[Raziel Ahnara]'s diary
Listening to Floater.
Floater
Burning Sosobra
[Colorblind]
The rolling green of hills,
The swaying blue of sea,
Red is the shade within you,
Black is the space in me.
We dive beneath the grass
Under sephirothic tress,
Show me I'm only blinded
By my own apathy.
Oh my kingdom comes, my will is done.
This thing I know.
While God grows silent, I grow violent,
Breaking all the things that I need whole.
And while all I love grows distant,
Yeah, I keep on pissing on the lessons I so much need to know...
So my turn goes.
So my turn goes.
The swaying hills of green,
The rolling sea of blue,
If you say life is beautiful,
Then I guess it must be true.
In a grave beneath the grass,
Remember how I chose to be,
Made peace with all the things I used to hate,
Except for me.
As, oh my kingdom comes, my will is done.
This thing I know.
Yeah, as God grows silent, I keep grow violent,
Breaking all the things that I need whole.
While all I love grows distant,
Yeah, I keep on pissing on the lessons I so much need to know...
So my turn goes.
So my turn goes.
Again.
Floater
Burning Sosobra
[Independence Day]
Well, you trust no one and you can never rest.
Trust anyone and they will strike while you're sleeping.
And just as the sun must keep on seeking the west,
Everything you love will always be leaving.
Yeah leaving...
And the fireworks explode, lighting up my way.
Painting up the sky on my Independence Day.
I've watched this world roll on, and I think I might stay.
Yeah, I'd like to stay.
Now tell me...
Was he the one while I was gone who kept you busy?
Did he come in my place?
Could he make you dizzy?
And I suppose that I got a little boy inside,
And in every woman's man is a little boy that died.
Stone jumping, looking at the ocean.
I've got no direction,
But I'm in motion.
And I've got my mind,
I've got my music,
I've got my soul... until I lose it,
Right on!
Oh, right on...
And I still remember everything,
I still remember living like an idiot.
I remember, ohhh... I remember...
And I still remember everyting...
Under the embers I'm still burning.
I'm still, still...
Well, and you, you trust no one and you can never rest.
Trust anyone and they will strike while you're sleeping.
And just as the sun must keep on seeking the west,
Yeah, everything you love will always be leaving.
Leaving...
And the fireworks explode, oh, lighting up my way. My way...
Painting up the sky on my Independence Day. Yeah, on my day.
I've watched this beautiful world roll on, and I think I might stay.
Yeah, I'd like to stay.
I caught myself listening to Staind earlier today, and heard a song that reminded me of a friend of mine.
One of my best friends seems to have adopted the misconception that none of his friends care about him, despite that it's a well-known fact that we love him to death.
So, Drew, this one's for you.
Staind
14 Shades of Grey
[Fray]
I know that it never goes away
All I feel, everything I'm not today
So I try and I try to make everything right
I don't feel like I'm doing it, it affects me
You wouldn't listen even if I told you
Who the fuck am I to say?
You're too busy with the lies they sold you
Another cure to fix your day
Open wide for all the shit they feed you
While the TV defecates
And blindly walk wherever they will lead you
While the edges slowly Fray
I know that everything can change
What I need is to open up again
So never again will I look back in vain
Cause today's not the past
I don't need to relive it
You wouldn't listen even if I told you
Who the fuck am I to say?
You're too busy with the lies they sold you
Another cure to fix your day
Open wide for all the shit they feed you
While the TV defecates
And blindly walk wherever they will lead you
While the edges slowly Fray
Are you satisfied?
I've given all I can
And are you pacified
Or do you want more from me?
You wouldn't listen even if I told you
Who the fuck am I to say?
You're too busy with the lies they sold you
Another cure to fix your day
Open wide for all the shit they feed you
While the TV defecates
And blindly walk wherever they will lead you
While the edges slowly Fray
I've learned that this life's not just a game
Just a line between the pleasures and the pain
You wouldn't listen even if I told you
Who the fuck am I to say?
