[Helob]'s diary

966771  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2007-08-14
Written: (6313 days ago)

Highland Mist

The highland winds sweeps cold on my chest
Over the cliffs I hear the roaring sea
For those that do not remember me
Early morning breeze descends

Fight, blurry minds emits decay
of that which is said to be good
The mist is like a hood
before my shattered view


Do not cry over that which hurts
Do not weep in ignorance
Just a blink is your tired life's
existance in the bliss

Fires shows the way to shelters
Soon beset and gone
Shine does the sun sometimes
with the peeking of the dawn

I fall


Steep they seem, not natural
the walls of raw, dull stone
Cold the water, cold alone
I await the breeze that gives me

Hope
Tomorrow I'll be none
None alive
Nor in death
None but fragments of a mirror


Do not cry over that which hurts
Do not weep in ignorance
Just a blink is your tired life's
existance in the bliss

Fires shows the way to shelters
Soon beset and gone
Shine does the sun sometimes
with the peeking of the dawn

I fall

966770  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2007-08-14
Written: (6313 days ago)

Lost in Midst of Nothing

As if the eyes of mine were foreign
I curse the day that I diverged
of all that felt so solemn
The lone despair submerged

I drowned in distance to the I
that hid inside transparent shells
Where do I go to return?
To flee from all those hells?

Way back alone, in draught
of insight what signifies
Life, or what it once meant
or how it one day dies

I see paths that never ends


Lost in midst of nothing
Breathing time away
It's a con forever on myself
The time I never had to understand
I never knew where I misturned
followed none but pale desire
Never could this be undone
I'm free


As if vast worlds trapped inside
flooded me and slew my mind
bent my limbs and moved my feet
To the wind forever bind

Sought to reach the last frontier
Somehow see the outer root
Make myself my spirit master
Travelling uncharted route

Roads of silence embodied me
As result, I'll never see
that which Life shall shine upon
The road that I'll be walking on


Lost in midst of nothing
Breathing time away
It's a con forever on myself
The time I never had to understand
I never knew where I misturned
followed none but pale desire
Never could this be undone
I'm free

910784  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-02-16
Written: (6493 days ago)

Freak

Creative wording of disparaging metaphors
Feels like the ravaging of numb diabolic
Freak, yes, an outcast melancholic
Freak, an opposer of the ideal wars

Unanimous chorus of what's supposed to be
the ultimate existance of the clones of man's debris

Why do the devils not appear?


Batter the denied and the nauseous
Obliterate the dark and occult
Contain them, force them to grow on us


Convene the emuated similar slaves
to bring heretics to their early graves
Do not let them think that acceptance is bright
For those who are likings shall rule and have might

Lobbying at first, let those bullies run free
To tell others that it's not okay, to contrast
Or ever se one as a higher intelligence
for you must be down here with us

For kings and queens you struggling
With delusive dreams you keep juggling


Raid of taking mortals to the swarm
Disrupt their selection, instead harm


Poisonous damage, the authoritative suppression
Feels like it's growing, the disorderly rage
Negligible, the self-control in this trifling cage
I feel the growth of disorderly aggression

Unanimous treaty of the enticing reign
the inner pact of clones in man's domain

Why do the devils keep hiding?


Herds and layers of delusion
Make sure we're with the conclusion
that the ones distinct are in occlusion
That's a simply grim and firm sollution

Raid of taking mortals to the swarm
Disrupt their selection, instead harm
Catch the tranquil divergence alarm
It is time to clear our field


Batter the false and the cautious
Fight the illusionists
Bring them, make them imitate


Convene the emuated similar slaves
to bring heretics to their early graves
Do not let them think that acceptance is bright
For those who are likings shall rule and have might

Lobbying at first, let those bullies run free
To tell others that it's not okay, to contrast
Or ever se one as a higher intelligence
for you must be down here with us

For kings and queens you struggling
With delusive dreams you keep juggling

909794  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2007-02-14
Written: (6494 days ago)

Damnation And Misanthropy

Debris of a culture now forgotten
In a world where a reign subdued
every child in imperial rotten
state fixed on their bitter feud

All the children rise to observe
how armed men make their parents bleed
Give them what they deserve
for their tilt deed

Today is a reign reborn
An abandonment of all virtuous
Every word is a thorn
Every tongue shold be precarious


Man, a gregarious kind of plague
An insignificant disease lethal
All in forms unspoken and vague
Ever since neanderthal

Evermore under the Moon
Beyond Luna sought the reign conquest
Beyond all living logic swoon
We rose to become kings of the crest

Inevitable the journey towards death
still is, no matter the price you afford
No matter how clean your sheath
Your sword will still rust in the chord
of a melody that tells the tale
of your wretched soul that soared
Left behind it's most precious kale
stashed away in your earthly hoard


Given the chance to create
Given opportunity of a freedom fate
Instead, enticed we mate
Continue to ruin and to hate


