[Raziel Ahnara]'s diary
I'm pouring out my heart onto black, unlined paper.
It makes a pretty picture that only I can see.
I'm writing with my veins the tale of a soul
who's felt ignored, unwanted, a fake.
A love so true, indeed, but a lie undeniably so.
I'm hiding these tears with a few second's worth of typing.
Nothing's real in cyberspace.
I lie awake, pounding at my pillow,
thrashing at my bed, throwing a lamp lacking it's own ideas.
And then I open my eyes and realize
perfection is found in everything but yourself.
So now you sit there, and you fail to notice
the tears I'm not crying,
the words I'm not screaming,
the pain I am hiding from you.
Only you could kill me with a smile and an apology.
"Papercut" © Deidre C. Jones 12/06/05
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Written about Wednesday 2005-12-07
Written: (6926 days ago)
This is bound to make anyone happy. ^__^
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Make sure you actually watch the original "Numa Numa" dance here.
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And yes, you ABSOLUTELY NEED sound. ^__^
EDIT: I don't care if you don't like the Numa Numa dance. I love it. So THERE! :P
And here's another link. ^__^ Full song, even. Wooooooooooooo
10 Questions
Pick a band and answer only using that bands song titles.Chosen band: Aerosmith
1. Are you a male or a female?: Girls of Summer
2. Describe yourself: Fallen Angels
3. How do some people feel about you?: Rag Doll
4. How do you feel about yourself?: Jaded
5. Describe your family: Crash
6. Where would you rather be?: Movin' Out
7. Describe what you want to be: Beyond Beautiful
8. Describe how you live: Nine Lives
9. Describe how you love: Permanent Vacation
10. Describe what you hate: Hole in My Soul
I was very bored. e.e Lemme alone.
[ What would you do if... ]:
1. I committed suicide?:
2. I said I liked you?:
3. I kissed you?:
4. I lived next door to you?:
5. I started smoking?:
6. I stole something?:
7. I was hospitalized?:
8. I ran away from home?:
9. I got into a fight and you weren't there?:
[ What do you think of my... ]:
1. ...personality
2. ...eyes?:
3. ...face?:
4. ...hair?:
5. ...clothes?:
6. ...mannerisms?
[ General Stuff ]:
1. Who are you?:
2. Are we friends?:
3. When and how did we meet?:
4. How have I affected you?:
5. What do you think of me?:
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?:
7. How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?:
8. Do you love me?:
9. Have I ever hurt you?:
10. Would you hug me?:
11. Would you kiss me?:
12. Would you make love to me?:
13. Would you marry me?:
14. Emotionally, what stands out?:
15. Do you wish I was cooler?:
16. On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?:
17. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.:
18. Am I loveable?:
19. How long have you known me?:
20. Describe me in one word.:
21. What was your first impression?:
22. Do you still think that way about me now?:
23. What do you think my weakness is?:
24. Do you think I'll get married?:
25. What about me makes you happy?:
26. What about me makes you sad?:
27. What reminds you of me?:
28. What's something you would change about me?:
29. How well do you know me?:
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?:
31. Do you think I would kill someone?:
32. Are we close?:
33 Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?:
I would like to make a very important announcement.
Thank you for your time.
'Nuff said.
Just stop it.
You [ are ] worth it.
I'm not afraid of [ falling ].
I'm terrified of how I'll feel when I hit the [ ground ].
Da' Ya' Think I'm Sexy?
[ Rod Stewart ]
Sugar, sugar
She sits alone waiting for suggestions
He's so nervous avoiding all the questions
His lips are dry, her heart is gently pounding
Don't you just know exactly what they're thinking
If you want my body and you think I'm sexy,
Come on sugar, let me know.
If you really need me, just reach out and touch me,
Come on honey tell me so.
(Tell me so baby)
He's acting shy, looking for an answer.
"Come on honey let's spend the night together."
"Now hold on a minute before we go much further.
Give me a dime so I can phone my mother."
They catch a cab to his high rise apartment.
At last he can tell her exactly what his heart meant.
If you want my body and you think I'm sexy,
Come on honey, tell me so.
If you really need me, just reach out and touch me.
Come on sugar, let me know.
His heart's beating like a drum
'Cos at last he's got this girl home.
"Relax baby now we are alone."
They wake at dawn 'cos all the birds are singing.
Two total strangers, but that ain't what they're thinking.
Outside it's cold, misty and it's raining.
They got each other, neither one's complaining.
He say's, "I'm sorry but I'm out of milk and coffee."
"Never mind sugar, we can watch the early movie."
If you want my body and you think I'm sexy,
Come on sugar, let me know."
If you really need me, just reach out and touch me,
Come on honey, tell me so.
If you really need me, just reach out and touch me,
Come on sugar, let me know.
If you really, really, really, really need me.
Just let me know.
Just reach out and touch me.
If you really want me,
Just reach out and touch me,
Come on sugar, let me know.
If you really need me, just reach out and touch me,
Come on sugar, let me know.
If you, if you, if you really need me,
Just come on and tell me so.
Sex and Candy
[ Marcy Playground ]
Hanging' 'round
Downtown by myself.
And I had so much time
To sit and think about myself
And then there she was,
Like Devil cherry pie.
Yeah, there she was,
Like disco superfly.
I smell sex and candy.
Yeah,
Who's that loungin'
In my chair?
Who's that castin'
Devious stares in my direction?
Mama, this surely is a dream, yeah.
Yeah, mama this surely is a dream.
Hangin' 'round
Downtown by myself.
And I had too much caffeine,
And I was think about myself.
And then there she was,
In platform Devil suede.
Yeah, there she was,
Like disco lemonade.
I smell sex and candy.
Yeah,
Who's that loungin'
In my chair?
Who's that castin'
Devious stares in my direction?
Mama, this surely is a dream, yeah.
Yeah, mama this surely is a dream.
I smell sex and candy.
Yeah,
Who's that loungin'
In my chair?
Who's that castin'
Devious stares in my direction?
Mama, this surely is a dream, yeah.
Yeah, mama this surely is a dream.
Yeah, mama this surely is a dream.
Yeah, mama this must be my dream.
Dug up some "[ poetry ]". Or what I hope will pass for it, anyway.
I wish I could just say what I'm feeling.
I wish I could simply tell you what I'm thinking.
I wish I could stop being so stubborn.
I wish a lot of things.
I wish I could make you as happy as you deserve to be.
I wish I could show you the person I see.
I wish I could do what you ask of me.
I wish a lot of things.
I wish I could take off this mask I cower behind.
I wish I could open up and tell the truth just this one time.
I wish I could show you the real me I hide.
I wish a lot of things.
Shooting stars and genies never get you what you really want.
"Shooting Stars and Genies" © Deidre C. Jones, 10/31/05
Written about Tuesday 2005-11-22
Written: (6940 days ago)
I have no idea what to get anyone for Christmas, and it looks like I have a lot of presents to buy this year.
It certainly doesn't help that I'm broke, with really no way of getting any money in time (unless, for some odd reason, I just take up prostitution, but that's not bloody likely since 1, I have a boyfriend, 2, I have morals, and 3, I have common sense).
...
[ Shit ].
Any ideas?
You are a Belly Dancer. You are charming inside out; your life follows an interesting rhythm, beautiful and smooth; you know how to be the center of attention when you want to; you love your friends, and you can trust them with your life. Your ideal man is the one with a sweet, witty character who understands how much freedom is important to you.
It's odd how true that is.
*shifty eyes* I didn't do that... *kicks away can of spray paint*
Black hole sun, won't you come and wash away the rain?
Black hole sun, won't you come, won't you come?