[f.u.c]'s diary
Written about Saturday 2005-07-09
Written: (7076 days ago)
I think i just met the most wonderful woman i've come accross . her names Jessica . I dont know what it is about her . but i love every moment when i'm talking to her . even if theres nothing being said.. theres still a big smile accross my face . one that i havent had for the longest time now .
i really really care for her . and i wouldnt do anything to hurt her . but she doesnt know if she wants to fall in love . that hurts me inside . beings how i've grown to her since we've started talking . it made me want to cry when she said she didnt think she wanted to fall in love . i guess it really doesnt matter though . nothing is going to change the feelings i have for this woman . there is NOTHING that is going TO CHANGE the feelings i have for Jessica . Shes such a beautiful woman all around, that it's hard to explain . She has the most beautiful voice . The most beautiful laugh . I love her personality . And she's just the sweetest woman alive ! ! ! I'm so glad that i came back to ET when i did . if i didnt . who knows what would've happened . but all i know is that i'm so happy that her and i are talking . shes everything that i've ever wanted in a woman .
she said she had a dream the other night . and in her dream she told me she loved me . that touched my heart ! so much ! and it gave me a permasmile :D i really wanted to say that i loved her too . but maybe it'll be said in my dream .
i cant stop thinking about her lol right now i'm waiting up to see if she calls back :) I really hope she does . she's the first thing i think of when i wake up . shes the first person i message when i get on the computer . i think about her NON-STOP ! and i LOVE IT . i dont know of any woman that could make me feel like this in such a short time .
i know.. in my heart . my feelings are only going to grow for her . i care about her more than you people could imagine . probably more than she could imagine . and tonite . i just realized how much she likes me too . i'm loving every moment of this .
but yea . my point is . i just met an angel
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this is just the coolest fuckin shit ever
Alrite :P This is for someone that made me do the SAME thing alllllllllllll
GREEN DAY LYRICS
"Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life)"
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
40 Below Summer - Breathless Lyrics
You believe every word I say
And always took the time to understand
You took my breath away
Is that you slipping right through my hands?
Just like a shooting star
I'm falling from the sky
I wait for you to land
Fly away, Don't shut me out
Cause I can't be without you
Run away, Come with me
Cause I can't be without you
Be Without You
When I wake up everyday
I need to know ur not so far away
Just like a shooting star
I'm falling from the sky
I wait for you to land
Fly away, Don't shut me out
Cause I can't be without you
Run away, Come with me
Cause I can't be without you
Be without you (x2)
Open your eyes
And open your life
And just fly away, Don't shut me out
Cause I can't be without you
Fly away, Don't shut me out
Cause I can't be without you
Run away, Come with me
Cause I can't be without you
Cause I can't be without you
Story Of The Year - Until The Day I Die Lyrics
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you
As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die to
I'd die too
You remind me of the times
When I knew who I was (I was)
But still the second hand will catch us
Like it always does
We'll make the same mistakes
I'll take the fall for you
I hope you need this now
Cause I know I still do
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Should I bite my tongue?
Until blood soaks my shirt
We'll never fall apart
Tell me why this hurts so much
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "remember when"
Just like we always do
Just like we always do
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Yeah I'd spill my heart!!!
Yeah I'd spill my heart for you!!!
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Mistakes like friends do
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Made the same mistakes
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
Until the day I die!!!
P.S.
Please dont end your relations with me . i'll be back one of these days to see how everyone is doing :D
:'( bye
Written about Monday 2005-03-14
Written: (7193 days ago)
for everyone thats reading this . thanks :')
all of you have been so wonderful . and have made my life so much better (': i'm sorry if i've hurt anyone . and i'm sorry if i hurt anyone with this goodbye . i've got to move on and live life :') even though i dont want to :'( i dont want to leave any of you . you've been so great to me . you're all just the most wonderful people :) good luck in life everyone *hugs*
♣ February 27, 2005
Today we finished our song . We dont have a name for it . Again ... the singers are debating on how theyre going to name the song . But.. al in all , the song is done and on wednesday we're going to start our third song . That one is already planned out . we just have to throw the parts together ^^ so by the end of the week we should have three songs :) thats all i have to say :D:D:D
[February 23, 2005]
[ALRIGHT ! ! ! Still no fucking name lol BUT . The name of our first song is 'Support' . We decided to drop our second song and work on that one later . NOW we started and finnished what would've been our 3rd song ... but our singers are having problems naming things :P one wants to name the song by some of the lyrics that are put into the song and the other wants to name it by what the song has to do with .. anyways .. we finnished the song .. just i dont know the name :P AND we started what would've been our 4th song already .. and got the basics of that one down . So yea .. we're good to go . Our next practice is Sunday the 27th . After that we should have 3 songs made :D I'm talking to them about getting a studio or something so that I can show everyone our songs . TRUST me .. anyone that loves metal is going to love is :D:D:D:D we are so fucking kikbutt :P]
