Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?

I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
You wear me out.

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what they mean
(I'm not okay)
So be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!

I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
You wear me out.

Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took?
You said you read me like a book, but the pages are all torn and frayed

I'm okay.
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)

But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me)

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)

It's over and done

but the heartache lives on inside

And who's the one you're clinging to

instead of me tonight?



And where are you now, now that I need you?

Tears on my pillow wherever you go

I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean

You never see me fall apart



In the words of a broken heart

It's just emotion that's taken me over

Caught up in sorrow, lost in my soul

But if you don't come back

Come home to me, darling

Dont you know there's nobody left in this world

to hold me tight

Dont cha know there's nobody left in this world

to kiss goodnight

Goodnight, goodnight



I'm there at your side,

I'm part of all the things you are

But you've got a part of someone else

You've got to find your shining star



And where are you now, now that I need you?

Tears on my pillow wherever you go

T-Boz:
I wish I could tie you up in my shoes
Make you feel unpretty too
I was told I was beautiful
But what does that mean to you
Look into the mirror who's inside there
The one with the long hair
Same old me again today (yeah)

Chilli:
My outsides look cool
My insides are blue
Everytime I think I'm through
It's because of you
I've tried different ways
But it's all the same
At the end of the day
I have myself to blame
I'm just trippin'

Chorus:
T-Boz & Chilli:
You can buy your hair if it won't grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make-up that Mac can make
But if you can't look inside you
Find out who am I to
Be in the position to make me feel so damn unpretty

T-Boz & Chilli:
Never insecure until I met you
Now I'm in stupid
I used to be so cute to me
Just a little bit skinny
Why do I look to all these things
To keep you happy
Maybe get rid of you
And then I'll get back to me (hey)

Chilli:
My outsides look cool
My insides are blue
Everytime I think I'm through
It's because of you
I've tried different ways
But it's all the same
At the end of the day
I have myself to blame
I can't believe I'm trippin'

Chorus

Chorus

T-Boz & Chilli:
Oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh (oh)
Oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh (oh)

Chorus

Chorus

i had the best day ever today! my life seems to be going great!
i love you michael

The only guy i would trust with my life

im falling in love with michael!!!

yey happy happy happy!
thanx [A.D.D] *hugges you*

Michael your neva on wen im on!
*cries* lol
and u shpould turn ur mob on! i sent u a message

yey im really happy and you should know why!

yey im happy

i really dont know what to do
my depression isnt going away, im not on tablets at the moment i cant slee at all and adam the one thing that i thought was good in my life isnt going as well as i planned.
he'd rather be with his ex and all his friends all the time. i never see him
i really think he doesnt want to be with me
im so upset am i that bad?

i just had a dream
you died in my dream
it wasnt like any other dream
when i woke my throat was dry
the tears rolled down my face

i had a dream last night
you left me in my dream
i couldnt find you anywhere
i was all alone
like a lost soul

i had a dream last night
i was all alone
my family had gone
my throat was dry
they had died
no-one to talk too
i had to cry

i had a dream last night
then i awoke and it wasnt a dream
it was true
no you
just me
dry throat
wet cheeks
and all alone

happiness
love
what do these words mean
i'll never know
just feel
the emptiness that needs to be filled
the feeling when your star-crossed lovers
lips brush against your
skipping a heart beat
the firework
i love you i know i do
there nothing else but them going through your head
your numberone
the love of your life

all you need is love?
well thats a load of bullshit.
so im single and everyone thinks the guy i fancy likes someone else
hmmmm what to do!
is there anyone out there who will be my boyfriend?
*sniffles*
im being serious
???????

ISYANKAR
Korkma yaklas, hislerinle
Sanki bir adim attigini bilmez mi gönül?
Geçer mi ömür?


Istersen daglar daglar
Yerinden oynar oynar
Sabirsiz kalbim bir tek
Askina isyankar


Söz-Müzik: Mustafa Sandal
Düzenleme: Mustafa Sandal, Özgür Yedievli

the song that most reflects me


reflection


Look at me,
You may think you see who I really am
but you'll never know me
everyday, its as if i play a part


Now i see, if I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart



Who is that girl I see,
Staring straight back at me.
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside.



I am now,
in a world where I have to hide my heart,
and what I believe in.
But somehow I will show the world,
whats inside my heart,
and be loved for who I am.



Who is that girl I see,
staring straight back at me.
Why is my reflection someone I dont know,
must I pretend that i'm,
someone else for all time,
when will my reflection show who I am inside.



There's a heart that must be free to fly,
That burns with the need to know the reason why.



Why must we all conceal,
what we think,
how we feel.
Must there be a secret me i'm forced to hide.
I won't pretend that i'm,
someone else for all time.
When will my reflection show,
Who I am inside.
When will my reflection show,
Who I am inside.

What is this feeling?
I've never felt it before
How can it be?
I don't know you at all



In so many ways
You've helped me see
What my life would be
Without you there



Please take my hand
I don't wana seem desperate
But just touching you
Being with you
Makes me feel cared
For…



Why do I feel this?
It cannot be love
Or could it possibly be?
We'll find out for sure


In so many ways
You've helped me see
I couldn't survive
With no you and me



Please take my hand
I don't wana seem desperate
But just touching you
Being with you
Makes me feel cared
For……….



Yes touching you
Being with you
Makes me…
Feel cared for!

you dont know how much i love you
please stop pushing me away
i want to be yours forever
all i ever wanted was to be loved
by anyone but most of all you
your the only person for me
i hate the awful silence
i want to be in your arms
held so tight like you'll never let go
i need you so bad
please let me be yours



dont waste your time on me
im just another girl gone wrong
you know how i feel
dont make me spell it out
i wish you were in my arms
but it cant be
please please just forget me

im so sick of being single! it's like the guy i really wana be with lives so far away, in Turkey and then there's this other guy but he was telling me about this girl he liked all my friends have bf's and im always like the third wheel and i hate it but i dont wana hurt their feelings.

so i sent Ercan a letter i cant wait to get one back! i really miss him! i feel stupid cos i hardly knew him but he was so lovely and hmm i think i might love him!

god i really miss him , i think i might be in love, i know i hardly know and oh my god he lives so far away! in Turkey im not going to see him for a whole year! erkan was like no one i've ever met! he thought i was beautiful and didnt expect anything off me!
god i love him!