Kill you ! Fuck you ! I will never be you !
U fucking touch me I'll rip you apart ! u drunk FUCK ! ! !
*Whats up everyone that actually reads this O.o o.O J I know you do ;)~ thanx man. I know Rebecca does ^.^ Thanx babez. Well I just found out that PeyPey means little mule :)P I guess its true, I'm kinda like a little mule when it comes to women. They ride me all the [f.u.c] over, like I was a mule to them :)P And then I get [f.u.c]ed over even more. U have to love women, dont you?
*Well, I have to go pick rock's for a good 5 or 6 hours this morning. Its quarter to eight right now, and Jeremy is coming to pick me up in about an hour. After I get done with that Im going to have to work at Diggers. I'm going to have Jeremy bring me in at 2 so I get some more hours in, but Im going to ask if I can get off of work around 8 or 9 though.
*I think I'm going to be sick and It's your fault
I knew I Loved you :" (
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Part of : Slipknot / Everything Ends
What the hell am I doing?
Is there anyone left in my life?
What the fuck was I thinking?
Anybody want to tell me I'm fine?
Where the hell am I going?
Do I even need a reason to hide?
I am only betrayed
I am only conditioned to die
Me and my girl, we got this relationship. I love her so bad but she treats me like..... on lock down like a penitentery.
she spreads her lovin' all over and when she get home there's none left for me.
Sublime~Sublim
For the man that was never there for me... .. .I fucking hate you, dad.
Slipknot
"You fucking touch me I'll rip you apart"
Korn
"Nursery rhymes are said, verses in my head
Into my childhood they're spoonfed
Hidden violence revealed, darkness that seems real
Look at the pages that cause all this evil "
"This old man came rolling home"
... .. .Should I pray for this hate to go away?
*JUST FUCKING FUCK IT -.- DAMN ! ! !
Colds 'Bleed'
Bleed
I'm feelin' crossed I take it inside
Burn up the pain, my thoughts are strange
Just like the things I used to love
Just like the tree that fell, I heard it
If art is still inside, I feel it
I wanna bleed, show the world all that I have inside
I wanna scream, let the blood flow that keeps me alive
Take all those strings they call my veins
Wrap them around every f*cking thing
Presence of people not for me
Well, I must remain in tune forever
My love is music, I will marry melody
I wanna bleed, show the world all that I have inside
I wanna scream, let the blood flow that keeps me alive
I wanna scream, I wanna bleed
Won't you let me take you for a ride
You can stop the world try to change my mind
Won't you let me show you how it feels?
You can stop the world
But you won't change me
I need music to set me free
To let me bleed
*Ok, my dad is drunk as shit, but that dont matter now... hes not talking to me ;)~ He might be dead, but thats fine. He shouldnt drink like that :)P All in all I love my mum :)
*And Hailey just left me :( She went to Malta. I think Im going to go hunt her down right now ;)~ Coudnt em, 14 days from today? I forgot the date she told me 0.0 How do I figure out what we were talking about on this MSN piece of shit!?!?!
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*Stayed up all night last night trying to work on different material ^.^ I think Im going to write a different song also. But not until I finish what I have started. I know it wouldnt take me that long to finish this song, its just the wanting to do it some days thats the problem.
*Well, today Im going to sit on my cute butt and talk to everyone while still working on 'My Tragedy'. I have to come up with lyrics to the song and I dont know what to write for it.
*I have some hella laundry that I need to get done today too. But that should only take me a few short minutes :)~ And today I have to go to work at 4 pm, but Im thinking about going in at 2; I know I wont though.
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*Well, today... .. .I officially dislike my ex-g/f parents.
*Going to work on my 'My Tragedy' song for a different band I want to start that is all mellow romantic/depre
*I have to do lots and lots of laundry today
*At 2 p.m. I have to work
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*Well I dont knowhat to type in here but I guess Im going to type the progress of my song... cause its the only thing I do all day long besides talk to people and work.
*I named my song 'My Tragedy', I guess that I was just hurting when I started to write it, sometimes Ive been feeling pretty lonely even though there are people here at the time. But, like it really matters... life happens.
*Im not too far in my song, I just got the intro done; but there are still some things that need to be changed cause its just not working right on what Im writing it on.
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I cant believe myself sometimes ... ... ... ... .
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Great faith.
Great effort.
Great failure.
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What can I say? Every day is a new day, but still... .. .remains the same. Just a new tragid day... .. .sitting here, wasting away. What else, can I say?
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*Will someone tell me what the hell is going on? Why is it like this? Where did we go wrong? Where did the love go? I know its still there... or I wouldnt be thinking about it now. This is a dream... I know it. Nothing is going to be lost. No heart will be broken... come back :"(
Always and Forever,
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I dont know what to say :) I miss my babe sooo much :(
I hope she is having a great day in skewl right now... I doubt it though ^.^ Skewl sux -.-
Well, I have nothing to do sept play my guitar all day until my babe gets home... so Ive been trying to learn 'Sweet Home Alabam' but I dont have a tuner so its kinda hard... and Ive been trying to learn 'Toxicity' and 'Stairway to Heaven' but like I said... Im having trouble with the tuning... I tune it by ear but after I think I got it, it sounds different... I think its because of the different tones from the switch or maybe its... just because they are using different guitars... or THE WIMPS REMASTER THEIR FUCKING CD'S ... there so much they can do in a studio -.- makes me sick. Even a person with the least talent on guitar could make a nice sounding cd... look at 'White Stripes' ... its pathetic... give me a studio and Ill make a damn band by myself!!!
Have a wonderful day :)
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[f.u.c]ing diary!!! I mean [f.u.c]'s... diary... NO... its a JOURNAL...
0.0 day one... wait... when did I start this thing? Hmmm, well I guess today is day one then.
*Ok, woke up this morning and actually called my woderful, beautifuol girlfriend ON TIME... her and I are both VERY proud of me. I think its been... about... maybe two weeks.. in between two and three weeks since I was able to call her on time :) No, since I was able to call her... she always calls me (I love you babe). But yesterday, woke up ON time, just to find out... no minutes on my card *[f.u.c]!!! he thinks to himself*... but today... yes today was the most joyous of all the days :) Today is my babes birthday :) Happy sweet sixteen babe :) And youre great passing your drivers test :) I knew you could do it sweetheart.
Well, I woke up... and had the pleasure of telling my girlfriend how much I love her. She doesnt even have to say anything back I can feel her love :) Only because she never tells me to shut up :) *SHUT UP!*... "*What?"*...??
Ok, I hate this thing, bye now... Love you babe :)