Chris: hello there
Jess: Hey, Hows it going?
Chris: alright and you
Jess: meh! Having fun?
Chris: why meh? nt really lol
Jess: It's doesn't matter... just stuff lol.
Chris: :( ok
Jess: What have you been so busy with?
Chris: lol nout, some uni stuff.
Jess: No cos if I say you will think I am either crazy or
stupidly paranoid lol.
Chris: kk lol dw then *Huggles*
Jess: Thats cool. yeah tomorrow at some point I have to write a 700 word easy as to why I wanna OT. lol. Not looking forward to it.
Chris: lol
Jess: *hugs* sorry just noticed the pounced huggles.
Chris: lol its kl
Jess: Are you sure you are okay, another paranoia stint I know... but you have seemed either distant or really off since thrusday... and well if your going to fhinish me do it now.... while we can still be friends.
Chris: im kool. honestly i am. im just thinkin if we do stick with goin out an then end it later we most likely wont have what we do which would suck.
Jess: I know I seem a little desperate, I'm not just well... you have been weird fro days and usually I can read you like a book and I don't want to loose you as a best friend. Doesn't help that depression has set in again lol.
Chris: im cool but dont wanna mess you about, you know me too well lol
Jess: Well the question is do you feel something that is more than friends or not?
Chris: yea i do
Jess: do you feel something that your looking for, as in what was missing with others?? I want honesty...
Chris: i know
Jess: I never ask anything more than honesty
Chris: everything i look for in a girl is what you have an wit us being best mates i do feel more
Jess: ...
Chris: buts theres a fear i have which is like, if something happened an we split then we woldnt be as we are when we are all matey
Jess: I know, but the way you have been acting now... emans we are acting less than we were when we were just mateys,.
Chris :yea, thats what ive been thinkin to me we are more distant, not tlkin as much etc
Jess: Okay.
Chris: i think maybe we were better as best mates. i dont no
Jess: lol.
Chris: u no im bad with relationships lol
Jess: Thing for me is, now I know (at Least I do) have feelings that is more than just mateys. lol.... well I would rather you be completly hoenst and not dodge around the subject. I am too blunt to dodge around the subject. I don't think we are gonner loose a friendship through this. I think if it's meant to be then it will pull us closer together, all the other things that have happened since I have moved here have. I am bad with relationships.
Chris: same
Jess: For me my problem is, is where I stand with you. Paranoia about other girls ie Andrea lol.... and getting used to us being more than friends. Thing is last tuesday felt soo good lol.
Chris: ye. andrea lol. theres nout with andrea
Jess: A little too impulsive for me lol.... but fab.
Chris: we have a chat now an then cos of Matt bein a dick lol
Jess: I have spent the last 3 months with you talking about her a Keryn and other people. Lol. I know I am stupid.
Chris: lol true. bout the girl thing lol
Jess: Emma and Oli reffered to them as a bit of skirt. lol. your metaphor of ''orange baskets '' lmao
Chris: how'd you mean skirt? lol
Jess: something good to look at. But not in reality.
Chris: ooo i got u. hmm
Jess: As I look at this... we have been through more than this. I.e. might of/maybe sleeping together... lol
Chris : ye lol
Jess: And we still haven't tested this relationship. It's new different and yeah, ultimatly scary. But I am not here to convince you, you need to know yourself. i can reassure you. But I still don't know myself... it's all new. But I don't feel myself walking away any time soon. So it's up to how you feel I guess.
Chris: *hug* :)
Jess: ...
15 MINUTES LATER! ...
Chris: oki doke, ive thought about it quite a bit. as you can probably tel from me not replyin lol
Jess: no shit lol.#
Chris: im come to the conclusion that i wanna try it i dont wanna stop and regret it in a month or whatever
Jess: *smiley!*
Chris: so i wanna try it, we only just started the extra step and its gonna be a lil scary.
Jess: So I can stop crying out of fustration lol.
