Thinking of the past, and what I used to have
The love of my life, I let out of my grasp
I miss you so much
And think of you, night and day
I hope that I can get the chance
To give you another day
I know things weren't the best
By I still dream of you, resting on my chest
Holding me tight, forever and for always
I Love you babe
Always have, and always will
I Love you babe
Im sorry our Love I had to kill
My feelings are still strong, more now then ever before
It makes me wonder, why I pushed you out my door
I want you in my arms
tonight, tomorrow, and for the rest of my life
I want you in my arms, and I want you as my wife
Im almost in tears now, remeniscing the past
Of what we had together, and what I wish we still had.
Come back to me babe, I cant take another day
Knowing you're not mine, knowing you're ok
Without me
*tears stream down his face*
I miss, I hug you; I kiss you, I love you
You know who you are, and for those of you who dont... .. . Im talking about Rebecca {A.K.A} [*Corona*]
*guess what ? Hailey comes back today ^.^ JOY :) ) )~ I havent talked to her for soooooooo long :" ) Im going to love it, im hoping that shes on by the time that I get back from work. And if shes not Im going to cry cuz I dont want to wait another day :" ( I miss you babez. hurry home.
Much [f.u.c]ing Love
Kill you ! Fuck you ! I will never be you !
U fucking touch me I'll rip you apart ! u drunk FUCK ! ! !
*Whats up everyone that actually reads this O.o o.O J I know you do ;)~ thanx man. I know Rebecca does ^.^ Thanx babez. Well I just found out that PeyPey means little mule :)P I guess its true, I'm kinda like a little mule when it comes to women. They ride me all the [f.u.c] over, like I was a mule to them :)P And then I get [f.u.c]ed over even more. U have to love women, dont you?
*Well, I have to go pick rock's for a good 5 or 6 hours this morning. Its quarter to eight right now, and Jeremy is coming to pick me up in about an hour. After I get done with that Im going to have to work at Diggers. I'm going to have Jeremy bring me in at 2 so I get some more hours in, but Im going to ask if I can get off of work around 8 or 9 though.
*I think I'm going to be sick and It's your fault
I knew I Loved you :" (
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Part of : Slipknot / Everything Ends
What the hell am I doing?
Is there anyone left in my life?
What the fuck was I thinking?
Anybody want to tell me I'm fine?
Where the hell am I going?
Do I even need a reason to hide?
I am only betrayed
I am only conditioned to die
Me and my girl, we got this relationship. I love her so bad but she treats me like..... on lock down like a penitentery.
she spreads her lovin' all over and when she get home there's none left for me.
Sublime~Sublim
For the man that was never there for me... .. .I fucking hate you, dad.
Slipknot
"You fucking touch me I'll rip you apart"
Korn
"Nursery rhymes are said, verses in my head
Into my childhood they're spoonfed
Hidden violence revealed, darkness that seems real
Look at the pages that cause all this evil "
"This old man came rolling home"
... .. .Should I pray for this hate to go away?
*JUST FUCKING FUCK IT -.- DAMN ! ! !
Colds 'Bleed'
Bleed
I'm feelin' crossed I take it inside
Burn up the pain, my thoughts are strange
Just like the things I used to love
Just like the tree that fell, I heard it
If art is still inside, I feel it
I wanna bleed, show the world all that I have inside
I wanna scream, let the blood flow that keeps me alive
Take all those strings they call my veins
Wrap them around every f*cking thing
Presence of people not for me
Well, I must remain in tune forever
My love is music, I will marry melody
I wanna bleed, show the world all that I have inside
I wanna scream, let the blood flow that keeps me alive
I wanna scream, I wanna bleed
Won't you let me take you for a ride
You can stop the world try to change my mind
Won't you let me show you how it feels?
You can stop the world
But you won't change me
I need music to set me free
To let me bleed
*Ok, my dad is drunk as shit, but that dont matter now... hes not talking to me ;)~ He might be dead, but thats fine. He shouldnt drink like that :)P All in all I love my mum :)
*And Hailey just left me :( She went to Malta. I think Im going to go hunt her down right now ;)~ Coudnt em, 14 days from today? I forgot the date she told me 0.0 How do I figure out what we were talking about on this MSN piece of shit!?!?!
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*Stayed up all night last night trying to work on different material ^.^ I think Im going to write a different song also. But not until I finish what I have started. I know it wouldnt take me that long to finish this song, its just the wanting to do it some days thats the problem.
*Well, today Im going to sit on my cute butt and talk to everyone while still working on 'My Tragedy'. I have to come up with lyrics to the song and I dont know what to write for it.
*I have some hella laundry that I need to get done today too. But that should only take me a few short minutes :)~ And today I have to go to work at 4 pm, but Im thinking about going in at 2; I know I wont though.
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*Well, today... .. .I officially dislike my ex-g/f parents.
*Going to work on my 'My Tragedy' song for a different band I want to start that is all mellow romantic/depre
*I have to do lots and lots of laundry today
*At 2 p.m. I have to work
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*Well I dont knowhat to type in here but I guess Im going to type the progress of my song... cause its the only thing I do all day long besides talk to people and work.
*I named my song 'My Tragedy', I guess that I was just hurting when I started to write it, sometimes Ive been feeling pretty lonely even though there are people here at the time. But, like it really matters... life happens.
*Im not too far in my song, I just got the intro done; but there are still some things that need to be changed cause its just not working right on what Im writing it on.
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I cant believe myself sometimes ... ... ... ... .
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Great faith.
Great effort.
Great failure.
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What can I say? Every day is a new day, but still... .. .remains the same. Just a new tragid day... .. .sitting here, wasting away. What else, can I say?
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*Will someone tell me what the hell is going on? Why is it like this? Where did we go wrong? Where did the love go? I know its still there... or I wouldnt be thinking about it now. This is a dream... I know it. Nothing is going to be lost. No heart will be broken... come back :"(
Always and Forever,
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