[Raziel Ahnara]'s diary
Bored... more of those lame-o list thingies.
What are you listening to?: The Used, "In Love and Death"
What are you watching?: Erm.. the monitor?
What time is it?: 5:15 PM, PT
What are you wearing?: Black tank top, blue jeans, white bra, underwear (you don't need to picture that :P) and no socks or shoes. Barefoot, bwaha!
Wanna cyber?: Ohh, yeha.. ohh, mmmm, babby, ohh, I whant u 2.... Get the fuck away from me, you sick perverted pedophile.
Hey baby, nice shoes...: Yeah? Well, your crotch can meet them if you really wanna push it.
What're you drinking?: Nothing at the present time.
Eating?: Spree candy. ^^ >.O Sour...
Got both hands on the keyboard?: Yeah, and that's where they'll stay.
You sure bout that?: You sick bastard, you really want to lose vital organs, don't you?
Who are you talkin’ to?: Not really talking to anyone, but I am singing.
What other windows do you have open? None. Simply Elftown, for it has consumed my home life. >.<
How bored are you?: Very. Care to be a victim of torture for the cure?
If you could be anywhere, where would you be?: Hmm... Probably anywhere that Jake was. ^^
Who would you be with?: Uhm, did I not just say Jake?
What would you be doing?: Oh.. nothing...ille
Written about Wednesday 2005-04-06
Written: (7172 days ago)
*Sigh* I've seen better days...
Bliss
By: [Raziel Ahnara]
I love spending hours alone
Just knowing you're here to please, and be my man
Hearing your breath escape your lips
It's all total bliss
Whether it's on the computer, on the phone
You bring a smile like no one else can
All my worries rush away at the lightest brush of your fingertips
It's all total bliss
Thoughts of you bring me to the brink
You fulfill my desires with a simple smile
Heaven is revealed in only one of your kisses
It's all total bliss
Such euphoria, I can't even think
You've only been holding me a little while
Help me discover what I've been missin'
It'll never get better than this
4/2/05
Monty Python and Mel Brooks:
Fucking Geniuses
Let It Bleed
The UsedThis poison's my intoxication
broke the needle off in my skin
picked the scab and picked the bleeding
and assumed that it was all in vain
A positive scab that's never healing
Calloused hit me in the face
A burning bridge that's so misleading
Poison's more potent now with the flame
Let it bleed
Take the red for what it's worth woah
Watch the fire
Fill your lungs with smoke for the last time
If you feel like dying you might wanna sing
The fire department couldn't drown the city
They didn't even try to wash it clean
And what did you think that I was sober?
Put me out cause I'm on fucking fire
A positive scab that's never healing
Regret that I kept this clean
The most that I can do for you is keep on lying
It's not a lie if you can let it sing
Let it bleed
Take the red for what it's worth woah
Watch the fire
Fill your lungs with smoke for the last time
If you feel like dying you might wanna sing!
Ohoh you might wanna sing
Ahaha you might wanna sing
Hahah you might wanna sing
Hahahaha sing!
You might wanna sing!
You might wanna sing!
You might wanna sing or scream at...