Chris: yea lol, lets give it time and see what happens
Jess: I don't know what to say. But I am happy.
Christopher Brian Samuel Mullins.
Again, it has been a weird day. I love Christmas, even though I find myself in high disbelief op Christian belief. I love having my family around, I love having Miki live with us, I love the presents and I certainly love the food.
But sometimes, I find it difficult to concentrate on the things that should matter the most. My education seems to be slipping again and I am so worried I will fail again. A levels will never come easy to me I guess. I can achieve them, as previously shown. It is just very difficult when it's the first thing I have ever found that I have to really work at, if I want. Rather than an almost, innate possibility.
Good in the dark, but can see clearly in the day.
I bluff my way through life, so far I win.
I can say 'Sheep' 29 times in a general convosation.
I'm in fear of being raped. I'm the sheep in the piss take nativity play.
But Tim is the Stoner Shepard.
O_o
I like it when he cups my hand,
and presses his palm in mine.
He somehow makes everything okay.
BFF.
I am totally in love with my Friends'.
Is it wrong that I find an Emo Guy extremely fit.
Favourite Song: Running Up That Hill-Placebo.
My memory is shite.
Somehow, people think I am intelligent.
I do like the English Language.
I like being opinionated.
Is it wrong I still believe in Chivalry and Romance?!
You just such a rejected-assha
And I think you should deal with that.
FAVOURITE SONG: Through Glass - Stone Sour
Miss JessieBella is thee name.
I like lying on you when I'm snoozy as you stroke my nose. It makes me so dreamy, warm and so comfortable. Thanks Babes.
BFF.
o_0 Yet Again It Seems You Are Trying To Hard...
So, Yeah, You Could Act The Nicest Person In The World.
& Still Fail To Impress Me,
As Well As The Possiblity of Boring Me.
So I'm Saying Deal With That!
I Just Do Not Do Pretending &
I Can Be Judgemental & A Snob.
I Do Not Label Myself.
& I Find It Funny When You Do.
It's Like You Have Nothing Better To Do ŵ Your Life...
But Pretend &
Assume Something That You Are Just Not.
I Bitch, I moan & I Rant Excessivly.
But I Like It That Way.
I Generally Do Not Reply To 'Hi' Messages,
Turkish People (Not Racism Just You Lot Annoy Me!)
& Comment's As To Whether I Look Hott Or Not.
I Am Just So Over You.
Pillow Talk. <3
I Am Totally In Love...
ŵ My Friends.
They Really Are Amazing People.
Hmmmm... Right Now... Blokes Confuse Me.
I Am However, Enjoying Being A 'Flirtie Bertie'.
My Life Has Become Legendary.
I Am The Biggest Gig Slut Ever.
Glowsticks Just Make Life Somehow Worth While.
I Like How I Can Feel Myself Discovering Myself Through What I'm Experiencing.
Coffee Is My Ambrosia In This World.
Along ŵ Chud & Lollipop's. :D
x
o_0 Yet Again It Seems You Are Trying To Hard...
So, Yeah, You Could Act The Nicest Person In The World.
& Still Fail To Impress Me,
As Well As The Possiblity of Boring Me.
So I'm Saying Deal With That!
I Just Do Not Do Pretending &
I Can Be Judgemental & A Snob.
I Do Not Label Myself.
& I Find It Funny When You Do.
It's Like You Have Nothing Better To Do ŵ Your Life...
But Pretend &
Assume Something That You Are Just Not.
I Bitch, I moan & I Rant Excessivly.
But I Like It That Way.
I Generally Do Not Reply To 'Hi' Messages,
Turkish People (Not Racism Just You Lot Annoy Me!)
& Comment's As To Whether I Look Hott Or Not.
I Am Just So Over You.
Pillow Talk. <3
I Am Totally In Love...
ŵ My Friends.
They Really Are Amazing People.
Hmmmm... Right Now... Blokes Confuse Me.
I Am However, Enjoying Being A 'Flirtie Bertie'.
