[Raziel Ahnara]'s diary

566803 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2005-05-02
Written: (7145 days ago)

Emerenemeh

Translation: I miss you

*Eh-mere-eh-nem-eh

565249 Link to this entry
Written about Saturday 2005-04-30
Written: (7147 days ago)

Blow Away

Staind

Live in my head for just one day
I see myself and look away
The road is showing now on my face
Soon I'll disappear with
I'll disappear without a fucking trace

Faces that I've seen turn old and grey
I've lost too many friends along the way
Memories I never thought would fade
They fade and blow away

I wish that I could disappear
Unzip my skin and leave it here
So I could be no one again
And never let nobody,
I'd let nobody
I'd let nobody in

Faces that I've seen turn old and grey
I've lost too many friends along the way
Memories I never thought would fade
They fade and blow away

So now the walls are closing in
Because in life you sink or swim
Sometimes these shoes don't feel right in my head
Feel like a book that can't be,
A book that can't be,
A book that can't be read

Faces that I've seen turn old and grey
I've lost too many friends along the way
Memories I never thought would fade
They fade and blow away

564851 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2005-04-29
Written: (7148 days ago)

Realization of the Moment:

Mood is Doom backwards (and vice versa).

564845 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2005-04-29
Written: (7148 days ago)

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One of the best quotes ever...

"Everyone is entitled to stupidity, but you're abusing the privilege."

561715 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-04-26
Written: (7151 days ago)

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That's just mean. My mother and my boyfriend are ganging up on me. There's just something wrong with that alliance. >.<

560638 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2005-04-24
Written: (7152 days ago)

Spin

Darren Hayes

Governments elected nobody votes
Politically correct isn't that a joke?
We censor music then give children guns
On CNN
Still fightin' to death over Jerusalem
Four letter disease still makes us run
Can't comprehend that you can die from
Love

Can I start things over
And change your mind?
Can I sing a melody
Press rewind
Can I move your feet make your heart skip a beat
Can a simple tune flow through you?

When the music feels like this
When you lose control you gotta go with it
Ten feet high
Flyin' above the sky
Your problems don't exist
When music feels like this

No money left in Africa
Starvin' to death
In Bosnia we close our eyes and hide a nation cries
And In the West
TV Possessed and weight obsessed
The media dissects, infects
We think real life is reality TV

Can I have your attention
And press rewind
When the DJ spins
Will it change your mind?
Can I move your feet
Make your heart skip a beat
Can a piece of me
Flow through you?

When the music feels like this
When you lose control you gotta go with it
Ten feet high
Flying above the sky
Your problems don't exist
When music feels like this

When the music feels like this
DJ take control and grab a hold of me
Spin that wheel
Tell me how to feel
I like the shape I'm in
When music feels like this

Bringin' the beat back
Stompin' the floor
Dancin' like a booty never bounced before
Poppin' to the back beat
Up on the one
Smack Jack
Freakin' now you're overcome

When the music feels like this
When you lose control you gotta go with it
Ten feet high
Flying above the sky
Your problems don't exist
When music feels like this

When the music feels like this
DJ take control and grab a hold of me
Spin that wheel
Tell me how to feel
I like the shape I'm in
When music feels like this

Let the music in
Let the DJ spin
Let the music in
'Coz the music should feel like this
Feel the music

556040 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-04-19
Written: (7158 days ago)

Falling in Love (Is Hard on the Knees)

Aerosmith

You're so bad, you're so bad, you're so
You're so bad, you're so bad

You think you're in love
Like it's a real sure thing
But every time you fall
You get your ass in a sling
You used to be strong
But now it's ooh baby please
'Cause falling in love is so hard on the knees

We was making love when you told me that you loved me
I thought ol' cupid he was taking aim
I was believer when you told me that you loved me
And then you called me someone elses name

There ain't gonna be no more beggin' you please
You know what I want
And it ain't one of these
You're bad to the bone
And your girlfriend agrees
That falling in love is so hard on the knees

You're so bad you're so bad you're so bad
You're so bad you're so bad

Chip off the old block
Man you're so much like your sister
My fantasize it must be out of luck
My old labido has been blowing a transistor
I feel like I have been hit by a fuck

Yeah

I'm Jonesin' on love
Yeah I got the DT's
You say that we will but there ain't no guarentees
I'm major in love
But in all minor keys
'Cause falling in love is so hard on the knees

What are you looking for
It's got to be hard core
Must be some kind of nouveau riche

Is this your only chance
Or some hypnotic trance
Let's get you on a tighter leash

Own it, own it, own it!