You're too busy with the lies they sold you
Another cure to fix your day
Open wide for all the shit they feed you
While the TV defecates
And blindly walk wherever they will lead you
While the edges slowly Fray
FREE SPEECH, THE WAY THEY LIVE, WHERE THEY WORK, AND WHO THEY MARRY.
SUCH PECULIAR THOUGHTS AND WILD IMAGINATIONS.
You Might Be a Google Slut If...
1. Your home page setting on your browser is set to "www.google.co
2. You scoff at other search engines publically, stating all the wonderful reasons google is the best. [True]
3. You check google every day to see if they added something cute to their logo. [False]
4. The thought of a world without google makes you want to cringe and crawl into the fetal position and suck your thumb. [False]
5. You can use the word 'Google' in a sentance as a verb and it makes sense. [False]
6. You visit Google more than 5 times in a day. [False]
7. Your desktop wallpaper on your computer is a screenshot of the Google start page. [False]
8. You own ANY merchandise that bears the Google logo. [False]
9. You actually PAID for said merchandise because you respect the company and would NEVER steal from THEM... [False]
10. You believe if it is found on Google, then it must be real. [False]
11. You talk to more than one person about what you found the other day... [True]
12. Whenever you are posed with a question of any type that you do not know, you seek the wisdom of the all powerful all knowing Google Gods... [True]
13. You are actually getting angry with me for poking fun at the Google Gods... [False]
14. You believe that google is the devil incarnate, but dammit you just can't stop looking at all the loverly pictures it can show you. [True]
15. You figured out how to turn safe search OFF. [False]
16. You have ever clapped with glee after doing a search and finding a TON more than you expected. [True]
17. You have ever gotten so bored, that you did image searches on random words like, 'floof' 'jugonga' 'dookey' or any other funny sounding word. [True]
18. You are not suprised when SEEMINGLY innocent words like 'spunk' brings up a ton of pornographic pictures. [True]
19. You can type the url of google faster than you can type your name. [True]
20. Your answer to 'why not libraries' is " uh.. hel-LO? GOOGLE? DUH!" [True]
Hm. Only 10/20. Only a minor slut. :P
(Stolen from [nokaredes])
Take your middle name, spell it backwards. Then, take your mother's maiden name (last name before she was married) and spell that backwards next. That is your jedi name.
Enitsirhc Yawollah ([Raziel Ahnara] - Christine Halloway)
Nayr nameloc ([nokaredes] - Ryan Coleman)
Nayr Ch'nom ([Ironballs "the Preposterous One"] - Ryan Monch - "I put the apostrophe there to make it a little easier to pronounce ... I'm obviously not a human jedi ^^")
Toille Regaw ([WonderTweek] - Elliot Wager)
Enna Snikral ([ツ Molly] - Anne Larkins)
Anitsirhc Hcirobrab ([Jewl] - Christina Barborich)
Cool, huh? ^^
If you try it, send me what yours is. ^^
Written about Friday 2006-01-06
Written: (6895 days ago)
I just found the greatest pictures.
Bask in the awesomeness, damn you.
And if you don't know who they are, I'm going to kill you. *rage* @.@
In order:
- Steven Tyler
- Joe Perry (duh)
- Tom Hamilton
- Brad Whitford (again, duh)
- Joey Kramer
Please tell me no one is stupid enough to NOT know who they are. e.e
Follow these instructions:
Go to http://www.goo
Type "failure" without the quotations.
Hit the "I'm feeling lucky" button.
Laugh.
And pass it on.
I heart yew, Slushie. ^__^
Written about Thursday 2005-12-22
Written: (6910 days ago)
As posted on the Guild Wars website under "Game Updates":
(As sung to the tune of The Twelve Days of Christmas)
On the twelfth moon of Wintersday ArenaNet gave to me...
