[Raziel Ahnara]'s diary
Written about Monday 2006-01-30
Written: (6871 days ago)
"The Sun and the Stars"
I'll wish upon this forlorn star
and you'll find me here, praying
for a little piece of your love.
I would give anything to feel your
loving gaze, to feel your lustful
touch. I wish you were mine.
I'll hope with every ounce of my
soul that you'll notice my fervent
glances in your direction. I would
do anything to make you laugh, and
I would share with you everything if
it made you happy. I love you.
Maybe you and I aren't meant to be,
but I'll hope and pray that we are.
I would give you the sun to make your
day brighter, and the stars, to make
your nights shine. Even if I cannot
be with you, I'm here for you.
Your smile is the perfect Valentine.
Written for the Valentine's Contest. ^^ What do you think?
Letters to Cleo
10 Things I Hate About You
[I Want You to Want Me] (Originally done by Cheap Trick)
I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
I'd love you to love me.
I'm beggin' you to beg me.
I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
I'd love you to love me.
I'll shine up the old brown shoes, put on a brand-new shirt.
I'll get home early from work if you say that you love me.
Didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'?
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'?
Feelin' all alone without a friend,
you know you feel like dyin'.
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'?
I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
I'd love you to love me.
I'm beggin' you to beg me.
I'll shine up the old brown shoes, put on a brand-new shirt.
I'll get home early from work if you say that you love me.
Didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'?
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'?
Feelin' all alone without a friend,
you know you feel like dyin'.
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'?
Feelin' all alone without a friend,
you know you feel like dyin'.
Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'?
I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
I'd love you to love me.
I'm beggin' you to beg me.
I want you to want me.
I want you to want me.
I want you to want me.
I want you to want me.
Floater
Glyph
[The Sad Ballad of Danny Boy]
(Danny?)
(Danny boy!)
(Danny?)
That's right my name is Danny Boy,
and I like to drink at night.
I go down to the pub, wherein I buy myself a pint or three
I like to go out drinking, 'cause beer it is my life,
until I come home,
and lay eyes upon my darling wife.
Say,
Oh Danny won't you go home earlier tonight?
You're daughter doesn't know you,
You're giving us a fright when you say...
Say, somethings wrong with anyone who's not like me.
With you the violence just comes so easily.
You never learn, I have to teach you constantly.
With you the violence just comes.
Hush now.
You know my name is Danny Boy,
and I'll buy another round.
Then off to the market when this place closes down.
'Cause I say drinkings always done when the sun's up in the sky.
Sun is always up somewhere, it's your turn to buy.
And I say,
Oh, Danny won't you go home earlier tonight?
Your son he doesn't know you...
And you're giving us a fright when you say...
Say, somethings wrong with anyone who's not like me.
With you the violence just comes so easily.
You never learn, I have to teach you constantly.
Hush now.
Hush now!
Hush nowww.
Yeah...
Sleep.
Sleep.
Sleep.
Floating child sleep.
Sleep.
Sleep.
Floating child sleep.
Sleep.
Sleep.
Floating child sleep.
Sleep.
Sleep.
This is affectionate.
Floater
Burning Sosobra
[Exiled]
Oh, to be so rested that we can withstand these long years.
We sweat in the wilderness,
carving and sqeezing the fat from the land.
From the birth of the sun god at mornging,
we struggle beneath him, breaking our hands.
Yeah, there is no rest for us,
There'll be no peace for us,
Not one second's rest for us.
We have been here so long.
Though our numbers may be small, there's more of us.
Rot you will and fertilize our dirt for us.
This is our home.
Yeah, we're on our way home,
on our way home,
yeah, on our way home.
While you are warm and safe
Just think of us shivering, beautifully brave.
Fear all that patience we've saved.
Know that we're coming back...
Black Sheep who've formed a pack.
Do you hear our footfalls creeping back up to your walls?
Creeping back home!
Though our armies may be less, there's more of us.
Yeah, rot you will and fertilize our dirt for us.
This, too, is our home.
Yeah, we're on our way home.
We're coming home
Tired of being cold,
And we don't care if your doors are closed.
Well, once upon a time, we were drinking from the golden flask.
Well, once upon a time, when the sun would shine, we could bask.
But now that's all gone.
Why do we live in exile?
We come out at night.
We love the night.
We know it's all downhill from here.