Forever unforgiven for fruitless attempts
To enhance our being and might
Never alive could we feel the exempts
of the mind if we'd relieve insight

Debris, splinters, shattered wings
Bird of pray bites loose the flesh
Unaware of what the future brings
Unaware how all the pieces mesh

Lone wolves that's lost the pack
Sores in the flesh that never heals
Trying to follow a disrupted track
Of a blurry past that vaguely appeals


Beauty and justice came to a conclusion
That man could never contend them
So as the human race spread the diffusion,
the wounds
We saw we could never mend them

Never again, ever again
monstrous man can defy
The existance of the inside pain
that cause our way of awry

909793  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2007-02-14
Written: (6494 days ago)
Next in thread: 909797

Cravenbird

Is it perhaps Gods hand
that helped you take others' land?
Or maybe it is your own fault
that you're constantly scared of assault

You tell one tale
but implement another

Why should we really bother?


You could advance
with your guns and your bombs
But where's mr warlord himself?
Crouching behind his dear carved shelf
The bird flees, flies away from the battle
Tears falls as bullets rattle
outside the bunker
The steel-clad world of cowardice

Before the carnival of destruction
The nation of suppression question their chastity


Fear debilitates the heroic
The nation of cowards march forward
The moral drops and depress
and so prevents progress

Warriors claim the acts of valor as theirs
Suddenly someone answered their prayers

Malevolent progress of negligible resistance
All opposing ceases to be


You wave your flag
On stolen ground you insouciantly brag
of how you once took what was rightfully yours
But not how with violence
you sternly creeped those shores
Slain are the true dwellers
But that's distorted by the tellers

Enticed and gullible poor people
Sees naught but the tales of superior minds


Predictive folk of a violent nature
Slightly retarded and very naive
For this behaviour there is no cure
Every little truth will grieve

Ruling the world is a foremost perspective
Stay once and think is not present
Certainly not seing cosmos objective
Admitting your weakness is descent

You know that oil
is thicker than blood
And values surpass empathy


Cravenbird freeze in paralyzation
The nation of cowards falls
The brutal ones it cannot bless
for it prevents progress

Claiming the acts of valor as their own
but I doubt as the true cowardliness was shown

Vast performance of deeds patriotic
Though it seems that the leads where chaotic

901485  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2007-01-22
Written: (6518 days ago)
Next in thread: 902733

Malice Night

Mystic night of dark alignment imbues
That of which we truly care accrues
Taken away, our light to shine
Brought beneath to cicles nine

Our Hell of malevolence

On that night you lost your faith forever
Thine mental offspring you sever
Evermore in shadows lurk, you snake


Blight of your dimension of generosity
Your cruelty keeps eating your sanity
Foul now, your wield shut reasons
The end of your undead seasons


Yearning for the present Utopia
Man scents it's house with concealing avatars
Icons of diminished saints' doctrines
Carved with the mental metal splinters of dark faith
Sherds that undermines

During some of the darkest tides
Coming with the shadow hours
Capturing your virgin brides
Creatures that the human flesh devours


Contamination of the soul
That of creatures cruel in nature drains
Virtue of forgiveness, blood that rains


Maleficent abhorror crawler speaks
Behold how the snake turns to hiss at life
Bridge to the end of deficiency
To the time of complete proficiency

Our Hell of malevolence

On that night you gained a morbid satisfaction
Thy mind torn apart in the underworld
It is all inside yourself


Curious you tear apart the cloth
Looking into the box of cursed forbidden dreams
Recognizing paths that once lied clear
Now fallen in the abyss
Hooves clappers on that road, my friend

Closing now, a rider of will
Your knight in service gratitude
Here with means to kill
You hand him your dreams crude


Blight of your dimension of generosity
Your cruelty keeps eating your sanity
Foul now, your wield shut reasons
The end of your undead seasons


Rottening process of the soul
That of mankind cruel of nature drains
Virtue of forgiveness, bloodshed stains


Carnival of shadows dissuades
Tales of chastities, ultimate purity
The treaty of suppression
Vast ultimate sin's confession

Our Hell of malevolence

In the night you drop your principal path
In occurence of negligible ways
Forever you will be in decay

885527  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-12-11
Written: (6559 days ago)

Postapocalupticus Delusion Infinity

Satisfaction blurred by misdeeds
Foul atricities bless the sinful ones
Thus my inner anti-paradise
Flickers, then violates my disguise

Craven this hunt now feeds
lust and the covenant of eternal life
Thus songs of mysteries
Thine god you ashamed appease


Morbid juggling with human lives
Scarring them with divine knives
Guidance in life and death, deliverance
Towards the evil forces, a defence

But these walls, they fall so easy
Suddenly it's all reprise
of an unfair slavery
In vain you served that tyranny