Blessings from Dwayna,
Festive decorations,
One mighty snowman,
Weapons made of candy,
Gifts that might kill you,
Snow-covered henchmen,
New winter monsters,
Some really long quests!
Lots of drinking Dwarves,
Gingerbread shields,
Curses from Grenth,
And a new way to watch PvP!
Happy holidays everyone, even from a MMORPG. ^^
Hey all you people!
Run away.
Away from your pounding heart.
Away from the wrenching feeling in your chest and stomach.
Away from life as it were.
Run away, child.
Away from the arguments that mean nothing.
Away from the friends who don't care.
Away from the thoughts in your mind.
Run away, poor soul.
Away from the fight.
Away from love.
Away from life.
Away from pain.
Run away, run away.
"Coward" © Deidre C. Jones, 10/27/05
I'm pouring out my heart onto black, unlined paper.
It makes a pretty picture that only I can see.
I'm writing with my veins the tale of a soul
who's felt ignored, unwanted, a fake.
A love so true, indeed, but a lie undeniably so.
I'm hiding these tears with a few second's worth of typing.
Nothing's real in cyberspace.
I lie awake, pounding at my pillow,
thrashing at my bed, throwing a lamp lacking it's own ideas.
And then I open my eyes and realize
perfection is found in everything but yourself.
So now you sit there, and you fail to notice
the tears I'm not crying,
the words I'm not screaming,
the pain I am hiding from you.
Only you could kill me with a smile and an apology.
"Papercut" © Deidre C. Jones 12/06/05
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Written about Wednesday 2005-12-07
Written: (6926 days ago)
This is bound to make anyone happy. ^__^
http://www.new
Make sure you actually watch the original "Numa Numa" dance here.
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And yes, you ABSOLUTELY NEED sound. ^__^
EDIT: I don't care if you don't like the Numa Numa dance. I love it. So THERE! :P
And here's another link. ^__^ Full song, even. Wooooooooooooo
10 Questions
Pick a band and answer only using that bands song titles.Chosen band: Aerosmith
1. Are you a male or a female?: Girls of Summer
2. Describe yourself: Fallen Angels
3. How do some people feel about you?: Rag Doll
4. How do you feel about yourself?: Jaded
5. Describe your family: Crash
6. Where would you rather be?: Movin' Out
7. Describe what you want to be: Beyond Beautiful
8. Describe how you live: Nine Lives
9. Describe how you love: Permanent Vacation
10. Describe what you hate: Hole in My Soul
I was very bored. e.e Lemme alone.
[ What would you do if... ]:
1. I committed suicide?:
2. I said I liked you?:
3. I kissed you?:
4. I lived next door to you?:
5. I started smoking?:
6. I stole something?:
7. I was hospitalized?:
8. I ran away from home?:
9. I got into a fight and you weren't there?:
[ What do you think of my... ]:
1. ...personality
2. ...eyes?:
3. ...face?:
4. ...hair?:
5. ...clothes?:
6. ...mannerisms?
[ General Stuff ]:
1. Who are you?:
2. Are we friends?:
3. When and how did we meet?:
4. How have I affected you?:
5. What do you think of me?:
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?:
7. How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?:
8. Do you love me?:
9. Have I ever hurt you?:
10. Would you hug me?:
11. Would you kiss me?:
12. Would you make love to me?:
13. Would you marry me?:
14. Emotionally, what stands out?:
15. Do you wish I was cooler?:
16. On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?:
17. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.:
18. Am I loveable?:
19. How long have you known me?:
20. Describe me in one word.:
21. What was your first impression?:
22. Do you still think that way about me now?:
23. What do you think my weakness is?:
24. Do you think I'll get married?:
25. What about me makes you happy?:
26. What about me makes you sad?:
27. What reminds you of me?:
28. What's something you would change about me?:
29. How well do you know me?:
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?:
31. Do you think I would kill someone?:
32. Are we close?:
33 Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?: