[Raziel Ahnara]'s diary

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Written about Wednesday 2005-06-15
Written: (7101 days ago)

Last day!

Final exams went as follows (for the week):

Spanish ~ Oral Final (Monday): Did okay. Not as bad as expected. 255/300 possible points (B+).

Spanish ~Vocabulary Final (Wednesday): Wonderful. Missed maybe three or four. Expect an A. Anything less will be a disappointment.

Science ~ Biology Final (Wednesday): Pretty well, missed a few, but did fine overall. Expect at least a B.


Whew! End of the year rocks! ^_^ And I brought a pair of pants to school for people to sign... Couldn't find a white shirt. ^^;

This doesn't mean I'm wearing the pants as they're being signed. And yes, I'm wearing clothing, worry not. I be wearing a tanky top (it's a new development :P) and skirt. ^^ It would be bad to wear the pants as they're being signed, because my friends (*coughK-Sancough*) have a strange sense of humor, and might attempt to sign the rear or the crotch of the pants while I would be wearing them. Shame shame, no? :P

Anywho, happy me! Summer is here! ^__________^

Maybe when it's not that time of the month, I'll celebrate properly. Right now, sleep sounds REALLY good. I'll do that when I get home, I think. ^^

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Written about Monday 2005-06-13
Written: (7102 days ago)

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Commandment the First ~~ Thou wilst not fucketh with me when in one of mine "moods".

Commandment the Second ~~ Thou wilst not pester mine friends, or thou shalt suffereth mine torture.

Commandment the Third ~~ Thou wilst burn in hell before thee attempteth to annoy mine significant other.

Commandment the Fourth ~~ Thou wilst beith nice to me, or I shalt returneth thine rude behavior.

Commandment the Fifth ~~ Thou wilst not pester me with rude comments regarding mine appearance.

Commandment the Sixth ~~ Thou wilst not pester me with rude comments regarding mine affirmations.

Commandment the Seventh ~~ Thou wilst become a eunuch before thee pestereth mine comrades (whom beith involved).

Commandment the Eighth ~~ Should thou sendeth me a message, beith sure it contains correct grammar.

Commandment the Ninth ~~ Thou wilst respecteth mine thoughts and feelings (and thou wilst haveth mine respect of thee's thoughts and feelings in return).

Commandment the Tenth ~~ Thou wilst abide by thine Elftown rule: Beith not an asshole.


Idea borrowed from [Akiame]. But she's being pretty awesome, so I won't be hurt (too much). Go see her wiki:
Kate's Campaign of Terror
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Written about Saturday 2005-06-11
Written: (7105 days ago)

You Gotta' Be

Des'ree

Listen as your day unfolds,
Challenge what the future holds
Try to keep your head up to the sky
Lovers they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
Stand up and be counted,
Don't be shamed to cry
You gotta be..

You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold,
You gotta be wiser
You gotta be hard, you gotta be tough,
You gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm,
You gotta stick together.
All I know, all I know
Love will save the day

Herald what your mother said
Read the books your father read
Try to solve the puzzle
In your own sweet time
Some may have more cash than you
Others take a different view
My oh my, hey hey hey

You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold,
You gotta be wiser
You gotta be hard, you gotta be tough,
You gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm,
You gotta stick together.
All I know, all I know
Love will save the day

Time asks no questions, it goes on without you
Leaving you behind if you can't stand the pace
The world keeps on spinning, can't stop it if you tried to
The best part is danger staring you in the face

Remember
Listen as your day unfolds,
Challenge what the future holds
Try to keep your head up to the sky
Lovers they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
My, oh my....

You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold,
You gotta be wiser
You gotta be hard, you gotta be tough,
You gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm,
You gotta stick together.
All I know, all I know
Love will save the day

You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold,
You gotta be wiser
You gotta be hard, you gotta be tough,
You gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm,
You gotta stick together.
All I know, all I know
Love will save the day

Got to be bold. Got to be bad
Got to be wise. Not ever sad
Got to be hard. Not too, too hard
All I know is, love will save the day

You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold,
You gotta be wiser
You gotta be hard, you gotta be tough,
You gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm,
You gotta stick together.
All I know, all I know...
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Written about Wednesday 2005-06-08
Written: (7107 days ago)
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"A Lie So True"


One dark day in the middle of the night,
Two dead boys got up to fight.
Back to back they faced each other,
Drew their swords, and shot each other.
A deaf policeman heard the noise,
Ran over and shot those two dead boys.
If you don't believe this lie is true,
Ask the blind man, he saw it too!
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Written about Tuesday 2005-06-07
Written: (7108 days ago)

