[Raziel Ahnara]'s diary

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Written about Thursday 2005-08-04
Written: (7051 days ago)

You've recently become obsessed with the italicizing and bolding of all your words, and the underlining and redness of the [ SPECIAL ] words.

La da dee dee da... You've lost your mind...


[ Enough of this insanity. ]
 
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Written about Thursday 2005-08-04
Written: (7051 days ago)

If you actually read the lyrics, you'll find my face poking through just about everywhere...



Mad Season

[ Matchbox 20 ]

I feel stupid - but I know it won't last for long
I've been guessing - and I coulda been guessin' wrong
You don't know me now
I kinda thought that you should somehow
Does that whole mad season got ya down?

I feel stupid, but it's something that comes and goes
I've been changin' - I think it's funny how now one knows
We don't talk about the little things that we do without
When that whole mad season comes around

So why you gotta stand there
Looking like the answer now?
It seems to me you'd come around
I need you now
Do you think you can cope?
You figured me out - that I'm lost and I'm hopeless
I'm bleeding and broken, though I've never spoken
I come undone in this mad season

I feel stupid, but I think I been catchin' on
I feel ugly, but I know I still turn you on
You've grown colder now, torn apart, angry, turned around
Will that whole mad season knock you down?

So are you gonna stand there
Are you gonna help me out?
We need to be together now
I need you now
Do you think you can cope?
You figured me out - that I'm lost and I'm hopeless
I'm bleeding and broken, though I've never spoken
I come undone in this mad season

And now I'm cryin'
Isn't that what you want?
I'm tryin' to live my life on my own
But I won't, no,
At times I do believe I am strong
So someone tell me why, why, why
Do I, I, I feel stupid
And I come undone
And I come undone

I need you now
Do you think you can cope?
You figured me out - that I'm lost and I'm hopeless
I'm bleeding and broken though I've never spoken

I need you now
Do you think you can cope?
You figured me out - I'm a child and I'm hopeless
I'm bleeding and broken though I've never spoken
I come undone in this mad season

In this mad season
There's been a mad season
Been a mad season
637879  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2005-08-02
Written: (7052 days ago)

"You're my world, my life! My cheeseburger, everything!"

Master Gracy portrayed by Nathaniel Parker
Disney's [ The Haunted Mansion ] Outtakes

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Written about Tuesday 2005-07-19
Written: (7067 days ago)
Next in thread: 626664


I [ heart ] Oompa Loompas.


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Written about Monday 2005-07-18
Written: (7067 days ago)

Who is your family?: My mom and my sister.
School?: Henry D. Sheldon High School
Drugs: None
Boyfriend: One. :P It’s Jake, of course.
Money: Tengo nada… *Sigh*
Hate: Closed-minded, ignorant assholes. More commonly known as “most of the world”. *Rolls eyes*
Like: Intelligence, love, and Jake. :P
Scars: Well over ten, but they’re all tiny.
Fav Skateboarder: Erm… None.
Fav Store: Barnes & Noble, hands down. I heart books. ^^
Nickname: Deids, Deedee, Deidwa, Deeder, Sissy (Jacie’s name for me -_-), Shishtow (Nancy’s name for me), Insolent pest… :P
Fav Quote: “Insecurity is the shadow of vanity. Vanity is a hard habit to break.” – Deidre Christing Jones (a.k.a. Me) Get it? Haha...? *crickets chirp* Yeah, okay, no. In truth, I don't know what my favorite quote is.
Fav authors/writers: Dean Koontz, William Shakespeare, and more, I’m sure.
Been Drunk: If you consider being tipsy drunk, then yes.
Been turned down: For what?
Been Dumped: I don’t consider the other… whatever-you-want-to-call-thems relationships, so no.
Been Punched: Meh, yeah.
Been in a fight: Meh, yeah.
Been in Detention: Again, meh, yeah. :P
Passed out: Yeah, a couple times.
Cut myself: Meh… next question…
Tried Suicide: Eh…
Been shot: Nope. I’d hope it stays that way..
Been adopted: As far as I know, I’m not, but if I am, that would explain my sister.
Burping Contest: What’s the question there?
Won anything: I have two trophies. And those were for “participation”. -_-
Lost anything: Duh. Everyone loses something.
Lose someone I love: As far as I know, I haven’t… o.O
Wish I was loved: Nope, because I already am. ^^
Have a boy who likes me: I think he does. :P ^^ Of course he does.
Hate school: Meh… I don’t have to worry about it for another month and a half. Right now, “school” is a curse word. -_-
My love life: is still a secret. :P

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Written about Monday 2005-07-18
Written: (7067 days ago)

Home

Staind

I force myself through another day
Can’t explain the way today just fell apart like everything
Right in my face
And I try to be the one
I can't accept this all because of you
I've had to walk away
From everything

I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home

Another sleepless night again
Hotel rooms my only friend
And friends like that just don't add up
To anything
And I try so hard to be everything
That I should never take away from you again
'Cause I heard ya say

I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home

I cannot forget
I live with regret
I cannot forget
I live with...