Malformed is your destiny
Vague is your demise
Lost is your self-sufficiency
Try to understand this inadequate surmise


Kindness bows to insight withered
Master's people'll slowly go away
To fight for his divine sake
To bring the heathens blessing

Disrupt self-respect in the calling
to the master's house for judging
Whether you are worthy
Whether you will ever find salvation


There's a dirge of lost deliverance
In essence we escape reality
The vast one of our meagre true mortality
It torments our will and soul

The followers are religiously
malnourished
Stayed in ingenuous hope they would have
flourished

Thine belief affects it's pounded child
Youth is led astray
Undertaking what they believe is right and true
Completely lacking doubt

The herd of man is ignorant
It has scant awareness of life
The sunken eyes of the unblessed bleeds
I look away


Satin woman face gazes in sorrow
Take up your sword, soldier
Yet there is time to redeem
Angel eyes makes the delusion gleam

There are prizes for tomorrow
Glittering, celestial fruits of greatness
Forever more in Heaven blessed
Yet tricked, of holiness obsessed


Greetings from another cosmos
Forces you could never possess
So you give your soul that they assess
Then you're tossed into the arms of

hopeless aspiration, constant pain
Cursing thine religious bane
Trying to forget, forgive yourself
You look away


There's a dirge of lost deliverance
In essence we escape reality
The vast one of our meagre true mortality
It torments our will and soul

The followers are religiously
malnourished
Stayed in ingenuous hope they would have
flourished

Thine belief affects it's pounded child
Youth is led astray
Undertaking what they believe is right and true
Completely lacking doubt

The herd of man is ignorant
It has scant awareness of life
The sunken eyes of the unblessed bleeds
I look away


"The human deficiency of faith
is to be countered with the sermon of Our Truth
Thus we devour those heretics
and convert them to our loyal slaves"

Honest, naive, enticed, pious
Mind manipulation, bias
Unfree, unaware, ensnared
Make it seem like no one ever cared

885526  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-12-11
Written: (6559 days ago)

I That Spread The Evil

Morbid, see? This world falls
Slowly oblivion will take us back
We'll be brought when voices calls
to where we belong
Darkest hollows in the Earth
Forever, all too long
Can you see the hopelessness of birth?

My hands bring forth to you a new law
of kind that foretells of misery
Such sights you never before saw
Thus I advance
Sent here to disturb the peace
Awake you from this entice trance
See how your Bible pages crease

Tuned down to darkest of dark
Mankind slit it's wrists
Behold my unholy mark
Thus I reflect
mayhem, show your deepest respect
Watch your world all wrecked
Bow to me as I infect


Injected as a lethal syringe
As insight makes you cringe
Bow to me

As shadows grasp and hold
As dying makes you cold
Bow to me

Cut, slain like cattle
Fallen, helpless, not in battle
Bow to me, you creatures of ignorance
I demand of you in my intolerance
That you save yourselves and die
before you're sent to cry
in halls of suffering detestable
Exploring horrors so unspeakable


Morbid, see? This world falls
Slowly oblivion will take us back
We'll be brought when voices calls
to where we belong
Darkest hollows in the Earth
Forever, all too long
Can you see the hopelessness of birth?

My hands bring forth to you a new law
of kind that foretells of misery
Such sights you never before saw
Thus I advance
Sent here to disturb the peace
Awake you from this entice trance
See how your Bible pages crease

Tuned down to darkest of dark
Mankind slit it's wrists
Behold my unholy mark
Thus I reflect
mayhem, show your deepest respect
Watch your world all wrecked
Bow to me as I infect


Evil spread in flesh and bones
Can you hear the minor tones?
Bow to me

Music of decay, of the undead
Arose for me, plague-like spread
Bow to me

Mortify, kill son and daughter
Petrify, bring death and slaughter
Bow to me forever in the dark
Because you've achieved the mark
The plague of a thousand lives' sins
I am clad in burnt human skins
Be forever in hatred, detest
All alone you'll cross the dark forest


I, that arose from the shadow
I, that was sent to enslave

I am eternal, not regretable
I can not forgive

"Thou shalt obey your father and your mother
Thus I also ensnare your brother
Serpent of lord holy slaughter
I also enthrall your daughter"


Morbid, see? This world falls
Slowly oblivion will take us back
We'll be brought when voices calls
to where we belong
Darkest hollows in the Earth
Forever, all too long
Can you see the hopelessness of birth?