1. What is your full name? Deidre Christine Jones, which, if you take the meanings of my name, they mean Welsh (Jones) melancholy (Deidre) follower of Christ (Christine). W00t? o.O
2. What colour pants are you wearing? Blue... But you can't see 'em! I've got a sarong on, too. ^_^
3. What are you listening to right now? Person on the phone...?
4. What are the last 4 digits in your phone number? Numbers.
5. What was the last thing you ate? Hmm.. two ice cream bars (one last night for dessert and one this morning.. cos I FELT LIKE IT! HA! ^^)
6. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? Hmm.. brobably a really pretty (but bright) blue. ^^
7. How is the weather right now? Dunno, I'm not outside.
8. Last person you instant messaged? Uhm... either Erin or Jake. o.O I dun really remember.
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? That they're not a girl...?
10. Do you like the person who sent this to you? I dunno. They never sent it to me. ^_~
11. How are you today? I'm alright. Kinda' bored, but alright nonetheless. Thanks for asking. ^^
12. Favourite drink? CHERRY COKE!!!! *Drools just thinking about it*
13. Who do you have a crush on? Well, you have to promise you won't tell him! <.< ... >.> ... o.o ... ^.^ *Whispers* He's [Ironballs "the Preposterous One"]! But shhh! It's our little secret. ^^
15. Hair colour? Choose one: I'm naturally a brunette, but I was born with blondish hair (that eventually became brown), I have blonde highlights, and if I'm out in the sun a lot, it turns a reddish color. So.. I don't really know.
16. Do you wear contacts? Nope. Even if I wore glasses, I wouldn't wear contacts... I can't touch my eyes. It scares me. Hell, I have problems with mascara and eye shadow, eyeliner... we won't even GO there... *Shudder*
17. Siblings and their ages? One pain in my a- I mean... One sister, age 10.
18. What are/is their full name? Jacqueline Lorraine Jones (Part of me wishes I had her middle name... It's so pretty! ;_;)
19. Favourite month? Hmm.. I can't decide between August and December. August because it's summer (and my birth month), and December because it's JAKE's birth month... and it's.. can you guess?! WINTER! Hey.. alright... o.O
20. Favourite food? Just about any Mexican food. ^^
21. Last movie you watched? Conspiracy Theory with Mel Gibson and Julia Roberts
22. Favourite day of the year? Hmm... I dunno. o.O I suppose I'd have to say December 25th... I'm greedy and I like presents. ^^; 
23. Are you too shy to ask someone out? Maybe... *Hides* ...Meep!
24. Do you like scary movies or happy ending movies better? I'm a sucker for romance and happy endings... ^^; I blame Jake for that though.
25. Summer or winter? Oh, hey, that's not fair.. Those're my favorite seasons! >.< But autumn is the prettiest one in my opinion... ^^ I guess I'd have to say winter. I tend to appreciate the cold weather more than the warm. Because in summer, you can only take off so much. :P
26. Relationships or one night stands? Gah! Relationships, of course! Honestly... What kind of person do you think I am?
27. Chocolate or vanilla? O_________O Chocolate.............. *Drools until an ocean of saliva appears*
28. Do you want your friends to write back? If I send them something, generally the polite thing to do is to respond, of course, I can't always expect that since I don't do it myself sometimes... (non) <--- Kirby looking up and whistling "nonchalantly"
29 Who is most likely to respond? Whoever has the time, I suppose.
30. Who is least likely to respond? Whoever doesn't have the time.. or jerks. :P Kidding.
31. Living conditions? Hang on, lemme check if I'm still breathing... Yep. I'm living.
32. What books are you reading? I'm not at the present time. *Gasp* It must be the end of the world! NO BOOK?! NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!
33. What's on your mouse pad? Uh.. plastic wrap, because it's still at the store. Uh.. 'cos I don't actually own one.
34. Favourite card game? A game called Shaft. Dunno how popular it is, though.
35. What did you do last night? Slept... talked on the phone... stayed up far later than I should have... stuff like that.
36. When's your birthday? August 29th. Why? Were you planning on getting me a present? Keep in mind, I like Aerosmith! ^^
37. What do you do when you first wake up? Turn off my alarm and curse it for disturbing my good dream.