I'll live through this
I can't see through this
I can't do this anymore

Cause I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home

Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I just wish I was back home
Home
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Written about Sunday 2005-07-17
Written: (7069 days ago)
Next in thread: 625449

I [ hate ] spiders. With a [ fiery passion ].

Just wanted to clear that up.
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Written about Friday 2005-07-15
Written: (7070 days ago)

Keeper of lies, speak the truth.
Keeper of age, restore your youth.
Keeper of locks, open the door.
Keeper of love, hate me no more.


If you look, you won't find
the simplicity in complication.


~~ [ Deidre Jones ] ~~


Self-proclaimed: Genius, Goddess, Center of the Universe...
Take your pick.


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Written about Thursday 2005-07-14
Written: (7072 days ago)

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Slip into this abyss...
...and know you'll never return.
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Written about Thursday 2005-06-30
Written: (7086 days ago)

*Yawn* Going on four hours of sleep is tough, even for you.

You're feeling kind of lonely. No real reason why, you suppose. Simply here... No real bearing as to where "here" really is. You're existing. That's about it.

Which is strange, considering you're talking to Jake. Talking to him should make you feel better, but oddly enough, you're still feeling... Well.. in a word, odd.

Obviously you're one of little words. Though, as it's becoming clear, even fewer words would be more acceptable. So this is the end of the complaining and paranoia.

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Written about Tuesday 2005-06-21
Written: (7094 days ago)

· × · I N F O R M A T I O N · × ·
Name: Deidre
Single or taken: I wasn't taken, because no one had me to begin with. I was swept off my feet by someone wonderful, Jakey, and I'm never letting my Jakey go.
Sex: Hang on... *looks down shirt* Yep, female.
Birthday: August 29th, 1989
Brother/sister(s): Just one (thankfully, because I don't think I could handle another one).
Hair color: Brown with blonde streaks. Nothing special, really.
Height: 5'7". Oh.. you mean without shoes. *Sigh* Fine, 5'3".

· × · R E L A T I O N S H I P S · × ·
Who is your best friend?: I think the question is "Who are your best friends?" I have more than one best friend, and I can't very well just choose one to be my "super-mega-ultra-best-friend...thing". So, yeah. Those pretty awesome people are Jake ([Ironballs "the Preposterous One"]) (yes, my boyfriend is a best friend), Nancy ([Kelaria]), Erin, ([Archeress of Mirkwood]), K-San ([Akiame]), Kurt ([WonderTweek]), and lots more. I'd name them, but then we'd never get to the next question. So, moving on.
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: I have a Jake.

· × · S P E C I F I C S · × ·
Do you do drugs?: No... First, I don't like taking pills, I despise smoking, and I hate needles. Oh. And you'll never get me to snort anything intentionally.
What kind of shampoo do you use?: Garnier Fructis, but I'm beginning to think I'm only using it for the smell, though. I think my hair's become immune, or something, because it doesn't work as well as it used to.
What are you most scared of?: Being alone, porcelain dolls, and being alone with porcelain dolls.
What are you listening to right now? Nothing, really. If I'd had something on, it'd probably either be Aerosmith or Darren Hayes.
Who is the last person that called you?: Jake, of course. Or.. wait... Did I call him? o.O Meh, oh well.
Where do you want to get married?: I'd like to get married in Disneyworld, because that would be as magical as a wedding can get. But, I don't HAVE to. I wouldn't kill to do it... Would I? :P
How many buddies are online right now?: 1
What would you change about yourself?: Probably my inability to put myself first. I wouldn't want to be completely narcissistic and selfish, but sometimes I deserve something to go my way. Right?

· × · C U R R E N T · × ·
Clothes: Donald Duck shirt that was signed by practically the whole eighth grade, long sweats that are way to big, and underwear.
Music: Lately, I've been really into pop-type music (mainly love songs from the 90's), and stuff like Darren Hayes. I'm sure it'll pass, and it'll be right back to Aerosmith soon.
Make-up: None, actually.
Annoyance: Not being able to be on the phone past 1:00 AM
Smell: Uhm.. Essence of Just Awake Deidre...?
Desktop picture: My spirit of the sun, that looks pretty awesome.
Book you're reading: The first book of the Diablo series: "Warlord of Blood" by Richard A. Knaak.
CD in player: Nothing, actually... Which is strange, because I'm almost always listening to music.
DVD in player: Mona Lisa Smile

· × · L A S T | P E R S O N · × ·
You touched: My mom. I hugged her before I went to bed last night.
Hugged: Er.. my mom.
You IMed: Jake
You yelled at: Jacqueline (she's practically the only one I yell at... which is kind of unfair)
You kissed: Jake, of course. ^_^

· × · R A N D O M · × ·
In the morning I am: Not awake. I get up sometime around 10 (usually). I never actually wake up until about noon.
All you need is: Inspiration
Love is: Friendship with acceptance and humility tacked on (well put, Clackie ^^)
I dream about: Strange things that don't really matter.
What do you notice first in the sex you're into: Whether or not they have long hair. I like guys with long hair. More accurately, I like Jake with long hair. ^_~

· × · W H O · × ·
Makes you laugh the most: Jakey.. ^_^
Makes you smile: Everyone has the potential to make me smile, whether or not they try hard enough decides if I actually do.
Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: Jakey. Every time I see him in person, or know he's coming, I get MAJOR butterflies... ^^

· × · D O | Y O U | E V E R · × ·
Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: No... not every night. :P
Save conversations: Yep. What if something important or funny was said? Gotta save it.
Wish you were younger: Nahh, not really. I kinda' wish I was older, actually. But, meh.
Cry because someone said something to you?: It depends on who said it and what they said, I guess.