You're so bad you're so bad you're so bad
You're so bad you're so bad

You Ain't that good
Is what you said down to the letter
But you like the way I hold the microphone
Sometimes I'm good but when I'm bad
I'm even better
Don't give me no lip
I've got enough of my own

There ain't gonna be no more beggin' you please
You know what I want
And it ain't one of these
You're bad to the bone and your girlfriend agrees
That falling in love is so hard on the knees

I'm Jonesin' on love
Yeah I got the DT's
You say that we will yeah
But there ain't no gurantees
I'm major in love
But in all minor keys
'Cause falling in love is so hard on the knees

Things in bold are my favorite lines. ^_~

555587 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-04-19
Written: (7158 days ago)

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Hopefully, the page'll work...

http://www.electric-manga.com/Error/error.html

555195 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2005-04-18
Written: (7159 days ago)

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Hmm... to change the house again... or not to change the house again... THAT is the question.......... *dramatic pose*

552139 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2005-04-15
Written: (7162 days ago)

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HEY!!! YO! What the hell?!

Sorry. You needed to yell at your body for a minute.
Why?
You would love to know why you're losing so much sleep, is why. Tuesday night, you didn't get to sleep till almost 2:30 (or somewhere around there, you can't really remember). Wednesday night, you didn't sleep at all. Last night, you went to bed and were IN bed at 12:00. You didn't fall asleep for the first time until 3:00 AM. Then you woke up every half hour after that.

3:30
...
4:00
...
4:30
...
5:00
...
5:30
...
6:00
...
6:30
...

When 7:00 finally rolled around, mom woke you up. She asked if you wanted to go with them this morning. You said yes because otherwise you'd never make it to school. You've been going on very little sleep since 7:00 this morn...

So, to say the very least...

You are fucking exhausted.

550827 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-04-14
Written: (7163 days ago)

Bed of Lies

Matchbox 20

No I would not sleep in this bed of lies
So toss me out and turn in
And there'll be no rest for these tired eyes
I'm marking it down to learning
I am

I don't think that I can take another empty moment
I don't think that I can fake another hollow smile
It's not enough just to be lonely
I don't think that I could take another talk about it

Just like me you've got needs
And they're only a whisper away
And we softly surrender
To these lives that we've tendered away

But I would not sleep in this bed of lies
So toss me out and turn in
And there'll be no rest for these tired eyes
I'm marking it down to learning
I'm marking it down to learning
'Cause I can

I don't wanna be the one who turns the whole thing over
I don't wanna be somewhere where I just don't belong
Well it's not enough just be sorry
Don't you know I feel the darkness closing in

Tried to be more than me
And I gave till it all went away
And we've only surrendered
To the worst part, yeah, of these winters that we've made

But I would not sleep in this bed of lies
So toss me out and turn in
And there'll be no rest for these tired eyes
I'm marking it down to learning
I'm marking it down to learning
I am...

All that I'll ever be
When you lay your hands
Over me
And don't go weak on me please
I know that it's weak
But God help me I need this

I would not sleep in this bed of lies
So toss me out and turn in
And there'll be no rest for these tired eyes
I'm marking it down to learning
I'm marking it down to learning
'Cause I can

I don't think I'll sleep tonight...

550647 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-04-14
Written: (7163 days ago)

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Garr... Jake gets to go to a Velver Revolver/Hoobastank concert... >.< Lucky.

*Sniff*

Not only will I miss him, but he gets to go to an awesome concert (this is starting to sound familiar... *cough*KORNCONCERT*cough*). Mer. I wanna' go! *Pouts*

549627 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2005-04-13
Written: (7164 days ago)

I am: so lucky to be alive, and what's more, to have my darling Jake in my life.
I want: to be in the arms of my love.
I have: the most wonderful time when I'm with him.
I wish: others could know what it feels like to feel so loved... to feel so happy.
I hate: hurting anyone, namely Jake. If (or when) I do, it hurts unbearably.
I miss: being able to hold and be held by Jake.
I fear: being alone and hated.
I hear: his voice, and all is right again.
I search: for a way to be with Jake again.
I wonder: if I really deserve all I have, including Jake.
I regret: being insecure. I don't want it to be Jake's responsibilty to make me feel better about myself.
I love: my teddy bear, Jacob Navarro. Eventually, I will marry him, and all will be right. ^^
I always: think about him (and who says that's a bad thing? ^_^).
I am not: unhappy with my life, or my relatoinship. Not in the very least.
I cry: whenever I have to watch him leave, but I know in my heart it won't be the last time I see him at all.\

I love you, Jake. ^^

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