My Life Has Become Legendary.
I Am The Biggest Gig Slut Ever.
Glowsticks Just Make Life Somehow Worth While.
I Like How I Can Feel Myself Discovering Myself Through What I'm Experiencing.
Coffee Is My Ambrosia In This World.
Along ŵ Chud & Lollipop's. :D
The Dirty Thirty... 30 unknown facts/secrets about yourself:
1. In two words, explain what ended your last relationship?
Cheating and I didn't love him anymore.
2. What are your personality flaws?
I am often paranoid and very ubbly at the same time. Too loud I guess. Sometimes to much of a flirt.
3. What were you doing this morning at 8am?
Drinking coffee and waiting for a lift to school.
4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
Chatting to peeps on msn
5. Are you any good at math?
not really. 2 hours on one standard deviation question in psychology.
6. Your prom night?
Was amazing, apart from stupid Aileen and Jason. But dancing like a whore is always good. Food terrible!
7. Do you have any famous ancestors?
Yep... The one who designed Howick gardens, named Lord Lorraine.
8. Have you ever taken out a loan to pay for school?
nope... but maybe for uni.
9. Do you know the words to the song on your myspace profile?
yes! :D
10. Last thing received in the mail?
Glasgow Caledonian university prospectus.
11. How many different beverages have you drank today?
4
12. Do you ever leave messages on people's answering machines?
Often cos bastard peole never pick up the phone. I would give up ifthey didn't ring me back... love you guys.
13. Who did you lose your CONCERT virginity to?
Bwitched! - they were actully really good.
14. Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach?
Yep... with hearts and smiley faces Yes i am that cool.
15. What's the most painful dental procedure you've had?
when he was drilling my teet and then slipped and drilled my gum. Or when i hade two teeth taken out.
16. What is out your back door?
a forest. I literally live in a forest.
17. Any plans for Friday night?
Long essay, then going to the pub with one of the guys.
18. Do you like the ocean?
yep... hate the jellifish though.
19. Have you ever received one of those big tins of 3 different kinds of popcorn for Christmas?
Popcorn isn't realyl a christmas thing is it?
20. Have you ever been to a planetarium?
Yeah, was actually amazing and quite interesting.
22. Something you are excited about?
Getting a text. Sad but my life is very boring lol.
23. What is your favorite flavor of JELLO?
blackcurrant.. and it's JELLY.
24. Are any of your great-grandpar
Yep.
25. Describe your keychain:
Has patrick (from spongebob auare pants which matt made me), a miami ring, a russian doll, car keys for the Jeep, house keys and a scooby.
26. Where do you keep your change?
The purse or the massive change bottle in the common room, which is a smirnoff ice bottle.
27. When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group of people?
Drugs talk on friday... if singing along to the venga boys counts with different words... about amphetamines. Infront of 200 people.??count
28. What kind of winter coat do you have?
Shinjuku jacket.
29. What was the weather like on your graduation?
raining.
30. Do you sleep with the door to your room open or closed
closed.
Did a drugs course today, was sort of interesting but the women refused to pronouce her H's, which might I add is fecking annoying. She also asked us questions, so we'd answer and she would tell us we were wrong, when, blantently I was right. Or she wouldn't answer our questions, say it was covered later, when it fecking wasn't. JESUS, how hard can it be to be a teacher?? Stupid mofoo!
Feeling really paranoid...
07881586926
becca duffields number
how many have u done out of the possible 139:
(x) smoked a cigarette
(x) smoked a cigar
(x) done weed
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
(x) drank alcohol
SO FAR: 5
Level 2
(X) are/been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
(x) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight
SO FAR: 10
Level 3
(x) snuck out of a parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
( ) gone out on a blind date.
SO FAR: 13
Level 4
(x) had a crush on an older person
(x) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
(x) seen someone/someth
SO FAR: 16
Level 5
(x) had/have a crush or liked on one of ur friends.