February 21, 2005
I know it's been some time sence I updated this ... lol i'm so lazy :P but here's whats new with the band ^,^ STILL HAVENT DECIDED ON A NAME {not so new lol} . The bass player that said that he didnt want to jam with us.... not does because he doesnt like the other band that he wanted to be in . So now we have two singers . We're COMPLETELY done with our first song . But i dont know what the name of it is . Just know how its played . We started a second song and thats about it . The lyrics that the two singers were using suck ... it was something i wrote. .. but it just doesnt fit with the song so thats unfinished. And... last saturday ... we started another song . really confusing intro ... the drums are completely off from the guitar .. but we're both working with a 7 count beat {i really dont know what its called lol u count to seven and then after that it starts over} then after the intro ... which is the chorus ... the drums and the guitar sound bad ass together . We dont have any lyrics or bass lines for the song yet... but we're going to work on that this wednesday . :D And thats it ^.^ I think lol OH AND I GOT A NEW AMPLIFIER :D:D:D:D ITS A IBANEZ FULL STACK . LOOK THRU THE REST OF MY PAGE AND CHECK IT OUT :D:D:D:D:D
[February 9th, 2005]
[I left work today so that we could practice . I guess now we're going to have two vocalists ! ! ! This is just way too badass ! ! ! Adam and Belldar are both going to scream the fuck outta shit now :D:D:D:D its way awesome ^.^ Now its been about two months since we started making this song ... maybe a couple weeks less ... we dont have a bass player still but i talked to my old friend Saen and i think he's going to play bass for us . So we recorded our song today with two singers ... and it was great . I cant believe how well things went together right away . We didnt change the song itself any ... just had two vocalists both incorporating their lyrics into the song . Our next practices are going to be this Saturday {Feb 12, 2005} and Sunday, the day after at noon . We're also going to start working on our next song :D I think that's what sunday is going to be for .]
February 5th, 2005
We had practice this morning at 10 and it went awesome . Everything went together perfect and we recorded about 4 times . We had to change our song, lengthen it some so that Bell's lyrics could fit the song better . I dont like the recorder that we're using because the drums and the vocals overpower the guitar ... but if you turn the guitar up just a smudge ... the guitar is overpowering the vocals and drums ... kinda sux ... but it still works .
[February 3rd, 2005]
[Last night, which would be the second... the band came over and we played the song maybe twice and then we recorded it... it didnt turn out the best, so I guess it was pretty much a sound check :P we shoul've done that in the first place :P but tomorrow, the 4th ... we're going to practice for a few hours and more than likely record it again . Hopefully we'll be able to start on our second song too ^.^ I cant wait .]
February 1st, 2005
Well tomorrow (Feb. 2nd, 2005) we've got band practice and i'm thinking we're going to record our first song . Bobby {percussions} told me that Beldar {lead vocals} is going to play bass for us and now hes going to be a backup singer while Adam is going to take lead vocals {kikass ^,^} . And Bob just told me that I have a voice too and he wants to try hooking me up to a mic so that i can be a backup singer too :) This is going to be tuff :P I'm not that talented ^.^ For sure I'M going to record us tomorrow and try and get it on the computer somehow, so that all of you that want to hear us jam, can ^.^
I'm finally in a good band again ^.^ We dont have a name yet, so take my poll and help me figure out what we should name our band . Or you can give me ideas on what to name it :) Heres the Current lineup .
Vocals - Adam Copaseedez & Ryan Knudson
Percussions - Bobby Denny
Bass - Eric Idontgiveafuck
Lead Guitar - Me
I just realized that i'm the youngest member in our band :P everyone else is about 24 or 25 and i'm only 19 :P that makes me feel kinda good inside ^.^
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Written about Saturday 2005-02-26
Written: (7209 days ago)
Ok :D The other day i went to go take a shower .. but i forgot to bring my boxers :P so .. i dint put boxers on and just put my pants on :P or other known as "free ballin it" and i liked it alot so i'm never going to wear boxers ever again ^.^
:D
WE CAN WORK THINGS OUT ! ! !
Written about Thursday 2005-02-24
Written: (7211 days ago)
Why is it i always get these feelings of loneliness ? ?? ???
And I've been waiting for so long, to hold you in my arms .
WHY THE FUCK IS EVERYONE COMING DOWN ON ME ?!?!?!
Written about Wednesday 2005-02-23
Written: (7212 days ago)
I'm glad that half of the people that I talked to today decided they wanted to be a bitch to me :D
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-.-
Written about Monday 2005-02-21
Written: (7214 days ago)
:'( *there goes my butthead* )':
Without a sound . WITHOUT A SOUND . And I wish you away
G FUCKIN GOLLY
Have you ever seen god ? :(
[f.u.c]
Written about Thursday 2005-02-17
Written: (7218 days ago)
I feel like i'm seconds away from dying :( like my heart is going to sieze up on me :( my chest hurts really bad . like i'm going to have a heart attack soon :( idk whats going on but i know that i dont like it :( i hope i feel better :( its times like these that just make me wish something would happen right now :( it hurts soooooooo much .........mm fuck !
Written about Saturday 2005-02-12
Written: (7223 days ago)
I feel better . I'm sorry if i scared anyone . I was just sad . I'm really sorry