[JessieAnn]'s diary

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Written about Friday 2006-08-18
Written: (6483 days ago)

_{I am a complete and utter Bitch at times. But it' okay, so are my friends. It's with good reason, knowing some of the people we know.

I dance and sing, even in the shower. It's mucho funo and i love BOLLYWOOD! Tis' amazing like.

I say 'SWEETIE', 'LIKE', 'ASS-HAT', and 'FUCK' far too mucho.

I sound cool, I have a mix of accents. Norfolk, Alnwickian, Aberdeenian and buckinghamshire. Tis' minted, like.

Dirty talking makes me laugh... tee

The almost Geordie gang loving was mint. Spent so much fun with so many new people, Ruth and Becca and Westy are defo' minto people.

I am going to marry a smurf. Well I did say i would marry someone who made me laugh. What doesn't make you laugh about a lil' blue man with no penis in a funny hat?

I hate, love, lie, miss and kiss with a passion. Suposedly.

I always forget to pack a toothbrush when i go on holiday. Buggery.

I am a midget, even my 13 year old sister [Charlie.] is taller than me now! Di-Buggery.

I am 17, but somehow the taxi driver thinks I've got Kids. HMMM...mmm

I'm a brunette bint.

I have my fashion sense, meaning i wear what I like, so don't judge me... bastard! Yeah you heard me.

I am particulary oppinionted.

I love the OC, Sugar Rush, America's Next top model, Friends, Grey's Anatomy, Charmed and MTV.

As you can see i rant alot.

hmm...}

''Jessiebella, is the most amazing girly ever, no matter how far away from me she is, i know she is there for me, the msg she put on my house, made my heart fly, i just wish i cud put my feelings down like she can, words dont come easy to me, but she makes me who i am, and helps me stay who i am. and thank god she is as crazy as me. be nice to this girl and you will have someone in your life, you will never want to let go. she is everything you could ever want to be, and more. i love you, you are my darling !!!! xXx''
[stealing beauty]

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Written about Monday 2006-08-07
Written: (6494 days ago)

She hasn't seen the outside for days,
locked in the room of nebulous plays.
Dancing through her mind of barbed wire fences,
as he went to slash her, she holds in, she clenches.

Breathing deep as the handle drops,
she closes her lips as the screaming stops.
Starting to drip does the confession bleed.
Starts a new lie as it's sown to seed.

Longing and sobbing for a motherly hold
once she was austere, bubbly and bold.
Now left weeping with creased eyes,
breaking all bonds, snapping all ties.

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Written about Friday 2006-08-04
Written: (6497 days ago)

_{I love it, how people pretend to be ghetto''shouts out to these people'' - what were you thinking honey? Tee hee

I hate when they go on about ''i'm a fun luving gal if ya knows we me means'' - SLUT!

I used to like the polka dot things, but know your boring and repetative.

We all drink, trust me I know the story, but its like sex. Everyone likes it but I really don't want to know whether you should join A.A.

I hate it when i hear how many friends you have, a few friends with a quote for fun, but it's pathetic trying to look poop'ular. You either are or you ain't sweetie.

I hate the attention seekers with comments to guilt people. Deal with it on your own time, not online in front of other people you edjit.

I am a bit of a poser myself, but having your mammary glands out isn't attractive. trust me I've been on the recieving end.}

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Written about Thursday 2006-07-27
Written: (6505 days ago)

Hot hot heat - Elevator.

Blame me for the elevator
I know you will, oh yea, you will
It's not me who's the operator but you're
going down, down, down
you'll be sorry when you're singing
All alone

But don't take me up
I'll just fall down once again
Don't take me up
I'll just fall down

Wake me when you're educated
I know you will, oh yea, you will
you'll be self-medicated
you’re spinning round, and round and round
you'll be there, but no one will even
know your name

But don't take me up
I'll just fall down once again
Don't take me up
I'll only find my way back down
Don't take me up

It's true I've dabbled at times with confident lines
I was half of a man nearly half of the time
In an innocent way, I thought it could stay
with us both on the ground
With us fooling around
Let's just stay on the ground
Let's stay fooling around on the ground

Don't take me up
I'll just fall down like I knew that I would
Don't take me up
I'll only find my way back down
Don't take me up
I'll just fall down

I’ll just fall down

I’ll just fall down

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Written about Thursday 2006-07-27
Written: (6505 days ago)

There used to be this guy. He was like someone I had never met before, except he seemed to just understand me. He understood, or at least pretended, to know what it was like to be me. Now, a long while ago tha all changed, and I didn't love him anymore. I didn't want him anymore, and he hurt me Oh so bad.
Now I'm over that, I miss him... but not that kind of way. In more of a friend kind of way, if you understand that kind of way.
Now there is the new guy, he knows I'm alive. He appreciates me in one kind of way. In fact he's told me he loves me, but not in that kind of way. I guess i love him too, but I'm certainly not in love with him. However, I am a little confused. I really like him, but i don't know if it's because I want more than our friendship and I'm either: too scared to get hurt again, this guy seems to understand me (but thats the kind of guy that really hurt me last time), or whether I just feel protected by him and protective of him. You need to understand that I would do anything for him, he is my bestfriend after all.

to be continued...

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Written about Friday 2006-07-21
Written: (6511 days ago)

_{The early cars

Already are

Drawing deep breaths past my door

And last night's phrases

Sick with lack of basis

Are still writhing on my floor

Conversation once colored by esteem

Became dialogue as a diagram of a play for pun (blood?)