This poison's my intoxication
broke the needle off in my skin
Picked the scab and picked the bleeding
And yeah.. assumed that it was all in vain
Let it bleed
Take the red for what it's worth, woah
Watch the fire
I'mma fill your lungs with smoke for the last time
If you feel like dying
If you feel like dying
If you feel like dying, You might wanna sing
Hahaha You might wanna sing
Haha You might wanna sing
Sound Effects and Overdramatics
The UsedWhen the shirt came off, it was all in time
When a minute turned into a mile
And then I broke that grin, and I cut it out
And you got all turned on by the taste of your sin
When I mention blue, all you thought was color
When you mention drugs, all I thought was sober
When your pants came off and I turned you over
When you mention blue
Kill, smile, cut it out for me this time
This is not a smile, haven't seen him smile in a little while
Keep the mask aligned
Get it up in time
There's a space between valleys
and try and catch a vibe
Make a circle square, a rectangle curve
Use a smile as a noun and I think like a verb
Run quick switch sides
Spill the filled up canister
And the room is shaking
Now you're changing places,
and I switched my pace,
and my breathing races when you mention blue
Kill, smile, cut it out for me this time
This is not a smile haven't seen him smile in a little while
Kill, smile, cut it out for me this time
This is not a smile haven't seen him smile in a little while
Kill, smile, cut out for me cut it cut it out
Smile, cut it out for me cut it cut it out
We cut it out
Get down and stay awake
Smile
Lay it Down
AerosmithRuby red, her lips were on fire
A do me with a kiss if you please
Tell me what your sweetheart desires
Tell me how you want it to be
'Cause if it's love you want
Then you won't mind a little tenderness
That sometimes is so hard to find
(Lay it down)
Lay it down
Make it alright
(Lay it down)
Lay it down
I'll hold you so tight
(Lay it down)
Oh... before the morning light
It's gonna be alright
Oh... lay it down
Come and lay it down tonight
Tell me how you feel when we make love
Tell me is it real or just make believe
You will never know what your made of
'Til you open up your heart to receive
'Cause if the love you got that same old crime
We're talkin' tenderness that's so hard to find
And I'm gettin' behind you
(Lay it down)
Lay it down
Make it alright
(Lay it down)
A lay it down
I'll hold you so tight
(Lay it down)
Yeah... before the morning light
It's gonna be alright
Oh... lay it down
Come and lay it down tonight
Do you remember them times talkin' in your sleep
With a pocket full'a rubbers you never could keep
From your best friends lover you dreamt about then
When you pullin' up the covers the voices in your head
Say if you want it bad
Don't ever let it slip away
'Cause if it's love you want and tenderness... yeah
(Lay it down)
Lay it down
Make it alright
(Lay it down)
Lay it down
I'll hold you so tight
(Lay it down)
Oh... before the morning light
It's gonna be alright
Oh... lay it down
Gonna lay it down tonight
Gonna come around tonight
You gotta lay it down
Jakey madesh! ^_^ I wuvvles!
Yesterday's Feelings
The UsedClose my eyes and move to the back of my mind
Where worries are washed out to sea
See the changes, people's faces blurred out
Like the sun spots or raindrops
Now all those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time
but today I've wasted away for today is on my mind
Left the only worries I had in my hands
Away from the light in my eyes
Holding tight and try not to hide how I feel
'Cause feelings mean nothing now
All those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time
but today I've wasted away for today is on my mind
(yeah today is on my mind)
Now I can't care to worry
I'm feeling so lonely
Breaking apart all this love in my heart
Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind
Where feelings mean nothing now
All those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time (all be lost in time)
But today I've wasted away for today is on my mind
for today is on my mind
yeah today is on my mind
Now I can't care to worry
I'm feeling so lonely
Breaking apart all this love in my heart
~STUPID QUESTIONS~
[Spell your first name backwards]: erdieD
[The story behind your Elftown name]- Raziel Ahnara came from a modern day fantasy story of twin elf siblings. Raziel (the male) and Ahnara (the female) were brother and sister, but I liked their names, so I decided to make it my name. ^^
[Where do you live?]: Oregon
{DESCRIBE YOUR}
[Wallet]: It's a plain one. I wrote on it in silver marker, though...
[Jewellery you wear daily]: Um... none.
[Pillow cover]: Leopard print
[Coffee cup]: Dutch Bros.
[CD in stereo right now]: The Used "In Love and Death"
[What are you are wearing now]: My purple pajamas with a hood on the shirt plus little star on the bottom. And on my pants, there's a little horeshoe, and around it, it says "Lucky to have me". ^^
[In my mouth]: Er.. air? My tongue? What's the correct answer?! I was on the moon! With Steve!
