Why is it that someone people think you always want to hear everything they are thinking? Then after you told them 8 times you don't caer they still except YOU to tell them exactly what THEY want to hear? Well I'm SOOO f-ing sorry that I can't please you. Personnaly I think it's best to say what's on your mind or say nothing at all. Still, it don't leave much cause to be nice to someone when they opening make fun of your to your face. For some strange reason most of the people I know about the the age of 13, keep in mind not ALL are like this, are very immature. Yes I realize even 17 year olds like me tend to be immature to, and I know I am sometimes to, but at least I take into consideration what I'm doing before it is said or done most of the time. Just a few minutes ago I told this kid about this singer I liked, after he begged for 15 mins, and then he started making fun of them. No this really didn't bother me to much since I didn't care, but they he started takeing his critizism out on me. He had told me that if I was like that singer he didn't want to know because he would never talk to me agian. I think it is stupid to base you opinion of someone strictly on how they dress or their beliefs. It's like saying I hate you because your name is Bob. It's putting a sterotype on everyone whether you know them or not. I guess it doesn't really matter to some people what's on the inside of a person but only the casing that can be seen. It takes true courage to look on the inside and find what is good within the heart, soul, and mind of someone instead on something that decays with age....
It's kinda funny how quickly a mood can change. For instance, I was having a really bad night last night and I was trying to write a poem to get myself to fel better. Well in the end my contact ended up floating around in my eye and fell out. I'm nearly blind without my contact in and these new ones have no tint at all so I had a hard time finding it on my white shirt. Needless to say when I found it I was laughing so hard that my sad train of thought was gone. Strange how things get twisted when one little thing happens.
I hate myself and all that's there,
Why am I so different it's just not fair
Everyone acts like their my friend
When everyone watches they act like I'm dead
Hidden below the skin in a pile of debris
Maybe there is just one person that sees the real me
But whose willing to care for this unwelcome guest
It's a feeling that just won't be repressed
can' think of the rest now...finish later
End Of Days
Darkness falls upon the day
All my hopes fade away
People leaving left and right
Why do I have this horrible plight?
People I love never return
All the years just seem to burn
The fire in my soul has gone away
Lead by a mind that has gone astray
Some may live while other die
Lost behind a darkened sky
I can't remember the happy face
All I see is an empty space
Now my time draws so near
The odd thing is I have no fear
Might I see the ones I love?
As my life fades with the passing dove
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In loving memory of the ones we've lost along the way.
Well this being my first entry I thought I'd make it umm lets see...interest