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Written about Sunday 2005-06-19
Written: (7096 days ago)

Feel Good Inc

Gorillaz

Hahahahahahahahahahahaha!

Feel good, sh-shake it, shake it. (8x)

Cities breaking down on a camel's back.
They just have to go 'cos they don’t know wack.
So all ya fill the streets it's appealing to see.
You wont get undercounted, 'cos you're damned and free.
You've got a new horizon. It's ephemeral style.
In a melancholy town where we never smile.
And all I wanna hear is the message beep.
My dreams, they got a kissin` cause I don’t get sleep, no.

(BEEP)

Windmill, Windmill for the land.
Turn forever hand in hand.
Take it all in on your stride.
It is sinking, falling down.
Love forever love is free.
Let's turn forever you and me.
Windmill, windmill for the land.
Is everybody in?

Laughing gas, these hazmats, fast cats,
Lining them up like ass cracks,
Lay these ponies at the track,
It's my chocolate attack.
Shoot, I'm stepping in hotter this year.
Care bear reppin' it's harder this year.
Watch me as I gravitate,
Hahahahahaha.
We're going to ghost town,
This motown,
With your sound in the blink,
Going bite the dust,
Can’t fight with us,
With your sound you kill the INC.
So, dont stop, get it, get it
Until you're cheddar heavy,
And watch the way I navigate,
Hahahahahahahaha.

Sh-shake it, shake it, Feel good. (4x)

Windmill, Windmill for the land.
Turn forever hand in hand.
Take it all in on your stride.
It is sinking, falling down.
Love forever love is free.
Let's turn forever you and me.
Windmill, windmill for the land.
Is everybody in?

Dont stop, get it, get it,
We are your captains in it (feel good),
Steady,
Watch me navigate,
Ahahahahahhaa (feel good). (2x)

Sh-shake it, shake it, Feel good. (4x)

Ahahahahahahahahahahahahaaaaaaa...
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Written about Wednesday 2005-06-15
Written: (7100 days ago)

Last day!

Final exams went as follows (for the week):

Spanish ~ Oral Final (Monday): Did okay. Not as bad as expected. 255/300 possible points (B+).

Spanish ~Vocabulary Final (Wednesday): Wonderful. Missed maybe three or four. Expect an A. Anything less will be a disappointment.

Science ~ Biology Final (Wednesday): Pretty well, missed a few, but did fine overall. Expect at least a B.


Whew! End of the year rocks! ^_^ And I brought a pair of pants to school for people to sign... Couldn't find a white shirt. ^^;

This doesn't mean I'm wearing the pants as they're being signed. And yes, I'm wearing clothing, worry not. I be wearing a tanky top (it's a new development :P) and skirt. ^^ It would be bad to wear the pants as they're being signed, because my friends (*coughK-Sancough*) have a strange sense of humor, and might attempt to sign the rear or the crotch of the pants while I would be wearing them. Shame shame, no? :P

Anywho, happy me! Summer is here! ^__________^

Maybe when it's not that time of the month, I'll celebrate properly. Right now, sleep sounds REALLY good. I'll do that when I get home, I think. ^^

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Written about Monday 2005-06-13
Written: (7102 days ago)

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Commandment the First ~~ Thou wilst not fucketh with me when in one of mine "moods".

Commandment the Second ~~ Thou wilst not pester mine friends, or thou shalt suffereth mine torture.

Commandment the Third ~~ Thou wilst burn in hell before thee attempteth to annoy mine significant other.

Commandment the Fourth ~~ Thou wilst beith nice to me, or I shalt returneth thine rude behavior.

Commandment the Fifth ~~ Thou wilst not pester me with rude comments regarding mine appearance.

Commandment the Sixth ~~ Thou wilst not pester me with rude comments regarding mine affirmations.

Commandment the Seventh ~~ Thou wilst become a eunuch before thee pestereth mine comrades (whom beith involved).

Commandment the Eighth ~~ Should thou sendeth me a message, beith sure it contains correct grammar.

Commandment the Ninth ~~ Thou wilst respecteth mine thoughts and feelings (and thou wilst haveth mine respect of thee's thoughts and feelings in return).

Commandment the Tenth ~~ Thou wilst abide by thine Elftown rule: Beith not an asshole.


Idea borrowed from [Akiame]. But she's being pretty awesome, so I won't be hurt (too much). Go see her wiki:
Kate's Campaign of Terror
 The logged in version 

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