We know we're right, we know we're right!
We know it's all downhill from, all downhill...
Ahhh, ahhh,
Ahhh, ahhh....
Knock, knock...
We're back!
Listening to Floater.
Floater
Burning Sosobra
[Colorblind]
The rolling green of hills,
The swaying blue of sea,
Red is the shade within you,
Black is the space in me.
We dive beneath the grass
Under sephirothic tress,
Show me I'm only blinded
By my own apathy.
Oh my kingdom comes, my will is done.
This thing I know.
While God grows silent, I grow violent,
Breaking all the things that I need whole.
And while all I love grows distant,
Yeah, I keep on pissing on the lessons I so much need to know...
So my turn goes.
So my turn goes.
The swaying hills of green,
The rolling sea of blue,
If you say life is beautiful,
Then I guess it must be true.
In a grave beneath the grass,
Remember how I chose to be,
Made peace with all the things I used to hate,
Except for me.
As, oh my kingdom comes, my will is done.
This thing I know.
Yeah, as God grows silent, I keep grow violent,
Breaking all the things that I need whole.
While all I love grows distant,
Yeah, I keep on pissing on the lessons I so much need to know...
So my turn goes.
So my turn goes.
Again.
Floater
Burning Sosobra
[Independence Day]
Well, you trust no one and you can never rest.
Trust anyone and they will strike while you're sleeping.
And just as the sun must keep on seeking the west,
Everything you love will always be leaving.
Yeah leaving...
And the fireworks explode, lighting up my way.
Painting up the sky on my Independence Day.
I've watched this world roll on, and I think I might stay.
Yeah, I'd like to stay.
Now tell me...
Was he the one while I was gone who kept you busy?
Did he come in my place?
Could he make you dizzy?
And I suppose that I got a little boy inside,
And in every woman's man is a little boy that died.
Stone jumping, looking at the ocean.
I've got no direction,
But I'm in motion.
And I've got my mind,
I've got my music,
I've got my soul... until I lose it,
Right on!
Oh, right on...
And I still remember everything,
I still remember living like an idiot.
I remember, ohhh... I remember...
And I still remember everyting...
Under the embers I'm still burning.
I'm still, still...
Well, and you, you trust no one and you can never rest.
Trust anyone and they will strike while you're sleeping.
And just as the sun must keep on seeking the west,
Yeah, everything you love will always be leaving.
Leaving...
And the fireworks explode, oh, lighting up my way. My way...
Painting up the sky on my Independence Day. Yeah, on my day.
I've watched this beautiful world roll on, and I think I might stay.
Yeah, I'd like to stay.
I caught myself listening to Staind earlier today, and heard a song that reminded me of a friend of mine.
One of my best friends seems to have adopted the misconception that none of his friends care about him, despite that it's a well-known fact that we love him to death.
So, Drew, this one's for you.
Staind
14 Shades of Grey
[Fray]
I know that it never goes away
All I feel, everything I'm not today
So I try and I try to make everything right
I don't feel like I'm doing it, it affects me
You wouldn't listen even if I told you
Who the fuck am I to say?
You're too busy with the lies they sold you
Another cure to fix your day
Open wide for all the shit they feed you
While the TV defecates
And blindly walk wherever they will lead you
While the edges slowly Fray
I know that everything can change
What I need is to open up again
So never again will I look back in vain
Cause today's not the past
I don't need to relive it
You wouldn't listen even if I told you
Who the fuck am I to say?
You're too busy with the lies they sold you
Another cure to fix your day
Open wide for all the shit they feed you
While the TV defecates
And blindly walk wherever they will lead you
While the edges slowly Fray
Are you satisfied?
I've given all I can
And are you pacified
Or do you want more from me?
You wouldn't listen even if I told you
Who the fuck am I to say?
You're too busy with the lies they sold you
Another cure to fix your day
Open wide for all the shit they feed you
While the TV defecates
And blindly walk wherever they will lead you
While the edges slowly Fray
I've learned that this life's not just a game
Just a line between the pleasures and the pain
You wouldn't listen even if I told you
Who the fuck am I to say?
You're too busy with the lies they sold you
Another cure to fix your day
Open wide for all the shit they feed you
While the TV defecates
And blindly walk wherever they will lead you
While the edges slowly Fray
FREE SPEECH, THE WAY THEY LIVE, WHERE THEY WORK, AND WHO THEY MARRY.