My hands bring forth to you a new law
of kind that foretells of misery
Such sights you never before saw
Thus I advance
Sent here to disturb the peace
Awake you from this entice trance
See how your Bible pages crease

Tuned down to darkest of dark
Mankind slit it's wrists
Behold my unholy mark
Thus I reflect
mayhem, show your deepest respect
Watch your world all wrecked
Bow to me as I infect

885525  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-12-11
Written: (6559 days ago)

God Is A Sadist

World apocalypse is near
Awaken is the fear
Judgement day control our way of life
Frightened, naive we obey

Pathetic worms of christianity
Masochists of the commands
Struggle all in vanity
Cannot see their strenght that stands
way beyond this self-inflicted suffering
Now feel the true pain that I will bring


God would never allow you to succeed
God would never allow you to be happy
God will test your faith until you
realize there's nothing to win

There is no heaven
There is no salvation
There will never be a paradise
God's kingdom'll never come
Because really
God is just a sadist bastard


Slayer of the soul, the Bible is
You bringers of the pleasure of His
This S/M symbiosis plight
An insane hypnosis blight

Wicked false religion hateful
In eternity you'll feel ungrateful
Despite you are beloved lambs
Struggling through your faith exams

He's the Father, he's the Son
He is Spirit, sky and sun
Long ago the world he begun
and in war He is your gun

Naive enticed fucking christians!


Forgive my hate, forgive my words
but your freedom is cut short
The afterlife cannot make up for all the
suffering you go through
during christian life


God would never allow you to succeed
God would never allow you to be happy
God will test your faith until you
realize there's nothing to win

There is no heaven
There is no salvation
There will never be a paradise
God's kingdom'll never come
Because really
God is just a sadist bastard


Jesus was a worm that crawled
before the feet of a pervert
and God watched as he enthralled
"His" people into a religious desert

There's no point in mortification
Flesh is just flesh, pain is eternal anyway
Worshipping is manipulation
It is masochism to pray

Enticed fucking god-lovers!
Mortify!


God would never allow you to succeed
God would never allow you to be happy
God will test your faith until you
realize there's nothing to win

There is no heaven
There is no salvation
There will never be a paradise
God's kingdom'll never come
Because really
God is just a sadist bastard

871602  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-11-06
Written: (6594 days ago)

The Fall

When I watch the leafs fall outside
I realize that nothing can remain the same
Broken path in mind
of a different kind, crooked and bent
from far away descent

Sloth and slain child
Throth in bane, gone wild
Prudence, pride in perfect
harmony, infinity
causing grudge becoming riled

Anger, rage in bitter sweet velocity
Accellerate into a dark atrocity
So utterly morbid this monstrocity

Show me the portal to my inner self
I will know when I'm there
what will become of my dying, crying
pathetic, blackened and damned soul


Proclaiming sensation
of my annihilation
Now this fall
See me, a thrall
of this percipitation squall

Death, take me in you arms
Breath, it violently harms me

Cry out all the condemned sins
that I have campaigned
But I never gained
forgiveness, I was drained
I just see how my face grins
I just feel like I am chained
None wins

Feels like autumn drought
Steals all that I fought for
It is pelting on my sore
Roughly beating me for more
Slaying my aching core
The core that was a slave to life

Carving my flesh like a knife
It bleeds
Seeds, growing

Black roots of poisoned disease
Enlights me of hopelessness
Decrease, my self awareness
Forcing down the last of fairness


The harmony that fills me with joy
is also the misery that causes sorrow
Rain and cold is autumn evening
To even breathe strains

Hopelessness grabs hold of me
Fear and anger rips me to pieces
Torn and hateful my wretched soul
Rises from it's cradle deep inside

So God, won't you help me now?
Where's your sense of empathy?
Where's your stretched out, divine hand
that will grab me, bring me to salvation?

Why won't you listen, incest lord?
Why do you lack of sympathy?

Given as a gift, this life
Returned to oblivion with a
sense of disappointment

Cure the illness
Cure this flesh from the filth of existance


Dying, fall in deprevation
Surreality burns, a dark reflection
Sun drowned, dead in blackened sky
Evening death without a cry

None will shed a tear
None will let the fear
force it's way through, consume
Poison with atrocious fume

Renounce Satanic fire burns
Recondemn the sins of turns in
wheels of deeper self-existance
Vague roars heard from a distance

Virginity long gone and restless
spiritual voices ringing in my ears

Unearthly pleasures ensnared my will
Dark truths left me fullfilled
Addictive powers starded slaugter
Fever of despair now forces me further down


Break myself, inhale the fumes
Coughing, blood-filled vomit
sprays the ground

I see myself hang from a tree
and my dead eyes can not see
My ears hear no sound

Dead I am, will be
Present is the horde
I wait to be bound

An infinite wall of shadows
Laughter so dark it swallows
all the light around


Suicidal complexity
is the last puzzle to my existance
I know answers to questions that
make minds twisted, craven, dead

Hopelessness will guide my hands
Rip my soul to pieces
Torn and hated memories
Boils up from deep inside

So Satan, won't you tempt me now?
Where's your sense of bussiness?
Where are helpul, demonic ways of yours
that will save me, bring me satisfaction?

Why won't none listen to my hoarse screams?
Why will you not accept my true words?