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Written about Tuesday 2005-05-31
Written: (7115 days ago)

*Grumbles* Damn you... I'm still at school... Nyerr. I'll get you back, Jake. ^_~

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Written about Tuesday 2005-05-31
Written: (7116 days ago)

Well, this weekend, you got to see your dad and Jake. You had a great time. Actually went on your first date with Jake (actually, it was your first real date altogether). You two went to Chili's and got some cajun chicken pasta. It was good, but yours was a tad on the cold side. Anywho.

Up for dinner discussion during your date was you and your stupidity. A while ago, you decided to test whether or not your pocket knife was really sharp enough to do any damage. It was, and it did. So, that's what you talked about for a little while. Meh.

Today, around 11:15 or so, they left. You managed to keep from crying. Of course, that's because you spent over an hour last night crying about the fact he was leaving.

You're grateful for the time that was given to you, you really are. But you still wish you had a longer time with him... It seemed much too short.

You don't even know how long you'll be able to talk to him tonight. He's just now (or around now) getting back to my dad's house. His parents are supposed to come pick him up and take him back home. You don't know how long that will take, and so, how much time you're allowed to talk to him is uncertain.



You feel tired, but you don't want to sleep. You don't want to eat. You don't want to be social in any manner.


You just want to be alone for a while.

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Written about Thursday 2005-05-26
Written: (7121 days ago)

9 Things You're Looking Forward To
1.) Seeing Jake (This weekend! YAY!)
2.) Getting out of school (Soooooooooooooooooooon... 2 and a half weeks!)
3.) Trip to Disneyworld (This summer! W00T!)
4.) Wearing my skirts (I'll show 'em to Jakey this weekend... ^^)
5.) Finishing my article for Talisman (Egad.. I'm such a procrastinator.)
6.) The weekend (not just because Jake's coming, but because it's the weekend in general)
7.) Getting money (so I can buy more CDs)
8.) Getting Science over with (Gah.. Hate it with a passion)
9.) Getting my yearbook (I wants to see if I'm in there (aside from my ID pic)! ^^)

8 Things You Wear Daily
1.) Underwear (I would hope EVERYONE wears them...)
2.) Bra (Being jiggly kinda' hurts, if you think about it...)
3.) Shirt (Gotta' cover meself up, don't I? :P)
4.) Skirt/pants (I had a dream once where this particular article of clothing was missing altogether... >.O *twitch*)
5.) Shoes/sandals (Dirty feets no more! :P)
6.) Uhm.. deodorant? (Dun wanna' be stinky. >.< Blech)
7.) Padding for my bra! Kidding... Lip gloss (Shiny lips!)
8.) Ponytail holder (I pracitcally never leave my hair down... :P)

7 Things That Annoy You
1.) People in chat rooms whose first words (or letters) are, "asl?" (Egh... *shoots them all*)
2.) People who talk to me while I'm on the phone with Jake (Damn you all! Can't you see I'm busy?!)
3.) Intolerance and stupidity (Unfortunately, stupidity comes in a neverending supply... >.<)
4.) My computer being a dork (With any luck, it'll be nice once in a while.)
5.) Not having anything to do (This is most common...)
6.) Artist's block (Yerr... I have it right now...)
7.) Writer's block (This too... >.<)

6 Things You Touch Every Day
1.) Water (Shower! Make me all cleany like. ^^)
2.) Food (A growing girl's gotta' eat, doesn't she?)
3.) My hair (I'm always trying to "fix" it.)
4.) Uhm, me? (i.e. showering)
5.) My phone (Always calling Jake. ^^;;)
6.) My bra straps (They always fall off.. >.<)

5 Things You Do Every Day
1.) Talk to Jake (Duh, there's a nobrainer.)
2.) Go on a computer (Another one...)
3.) Miss Jake (AND another one...)
4.) Be lazy (This is something I'll probably do for the rest of my life... That and procrastinate...)
5.) Annoy someone (This is inevitable, unfortunately...)

4 People You'd Want to Spend More Time or Hang out With
1.) Jake (I get to see him soon! Yay!)
2.) Alex (Haven't talked to him in forever... *Sniff*)
3.) Kate (It's amazing how weird we both are... We amaze ourselves.... :P)
4.) Ayriel (We're both manga-possessed and manga-deprived... What can I say?)

3 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over
1.) Dressed to Kill - Eddie Izzard
2.) Nightmare Before Christmas
3.) Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory (with Gene Wilder)

2 Of Your Favorite Songs At This Moment
1.) "What Kind of Love Are You On" - Aerosmith (Awesome, but suggestive song... :P)
2.) "Ego" - Darren Hayes (It's kind of depressing, but it's a good song.)