Took a vacation, my palate got clean

Now I could taste your agenda

While you're spitting your cud}

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Written about Friday 2006-07-21
Written: (6511 days ago)

Fiona Apple - not all about love.

The early cars
Already are
Drawing deep breaths past my door
And last night's phrases
Sick with lack of basis
Are still writhing on my floor

And it doesn't seem fair
That your wicked words should work
In holding me down
No, it doesn't seem right
To take information
Given at close range
For the gag
And the bind
And the ammunition round

Conversation once colored by esteem
Became dialogue as a diagram of a play for pun (blood?)
Took a vacation, my palate got clean
Now I could taste your agenda
While you're spitting your cud

And it doesn't make sense
I should fall for the kingcraft of a meritless crown
No, it doesn't seem right
To take information
Given at close range
For the gag
And the bind
And the ammunition round

This is not about love
'Cause I am not in love
In fact I can't stop falling out

This is not about love
'Cause I am not in love
In fact I can't stop falling out
I miss that stupid ache

What is this posture
I have to stare at
That's what he said when I'm sittin' up straight
Change the name of the game 'cause he lost
And he knew he was wrong but he knew it too late
But I'm not being fair
'Cause I chose to listen to that filthy mouth
But I'd like to choose right
Take all the things that I've said that he stole
Put 'em in a sack
Swing 'em over my shoulder
Turn on my heels
Step out of this sight
Try to live in a lovelier life

This is not about love
'Cause I am not in love
In fact I cant stop falling out

This is not about love
'Cause I am not in love
In fact i cant stop falling out
I miss that stupid ache

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Written about Wednesday 2006-07-19
Written: (6513 days ago)

''Pissy message''

--> Can I just ask why? Because you have sent that message i feel ultimatly special... not like you haven't sent that to another 600+ birds on elftown.
Plus it isn't really a convosation starter.. wee bit limited. Doesn't tell me much about you... just 'I'm a dumb-ass because I cannot find words in my limited vocabulary that are more inviting than ''hey sexy''. You don't even include grammar. FULLSTOP's at least. My god.
I just don't appreciate that kind of crap... talk to me nicly or like a human being. You would certainly get alot further with me... not that you would get anywhere sexually, so calm down. THANK YOU.

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Written about Wednesday 2006-07-19
Written: (6513 days ago)

Leeds date: 24th to the 27th july
x

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Written about Sunday 2006-07-16
Written: (6516 days ago)

KT Tunstall. - Heal Over.

It isn't very difficult to see why
You are the way you are
Doesn't take a genius to realise
That sometimes life is hard
It's gonna take time
But you'll just have to wait
You're gonna be fine
But in the meantime

Come over here lady
Let me wipe your tears away
Come a little nearer baby
Coz you'll heal over
Heal over
Heal over someday

And I don't wanna hear you tell yourself
That these feelings are in the past
You know it doesn't mean they're off the shelf
Because pain's built to last
Everybody sails alone
But we can travel side by side
Even if you fail
You know that no one really minds
Come over here lady

Don't hold on but don't let go
I know it's so hard
You've got to try to trust yourself
I know it's so hard, so hard

Come over here lady
Let me wipe your tears away
Come a little nearer baby
Coz you'll heal over, heal over, heal over someday

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Written about Sunday 2006-07-09
Written: (6523 days ago)

Arrggggh resisting the urge to call you and shout abuse down the phone at you. 10 deep breaths and counting back from what seems an age is not working. You make my skin crawl.. sorry guys. I'm venting. x

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Written about Sunday 2006-07-09
Written: (6523 days ago)

_{I am a bit of a bint at times.

Can be described as wee bit quirky.

Slut is not a nice word, i prefer floozie.x

Jokes on ordinary people 'cuz it is ordinary people like you I laugh at.

Such a sugar addict.

Oh and I am such a fool.

I like to overuse the word 'SWEETIE' or call you 'Darling'.

I am starting to adopt a Buck's posh accent - be scared.

Fuck, Bastard and AssHat are regularily used in my vocabulary.

I feel naked without eyeliner and blush on.

Caffiene is a babe.

I laugh alot, usually at the most awkard times.

My friends's can only be described as as 'Magic'.

I drink... but recreational drugs and smoking bad!

I write in full English for a reason.

- My idea is that otherwise it is a complete and utter waste of my time doing it for 11 years of my life at school.

You don't have to like me and I don't have to like you.

Real common people annoy me, I'm a bit of a snob it seems.

I am a not Teenage pregnancy waiting to happen, use contraception people. If a condom scares you - your not ready to have sex.

I am particularily opinionated and with that comes stubborness.

I rant . . . alot.

I like having my boundaries.

I like blowing kisses to my friends.

I can be judgemental... though I'd like to think i was open minded.

I have a hot temper & get really pissy really easy.}

A good friend of mine described me as:

_{J - Jagged.

E - Eccentric.

S - Sarcastic.

S - Sultry.

I - Impious.

C - Controversial.

A - Austere.}

_{A - Aspiring.

N - Natty.

N - Nebulous.}

_{L - Legitimate

O - Original.

R - Retro.

R - Reawakened.

A - Amorous.

I - Insatiable.

N - Neutral

E - Echoed.}

Rebound.[#]

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Written about Sunday 2006-07-02
Written: (6530 days ago)

God! I am totally going to miss you Mattie! Your are a total sweetie! I forgive you for leaving me and pissing off to New Zealand. It should be major fun for you... and i am expecting huggles when yo get back. Understand me you AssHat?!

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