Wow, so...I had a fun day today. Woke up at around 6:30am to go downtown with Jean, Sierra and Gabby. After mom and Jean dropped us off, we walked down to Sakura Square, theeeen we shopped all around the mercantile, then meandered down 16th street mall, then went back to Sakura had lunch at Yoko's (Oishii desu ne!!), then got more money from Jean to go see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory a second time, then took the light rail to the bus (Sierra rode further on the light rail than us at that point >>), then took the bus to Garrison-ish, and walked home with Gabby. Yay! And what better way to end the day with Thai food? *sighs dreamily* The only downside is that I got a tan around where the strap of my kaban was on my shoulder -.- It's very interesting looking, I can tell you that

People make me sick. Seriously...sick. Not like the whole 'I'm disgusted' deal, but this nasty feeling in the pit of my stomach that sometimes makes me gag. Because of it, I stand over a sink every other week, thinking I'm going to vomit. You can choose not to believe me, since you can't feel what I do, but I really don't want to feel that way ever again. I think the only times I feel like that now is when I think of my ex. Not because he was bad, but (I'm risking sounding vain, so don't take it the wrong way...) I felt like sometimes he obsessed over me. I remember I went away for a few hours, and when I got back, the caller ID said he called 10 times. That was the worst of it I'd had in months. I think I actually did throw up that time. I need to get away from all this. I'm not bulemic, thank you. I'm just ready to make a different life for myself.

There was only silence. It shook him from his dreaming state into a world he worked so hard to get away from. The sky outside the cold glass of his window was only beginning to lighten. He tried to roll over in his covers, but he was too restless to stay put. He rose from the bed and sloppily dressed himself. Pulling on the last button of his shirt, he crept through the quiet halls, sparing only time for a large yawn. Slipping through the screen door in the front, he listened to the crunch of the wintry, chilled grass beneath his feet, newly frozen from an onset of frost that came that night. He stopped at the peak of the hill outside his house. The sun had just risen. It should have been a beautiful rusty-gold, but in his world, there was nothing but black and white. Blank eyes staring at the sky, he wonders..."What am I doing with my life...?"

Okay, I know you're all going to think I'm wierd, but I'm actually beginning to miss school. It feels like all the Japanese I've learned is slowly slipping away from me, and I'm really starting to miss all the people I haven't seen yet this summer -.- I think the only thing I don't miss is history and homework

I hate it. I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it!!!! People, suicide is stupid! You should at least try to live through now if your is crappy at this point, because I can gurarantee you that it will get better. Who knows, maybe you could help change someone else's life just by telling them 'hey, I know what you're going through. Just keep being strong, it'll pay off for you.' But if you end up killing yourself, you're not giving much hope to any person you might have met in the future, and especially not the people who care about you. So many of you are in denial about that, too; 'oh, nobody cares about me...' GUESS WHAT?!?!?! Every single person on this whole wasted planet has at least one person who cares so deeply about you that they would put their life in danger for your sake (which rarely occurs, but though the phrase is cliche, please at least attempt to recall why it is said so much in the first place. Someone willing to die for someone else is a precious and powerful thing).

Just remember all that, okay?

Soo...at some point I saw Madagascar, which I was like, 'oh, it's okay' at first, but then it started progressing more and more into that stupid Hollywood layout, and I seriously was just turning my head and looking away because I am so sick and tired of the stupid happy endings where everyone's problems get solved and everyone is happy and cracking jokes at the end, and they aren't even emotionally scarred by the trauma that they went though, even though they should have been. If I were to have written the script for that movie, I would end it in one of these ways: Way 1: have the lion live his life alone without his friends, eating only the whathoozamazits that terrorized the lemurs, therefore satisfying his lonely, aching heart by at least knowing he is helping the lemurs; Way 2: the lion could eat all his friends, then live out the rest of his life psychotic and depressed; and Way 3: The lion ends up meeting back up with his friends and eating fish anyways, but he becomes lonely and pensive, and avoids his friends, because he knows that he could still attack them at any moment, and still fears hurting them, even though he has a small, but abundant food source. What do you think? Personally, there is no way for me to comprehend that anything other than, or worse than Way 3 could happen, because you don't just try to murder your friend, then both of you completely forget about it. That's why I don't see so many movies anymore, it's because they are sooooo structured in the way that every other movie is!!! That's why I like movies like To Live, Together, Moulin Rouge and Autumn Spring, just because they aren't simply beginning, problem, resolve (also because only Moulin Rouge is American, too >>). Poo upon it all, I'm going to bed...

AAAH!!! I think my old crush is coming back to me--in full force >> I kinda saw him the other day, and I was like, 'Holy crap! He's gorgeous!' Man, let someone alone for a month or so and look what happens... >>

People! If you're going to say something deep, poetic or meaningful, at least do a favor to yourself and the rest of us and spell it right!! _-_

http://www.amnesty.org/actnow/

Please go there and sign the petition for Myanmar!

It's making me worried, because I keep seeing all this stuff about Burma and this political prisoner stuff, and I know several people who live in Thailand and were born in Burma. Since it's illegal for them to have left Burma, I'm really scared for them. Please sign this--I don't know if it will work since it's an American thing (I think), but it only takes a few minutes, so you might as well do it.

Aaahh!! Don't know why, but I was watching that new 'Instant star' show on The N and I think I want to cut& color my hair like that girl who plays Jude. She has my dream hair, no kidding. Plus the guy who plays Jamie is gorgeous!! Not to mention Tom or whatever his name is (an Orlando Bloom sundae dripping in Johnny Depp or however they described him). Yes, I thought it was important enough for you all to know. I wish I had a camera right now. Stupid American cliche-clique groups are really starting to get on my nerves. End of story.

requests;

[Neko the Kitty]:

okay. He has purple-blue eyes (they have saddish calm look about them), dirty blonde hair, he usually wears things with loose collars. His skin is pale apricot...he has thin fingers, he's medium sized(length)and he's normal sized(width). His legs are long.^_^;;; Ummmm... For a pose if I could have him standing on a building, wind blowing his hair, wwith the moon behind him, half of his face to be shadowed, giving him the half demon appearence. He looks like he is about to cry, but there is no signs of tears in his eyes. Umm a black collar shirt w/dark red pants, tennis shoes

[Fate in Motion]:

A warrior stands infront of you. His armor is as black as the night. His eyes, hidden in the shadows from the top of is helmet. A cape, torn but still intact slid down his back to the ground. It's a crimson red color. The helmet had four horns on it. Two infront in a row and two behind those spaced out. Around the helmet that opened up for his face were dragon teeth all around it. He had three spiked dragon horns on each shoulder. The middle one was the longest and thickest. His knees had smiliar horns but they were smaller and faced out. On around each wrist were three dragon claws. They went out and then curved around his hand. His leather gloves were silver with claws and dragon scales placed on them. In the middle of the gloves was a circle hole for two rudy jewels that are embedded in his skin. On his chest plate outlined in white was a dragon head. His sword, sheathed at his left side had a black dragon designed hilt. His skin which could only be seen because his helmet wasn't closed in was very pale.
 
beside him or behind him I want an angel with brown hair going down to her shoulders with blue eyes in a white gown, you can add w/e jewlery you think would be best on her if you want

remember how i said i want and angel in there? can you put arian looking straight ahead, not showing his eyes but showing a tear line on his cheek and the angel behind him touching his shoulder?

[Ikko]:

hmmmm....*Thinks*Oooo draw Riku and Chelsey together!If that's okay with you..O~O
Riku: http://elftown.lysator.liu.se/img/photo/50045_1108511308.jpg

Chelsey: http://elftown.lysator.liu.se/img/photo/50045_1108601591.jpg

They are two of my main characters in my stroy.^-^

[SkyLynn07]:

I need it to be sorta vampirish..She usually wears a pair of black leather pants... and a black tank top that ties behind her neck and her back...Boots.. maybe.. they are for a vampire...

[*Midori*]--

ok I don't really have a pic but I really just wanted a doll version of me to put on my page:) So when ever you do it here is the description for it.
A doll saying welcome. Lightbrown hair. Blue t-shirt with superman emblem, blue jeans w/ doodles on them, green eyes, Smiling...and a pencil behind one ear ^-^ Thankyou again :)



err...just thought I should organize myself...

Sooo, I definitely fell in love with Thailand and the people I met there, aaand I definitely cried when I left. Buuuuut...I have been researching on places I can learn Thai so that I can go on an exchange program part of my junior year. If all my plans work out the way I want them to, then we would keep a Japanese exchange student for 3 months, then the program will pay for me to go spend 3 months in Japan that summer, then I would use money that I would hopefully have saved by then to buy a plane ticket into Chiang Mai (I'll have to probably go through Bangkok and change flights, but that doesn't really matter), and then I could stay there for a semester, then go back to America (unfortunately). Anywho, I got to stop in Tokyo on the flight from Seoul to Los Angeles, which was fun because on the way back to America, I just went to the back of the plane, tried to read a Japanese newspaper (all I got from it was something about a big sale, the New York Yankees, and the people Tom Cruise have had relationships with) and had some small conversation in Nihongo with the Japanese people who needed to go to the bathroom. That was more fun than a box full of Cracker Jacks. Anywho, loved the trip, loved the people, don't want to be in America, and I'm counting the days until I go back.

http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=Nerokaioi_Reielone

since you all rock I think you should check out my awesome Xanga site >> I have another one, but it currently looks like crap, so don't even ask about it as of now ><

mm...a whole bucket of vanilla ice cream, and then some!! :9 Who needs this lactose intolerant business? >>

Vanilla ice cream in the rain :D

I am....chimera

EEEK!!!!! Guess whaaat?!?!? Sooo, I was looking at my flight schedule, and I figured out that I have a 3-4 hour layover in Seoul, and a 6-7 hour layover in Bangkok!! How awesome is that?!?!? (*is going to buy all the Korean stuff she can get*)

*eats a hail ball* mmm...I love spastic Colorado weather ^-^