[//.:brown eyed girl.\\]'s diary

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Written about Friday 2004-10-01
Written: (7210 days ago)

the song that most reflects me


reflection


Look at me,
You may think you see who I really am
but you'll never know me
everyday, its as if i play a part


Now i see, if I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart



Who is that girl I see,
Staring straight back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside.



I am now,
in a world where I have to hide my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow I will show the world,
whats inside my heart,
and be loved for who I am.



Who is that girl I see,
staring straight back at me.
Why is my reflection someone I dont know,
must I pretend that i'm,
someone else for all time,
when will my reflection show who I am inside.



There's a heart that must be free to fly,
That burns with the need to know the reason why.



Why must we all conceal,
what we think,
how we feel.
Must there be a secret me i'm forced to hide.
I won't pretend that i'm,
someone else for all time.
When will my reflection show,
Who I am inside.
When will my reflection show,
Who I am inside.

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Written about Friday 2004-10-01
Written: (7210 days ago)

What is this feeling?
I've never felt it before
How can it be?
I don't know you at all



In so many ways
You've helped me see
What my life would be
Without you there



Please take my hand
I don't wana seem desperate
But just touching you
Being with you
Makes me feel cared
For…



Why do I feel this?
It cannot be love
Or could it possibly be?
We'll find out for sure


In so many ways
You've helped me see
I couldn't survive
With no you and me



Please take my hand
I don't wana seem desperate
But just touching you
Being with you
Makes me feel cared
For……….



Yes touching you
Being with you
Makes me…
Feel cared for!

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Written about Friday 2004-10-01
Written: (7210 days ago)

you dont know how much i love you
please stop pushing me away
i want to be yours forever
all i ever wanted was to be loved
by anyone but most of all you
your the only person for me
i hate the awful silence
i want to be in your arms
held so tight like you'll never let go
i need you so bad
please let me be yours



dont waste your time on me
im just another girl gone wrong
you know how i feel
dont make me spell it out
i wish you were in my arms
but it cant be
please please just forget me

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Written about Sunday 2004-09-26
Written: (7215 days ago)

im so sick of being single! it's like the guy i really wana be with lives so far away, in Turkey and then there's this other guy but he was telling me about this girl he liked all my friends have bf's and im always like the third wheel and i hate it but i dont wana hurt their feelings.

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Written about Wednesday 2004-09-15
Written: (7226 days ago)

so i sent Ercan a letter i cant wait to get one back! i really miss him! i feel stupid cos i hardly knew him but he was so lovely and hmm i think i might love him!

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Written about Monday 2004-09-13
Written: (7228 days ago)

god i really miss him , i think i might be in love, i know i hardly know and oh my god he lives so far away! in Turkey im not going to see him for a whole year! erkan was like no one i've ever met! he thought i was beautiful and didnt expect anything off me!
god i love him!

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Written about Saturday 2004-08-07
Written: (7265 days ago)

how do i feel? well how the fuck should i know? i know im me but im all mixed up! yeah i should be happy cos im going on holiday!
i feel so depressed! i dont know why i have no reason too! what is true love? will i ever find it and how come no guy ever wants me or loves me and then when there is one there is complications!
AM I MEANT TO BE SINGLE FOREVER?
well i feel so ugly and usless and the stupid anti-depressants aren't working anymore. i feel like i cant talk to anyone cos i might fuck them up but i also feel that when i talk to people its not even a relief cos i dont say how i feel and all i end up doing is getting a knife and cutting deeper and deeper!
im such a selfish friend! how can i do this to people?

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Written about Wednesday 2004-07-07
Written: (7296 days ago)

hmmm lost somewhere inbetween reality and dream!

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Written about Thursday 2004-05-27
Written: (7337 days ago)

awwww he said he loved me! yey! i hope he does i dont wana go all depressed and shut people out again!

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Written about Thursday 2004-05-27
Written: (7337 days ago)

i dont know what to do because i need to help him but i cant

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Written about Tuesday 2004-05-25
Written: (7339 days ago)

im still ill and im still missing adam i really love him

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Written about Tuesday 2004-05-25
Written: (7339 days ago)

aww im ill and i miss adam

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Written about Saturday 2004-02-14
Written: (7440 days ago)

hey diary! theres nothing 2 do!

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Written about Saturday 2004-02-14
Written: (7440 days ago)

its valentines day yey!

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Written about Friday 2004-02-13
Written: (7440 days ago)

im in love! yey! u kno who u r and u beta not b reading this!

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