wheeEEEee happy! need a hug off mo though, were talking more now and i suppose everythings going better than it was. ok, typical teenage diary stuff now. no money, no plans, no energy. need to do homework, want to see mo, jenny kissed phil! yes PHIL AND JENNY!!! aaaaAAAaaaAAAAaaaw. hmm, i think i may be being a bit too posessive of mo though, because of the fact he fancies jenny (and isnt afraid to let me know) then i was kindof hurt when he asked her for a hug and didnt hug me, what was worse is that he said "i love you so much" to jenny and he hardly ever says that to me :( i know he was probably jkust messing and jenny said he was but it just makes me wonder wether he loves me or the idea of loving someone. :(

oh crap, how did i go from being happy at the start of this entry then feeling posessive and lonely at the end. it makes no sense. -_-

crazy crap has went on in the past few weeks, me and mo are ok again but im not sure what i really feel anymore. i really do love him but when he said i tie him down and wear him out i just feltlike a burden he could do without. even when he apologised and said he loved it still didnt take back what he said and i find it hard to talk to him these days. its really easy to have a talk with is mate phil and my lad mates from school. i just wonder why he finds it so hard to open up to me if he expects me to do the same. :(

wowie, past week has been the greatest, dumped jay and got with mo...wheeEEEEEeeeeee! XD although one of my buds online seems to be ignoring me Yesh you know who you are *shakes fist* feeling much better and hopefully will be back in school this monday Yay! i was quite amused this morning actually, stupid disloyal sister of mine [ellessario] (happens to be 2 years older than me) decided to once again act like a childish brat during an argument with me, at least this time she didnt try to chew my hand, just threw my CD's around the room stupid bitch. then she took some of them into her room and tried her very best to hide them. as well as her CD's so i couldnt throw them round her room. much to her dismay when she gets back home though, shell realise i found BOTH piles of CD's and a whole load of books :P. i made a sculpture with them all in her not-so-tidy-any-more room. cant wait till mo gets home from school, i want to have a natter on the internet with him again, kinda worried about this whole party thing hes havin, i wont be allowed to go for certain *sobs* but i really want to go and ill be letting him down if i dont

spoke to mo for the first time today, good job he lives just on the other side of town, hes such a cool good looking guy and he said im hot *cheers* the only problem is he happens to be the leader of the squirrels and we all know squirrels are my mortal enemy *screams and shoots a squirrel* but we came to an arrangement. i implied that it would be ok if he ate a live criminal squirrel, he agreed as long as i done a striptease, wich i have yet to do *and probably never willl, mwhahahahaaa*
Anywhoooo, the tonsols are ok, still got swollen glands but swallowing is easier and it doesnt hurt so much when elmo is strangling me *shoots elmo as wel as the squirrel*
i have the strangest feeling that a friend is ignoring me though *cries* but ill live, i shall basque in the attention of others *sweeps hand to forehead dramatically*