[the Indigo]'s diary
I am....chimera
EEEK!!!!! Guess whaaat?!?!? Sooo, I was looking at my flight schedule, and I figured out that I have a 3-4 hour layover in Seoul, and a 6-7 hour layover in Bangkok!! How awesome is that?!?!? (*is going to buy all the Korean stuff she can get*)
*eats a hail ball* mmm...I love spastic Colorado weather ^-^
You feel silence in its presence
You feel joy when its here
And feel anger when its gone
It hurts
It bites
It tears
Just the thought of something gone wrong raises welts on smooth skin
But we need it
We cannot live without
And yet, it still holds a mystery to all
I HATE SNOW DAYS!!!! Stupid weather...mayb
Gah!! Snow!! Will it ever stop?!?!? Believe it or not, I really, really don't want a snow day tomorrow!!! (Purposes other than school itself...) Plus, if we have a snow day tomorrow, that means that we have a day taken out of our summer vacation...=.=
"Hanging By a Moment"
By Lifehouse
Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
I'm chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me
Now I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and I'm not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you
There's nothing else to lose
There's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world
That could change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
I'm chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and I'm not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you
Just hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment here with you
I want to run away, I want to ditch my life
Because all my mistakes keep me awake at night...
"Let It All Out"
By Relient K
Let it all out
get it all out
rip it out remove it
don't be alarmed
when the wound begins to bleed
cause we're so scared to find out
what this life's all about
so scared we're going to lose it
not knowing all along
that's exactly what we need
and today I will trust you with confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
but tomorrow, upon hearing what I did
I will stare at you in disbelief
oh, inconsistent me
crying out for consistency
and you said I know that this will hurt
but if I don't break your heart then things will just get worse
If the burden seems too much to bear
Remember
the end will justify the pain it took to get us there
and I'll let it be known
at times I have shown
signs of all my weakness
but somewhere in me
there is strength
and you promise me
that you believe
in time I will defeat this
cause somewhere in me
there is strength
and today I will trust you with the confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
and I'll try my best to just forget
that that man isn't me
reach out to me
make my heart brand new
every beat will be for you
for you
and I know you know
you touched my life
when you touched my heavy heart and made it light
Just realized that when I started drawing anime was a little more than two years ago (since January...) o.o Before then, I barely drew at all...Awesome!
I hate this. Why didn't I die before now so I wouldn't have to suffer? I'm almost positive things are okay right now, but after what happened, I feel kind-of helpless. I'm like a dead fish...
Ah, well. I wonder if he knows that just a small thing like this could get me so depressed. They really should get me on medication...
He was the quiet one. Maybe that's why I was so intrigued. How could anyone sit and listen to the teacher for that long without going insane? That's what I wanted to know.
"I fully realize that I have
not succeeded in answering all
of your questions.....
I feel I have not answered any
of them completely. The answers
I have found only serve to raise
a whole new set of questions, which
only lead to more problems, some
of which we weren't even aware were
problems.
To sum it all up........in some ways
I feel we are as confused as ever,
but I believe we are confused on
a higher level, and about more
important things."
001: Name: Kathryn
002: Nickname: Katie, Miz Kate, Rynn, George, aaand others...
003: Country of living: America
004: Shoe Size: to tell you the truth, I really don't know
005: Birthday: 4-9-90
006: Hair Color: Brown
007: Eye Color: hazel/gold/bro
008: School/Work: school...
009: Smoke: NEVER
010: Hobbies: listening to music, playing piano, drawing...etc.
011: Brothers/Siste
012: Relationship: Gary
013: Piercing: on each of my ears
014: Tattoos: nope. I tattoo myself, therefore I don't need anything permanent done by someone else
015: Favorite country to go to: Canada
016: Are there people you wont reply to: people who have nothing to say to me
017: Nicest person you met this year: hmm....
018: Person you rather not meet this year: I think a mob would lynch me if I said it
019: Who would you like to meet: oh, I don't know...
020: Who do you admire most: My father
021: Most sexy person(s): hmm...
023: Favorite car: something with a CD player that's in good condition ><
024: Favorite Movie: Autumn Spring
025: Favorite town: Prince Rupert
026: Favorite Music: Christian rock
027: Favorite Stuffed Toy: My wolfie thing
028: Favorite perfume: that stuff I use
029: Favorite Magazine: the home makeover stuff ><
030: Favorite sound: Harps, violins, glockenshpeil (is that how you spell it?), other things...
031: Favorite Tv Show: Iron Chef America
032: Favorite writer: Kien Nguyen
033: Favorite Nickname: Katie
034: What is on your mouse pad: my mouse ><
035: What is under your bed: my bed is on the floor. Apparently, a very thin monster lives there
036: Favorite Color: dont really have one
037: Favorite song: "Love can take it" (? I dont really know if that's the title...) by Skillet
038: Favorite song at this moment: *points to above answer*
039: Favorite Food: I don't know...
