean Chassity?"
So that was her name..."Yeah."
"She's sick." The teacher said, shrugging me off for a pile of homework that needed shuffling.
I wasted no time getting to my assigned seat, where I sat the rest of the school day, doodling.
The next morning, when I dragged the newspaper inside fromt he rain and unrolled it, one of the smaller headlines caught my eye; "Murder in Suburbs: Girl Drowned". Obviously, it was just one of those things I was used to seeing in the news, but right next to it, the picture was blurred by a water stain, as was the description.
I sat down with my Mini-Wheats and, with only a mild curiosity, turned to the page as suggested by the headline. There, I saw the picture: brown hair, slits of eyes, and the little red nose. My eyes widened. I directed my attention to the picture below it. A woman, much resembling Chassity, stared back.
The caption read the the girl's mother had dropped her in a bathtub, holding her small head underwater until her flailing arms fell motionless in the water.
Now, the empty seat next to me screams. Every day, it tells me how she may have been alive now, if only i had said a tiny "hello".
gah!! ^_^ ive been giddy all weekend since homecoming! im so happy....i was asked to dance with andy gallo!! today he asked me if i remembered anything about homecoming, and when i said yes, he told me the only thing he remembered was dancing with me *squeals* its been a long time....
does it really matter what happens anymore? If I die to-night, will it affect anyone? what about to-morrow? or the next day? Why are we here? to lead useless lives, have your moment, then die, and be in a history book that a sleep-deprived student is drooling on? Please tell me. I would very much like to know.
The only thing that was there was darkness. It spread like a wild blaze to the chilled tips of his fingers. The ache lusted after every limb, consuming his wits. It was too much for him to thing of much anything other than pain, or the quarts of blood that stuck in his hair like honey, only much more bitter. His eyes were open, but why couldn’t he see? Muscles ached and strained, and his arm lifted from its immobile position in the red grass. It must have been hovering before his face, but why would his eyes not register its presence? The strength in the arm gave, and he sat quietly. Is this what it is like to be dying? Cold, blind, painful and alone? No light shines for weary eyes, no images of peace to hold onto like a wife. Knowing you will not live to see your children play with each other in the nursery.
What would his mother say?
How will his father react?
Will he be revered in any way, or will all clothed in black lament for what he could, or should have done?
All these thoughts swarm like nectar-hungry bees, but he knows their buzzing questions are likely not to be answered. For one who is dead, is dead. To state the obvious, there is no going back. It is one mistake that cannot be fixed. What troubles more is he died while living, a long while back.
He made a lethal error, and laid seed in a woman he hardly knew. As her stomach grew larger, the shorter his breath was cut, until he lay, alone, in a world of black. What a bitter solution, to let a faceless soldier’s crimson-soaked blade drive him through until he fell to his knees in forced praise.
Lying weak on the battlefield, he felt lead being lifted from him, and body without its yolk finally rested—in peace.
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My eyes meet his in the rear-view mirror. They are blue as the sky fading behind the mountains. I look away, the moment seeming only a daydream I thought up in the folds of my boredom. But I know it was real. I just don't know what to make of it.
He came again. Walking up the aisles of pews upon pews, until he stops at mine. I am alone this time. His hair is brown, bleached on top. I can't see the color of his eyes. I turn away, to my left, and he continues to walk. Beyond me. Beyond my pew.
I see him every other night. Sometimes his hair is black, others it is blue. At times his eyes are fixed on me, others they are downcast. He asks me "haven't you noticed?" to which i don't respond.
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Hi, youve reached the house of the almighty powerful Rynn and Sauce. In case you dont know this number, since i think you are stupid enough to not know it after you just dialed it into the freaking phone, its three, zero, three, nine, eight, eight, five, zero, five, zero. If you would like me to call you back, please recite all reasons why you are not a loser. If you would like me to ignore you, then hang up the phone and spend the amount of time you wasted calling me to think about why you would call me if you didnt want me to call you back. If you think this message is too long, screw you. At the tone, please record your message. *BEEEEEEEEEEEE
"No-name"
Im waiting, still
images of sugar-plums dancing in my eyes
i smile as i look to my elated soul
hiding from the kiss,
keeping me complete
like sleeping, only better
a happy grin,
a faithful touch,
recovery from life's worst edges
wave your hand good-bye
worst your love be broken again
~[the Indigo]
The Top 12 Signs a Boy Band Member is Depressed
12. Even though it might take him an hour or more, he now insists on tuning his own guitar before each show.
11. Deep sighs of despair during his double-spin, kick-kick, hip-thrust dance sequence.
10. His oldest just graduated from high school.
9. The girl he just dumped slammed the door on the way out, and the vase that was broken was Waterford crystal, thank you very much.
8. "I got gloom! Yeah! Girl you know it! (Uh!) Woo, Melancholy!"
7. Doesn't even try to resist being put in his limo to go home at night.
6. Lately, he favors jumpsuits in dark, somber earth tones.
5. Changes name from "A.J." to "A-Lo."
4. Refuses to subject himself to the hardball questions of Larry King.
3. N'STINK
2. Changes name of new single from "Oh, Baby Baby Baby" to "Oh, Baby Baby."
And the Number 1 Sign a Boy Band Member is Depressed...He doesn't want to play his guitar or write music anymore, Oh wait, is that so bad? Never mind.
