Finally! We've reached Orlando! Here I am typing on my aunt's computer. The net is a bit slow but it will do just fine for now! I am happyliy counting down the days until La Nouba. Only three short days! I can't wait, I can't wait, I JUST CAN'T WAIT!
If you can tell by my mood, I was harrased by jackass hicks at my school again! Gunner said:
1. No one would want to go out with a girl who looked like a guy.
2. No guy will ever go out with me.
3. No guy will ever marry me.
He's such a jerk! i hope he dies and I hate him! Why does he have to be so mean to me?
Currently Playing
Severe Tire Damage
By They Might Be Giants
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- Birdhouse in your Soul
GAH! Today is not my day at all!
Okay, first of all my so called friend Scott has been calling me dumb and stupid! At frist, I shook it off because I thought he was joking and he's been in a bad mood but the more I thought about it, it made me think. Did he really mean it? Is he right? Am I really dumb? Then, I ended up crying on the bus because it really hurt my feelings and he wanted to talk but I just didn't feel like talking to him. He just to insensitive!
And the worse thing happened to me today! HICKY PLAYER ASKED ME TO HOMECOMING! ARGH! And he's broken up with his girlfriend so he's no after me! Some guys get the message that you don't want to go out with them but not HickPlayer! I better break out the rejection hot line numbers again!
My poor dairy! I've ingored it so!
But anyways...
School has been good and I have three thing going on with guys.
1. Rupert Look a Like- Rupert Grint is Ron Weasely from the HP movies and I already have a huge obbession with red heads so this guy is my total dream boat! I finally intreacted with him and now I thing he digs me!
2. Gunner- Gah! Gunner is a HICK! He's a freak and he likes me sadly. He wants my number and wants to go on a date with me. NO DICE BUDDY! I'm already pretending to have a boy friend and if that dosen't work, my friend Brit will pretend to be my girlfriend. Plus, he already has a girlfriend.
3. Mataeo- He's this really, really, REALLY cute guy who rides my bus, in my first peroid and my fourth period. Problem is he enjoys annoying me for some strange reason and everytime I give him my notebook he writes all these really dumb things in it!
Okay I don't know why on earth I did this and i really shouldn't have because no I'm kicking myself for it!
There's this really, really, REALLY annoying guy in my phyics class named Gunner and he's all like "Can i have your number?" Of course I say no because mom won't let me date yet until I'm 16. He told me liked me and I was like "Greattttttttt
I haven't written in my dairy in forever! Well, here it goes!
Tomorrow is the first day of a new school for me and the beginning of a new life as well. At my old school I was considered odd and all of the 8th graders (besides Jarred and a few) didn't accept me. Some asked me why I didn't speak like a black person. FYI you idot assholes! I'M NOT ENTIRELY BLACK! I just hate it when people think you should act a certian way just because of your skin color! It bites!
My neice got baptised today! Hooray!
And I finally finsihed my book! Now to find a publisher!
I feel much better! I still wish to escape reality! At my school I feel so out of place because I am different. I hate, hate it, hate! I wish I could just go to some place where I could be myself and everyone would love me for it!
Daddy's Little Defect
I, don't don't don't believe I fell asleep talk's a waste of time
The roller coaster that I rode with her on Valentines
And all I see I don't don't don't believe
And what you see is what you get with me
Wasting all your time
Going all the way, looking so helpless
Everyday
Daddy's little defect
All the same
Keep your secrets away from me
If you want to be mine
So don't don't don't make a sound your father's around to play with your head
The gift-wrapped guilt-trip kisses left you naked in your bed
And all I see don't don't don't believe
And all you see is what you get with me
Wasting all your time
Wasting all your time
Going all the way, looking so helpless
Everyday
Daddy's little defect
All the same
Keep your secrets away
Going all the way, looking so helpless
Everyday
Daddy's little defect
All the same
Keep your secrets away
Letting go
Letting go again
Letting go
Letting go and your left with nothing
Let go it will be aright
I, don't don't don't believe I fell asleep talk's a waste of time
The roller coaster that I rode with her
Wasting all your time
Wasting all your time
Going all the way, looking so helpless
Everyday
Daddy's little defect
All the same
Keep your secrets away
Going all the way, looking so helpless
Everyday
Daddy's little defect
All the same
Keep your secrets away
Going all the way
Going all the way
Going all the way, looking so helpless
Everyday
Daddy's little defect
All the same
Keep your secrets away
Waiting for you
If you wanna be mine
Preformed by and written bySugarcult
Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
And taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
A little bird who'll sing about the magic that was you and me
Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
What you and I spoke of
Others only dream of the love that I love
See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive
Now you and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
more importantly evolving is the glory of a boy
you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm already finally out of
and it's okay if you have go away
just remember the telephone works both ways
and if I never ever hear it ring
if nothing else I'll think the bells inside
have finally found you someone else and that's okay
cause I'll remember everything you sang
you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm already finally out of words.
