I have recently foolishly taken on the task of making and judging a contest, and would like to take a moment to shameless advertise it here.

Come and have a look at Shion-san's Creative Contest and feel free to enter anything that follows the guidlines! Fantasy, fiction, non-fiction, poetry, art and short stories are all accepted.

Thank you for your time!

Okay peoples; [jaderii] has finally gotten her contests together for voting. Being the good muffin I am, I'm notifying y'all.

Ja-Chan's Otaku Color Contest
Ja-Chan's Otaku Lineart Contest
Ja-Chan's Otaku Graphics Contest

[jaderii] and I encourage votes!

We All Fall Down

It’s not like you to turn away
It’s not like you to cry your heart out
But everything has the chance to change
So don’t worry when your world crashes
Since nothing’s worth the carnage
Of this blacked out day

We all fall down, we all fall down
And when we finally hit the ground
We have the chance to cry or dance
Just long enough before
We have to pick ourselves up again
Then we walk on together or alone

When your knees are scraped
And your face’s a mess
And all those lies they said are true
You don’t have to be strong
And you don’t have to hold on
Just let go and wait for the best fall
I think you’re brain’s been raped

We all fall down, we all fall down
And when we finally hit the ground
We have a chance to die or lie
For hours and hours more
Then we should get off the floor
And see if we can make it on our own

I don’t need you
Or your lies on lies on lies
You’re so untrue
And I love your disguise
But this is not worth anything
And you’re already dead
So let’s leave each other
I’m down in lieu

We all fall down, we all fall down
I don’t feel for you anymore
As cold as my apathy makes me
I can still survive
Fall down, you’re worth it
Fall down, it’s worth it
Fall down, break down

Cry for the first time in years
Die for the first time in years
Beg, whine and feel alone
On the top bunk of a one-bedroom home

You can be anyone
You are like everyone
You can be anyone
You want to be
When you get back onto your feet

We all fall down
You can fall down too
Even when that means
Turning into something new
You can fall down too
I won’t watch

But you’ll understand
When you’re left alone
In the darkness
Of the prettiest
Flower on the moon
Will you still smile
When you’re filled with gloom

There’s room for you in Heaven
And there’s room for you in Hell
Let’s see where you go
When you’re down for the count

We all fall down
And sometimes we cry
And sometimes we wish
That no one would ever die
We all fall down
And sometimes we pray
And sometimes we scream
That nothing’s okay
We all fall down
And sometimes we’re gone
And sometimes we get up
And have to move on

We all fall down
We all fall down
We all fall down
We all fall down
And sometimes that’s okay.

--Shion

poem. Between Hughes and my previous slump, it's rather actually perky, but relieving.

He-yo! I haven't journaled in like, ever, so I figured I'd write about some stuff happening to me. For no real reason.
Lately I've been overloaded by schoolwork!! TT.TT Har har. Yeah, but I still get time to look at manga and buy stuff! Like... "Petshop of Horrors", "Tokyo Babylon", "Gravitation" and "Samurai Deeper Kyo" to name a few. I've been drawing a lot of weird stuff lately, but I haven't messed up too much... it's pretty cool. I write too much... ANYWAYS... I can't write anymore here because I am super busy. Ha ha.

For anyone who comes here just passing through... Sorry there's not much here beyond poems.

Gray Scale Pain


I don’t hate people
I can’t hate at all
Somewhere under all this junk is a strict guideline
I think I made it up when I was eight
No way am I ever gonna hate
Nevertheless, I hurt
I hurt physically
Emotionally
In every way
All I do is hurt
All day, everyday
So this is what they meant by pain
Pain is all I have now
I hope it goes away soon
It’s killing me
Rule one: Breathe
Rule two: Don’t hate
Rule three: No disrespect
I don’t like these rules, but I try to follow
Why I made them up, I don’t know
But I have to do what I say
Or else I’ll wallow in pity
Die in a second under the pressure
Who said I had no reason to live
Well, that was me
I know, it’s bad
But I have to stay sad
If some one else is to see my smile
If I truly was happy
No one else would be
So I fake it all out
My mask is so pretty
Smiles and laughs
Like a straight line that goes on forever
I hope to kill this flower
I never liked roses
They gave me more pain
But I don’t like myself
So we must be the same
I never knew how much I was
Of all this gray scale pain