Received as a gift, this life
Returned now to dead with a
slight satisfaction

Save this wicked soul
Save this flesh from being living still


Proclaiming sensation
of my annihilation
Now this fall
See me, a thrall
of this percipitation squall

Death, take me in you arms
Breath, it violently harms me

Cry out all the condemned sins
that I have campaigned
But I never gained
forgiveness, I was drained
I just see how my face grins
I just feel like I am chained
None wins

Feels like autumn drought
Steals all that I fought for
It is pelting on my sore
Roughly beating me for more
Slaying my aching core
The core that was a slave to life

Carving my flesh like a knife
It bleeds
Seeds, growing

Black roots of poisoned disease
Enlights me of hopelessness
Decrease, my self awareness
Forcing down the last of fairness


"Drained of blooming life
Dreams of fire burning my skin
Rigid living, died, I'm slain
Orphant of humanity

I now die"


When I watch the leafs fall outside
I realize that nothing can remain the same
Broken path in mind
of a different kind, crooked and bent
from far away descent

Sloth and slain child
Throth in bane, gone wild
Prudence, pride in perfect
harmony, infinity
causing grudge becoming riled

Anger, rage in bitter sweet velocity
Accellerate into a dark atrocity
So utterly morbid this monstrocity

Show me the portal to my inner self
I will know when I'm there
what will become of my dying, crying
pathetic, blackened and damned soul


Dying, aching, burning
I see that my life is turning
black, it is the face
that for so long has slayed ablaze

I just need a thorny crown
a wooden cross layed down on
my back, soars that bleed and colour me
Even then you will not see

Martyrs are just deceived lambs
that has been lead down
Underneath the lords of truth
that proclaims the lies of the crown

I marvel at my own destiny
and now at last I will be put
to a well-earned rest
Death, take me in your arms

866422  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-10-23
Written: (6609 days ago)

Summer Killing Spree

In the latest evening hours
my purpose was revealed to me
This night has taught me what to be
The dawn came and made me see
This August summer day is for thee

Weaker minds, lesser souls
Prepare now to counter my hate
This rage makes me something else
Puts me in a fatal state

Summer day, summer night
Summon the prey, summon hate
Hear me
It is time for killing spree

Feast of showing detest
Horror show of corpse molest
It is truly for the best
Now that I can finally rest


When I was that close to death
Nearly lost inside myself
When my thoughts sought to destroy me
Then it suddenly appeared

A different perspective, yet familiar
Shaped as the face
That truly is mine
After a few days
It became my new draught craze


All those priests, grave sinners, feasts
People, worms of least importance
A slight difference, bitter cleanse
of all those dirty maggots, beasts

Cockroaches in slavery
In misery they beg of hope
Them scavangers, great blasphemers
A tyranny strangles, knots the rope

Hanging, crucifiction
Death is my addiction
It is time, for my prime
Summer season treason diction

(Summer season is here)

Women, children, I don't care
Equally I punish fair
We're all bad, if just merely
potentially, this slavery
will now be put to termination


With a blade, with guns and rifles
Advancing raid, a crusade trifles, leads
the redeeming process exceeds
I watch the foul nature as it bleeds

Do what you want, step on the weak
Those are meant to die under your feet
Crushed under the fist of nature's law
I felt euphoric from what I saw:
Faces from the victims that I beat

Cleansing, my hunt reveals
This berserker state deals
with the higher powers
Guardian towers, that seals
The gate to your inner soul purification

Grave and tragic is this magic
Black and raw, this kingdom law
That is what I saw...


A different perspective, yet familiar
Shaped as the face
That truly is mine
After a few days
It became my new draught craze


In the latest evening hours
my purpose was revealed to me
This night has taught me what to be
The dawn came and made me see
This August summer day is for thee

Weaker minds, lesser souls
Prepare now to counter my hate
This rage makes me something else
Puts me in a fatal state

Summer day, summer night
Summon the prey, summon hate
Hear me
It is time for killing spree

Feast of showing detest
Horror show of corpse molest
It is truly for the best
Now that I can finally rest


Feels like digging graves
for my little slaves
See, they do not know
That this lethal row
is for the low, lesser human
beings, meant to feed the crow

I murder in extatic sorrow
I'm a misanthropic hollow

The world does not belong to you


Coffins of the dead is buried
Children, parents sad and furied
Slightly honoured though
that they ended so
As clean martyrs free from sin
Just like Jesus, think they win,
but I know the truth about their kin
I spit on the graves that you lie in

Sealed shut now, the Gate
You know that's your fate
For too long you imprisoned your hate
It does not like to wait
It comes back to you to create
Fear and anger, a new dark trait
Swallow all the wrath you ate
Spit it out in murdering state

Killer season is now here
Corpses, bodies everywhere
Bloody human veins that shear
Sparkles as the redest tear

Finally it's all so clear
Scream for me, for the end is near


In the latest evening hours
my purpose was revealed to me
This night has taught me what to be
The dawn came and made me see
This August summer day is for thee

