[JessieAnn]'s diary

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Written about Friday 2006-08-04
Written: (6497 days ago)

_{I love it, how people pretend to be ghetto''shouts out to these people'' - what were you thinking honey? Tee hee

I hate when they go on about ''i'm a fun luving gal if ya knows we me means'' - SLUT!

I used to like the polka dot things, but know your boring and repetative.

We all drink, trust me I know the story, but its like sex. Everyone likes it but I really don't want to know whether you should join A.A.

I hate it when i hear how many friends you have, a few friends with a quote for fun, but it's pathetic trying to look poop'ular. You either are or you ain't sweetie.

I hate the attention seekers with comments to guilt people. Deal with it on your own time, not online in front of other people you edjit.

I am a bit of a poser myself, but having your mammary glands out isn't attractive. trust me I've been on the recieving end.}

830727 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2006-07-27
Written: (6505 days ago)

Hot hot heat - Elevator.

Blame me for the elevator
I know you will, oh yea, you will
It's not me who's the operator but you're
going down, down, down
you'll be sorry when you're singing
All alone

But don't take me up
I'll just fall down once again
Don't take me up
I'll just fall down

Wake me when you're educated
I know you will, oh yea, you will
you'll be self-medicated
you’re spinning round, and round and round
you'll be there, but no one will even
know your name

But don't take me up
I'll just fall down once again
Don't take me up
I'll only find my way back down
Don't take me up

It's true I've dabbled at times with confident lines
I was half of a man nearly half of the time
In an innocent way, I thought it could stay
with us both on the ground
With us fooling around
Let's just stay on the ground
Let's stay fooling around on the ground

Don't take me up
I'll just fall down like I knew that I would
Don't take me up
I'll only find my way back down
Don't take me up
I'll just fall down

I’ll just fall down

I’ll just fall down

830721 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2006-07-27
Written: (6505 days ago)

There used to be this guy. He was like someone I had never met before, except he seemed to just understand me. He understood, or at least pretended, to know what it was like to be me. Now, a long while ago tha all changed, and I didn't love him anymore. I didn't want him anymore, and he hurt me Oh so bad.
Now I'm over that, I miss him... but not that kind of way. In more of a friend kind of way, if you understand that kind of way.
Now there is the new guy, he knows I'm alive. He appreciates me in one kind of way. In fact he's told me he loves me, but not in that kind of way. I guess i love him too, but I'm certainly not in love with him. However, I am a little confused. I really like him, but i don't know if it's because I want more than our friendship and I'm either: too scared to get hurt again, this guy seems to understand me (but thats the kind of guy that really hurt me last time), or whether I just feel protected by him and protective of him. You need to understand that I would do anything for him, he is my bestfriend after all.

to be continued...

827799 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2006-07-21
Written: (6511 days ago)

_{The early cars

Already are

Drawing deep breaths past my door

And last night's phrases

Sick with lack of basis

Are still writhing on my floor

Conversation once colored by esteem

Became dialogue as a diagram of a play for pun (blood?)

Took a vacation, my palate got clean

Now I could taste your agenda

While you're spitting your cud}

827797 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2006-07-21
Written: (6511 days ago)

Fiona Apple - not all about love.

The early cars
Already are
Drawing deep breaths past my door
And last night's phrases
Sick with lack of basis
Are still writhing on my floor

And it doesn't seem fair
That your wicked words should work
In holding me down
No, it doesn't seem right
To take information
Given at close range
For the gag
And the bind
And the ammunition round

Conversation once colored by esteem
Became dialogue as a diagram of a play for pun (blood?)
Took a vacation, my palate got clean
Now I could taste your agenda
While you're spitting your cud

And it doesn't make sense
I should fall for the kingcraft of a meritless crown
No, it doesn't seem right
To take information
Given at close range
For the gag
And the bind
And the ammunition round

This is not about love
'Cause I am not in love
In fact I can't stop falling out

This is not about love
'Cause I am not in love
In fact I can't stop falling out
I miss that stupid ache

What is this posture
I have to stare at
That's what he said when I'm sittin' up straight
Change the name of the game 'cause he lost
And he knew he was wrong but he knew it too late
But I'm not being fair
'Cause I chose to listen to that filthy mouth
But I'd like to choose right
Take all the things that I've said that he stole
Put 'em in a sack
Swing 'em over my shoulder
Turn on my heels
Step out of this sight
Try to live in a lovelier life

This is not about love
'Cause I am not in love
In fact I cant stop falling out

This is not about love
'Cause I am not in love
In fact i cant stop falling out
I miss that stupid ache

826761 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2006-07-19
Written: (6513 days ago)

''Pissy message''

--> Can I just ask why? Because you have sent that message i feel ultimatly special... not like you haven't sent that to another 600+ birds on elftown.
Plus it isn't really a convosation starter.. wee bit limited. Doesn't tell me much about you... just 'I'm a dumb-ass because I cannot find words in my limited vocabulary that are more inviting than ''hey sexy''. You don't even include grammar. FULLSTOP's at least. My god.
I just don't appreciate that kind of crap... talk to me nicly or like a human being. You would certainly get alot further with me... not that you would get anywhere sexually, so calm down. THANK YOU.

826626 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2006-07-19
Written: (6513 days ago)

Leeds date: 24th to the 27th july
x

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Written about Sunday 2006-07-16
Written: (6516 days ago)

KT Tunstall. - Heal Over.