1 Person You Could Spend the Rest of Your Life With
1.) Jake (There's no one else I'd rather be with... ^_^)

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Written about Thursday 2005-05-26
Written: (7121 days ago)

Chores still left to do:
~ Clean the bathroom (again)
~ Sweep all floors (Jacie/mom can have that one)
~ Wash and dry ALL laundry (almost done)
~ Change litterbox completely
~ Clean up blue room


I decided there were some things that didn't necessarily NEED to be done.. At least, not by me. :P

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Written about Wednesday 2005-05-25
Written: (7121 days ago)

The Mask Beneath the Mask

Why the sigh?
I don't remember that sad smile.
A sharp pang in my chest
As you whisper your goodbyes.
Why do you do this to me?
If only I could hear your thoughts,
I might learn what I've done,
What peace I managed to disturb.

I see in your eyes a sadness;
A hurt that doesn't belong.
Maybe this is because it is my own,
And it simply reflects upon me.
Behind that false pain,
There rests a wicked smile
And a wicked sould to match it.
One that takes comfort in my suffering.

Is the real you alive in there?
Or is the real you exposed,
Hiding the lie I thought was the truth?
Can you look me in the eye
And tell me you don't enjoy my pain?
This is the real you, your wicked smile,
And yours are the eyes that lie so convincingly.
I see you for what you really aren't.



Written: May 17th, 2005, 1:00 A.M.
© Deidre Jones
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Written about Tuesday 2005-05-24
Written: (7122 days ago)

Nyerr.. I desperately need to scan some stuff. >.< I'm never gonna' get around to it, am I?

Yergh.

Meh. Anywho.

Listening to supercool awesomely smexyful Aerosmith... *drool* If there were another man for me (aside from Jake), it would be Steven Tyler (then again, it'd be better if he was like 20 years younger), but I'll settle for relative. ^_~

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Written about Monday 2005-05-23
Written: (7124 days ago)

Alright. Now that we got that out of the way...

I have SO much to do.


Chores
~ Clean my room
~ Clean up the utility room
~ Clean the bathroom (again)
~ Clean the living room
~ Sweep all floors
~ Wash and dry ALL laundry
~ Wash and put away ALL dishes (preferably before dad and Jake arrive)
~ Change litterbox completely
~ Change the rat's cage (hopefully, mom'll do that one)
~ Clean up blue room
~ Vacuum (is that spelled right? O.o) my room


Wow... Maybe I'll get some help with those...


And then there's stuff I need to do the day they're supposed to get here.

Extras
~ Take a shower (wanna be nice and clean ^^)
~ Wear one of the skirts Fran got me (so I can show dad and Jake, but mainly Jake, because they makes me look so pwettymuful ^^)
~ Do my hair all pretty-like (hopefully, mom'll straighten it for me, if not, I'll just put it up in a clip)
~ Brush my teeth (then again, I probably won't eat at all... too nervous! :P I still get butterflies... ^^;;)
~ FIX ALL COUCH CUSHIONS! (They always get all blah-like.. >.<)
~ Find a way to bribe Jacie to be nice (maybe that won't be necessary, though... Dad'll be there, after all... *hopeful whine*)


Wow... I gots SOOOOOO much to do... More than I thought I did. >.O *Twitch* Deadline: 5:00 PM Saturday. Preferred finish time: Sometime Friday night (for all chores, anyhow).

Alright. When I get home tonight, it's time to get to work.

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Written about Monday 2005-05-23
Written: (7124 days ago)

Jake's coming in just five more days!!! ^__________^ I can't contain my excitement!!!!!!


Bweee!





^_^
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Written about Sunday 2005-05-22
Written: (7125 days ago)

28 Ways to make a girl smile...


1. Tell her you think she's beautiful, not hot or fine or sexy. But it's still nice to hear.

2. Hold her hand at any moment, even if its just for a second. Unless she's busy holding stuff... like a pot of boiling water.

3. Kiss her on the forehead. It makes us feel special. ^^

4. Leave her voice messages to wake up to. Unless they're going to contain things like, "Yeah... we shouldn't go out anymore..."

5. Always tell her you love her, at any and all times. It makes everything better (and if not better, it helps quite a bit at the very least).

6. When she's upset, hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you. Don't let her push you away.

7. Recognize the small things, they usually mean the most. We appreciate it, even though we might say you're wrong when you compliment us.