My way and Martha's way...
Martha Stewart's way #1:
Stuff a miniature marshmallow in the bottom of sugar cone to prevent ice cream drips.
My way:
Just suck the ice cream out of the bottom of the cone, for Pete's sake; you're probably lying on the couch with your feet up eating it anyway.
Martha's way #2:
Use a meat baster to "squeeze" your pancake batter onto the hot griddle and you'll get perfectly shaped pancakes every time.
My way: Buy the precooked kind you nuke in the microwave for 30 seconds. The hard part is getting them out of the plastic bag.
Martha's way #3:
To keep potatoes from budding, place an apple in the bag with the potatoes.
My way:
Buy Hungry Jack mashed potato mix and keep it in the pantry for up to a year.
Martha's way #4:
To prevent egg shells from cracking, add a pinch of salt to the water before hard boiling.
My way:
Who cares if they crack, aren't you going to take the shells off anyway?
Martha's way #5:
To get the most juice out of fresh lemons, bring them to room temperature and roll them under your palm against the kitchen counter before squeezing.
My way:
Sleep with the lemons in between the mattress and box springs.
Martha's way #6:
To easily remove burnt-on food from your skillet, simply add a drop or two of dish soap and enough water to cover bottom of pan, and bring to a boil on stovetop.
My way:
Eat at McDonald's every night and avoid cooking.
Martha's way #7:
Spray your Tupperware with nonstick cooking spray before pouring in tomato based sauces and there won't be any stains.
My way:
Feed your garbage disposal and there won't be any leftovers.
Martha's way #8:
When a cake recipe calls for flouring the baking pan, use a bit of the dry cake mix instead and there won't be any white mess on the outside of the cake.
My way:
Go to the bakery. They'll even decorate it for you.
Martha's way #9:
If you accidentally put too much salt in a dish while it's still cooking, drop in a peeled potato and it will absorb the excess salt for an instant "fix me up"
My way:
If you over salt a dish while you are cooking, that's too bad. My motto: I made it and you will eat it and I don't care how bad it tastes.
Martha's way #10:
Wrap celery in aluminum foil when putting in the refrigerator and it will keep for weeks.
My way:
Celery? Never heard of it.
World’s easiest quiz:
1. How long did the Hundred Years War last?
2. Which country makes Panama hats?
3. From which animal do we get catgut?
4. In which month do Russians celebrate the October Revolution?
5. What is a camel's hair brush made of?
6. The Canary Islands in the Pacific are named after what animal?
7. What was King George VI's first name?
8. What color is a purple finch?
9. Where are Chinese gooseberries from?
10. How long did the Thirty Years War last?
Answers:
1. 116 years
2. Ecuador
3. Sheep and Horses
4. November
5. Squirrel fur
6. Dogs
7. Albert
8. Crimson
9. New Zealand
10. Thirty years
Things you learn from watching movies:
1. It’s easy for anyone to land a plane, providing there is someone in the control tower to talk you down.
2. Once applied, lipstick will never rub off, even while scuba diving.
3. The ventilation system of any building is the perfect hiding place. No one will ever think of looking for you in there and you can travel to any other part of the building you want without difficulty.
4. When paying for a taxi, don’t look at your wallet as you take out a bill. Just grab one at random and hand it over. It will always be the exact fare.
5. Kitchens don’t have light switches. When entering a kitchen at night, you should open the fridge door and use that light instead.
6. A single match will be sufficient to light up a room the size of a stadium.
7. Medieval peasants had perfect teeth.
8. A detective can only solve a case once he has been suspended from duty.
9. It’s not necessary to say hello or goodbye when beginning or ending a phone conversation.
10. A man will show no pain while taking the most horrible beating but will flinch when a woman tries to clean his wounds.
11. Whenever a scary killer is chasing anyone, they choose to run upstairs rather than outside.
12. A player on a football field can look up into a crowd of a thousand and immediately spot their GF.
13. Television news bulletins usually contain a story that affects you personally at that precise time.
14. It’s always possible to park directly outside the building you are visiting.
15. The Eiffel Tower can be seen from any window in Paris.
Things to do at the mall:
Save a few ketchup packets from McDonald's to slurp on as snacks. Tell people that they're “astronaut food”.
Ask the groovy dude at the music store whether inflated CD prices are in pesos or rubles.
Teach pet store parrots new vocab words.
Wear pancake makeup and new clothes. Pose as a fashion dummy in junior departments. Scream occasionally.
Construct a new porch deck in the tool department of Sears.
Stare intently into a surveillance camera for an hour while rocking back and forth.
Test mattresses in a grubby pair of Wonder Woman pajamas.
Ask appliance personnel if they have any TV sets that play in Spanish only.
In the hardware department, ask how well a particular saw cuts through bone.
Rummage through the jelly bean bin at the candy store. Keep insisting that you lost a very expensive earring.
In the changing rooms, announce in a singing voice, “I see London, I see France…”
Leave on the plastic string connecting a new pair of shoes, and wander around the mall taking two-inch steps.
Answer any unattended service phones that ring in department stores and say, “Domino's.”
Try on flea collars at the pet store while occasionally pausing to scratch yourself.
Hula dance by the demonstration air conditioner.