Weaker minds, lesser souls
Prepare now to counter my hate
This rage makes me something else
Puts me in a fatal state

Summer day, summer night
Summon the prey, summon hate
Hear me
It is time for killing spree

Feast of showing detest
Horror show of corpse molest
It is truly for the best
Now that I can finally rest


Let me tell you it hurts
I say that none can live
It is all for sake if kindness
Mankind deserves not to be

Horrifying it is, truly
But in my eyes you are cattle
Cattle in the slaughter house
Grinded, torn
Drenched in your own blood

All this madness
Soon all washed away


Holocaust of truth, of a purifying sake
I will make, sleuth the snake that
infiltrates the cross regim
So that I can start redeem the
heathen light heretics
Kill them, count three six figures
Five point stars in black that cures
this disease, I seize it
Swallow, spread in the flesh of yours

Behold!
This day has been a fruitful one
I've even worn out my gun
The blade of mine is red and dull
of dried blood and splinters of bones
I have saved a preacher's skull
In my head rings deafening tones

All those people I have killed
This crusade has left me thrilled
Still my joints ache from the slaughter
I cool myself in unholy water

It has been a perfect day to slay
I watch the evening sky
Tomorrow morning I will imply
that I am ready to die


In the latest evening hours
my purpose was revealed to me
This night has taught me what to be
The dawn came and made me see
This August summer day is for thee

Weaker minds, lesser souls
Prepare now to counter my hate
This rage makes me something else
Puts me in a fatal state

Summer day, summer night
Summon the prey, summon hate
Hear me
It is time for killing spree

Feast of showing detest
Horror show of corpse molest
It is truly for the best
Now that I can finally rest


Holocaust of truth, of a purifying sake
I will make, sleuth the snake that
infiltrates the cross regim
So that I can start redeem the
heathen light heretics
Kill them, count three six figures
Five point stars in black that cures
this disease, I seize it
Swallow, spread in the flesh of yours

Behold!
This day has been a fruitful one
I've even worn out my gun
The blade of mine is red and dull
of dried blood and splinters of bones
I have saved a preacher's skull
In my head rings deafening tones

All those people I have killed
This crusade has left me thrilled
Still my joints ache from the slaughter
I cool myself in unholy water

It has been a perfect day to slay
I watch the evening sky
Tomorrow morning I imply
that I am ready to die


In the latest evening hours
my purpose was revealed to me
This night has taught me what to be
The dawn came and made me see
This August summer day is for thee

Weaker minds, lesser souls
Prepare now to counter my hate
This rage makes me something else
Puts me in a fatal state

Summer day, summer night
Summon the prey, summon hate
Hear me
It is time for killing spree

Feast of showing detest
Horror show of corpse molest
It is truly for the best
Now that I can finally rest

865505  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2006-10-21
Written: (6611 days ago)

First Dawn Of Spring

Forced awaken, brought outside the
matter screen, saw a bitter scene
I abhorred the light that pierced my
eyes, pierced the night disguise

My tongue spoke the words of real
My hands broke the bonds, the seal
Cannot shine on what I feel
Wicked shrine of truth reveal

Bastards clad in thread of the dead
I am glad I bled in my own bed
Fiction, truth, I know what I said
Painfully it forced onto me

Roaring nightmares slayed my soul, the
bonds knot tighter around my wrist
Seconds became days so foul
Slowly I entered an inner mist


Since the dawn I've been walking
Stalking the shadow of an
ill remembered memory
Slowly growing agony

Memory is not intact, just a
vague message of a morbid fact
Enduring the image of the slaughter
Raping, murdering someone's daughter

I saw more than I wanted
Still I follow to know more
Nearly drowned in sodomy
I will share this blasphemy


Born in a hive, once you arrive
Your flickering gaze, passing into daze
Enduring, holding my breath
This smell reminds only of death

Springtime, burns at dawn
Heat makes the pain spawn
Intensifies the foggy insight
Grows into tormenting blight

None that sees it understands it
Inhumane to eyes that resist it
I was weak, it brought me all
Everything at once, it made me fall

My brains bleed, I suffocate
I have fought, but it's too late
Filthy fingers strangles me
I cut my eyes, avoid to see


We all awake
pure inside
First dawn of the first year
First light blinds us when it finds us

Spring time, deals with joy
First impression, makes thy naive
Bleeding skies and rotten soil
Breaks the painted mirror


Forced awaken, brought outside the
matter screen, saw a bitter scene
I abhorred the light that pierced my
eyes, pierced the night disguise

My tongue spoke the words of real
My hands broke the bonds, the seal
Cannot shine on what I feel
Wicked shrine of truth reveal

Bastards clad in thread of the dead
I am glad I bled in my own bed
Fiction, truth, I know what I said
Painfully it forced onto me