8. Call her cute things like sweetie and baby. It's guaranteed to bring a smile.

9. Sing to her, no matter how horrible your voice is. We promise, it's not really as bad as you think.

10. Pick her over your guy friends, and especially girl friends. And we'd better be the ONLY girl friend who has your FULL attention.

11. Write her notes, she LOVES them. We'll even write 'em back, that is, unless you don't want us to.

12. Introduce her to family and friends as your GIRLFRIEND. Or your future wife. Either one works. ^^

13. Play with her hair. But don't pull it out. It's not a wrestling match.

14. Pick her up, tickle her, play-wrestle with her. There is no such thing as "play-beating" us, however.

15. Sit in the park and talk to her. Just sit and talk to us. Doesn't even have to be in the park.

16. Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, just tell her jokes. But don't tell jokes about us that make fun of us. That won't score you any points.

17. Throw pebbles at her window in the middle of the night, just because you missed her. Do not, however, throw them if she's standing at the window waving goodbye/hello.

18. Let her fall asleep in your arms. You will actually end up being the most comfortable pillow we've ever gotten to rest on.

19. Carve your names into a tree. But nowhere else. Carving your skin doesn't make us smile, it makes us worry about you and how much you're bleeding.

20. If she's mad at you, kiss her. But do not use this as an opportunity to french and feel us up. We need comfort, but not THAT kind.

21. Give her piggy back rides. But don't force us if you hear, "I don't want to break your back."

22. Buy her ice cream. Things are even sweeter when shared with the one's you love, though.

23. Treat her the SAME around your friends as you do when you're alone. This doesn't mean you get to ignore and make fun of us when we're alone, though.

24. Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants. We want to have your smile with us wherever we go.

25. Look her in the eyes. Remember, our eyes are in our heads.

26. Slow dance with her, even if there isn't any music playing. It isn't stupid, it's sweet. Get used to it.

27. Kiss her in the rain. It's sweet AND refreshing! ^^

28. If you're in love with her, TELL her. If you don't, we'll find out anyway. But we still want to hear it from you.
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Written about Friday 2005-05-20
Written: (7126 days ago)

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Mees wants a hug...
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Written about Sunday 2005-05-15
Written: (7132 days ago)

Sense of Humour

The Tension and the Spark
Darren Hayes

You will like my sense of humor
You will be addicted to my smile
Laughing all the while
And I will end each conversation
I will leave the room with upper hand
And you will understand

You will find my scent attractive
You will like my real, engaging eyes
And playful, childlike smile
You will find my style appealing
I will overpower you with wits
And I will be a hit

If only you'd run to me
If only you'd come to me
If only you'd relax upon your rules
And dare to be love's fool
If only you'd come for me
If only you'd run to me
If only you'd relax upon those rules
And dare to be love's fool

Waking up from a coma (tossing, turning)
Sweat has covered my body (my mouth felt dry)
My life flashing before me (nothing much to say)
Still it was so boring (did you hear me sing?)
Only I could adore you (the wind through the trees)
Silently barking orders (rushing up to me)
This is only beginning (don't anger the sea)
Oh, the wave's crashing higher and higher on me

Crash, crash, crash, crash

If only you'd relax upon your rules
And dare to be love's fool
If only you'd run to me
All the blinking lights, noise of eternity (if only you'd come to me)
All the sentences swirling inside of me (you will like my sense of humor)
Inside of me (and dare to be love's fool)
(If only you'd come to me)
I have censored my eyes, I get drawn through my ears (if only you'd run to me)
Redirected desire now
It comes out as tears (you will like my sense of humor)
You know, it comes out as tears (and dare to be love's fool)

You will like my sense of humor
You will like my sense of humor



Ego

The Tension and the Spark
Darren Hayes

I have been contemplating letting go
Of you ego
Thought I’d let you know
You’re getting old

It was so irritating saving face
When I fell from grace
I thought you would erase
Without a trace
But you stayed
But you remained
But you
It’s always about you

I have been quietly edging away
To keep the flames at bay
Make this puppy stay
To limit my use of
Personal pronouns are the death of me
See I just said 'me'
You’re an endless sea of vanity
It’s all for you babe
For you babe
For you
It’s always about you

I have been silently taking offence
And at great expense
As my feelings dent
I’m lickin' my scratches
It serves no purpose, doesn’t gratify
And you’re dissatisfied
And though you’re belly's full
There’s always more room for you babe
For you babe
For you
It’s always about you
 The logged in version 

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