Sung and written by Jason Mraz
"Come On"
And finally the silence
Looking out, looking back across the sky
Trying to find a meaning
Knowing that I just left it all behind
Still I smell a lingering softness
Where did she go
How did she go
I wanna wanna know
I wanna know that she'll be coming here to me
[CHORUS:]
Come on
Without you I'll never feel the love inside of me
Come on, you know that we belong
Come on, come on, come on, come on
Thinking back before her
I never knew the meaning of alone
Still the flag is feeling foreign
I live the day to escape into a phone
Speaking of a world not real then
Where did she go
How did she go
I wanna wanna know
I wanna know that she'll be coming here to me
[CHORUS]
Cause shes sharp for kisses
And my heart misses
She's coming
She's coming here to me
I'm needing
Desiring to kiss her now
I'm living for her
Breathing for her
Singing for her fairytale
[CHORUS (2x)]
Come on..
Sung and written by Ben Jelen
When are you gonna come down
When are you going to land
I should have stayed on the farm
I should have listened to my old man
You know you can't hold me forever
I didn't sign up with you
I'm not a present for your friends to open
This boy's too young to be singing the blues
So goodbye yellow brick road
Where the dogs of society howl
You can't plant me in your penthouse
I'm going back to my plough
Back to the howling old owl in the woods
Hunting the horny back toad
Oh I've finally decided my future lies
Beyond the yellow brick road
What do you think you'll do then
I bet that'll shoot down your plane
It'll take you a couple of vodka and tonics
To set you on your feet again
Maybe you'll get a replacement
There's plenty like me to be found
Mongrels who ain't got a penny
Sniffing for tidbits like you on the ground
Sung and written by Elton John
I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let it go
CHORUS:
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Trippin' out thinkin' there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... There's gotta be more
(Than wanting more)
I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half-way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing
CHORUS
I'm wanting more
I'm always waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed....
Always... Always...
CHORUS - repeat twice
More to life
There's gotta be more to life (more to life)
There's gotta be more to life (more)
More to my life
Written and sung by Stacie Orrico
Put your hands up if you know that you're a star
You better stand up if you know just who you are
Never give up never stay down
Girl Power Girl Power!!
Put your hands up if you know that you're a star
You better stand up if you know just who you are
Never give up never come to far
Girl Power Girl Power!!
I made mistakes before but I know I'm not perfect
It's okay 'cause who could ever be
As long as I give my best
It don't matter what no one says
'cause down in my heart I got the power to make it all happen
Put your hands up if you know that you're a star
You better stand up if you know just who you are
Never give up never stay down
Girl Power Girl Power!!
At times I may just feel like
Backin' through the wall
I hold my head up high
Keep on standin' tall
I know my back is covered
Because we have each other
We could do whatever
If you hear me put your hands up
Put your hands up if you know that you're a star
You better stand up if you know just who you are
Never give up never stay down
Girl Power Girl Power!!
Sometimes life may get you down
But you better hold your ground
Nobody can live your life but you
Stay true to who you are
And always follow your heart
Your heart, your heart
Put your hands up if you know that you're a star
You better stand up if you know just who you are
Never give up never stay down
Girl Power Girl Power!!
Sung by the Cheetah Girls