im falling in love with michael!!!
yey happy happy happy!
thanx [A.D.D] *hugges you*
Michael your neva on wen im on!
*cries* lol
and u shpould turn ur mob on! i sent u a message
yey im really happy and you should know why!
yey im happy
i really dont know what to do
my depression isnt going away, im not on tablets at the moment i cant slee at all and adam the one thing that i thought was good in my life isnt going as well as i planned.
he'd rather be with his ex and all his friends all the time. i never see him
i really think he doesnt want to be with me
im so upset am i that bad?
i just had a dream
you died in my dream
it wasnt like any other dream
when i woke my throat was dry
the tears rolled down my face
i had a dream last night
you left me in my dream
i couldnt find you anywhere
i was all alone
like a lost soul
i had a dream last night
i was all alone
my family had gone
my throat was dry
they had died
no-one to talk too
i had to cry
i had a dream last night
then i awoke and it wasnt a dream
it was true
no you
just me
dry throat
wet cheeks
and all alone
happiness
love
what do these words mean
i'll never know
just feel
the emptiness that needs to be filled
the feeling when your star-crossed lovers
lips brush against your
skipping a heart beat
the firework
i love you i know i do
there nothing else but them going through your head
your numberone
the love of your life
all you need is love?
well thats a load of bullshit.
so im single and everyone thinks the guy i fancy likes someone else
hmmmm what to do!
is there anyone out there who will be my boyfriend?
*sniffles*
im being serious
???????
ISYANKAR
Korkma yaklas, hislerinle
Sanki bir adim attigini bilmez mi gönül?
Geçer mi ömür?
Istersen daglar daglar
Yerinden oynar oynar
Sabirsiz kalbim bir tek
Askina isyankar
Söz-Müzik: Mustafa Sandal
Düzenleme: Mustafa Sandal, Özgür Yedievli
the song that most reflects me
reflection
Look at me,
You may think you see who I really am
but you'll never know me
everyday, its as if i play a part
Now i see, if I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart
Who is that girl I see,
Staring straight back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside.
I am now,
in a world where I have to hide my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow I will show the world,
whats inside my heart,
and be loved for who I am.
Who is that girl I see,
staring straight back at me.
Why is my reflection someone I dont know,
must I pretend that i'm,
someone else for all time,
when will my reflection show who I am inside.
There's a heart that must be free to fly,
That burns with the need to know the reason why.
Why must we all conceal,
what we think,
how we feel.
Must there be a secret me i'm forced to hide.
I won't pretend that i'm,
someone else for all time.
When will my reflection show,
Who I am inside.
When will my reflection show,
Who I am inside.
What is this feeling?
I've never felt it before
How can it be?
I don't know you at all
In so many ways
You've helped me see
What my life would be
Without you there
Please take my hand
I don't wana seem desperate
But just touching you
Being with you
Makes me feel cared
For…
Why do I feel this?
It cannot be love
Or could it possibly be?
We'll find out for sure
In so many ways
You've helped me see
I couldn't survive
With no you and me
Please take my hand
I don't wana seem desperate
But just touching you
Being with you
Makes me feel cared
For……….
Yes touching you
Being with you
Makes me…
Feel cared for!
you dont know how much i love you
please stop pushing me away
i want to be yours forever
all i ever wanted was to be loved
by anyone but most of all you
your the only person for me
i hate the awful silence
i want to be in your arms
held so tight like you'll never let go
i need you so bad
please let me be yours
dont waste your time on me
im just another girl gone wrong
you know how i feel
dont make me spell it out
i wish you were in my arms
but it cant be
please please just forget me
im so sick of being single! it's like the guy i really wana be with lives so far away, in Turkey and then there's this other guy but he was telling me about this girl he liked all my friends have bf's and im always like the third wheel and i hate it but i dont wana hurt their feelings.
so i sent Ercan a letter i cant wait to get one back! i really miss him! i feel stupid cos i hardly knew him but he was so lovely and hmm i think i might love him!
god i really miss him , i think i might be in love, i know i hardly know and oh my god he lives so far away! in Turkey im not going to see him for a whole year! erkan was like no one i've ever met! he thought i was beautiful and didnt expect anything off me!
god i love him!
how do i feel? well how the fuck should i know? i know im me but im all mixed up! yeah i should be happy cos im going on holiday!
i feel so depressed! i dont know why i have no reason too! what is true love? will i ever find it and how come no guy ever wants me or loves me and then when there is one there is complications!
AM I MEANT TO BE SINGLE FOREVER?
well i feel so ugly and usless and the stupid anti-depressan
im such a selfish friend! how can i do this to people?
hmmm lost somewhere inbetween reality and dream!
awwww he said he loved me! yey! i hope he does i dont wana go all depressed and shut people out again!
i dont know what to do because i need to help him but i cant
im still ill and im still missing adam i really love him