SUCH PECULIAR THOUGHTS AND WILD IMAGINATIONS.
You Might Be a Google Slut If...
1. Your home page setting on your browser is set to "www.google.co
2. You scoff at other search engines publically, stating all the wonderful reasons google is the best. [True]
3. You check google every day to see if they added something cute to their logo. [False]
4. The thought of a world without google makes you want to cringe and crawl into the fetal position and suck your thumb. [False]
5. You can use the word 'Google' in a sentance as a verb and it makes sense. [False]
6. You visit Google more than 5 times in a day. [False]
7. Your desktop wallpaper on your computer is a screenshot of the Google start page. [False]
8. You own ANY merchandise that bears the Google logo. [False]
9. You actually PAID for said merchandise because you respect the company and would NEVER steal from THEM... [False]
10. You believe if it is found on Google, then it must be real. [False]
11. You talk to more than one person about what you found the other day... [True]
12. Whenever you are posed with a question of any type that you do not know, you seek the wisdom of the all powerful all knowing Google Gods... [True]
13. You are actually getting angry with me for poking fun at the Google Gods... [False]
14. You believe that google is the devil incarnate, but dammit you just can't stop looking at all the loverly pictures it can show you. [True]
15. You figured out how to turn safe search OFF. [False]
16. You have ever clapped with glee after doing a search and finding a TON more than you expected. [True]
17. You have ever gotten so bored, that you did image searches on random words like, 'floof' 'jugonga' 'dookey' or any other funny sounding word. [True]
18. You are not suprised when SEEMINGLY innocent words like 'spunk' brings up a ton of pornographic pictures. [True]
19. You can type the url of google faster than you can type your name. [True]
20. Your answer to 'why not libraries' is " uh.. hel-LO? GOOGLE? DUH!" [True]
Hm. Only 10/20. Only a minor slut. :P
(Stolen from [nokaredes])
Take your middle name, spell it backwards. Then, take your mother's maiden name (last name before she was married) and spell that backwards next. That is your jedi name.
Enitsirhc Yawollah ([Raziel Ahnara] - Christine Halloway)
Nayr nameloc ([nokaredes] - Ryan Coleman)
Nayr Ch'nom ([Ironballs "the Preposterous One"] - Ryan Monch - "I put the apostrophe there to make it a little easier to pronounce ... I'm obviously not a human jedi ^^")
Toille Regaw ([WonderTweek] - Elliot Wager)
Enna Snikral ([ツ Molly] - Anne Larkins)
Anitsirhc Hcirobrab ([Jewl] - Christina Barborich)
Cool, huh? ^^
If you try it, send me what yours is. ^^
Written about Friday 2006-01-06
Written: (6895 days ago)
I just found the greatest pictures.
Bask in the awesomeness, damn you.
And if you don't know who they are, I'm going to kill you. *rage* @.@
In order:
- Steven Tyler
- Joe Perry (duh)
- Tom Hamilton
- Brad Whitford (again, duh)
- Joey Kramer
Please tell me no one is stupid enough to NOT know who they are. e.e
Follow these instructions:
Go to http://www.goo
Type "failure" without the quotations.
Hit the "I'm feeling lucky" button.
Laugh.
And pass it on.
I heart yew, Slushie. ^__^
Written about Thursday 2005-12-22
Written: (6910 days ago)
As posted on the Guild Wars website under "Game Updates":
(As sung to the tune of The Twelve Days of Christmas)
On the twelfth moon of Wintersday ArenaNet gave to me...
Blessings from Dwayna,
Festive decorations,
One mighty snowman,
Weapons made of candy,
Gifts that might kill you,
Snow-covered henchmen,
New winter monsters,
Some really long quests!
Lots of drinking Dwarves,
Gingerbread shields,
Curses from Grenth,
And a new way to watch PvP!
Happy holidays everyone, even from a MMORPG. ^^
Hey all you people!
Run away.
Away from your pounding heart.
Away from the wrenching feeling in your chest and stomach.
Away from life as it were.
Run away, child.
Away from the arguments that mean nothing.
Away from the friends who don't care.
Away from the thoughts in your mind.
Run away, poor soul.
Away from the fight.
Away from love.
Away from life.
Away from pain.
Run away, run away.
"Coward" © Deidre C. Jones, 10/27/05