I'm not sure if I am becoming more crazy or if everyone else is... I don't understand anything people are saying to me at the moment, It seems that the small grasp of sanity I have is slipping away.
I can still percieve things the way I always have, and my gift of self reflection is as visible as always. but people are acting strange.. or perhaps I am, and that is their reaction towards me.
I am happier than I have been in a while, yet I am still sad
But now the pain is confusing and strange
I don't use this much... well at all yet.
So I will put something in it, for the friends who don't understand why It must seem that I am drifting away.
I'm really not too sure what it is that is slowly turning me into what I am becoming. I don't hate any of you my poor friends who stand by me while wishing they could do more to help me.. I do notice although I rarely give credit.
I am sorry, I don't feel I need help. There is something inside killing me and only I can subside it.
I realise that day by day I am slowly becoming more anti-social and more riddled in my explanations of thoughts, so subtle that you may not have even noticed.
I am sad, I am lonely and although I have many standing by my side in a room full of personalities.
I have discovered that there is something, a major part of me that I need to say goodbye to in order to regain my sanity. I will never be the same.