Roaring nightmares slayed my soul, the
bonds knot tighter around my wrist
Seconds became days so foul
Slowly I entered an inner mist


Vulnerable to even the rain
Feels like acid, burning pain
Savage thoughts, I'll go insane
Look at all that was slain

Couldn't you imagine death?
Couldn't you love your enemy?
Can I not accept my final breath
as my last hopeless try

To live
with this cognition

Roaring hoarse, my throat consumed
Though my learning is resumed
All those myths that was assumed
One by one disintegrated


We resist thoughts, so deep down
We refuse to even look
Peek at horrors, so amazed
It hurts

Frightened, but curious
We philosophise about
what I have got to
finally know

To see our final destiny
To know about our future death
Hopelessly I give up living
Slowly I will end


Fell in death, burned in Hell
Once again woke to despair
Consumed right where I dwell
Received those words I couldn't bear

What was the truth that made me die?
Forced me to a plane so high?
Shot me down like a hunted raven
Scared I ran away so craven

It was words that kept me flying
Though they told things that made me
truly wish that they were lying
I knew this was truths not meant to be

I cannot speak it, cannot tell it
So atrocius, can't even spell it
Horror revelations
Darkest creations

Blasphemies of all that is
That's what this world's made upon
Carved by rotten hands of His
Lucifer cadaver spawn

To accept, it took me time
It can be considered a crime to
even think it, to believe so dim
why this world is truly grim


Satan gave me a perspective
Satan gave me life
You could call my Satan master
You could call my mentor me

Thus I do not pray or worship
I'm enchanted by this truth
Power being as an offspring
of a bigger, holy hand

From the sky, or from the grave?
From above, or from beneath the
hollow in the earth?
Does it matter, does my birth?

Now I step on corpses, bodies
He will learn me how to fly
To become what you really are
takes most painful insight and to die


Misanthropy, constant pain
Misery in hopeless vain
Morbid curtains made of rain
Shades the evergrowing pain

Blurry minds and sinful thoughts
The mind breaks you when it sorts your
deeper self out, hate and sloth
Your real self just dwell in a cloth

Fallen angels, Judas kids
Do all that your god forbids
He's not mightier than you
Lay a fist upon Him too

"Creator
I see through your eyes
Creator
I see through their heathen lies"


Born, the hive
eats your mind, stains your gaze
Flickering, passing daze

Springtime, it burns
Intensifies the grinding pain
All is washed away in the April rain

None that sees it lives to tell
Inhumane they end up in a cell
where the mind belongs

Fear is not present
Agony and madness remains

On the surface, raw and torn
Behold the place where you were born
Filthy hollows in the mud
All washed away with the flood


We all awake
pure inside
First dawn of the first year
First light blinds us when it finds us

Spring time, deals with joy
First impression, makes thy naive
Bleeding skies and rotten soil
Breaks the painted mirror

Kill the god that was your master
Break the bonds that held you
Make room for vile disaster
Let the glowing embers weld you

865504  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-10-20
Written: (6611 days ago)

Love Forged In Cold Winter Snow

Held back by the fear
by those that you hold dear, and so;
see, when the morning comes you will
determine which path you shall go
My retina holds still your face
My eyes cannot but stare into space
Behold remembered beauty and grace
from another time and place

Fear of words from your soft lips
Shudder even in my fingertips, though
now we speak and breathe as one, please
forgive all the things I've done


Like a dead, dry rose I turn into dust
I've been fed, with herbs taking away my lust
Like a rose in winter time
My inside is utterly dead
The presence of an unknown pain in me
The darkest words I read, finally I see

Sleep and hunger, disintegrates in vain
Breath and sanity, mist and rain


Thus infected by a blessing
I can't bring forth what I'm missing
I can't speak at my confession
Thus I think I've learned my lesson


Held back by the fear
by those that you hold dear, and so;
see, when the morning comes you will
determine which path you shall go
My retina holds still your face
My eyes cannot but stare into space
Behold remembered beauty and grace
from another time and place

Fear of words from your soft lips
Shudder even in my fingertips, though
now we speak and breathe as one, please
forgive all the things I've done


I was unaware of scents like
these
A virginity was shattered in a
breeze, a sudden change
Love forged in the chilly winter
snow
Heavy breaths and a feeling starts to
grow, all suddenly so strange

Battled inner wars of blood and
hate
I lost, I won, became victim of
Fate
My chest is heavy on my strained
breaths
Though this is different from the many
deaths, I lived through


So light, so delicate
Completely silent on the hills
It's freezing, howling, but still I stand
Fighting the emotional thrills

A thousand weeds
dancing to the music of the wind
from afar, a symphony that feeds
on the fallen bodies of the mortal kin

Better be, uneternal
Better be a mayfly on the field
Thus this pain is not infernal
Thus death is my sword and shield