[In my head]: A brain...?
[Eating]: Nothing
[Some of your favourite movies]: Hmm.. Rocky Horror Picture Show, Robin Hood: Men in Tights, Monty Python and the Holy Grail, etc.
[Something you're looking forward to]: Summer... Disney World and a visit to Jakey. ^_^ Yay!
[The last thing you ate]: Jambalya (dinner)
[Something that you are deathly afraid of?]: Being alone and helpless.
[Do you like candles?] Depends on whether or not they're scented, and if they are, it also depends on what scent.
[Do you believe in a thing called love]: I believe in a thing called love, just listen to the rhythm of my heart, there's a chance we can make it now, we'll be rockin' till the sun goes down, I believe in a thing called looooooooooooo
[Do you believe in soul mates?]: Hmm... Let's see... A little more than a year ago, I met the one person that turned my whole life around for the better, and we are a perfect match. What does that tell you?
[Do you believe in love at first sight]: But of course. ^^
[Do you believe in forgiveness]: "Forgiveness is the key to our unhappiness." - Affirmation, Savage Garden
[If you could have any animal for a pet]: Hmm... Either a crow, a snake, or another kitty (or two ^_~)
[What are 2 places you wouldn't mind relocating to?]: California (more accurately, whereever Jakey is), aaaaaaaaaaaaan
[one of your favorite pig out foods?]: Pepperoni Pizza!!!
[Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?]: Oh god, yes. I haven't seen my Jakey-bear in 2 and a half months... *sniff*
{In the last 24 hours, have you:}
[Cried:] Almost, but no.
[Gotten sick:] I think I might be sick now. >.<
[Sang:] A little, yeah.
[Eaten:] A little more than 2 hours ago. ^^
[Felt stupid:] Always, er.. I mean.... Uh.. Next question.
[Hugged someone:] Tee hee! Yup. Hugging and poking people ish fun. ^^ I poked my mom earlier, and it made her squirm. It was funny.
[Met someone new]: I met someone new yesterday. His name's Chris. We played a couple games of Shaft, and he beat me. >.< Garr on his luck.
[Talked to an ex]: Ex? What is this ex you speak of?
[Talked to someone you have a crush on]: Yup. Jakey. But shhhh! He doesn't know! ^_~
[Fought with your parents:] Just an hour or so ago... >.<
[Dreamed about someone you can't be with:] No. Unless you mean in a physical sense. Then yeah, all the time. *Sniff* I miss my Jakey!
[Are you center of attention or the wallflower:] I'm no social butterfly, but I'm no hermit, either.
[What type of automobile do you drive]: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
[Would u rather be with friends or on a date:] Hmm... Well, if it's a date with Jakey, then the date. If it's not, then my friends.
[Do you attend church:] Not really. I used to.
[Do you like being around people:] My friends and my loverly Jakey. ^^
[Who have you known the longest:] Uh... *shrugs* Jakey?
[who do you argue the most with:] My mom.
[Who do you always get along with:] Jakey. ^_^
[Who has the coolest sibling(s):] No one, I think. Everyone has a pain in the ass sib.
[Who is the smartest:] Einstein?
[Who is your Hero:] Kirby!!!!!! Dun dun dun duuuuuuuuuuuuu
Lookielookielo
Look at what [Morrigon] maded for mees and Jakey!
I LOVE IT, HON! THANK YOU SOOOOOOOO MUCH!
Jakey sent this to you at about 12:30 last night! ^_________^
"If you kissed my cheek once,
I'd return it times four.
If you asked of me why
I'd give you one more.
If you smiled and blushed
A pretty bright red,
I'd kiss not your cheek,
But your cute smile instead.
If you said not a word
I'd say one of two
Would you think
Me too silly
If I said
'I love you'?"
ISN'T HE ADORABLE?! ^________^ *Huggles Jakey*
God, you're selfish...