( ) been to Paris
( ) been to Spain
(x) been on a plane
(x)thrown up from drinking
SO FAR: 19
Level 6
( ) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
(x) been mosh pitting
SO FAR: 20
Level 7
( ) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken pain killers
( ) love/loved someone who you cant have
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel
SO FAR: 23
Level 8
(X) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
SO FAR: 28
Level 9
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledging
(x) cheated while playing a game.
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
SO FAR: 33
Level 10
(x) used a fake/someone else's ID
(x) watched the sun set
(x) felt an earthquake
( ) killed a snake
so far: 36
Level 11
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed/vandali
( ) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
(x) pet a deer
SO FAR: 40
Level 12
(x) won a contest
( ) been suspended from school
(x) had detention
(x) been in a car/motorcycle
SO FAR: 43
Level 13
( ) had/have braces
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) danced in the moonlight
SO FAR: 45
Level 14
(x) hated the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
(x) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes
SO FAR: 50
Level 15
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
( ) been to the opposite side of the world
( ) swam in the ocean/gulf
(x) felt like you were dying
SO FAR: 53
Level 16
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colore
(x) sang karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
SO FAR: 58
Level 17
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) kissed in the rain
SO FAR: 63
Level 18
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
(x) been kissed under a mistletoe
(x) watched the sun set with someone you care/cared about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach
SO FAR: 68
Level 19
(x) crashed a party
(x) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
(x) gone rollerskating/
(x) had a wish come true
SO FAR: 72
Level 20
(x) worn pearls
(x) jumped off a bridge
(x) screamed a word indicating a form of genitalia in class
( ) swimin with dolphins
SO FAR: 75
Level 22
(x) got your tongue stuck to a pole/freezer/i
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
(x) Sat on a roof top
SO FAR: 78
Level 23
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
(x) done/attempted a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
SO FAR: 80
Level 24
(x) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had/been in a tree house
(x) are scared to watch scary movies alone
SO FAR: 84
Level 25
(x)believe in ghosts
(x)have/had more than 30 pairs of shoes throughout your life
(x)gone streaking
( )gone to jail
SO FAR: 87
Level 26
(x) played chicken
(x) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
(x) been easily amused
SO FAR: 91
Level 27
( ) caught a fish then ate it
( ) made a porn video
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
SO FAR: 94
Level 28
(x) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name
(x) slept naked
(x) French braided someones hair
(x) gone skinny dippin in a pool
(x) been kicked out of your house
so far: 104
Level 30
(x) Been used
(x) fell going up the stairs
( ) licked a cat
(x) bitten someone
(x) licked someone
SO FAR: 108
repost this with...
ive done (108) out of the 139 stupid things
Had a bit of a rough week. had to visit my Cousins grave in Bognis Regis. Was really sad and made me think of when I went to her funeral a year ago to say goodbye to her. Except those tears were more out of anger than sadness. I know it was wrong, because what's done cannot be changed. But how dare she commit suicide with her Baby alone in the house. How could anyone leave their children behind...
It was this time round to see her grave that it hit home; Tissa's gone. Really gone so I guess shutting myself away wasn't so unforgivable, and being pissed at petty people either. I din't mean to avoid my friends, but depression has set in again and II'm finding it really hard. I'm sick of being fake and not being able to express my feelings. So at whatever cost to myself I give up and I let myself feel angry, feel sad and feel like I want.
I like snow when it's perfect and it sparkles in the sun. Will love it when someone decides to invent warm and dry snow. Then, right then... I will be happy :D
Feeling all wrong right now.
I never feel like getting hyper anymore
and I am avoiding your stories
that fuck us all up.
Favourite Song: Trouble Sleeping by The Perishers.
I miss really good Costa Coffee, My caffiene infactuation is drizzling.
I miss going out with the lads and us girlies, if only she didn't turn up.
I miss wednsday night specials.
I miss Bollywood dancing.
I miss going to the common room and sleeping on Mullins.