Meaningless feels all this grief
I know that I am a mess
Forgive me, a murdering thief
Forgive, give me your bless

Cold the winter, cold the snow
Shuddering in the morning breeze
To enlight me, force me to grow
To lift the pain, to slowly ease

Misery in depressed white
Blue my shallow, freezing veins
Battles over, no more fight
Falling from life, fall in blood stains


I was unaware of scents like
these
A virginity was shattered in a
breeze, a sudden change
Love forged in the chilly winter
snow
Heavy breaths and a feeling starts to
grow, all suddenly so strange

Battled inner wars of blood and
hate
I lost, I won, became victim of
Fate
My chest is heavy on my strained
breaths
Though this is different from the many
deaths, I lived through


Held back by the fear
by those that you hold dear, and so;
see, when the morning comes you will
determine which path you shall go
My retina holds still your face
My eyes cannot but stare into space
Behold remembered beauty and grace
from another time and place

Fear of words from your soft lips
Shudder even in my fingertips, though
now we speak and breathe as one, please
forgive all the things I've done


A velvet mist lay on my breath, shade
touching my eyes so that the glance
cannot catch sinister silhouettes
in between the snowflakes, in the
winter night I hide

A ghast of madness chewing on my
veins deep within, beloved soul is
now since long ago forgotten
A final kiss from her still
rubs my memory

A place so peaceful, dept for
all my suffering, not deserved
Cannot longer feel a limb in
winter night
Oh, every night, my bride

Born for purpose of just dying
away
Born to seek the silky touch of
loving mistress
Now I can see nothing but pure evil
and misery


Meaningless feels all this grief
I know that I am a mess
Forgive me, a murdering thief
Forgive, give me your bless

Cold the winter, cold the snow
Shuddering in the morning breeze
To enlight me, force me to grow
To lift the pain, to slowly ease

Misery in depressed white
Blue my shallow, freezing veins
Battles over, no more fight
Falling from life, fall in blood stains


Like a blade that cuts my chest
Like a morbid dream, I detest
Bloody carnage of my soul
Cradle heaved into the cold
snow, in the winter night

Roars of thunder from above
So unlike the gentle love I
once shared, with a being
so unique

I beg you, be my mistress
Even in death you are so beautiful


Like a dead, dry rose I turn into dust
I've been fed, with herbs taking away my lust
Like a rose in winter time
My inside is utterly dead
The presence of an unknown pain in me
The darkest words I read, finally I see

Sleep and hunger, disintegrates in vain
Breath and sanity, mist and rain


Mist and rain...
Forgive sins of blind lust
Memories torn apart to dust
I will go away shattered and
crooked

Damnation, hand in hand with
virgin love symphony
Crackled, broken, though alive
still my heart beats the dances of the
thrills that I now have forsaken


I was unaware of scents like
these
A virginity was shattered in a
breeze, a sudden change
Love forged in the chilly winter
snow
Heavy breaths and a feeling starts to
grow, all suddenly so strange

Battled inner wars of blood and
hate
I lost, I won, became victim of
Fate
My chest is heavy on my strained
breaths
Though this is different from the many
deaths, I lived through


Meaningless feels all this grief
I know that I am a mess
Forgive me, a murdering thief
Forgive, give me your bless

Cold the winter, cold the snow
Shuddering in the morning breeze
To enlight me, force me to grow
To lift the pain, to slowly ease

Misery in depressed white
Blue my shallow, freezing veins
Battles over, no more fight
Falling from life, fall in blood stains


So light, so delicate
Completely silent on the hills
It's freezing, howling, but still I stand
Fighting the emotional thrills

A thousand weeds
dancing to the music of the wind
from afar, a symphony that feeds
on the fallen bodies of the mortal kin

Better be, uneternal
Better be a mayfly on the field
Thus this pain is not infernal
Thus death is my sword and shield


Born to Hell, left a heaven
staring back at my dead eyes
Still I can make out the shadows
in the darkening clouds above
Snowflakes touches my strained skin, so
rough and torn from my long years

I belong somewhere else


Meaningless feels all this grief
I know that I am a mess
Forgive me, a murdering thief
Forgive, give me your bless

Cold the winter, cold the snow
Shuddering in the morning breeze
To enlight me, force me to grow
To lift the pain, to slowly ease

Misery in depressed white
Blue my shallow, freezing veins
Battles over, no more fight
Falling from life, fall in blood stains


I was sheltered but
once more
Dawn of insanity
crawled up inside me
Cushions of corpses did
brake my steep fall
But I will not rise no more
Finally I die
Once and for all


Held back by the fear
by those that you hold dear, and so;
see, when the morning comes you will
determine which path you shall go
My retina holds still your face
My eyes cannot but stare into space
Behold remembered beauty and grace
from another time and place

Fear of words from your soft lips
Shudder even in my fingertips, though
now we speak and breathe as one, please
forgive all the things I've done

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