040: Favorite class in school: don't have one. Geography is my least disliked, I guess
041: Favorite Drink: I dont know, water or coke
042: Lucky Number: 9 (I turned 9 on April 9th, 1999)
043: What do you think is the greatest about yourself: I have no idea...
044: What deodorant do you use: that's for me to know and you...er...not to know ><
045: Favorite Shoes: tennis shoes. They're so comfy!
046: What time do you go to bed on weekdays: when I'm tired
047: What word do you use most: Anyways...
048: Most romantic moment in your life: hmm...I dunno...
049: Most embrassing moment in your life: I'm not embarassed to easily, so I don't really tend to remember too well afterwards
050: You spend your time outside or inside: inside during the winter
051: What do you do in the weekends: sleep, sit around, breathe...
052: What class on school do/did you dislike most: Study hall X(
053: Your Breakfast: something mild
054: What do you really, really dislike to eat: most Mexican food or anything with great amounts of cheese in it
055: Pets: 2 dogs, one cat, one bird
056: Laugh or dream: both
057: Serious or funny: both
058: Fast or slow: both
059: You prefer being alone or have relationship with someone: I don't really know
060: Simple or complicated?: both
061: Cremate or Buried when you die: cremate. Who want to have their body just sit around and rot?
063: Stay up late or go to bed early: both
o64: Light or dark?: both
065: Speak or Silence: both
067: Newspaper or Television: both
068: Hug or kiss: boooth!!
069: Happy or Sad: happy
070: Life or Death: both
071: Gig or Disco: I dunno...
072: Left or Right: both
073: Sausages on top, or on the side: I don't generally enjoy sausages
075: What would you ask God if you could ask him 1 single question: Believe me, I've already asked him more than one...
076: You believe in reincarnation: It depends on what kind of reincarnation you're thinking of
077: You believe in Aliens: *see above answer* If you mean aliens as in people from other countries, yes
078: When you die, what will be your last words?: I don't know. People's thoughts change over time, you can't just plan your last words, if you know that when you say them they are your last in the first place...
079: Does true love exist: I think so
080: How many kids would you like to have: Let's wait until I'm older to decide that
081: What is the one thing you can't stand: being kept in the dark
082: Best feeling: being happy
083: Worst feeling in the world: the way I feel when my family fights
084: What are you afraid of: heights and mailmen
085: Are you an emotional person: suprisingly, not usually
086: Do you ever cry during a movie: I don't remember ><
087: Your goal in life: I don't know
088: What was the promise you made to yourself at New Years Eve: I didn't make any promises
089: Favorite art-artist: hmmm...Bob Ross
090: As what animal would you like to come back as: A panda
091: What is the most beautiful part on the male body: eyes
092: Most original place to ask your love to marry you: hmm? No idea
093:What do you think of Elftown: Its spiffy
094: Is there something you miss about Elftown?: Hm?
095: Where did you get this question list: Tina ^-^
096: Besides elftown, what do you do most on your PC: color my pictures
097: Whats the most annoying thing that people ask you?: "How was your day today?" or "Are you okay?"
098: Do you get in trouble a lot?: no
099: Favorite actor: Ewan McGregor
100: Favorite Actress: Hmm...I don't know...
101: Have You ever gone skinny Dipping?: nope
102: Have You ever gotten in a fight?: verbal, yes
103: What do most people like about your body?: hmm? I don't know, I think it's my hair
104: Have you ever kissed a member of the opposite sex?: my daddy ^-^ (not in the wrong way, sickos!)
105: What do you want to be when you are older?: I was sure, but I'm not anymore. I'm undecided at the moment
most people say that "oh, you'd be cute together". But it's so much more than that...
It feels that all the crap in my life has just been adding up so he could help me through it. I swear, I have never connected with someone and felt so comfortable with them at the same time as much as I have with him in only the past couple of weeks. It's like everything bad in my life just doesn't matter anymore. All the previous love interests and the crap I deal with at home has nothing on this. I care for him so much, and he cares for me, and there is nothing better than that.
Written about Wednesday 2005-03-16
Written: (7044 days ago)
hmm...so he was giving me clues to who his crush is, and so finally during 6th period, I asked if it was me and he gives this look, sighs, and says "yes" ^-^ it was wierd, like relationship "20 questions" or something...
AAAAAAAAAAAAAA
sorry, just needed to let that out
hmm...I thought I'd give it a whirl
Thumbs Together: katie
Nose: iqwtt594 (hmmm...I just discovered that my vision splits when I try to read things up close >.< stupid contacts...)
Elbow: klssaty666re (frontal elbow!! _-_)
Tongue: katie (that was disgusting... XP)
Chin: m,AZtgfijed (oooh! I got three of the letters!)
Foot: kkatie (kakakakatie!! ^_^)
Eyes closed and one finger: ksyoe (arent I special?)
Back of your hand: kzgide
Palm: katie (holy crap! I cant believe I did it!!)
Mouse: kaqtie (ooh, so close...)
Wrist: k,atyied (youve been k,atyied!!)
Big Toe: katie (>_<)
Forehead: 9isa5 rft 8u3 (bam!! I am on fire!!)
ookay...that was entertaining..