I miss shin-digging to the music or jumping on the chairs.
I miss going out to gigs and moshing away.
I miss the glowsticks being mashed so we all have glow in the dark spunk on us. haha.x
I miss playfighting all the way up to Tesco's
And being cool sitting on Tesco's wall eating our lunch.
I miss turning the beats up or haning in lonely class rooms.
I miss film making.
I miss the backrubs when I'm down.
I miss laughing with Mr.Cornish, even though he is a Bastard to evryone else.
I miss wrestling Tien for the wall in PE.
I miss pressing the button on the water dispenser and getting a soaked sleeve.
I miss pinning pictures of us to the wall.
I miss the crappy talent competitions and dancing in the main hall when I think no one is looking.
I miss that mad rush back to the common room to pick up our bags when we're late back from lunchies.
I miss playing UNO and getting really competitive.
I miss watching the lads jump on the bushes outside.
I miss when Jenny got soaked by Dayle with the water, or when Dan Heg. squirted Cobbers in the face with a water pistol etc...
Feeling all wrong right now.
I never feel like getting hyper anymore
and I am avoiding your stories
that fuck us all up.
Favourite Song: Trouble Sleeping by The Perishers.
I miss really good Costa Coffee, My caffiene infactuation is drizzling.
I miss going out with the lads and us girlies, if only she didn't turn up.
I miss wednsday night specials.
I miss Bollywood dancing.
I miss going to the common room and sleeping on Mullins.
I miss shin-digging to the music or jumping on the chairs.
I miss going out to gigs and moshing away.
I miss the glowsticks being mashed so we all have glow in the dark spunk on us. haha.x
I miss playfighting all the way up to Tesco's
And being cool sitting on Tesco's wall eating our lunch.
I miss turning the beats up or haning in lonely class rooms.
I miss film making.
I miss the backrubs when I'm down.
I miss laughing with Mr.Cornish, even though he is a Bastard to evryone else.
I miss wrestling Tien for the wall in PE.
I miss pressing the button on the water dispenser and getting a soaked sleeve.
I miss pinning pictures of us to the wall.
I miss the crappy talent competitions and dancing in the main hall when I think no one is looking.
I miss that mad rush back to the common room to pick up our bags when we're late back from lunchies.
I miss playing UNO and getting really competitive.
I miss watching the lads jump on the bushes outside.
I miss when Jenny got soaked by Dayle with the water, or when Dan Heg. squirted Cobbers in the face with a water pistol etc...
Feeling all wrong right now.
I never feel like getting hyper anymore
and I am avoiding your stories
that fuck us all up.
Favourite Song: Trouble Sleeping by The Perishers.
I miss really good Costa Coffee, My caffiene infactuation is drizzling.
I miss going out with the lads and us girlies, if only she didn't turn up.
I miss wednsday night specials.
I miss Bollywood dancing.
I miss going to the common room and sleeping on Mullins.
I miss shin-digging to the music or jumping on the chairs.
I miss going out to gigs and moshing away.
I miss the glowsticks being mashed so we all have glow in the dark spunk on us. haha.x
I miss playfighting all the way up to Tesco's
And being cool sitting on Tesco's wall eating our lunch.
I miss turning the beats up or haning in lonely class rooms.
I miss film making.
I miss the backrubs when I'm down.
I miss laughing with Mr.Cornish, even though he is a Bastard to evryone else.
I miss wrestling Tien for the wall in PE.
I miss pressing the button on the water dispenser and getting a soaked sleeve.
I miss pinning pictures of us to the wall.
I miss the crappy talent competitions and dancing in the main hall when I think no one is looking.
I miss that mad rush back to the common room to pick up our bags when we're late back from lunchies.
I miss playing UNO and getting really competitive.
I miss watching the lads jump on the bushes outside.
I miss when Jenny got soaked by Dayle with the water, or when Dan Heg. squirted Cobbers in the face with a water pistol etc...