It isn't very difficult to see why
You are the way you are
Doesn't take a genius to realise
That sometimes life is hard
It's gonna take time
But you'll just have to wait
You're gonna be fine
But in the meantime

Come over here lady
Let me wipe your tears away
Come a little nearer baby
Coz you'll heal over
Heal over
Heal over someday

And I don't wanna hear you tell yourself
That these feelings are in the past
You know it doesn't mean they're off the shelf
Because pain's built to last
Everybody sails alone
But we can travel side by side
Even if you fail
You know that no one really minds
Come over here lady

Don't hold on but don't let go
I know it's so hard
You've got to try to trust yourself
I know it's so hard, so hard

Come over here lady
Let me wipe your tears away
Come a little nearer baby
Coz you'll heal over, heal over, heal over someday

821541 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2006-07-09
Written: (6523 days ago)

Arrggggh resisting the urge to call you and shout abuse down the phone at you. 10 deep breaths and counting back from what seems an age is not working. You make my skin crawl.. sorry guys. I'm venting. x

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Written about Sunday 2006-07-09
Written: (6523 days ago)

_{I am a bit of a bint at times.

Can be described as wee bit quirky.

Slut is not a nice word, i prefer floozie.x

Jokes on ordinary people 'cuz it is ordinary people like you I laugh at.

Such a sugar addict.

Oh and I am such a fool.

I like to overuse the word 'SWEETIE' or call you 'Darling'.

I am starting to adopt a Buck's posh accent - be scared.

Fuck, Bastard and AssHat are regularily used in my vocabulary.

I feel naked without eyeliner and blush on.

Caffiene is a babe.

I laugh alot, usually at the most awkard times.

My friends's can only be described as as 'Magic'.

I drink... but recreational drugs and smoking bad!

I write in full English for a reason.

- My idea is that otherwise it is a complete and utter waste of my time doing it for 11 years of my life at school.

You don't have to like me and I don't have to like you.

Real common people annoy me, I'm a bit of a snob it seems.

I am a not Teenage pregnancy waiting to happen, use contraception people. If a condom scares you - your not ready to have sex.

I am particularily opinionated and with that comes stubborness.

I rant . . . alot.

I like having my boundaries.

I like blowing kisses to my friends.

I can be judgemental... though I'd like to think i was open minded.

I have a hot temper & get really pissy really easy.}

A good friend of mine described me as:

_{J - Jagged.

E - Eccentric.

S - Sarcastic.

S - Sultry.

I - Impious.

C - Controversial.

A - Austere.}

_{A - Aspiring.

N - Natty.

N - Nebulous.}

_{L - Legitimate

O - Original.

R - Retro.

R - Reawakened.

A - Amorous.

I - Insatiable.

N - Neutral

E - Echoed.}

Rebound.[#]

818288 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2006-07-02
Written: (6530 days ago)

God! I am totally going to miss you Mattie! Your are a total sweetie! I forgive you for leaving me and pissing off to New Zealand. It should be major fun for you... and i am expecting huggles when yo get back. Understand me you AssHat?!

816678 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2006-06-29
Written: (6533 days ago)

Sometimes I feel I should explain myself, when really you should just try to get to know me.

_{Hating:

I can be judgemental... though I'd like to think i was open minded.

I have a hot temper & get really pissy really easy.

I like to sing... Though i can't.

I rant, sometimes a wee bit too much.

I am particularily stubborn at times.

I can feel a bit lonely.

I do bitch, in excess.

I have destructive tendancies sometimes to myself.

I can be agressive in a non-cute way.

I like drama, though not so much involving me.

I am a part-time insomniac.

I hate it when certain people don't respect my boundaries, which are often made quite clear *lol*.}

_{Loving:

My eyes... spanish eyes so I'm told.

My choice of friends, i am a good judge of character these days.

Parties with my bucks possi and almost geordie crew.

I like using the word 'SWEETIE' O.T.T.

I am very verbal with my body language.

I like flirting... so sue me.

I like having my boundaries.

I like my laugh... it's different.

I love winking.

I like blowing kisses to my friends.

especially when they blow them back.

I like being a fool.

I like writing in my diary.

I like writing in general, crap! at grammar... still liking it though.

I like to draw, mostly hands 0_o .

I like it when when my friend's and family know exactly what I am thinking without voicing.

I like dancing... a new found love for bollywood it seems.}

He was in the habit of taking things for granted
Granted, there wasn't much for him to take
And the only thing constant was the constant reminder he'd never change
Tight fisted with his compliments, it didn't seem to bother him
that talk is even cheaper told in bulk
And the only thing constant was the constant reminder
He'd never change.
I know what I should get this time
She was in the habit of reapplying makeup
Makeup eaten up by crocodile tears
And the only thing constant was the constant reminder she'd never change
Overtly individual - covertly traditional
She couldn't seem to make up her mind
And the only thing constant was the constant reminder she'd never change

_{Gift Wrapped fwendies. - see what you mean to me : ]}

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Written about Thursday 2006-06-29
Written: (6533 days ago)

CHERRY MONROE LYRICS

"Anything"

I feel your eyes on my back
Making the attack
Its easier to stab me
When i'm not looking
How could you do this to me?

I feel your skin on mine
This is our last goodbye
The hardest part of letting go
Are the things i'll never know
How could you do this to me?
How could you do this when...

Id do anything
Id do anything..anything..

For you i would die just to breathe you
For you i would scream just to hear you
For you i would burn just to feel you
I'm dying..i'm screaming

Till my last dying breath
I have fought til the end
Hear my ghost of truth
Let these words haunt you
How could you do this to me?
How could you do this wehn...

I'd do anything, id do anything...anything...

For you i would die just to breathe you
For you i would scream just to hear you
For you i would burn just to

You just turn and walk away
You just turn and walk away

And we fall
And we bleed
And we lie
And we cheat
Ive been cut too deep
Ive been losing sleep
Brought down to my knees
As i beg and plead
You just turn your back turn your back on...me

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