well i fucked up again my friend said she was gonna kill herself and its gonna be my fault cuz i couldnt stop her and its gonna be with me til i die so would someone plz tell me y im such a fuck up i can barely do anything right and its all my fault i hurt her i never meant to hurt her but i did and now im payin the price for what i did and its not a good thing cuz she has everything to live for shes to young to die i really hope she doesnt kill herself well i still hate myself and i will always hate myself i dont deserve to like myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself

im still trying to figure out what the fuck is wrong with me cuz i have almost drivin some very close to my heart to kill herself i feel like im the one who should be tryin to kill them selfs not her she doesnt deserve that like last nite i was almost walkin in the middle of the road cuz i wanted to get hit thats how bad i felt about hurtin that person and so i ask my self y am i like this y am i like my god damn father i dont want to be like him so y ask what the fuck is wrong with me that i could hurt the person that i didnt want to hurt my im such an asswhole and i fucking hate myself and probably will never like my self again i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself