"You haven't the vaguest conception under God of what you ask."

I love that line.

From Interview with a Vampire,. Claudia's new vampy friend Madeline's telling him to make her a vampire.. yeah. ^^; Anywho.

Why am I up at this ungodly hour?

First off, I fell asleep somewhere in the time frame of 12:30 and 1:30 this morning. So.. having only had roughly six hours of sleep, my body felt it was energized enough to start the day!

Oh, and that bad things regarding my current monthly dillema were happening in my sleep.

I've been moving around so much this morning, I didn't think I'd be able to go back to sleep.



There you have it.

This is why I'm up at seven A.M.





...god, I'm tired. >.<

How many windows do you have in your room?
Two.

What is the color of your walls?
Beige, Caramel, Creme, White, Tan, Brown, Sand, Ivory, etc. It's a weird little design. ^^;

Hardwood floor, tile, or carpet?
I was unlucky enough to sleep in what used to be part of an attic, but at least they gave me carpeting. :P XD

Do you get ready for the day in your room or the bathroom?
Bedroom, generally, although lately, I've been sleeping in the guest room downstairs because it's not as hot.

Is your room big?
Hahahahahahaha- Oh, were you serious?

What is your bedroom view out the window(s)?
A fence, a couple trees (I sometimes ponder to myself whether or not they're real), the neighbor's backyard, and sometimes the neighbor, who is a very scary, old, large disabled woman who's never heard of a bra. >.<

Do you have the following in your room(s):
[_] desk
[_] cell phone (Nope, it's always with me, actually. XD)
[_] chair/stool
[_] bookshelf (I did last week, and I will soon...just...not right now...)
[X] dresser
[_] Computer/laptop
[_] bean bag
[X] pictures
[X] mirror
[X] bed
[X] clothes on the floor
[_] plastic flamingo (Quoi? o.O)
[_] guitar(s)
[_] lava lamp
[X] smoke detector
[_] piano/keyboard
[_] locking door
[_] can of soda
[_] bottle of water
[_] a blacklight
[_] medals/ribbons
[_] trophies
[_] awards
[_] water polo ball
[_] soccer ball
[_] volleyball
[_] basketball
[_] softball stuff
[_] track gear
[_] frisbee
[_] beach ball
[_] football
[_] tennis ball
[_] Hockey stuff
[_] lacrosse stick
[_] gymnastics stuff
[_] dance stuff
[_] cheerleading stuff
[_] horseback riding stuff
[X] swim stuff (What is with all the sports? XP)
[X] cd's
[_] Digital Camera
[X] sofa/futon/round chair
[X] bottles of liquor (The bottles, but not the liquor. :P XD)
[_] flag
[_] stop sign/any sign
[_] caution tape
[_] paintball gun
[_] airsoft gun
[_] Real Gun
[_] Cigarettes
[X] Candles
[X] Books
[_] Nintendo
[_] Playstation 2
[_] Game Cube
[_] X box
[_] bike
[X] Stereo
[_] Lighter
[_] Visine
[_] your mom
[_] Gum
[_] a guy
[X] condoms (Hooray condom roses. XD)

NOW REPOST THIS AS "Bedroom Survey"

Stole this from [Jewl]. :P ^^

Useless crap about me I doubt you'll wanna' read.

[ LAYER ONE ]

-- Name: Deidre
-- Nicknames: Hiro, Boobs, Deids, Deidwa, “you” (in terms of people saying, “Hey… you.”), etc.
-- Birth date: August 29th, 1989
-- Birthplace: Medford, Oregon
-- Current location: Springfield, Oregon
-- Eye color: Blue
-- Hair color: Brown
-- Height: 5'4”
-- Righty or lefty: Right-handed. Aren’t I special? e.e

[ LAYER TWO ]

Your…
-- Heritage: Cherokee Indian, predominantly. Yay fer meh. ^__^
-- Weakness: Putting everyone else before myself.
-- Fears: Porcelain dolls and being alone.
-- Perfect pizza: Black olive and pepperoni with extra cheese and olives. ^___________^ Yummeh.
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: Actually like something I make (artwise).

[ LAYER THREE ]

Your…
-- Most overused phrase on AIM: :P or XD
-- Most overused phrase: Vocally? Hm… Probably have to say slamming my fist on some hard surface and exclaiming, “Dammit.”
-- Thoughts first waking up: “Shit, it’s [ insert time ] already.”
---Best physical feature: Eyes, I guess.
-- Bedtime: Whenever I feel like going to sleep.
-- Most missed memory: I dunno. :/

[ LAYER FOUR ]

I prefer…
-- Soda: Cherry Coke
-- Fast food joint: Carl’s Jr. or Taco Bell
-- Single or group dates: I’d like to go out on a group date sometime. It’d be nice.
-- Adidas or Nikes: I don’t like either.
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton. Nestea tastes fake. >.<
-- Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate’s always better. :P
-- Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccinos have more flover. ^^;
-- Video Games: I dun play them. I watch my friends play ‘em.
-- Magazines: Seventeen, Cosmo (if I actually read them)
-- Color: Blue, red, purple, green, black
-- Foods: Mexican, Italian, hamburgers, pizza, and some seafood.
-- Drinks: Cherry Coke, water, milk, sometimes juice
-- Cars: El Camino

[ LAYER FIVE ]

Do you…
-- Smoke: I don’t, but I don’t mind it.
-- Cuss: Yeah, I do. Probably a little too much sometimes.
-- Sing: Yeah, to myself, or in the shower.
-- Take a shower every day: Almost.
-- Have a crush(es): No, I have a boyfriend for that.
-- Think you've been in love: Yeah
-- Want to go to college: Eventually.
-- Like high school: It’s alright. I don’t like the homework, though.
-- Want to get married: Yeah, after college I do.
-- Believe in yourself: *shifty eyes* Sure..
-- Get motion sickness: As far as I know, I don’t.
-- Think you're attractive: No. Very no. :/
-- Think you're a health freak: HAHAHAHAHA! That’s funny.
-- Get along with your parents: More or less, I suppose.
-- Like thunderstorms: I love them! So pretty. ^^
-- Play an instrument: I wish.

[ LAYER SIX ]

In the past month, have you...
-- Drank alcohol: I don’t think so.
-- Smoked: Nope.
-- Done a drug: No.
-- Had sex: Nope.
-- Made out: Not this month, but in the past thirty days, yes.
-- Gone on a date: Not really.
-- Gone to the mall: Yeah. ^^
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: Close. XD
-- Eaten sushi: Ew, no. XP
-- Been on stage: No.
-- Gone skating: Nope.
-- Made homemade cookies: I made cupcakes. ^^;
-- Gone skinny-dipping: Nopes.
-- Dyed your hair: I almost did.
-- Stolen anything: As far as I remember, I haven’t.

[ LAYER SEVEN ]

Have you ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: Not that I know of. O.o
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Yeah, a couple of times.
-- Been caught doing something: Like…? ^_~
-- Been called a tease: Probably not.
-- Gotten beaten up: Yeah, a few times.
-- Shoplifted: Yeah, but 7-Eleven hardly counts, doesn’t it? :P XD
-- Changed who you were to fit in: I adapt, I don’t change.

[ LAYER EIGHT ]

-- Age you hope to be married: Around 25, or so.
--How many and names of children: 2 children, boy and girl, but I don’t know what their names will be yet.
-- Describe your dream wedding: Something beautiful, something to be envied. And a GIANT cake. XD
-- How do you want to die: I don’t care.
-- Where do you want to go to college: First, LCC to get the main stuff out of the way. Then, if I want to, I’ll go to either OSU or UofO or the Art Institute of Portland.
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: Graphic Artist or Author/Journalist
-- What country would you most like to visit: Germany

[ LAYER NINE ]

In a significant other…
-- Best eye color: I adore green, but blue is pretty too.
-- Best hair color: I prefer darker colors. They tend to bring out the eyes more.
-- Short or long hair: Long. O.O I LOVE long hair.
-- Height: Either same height as or slightly taller. Of course, Jake failed to follow this rule. :P Stupid 5’11” e.e
-- Best weight: I actually tend to like bigger people. One, they usually have better personalities, and two, I just prefer that body type.
-- Best articles of clothing: I don’t care what they wear. If I love them enough, anything looks good. ^^
-- Best first date location: I dun care where. Anywhere is good if both are interested.
-- Best first kiss location: At night either in the rain or under the soft glow of a light.

[ LAYER TEN ]

Number of…
--Drugs taken illegally: None.
--People I could trust with my life: Three.
--CDs that I own: Too many to count.
--Piercings: None. :/
--Tattoos: None… yet. ^_~
--Times my name has appeared in the newspaper: The school newspaper? Everytime it comes out. ^_~ :P
--Scars on my body: About twenty.
--Things in my past that I regret: Too many.

"Alternate Life" - 8:33 AM

Do you hide when you're
forced to face loneliness?
Do you ever see a light
at the end of the tunnel?
Did you ever find an escape?

Do you scream when you
don't know what to do?
Do you cry when there's no
one left to care about you?
Did you ever want something more?

Do you ever daydream
about having a better life?
Do you ever wish for anything
you know you could never have?
Did you ever feel you were wasted?

Have you ever wanted
to be someone else?

This is my friend. His name is Aaron. He turned seventeen the other day, so I felt compelled to make something for him. ^^



So I made him creepy and bloody and vampire-esque (unbenkownst to me at the time, he actually has a thing for vampires; bonus).

What do you think?

"Eventually"
1:51 PM

It's agonizing to simply
wait for a revelation to
come. It's frustrating
to see what you've done
wrong, and know you don't
have a solution. It's
aggravating to know that
you don't deserve what
you have, and someone
is there to remind you
all the time. So you're
waiting for someone to
put you in your place.
Someone to set you
straight. Someone to
say "It'll be okay...
eventually." When does
"eventually" come? When
can you finally smile
and say, "I've made it
all right again."

Will you hate me when
you see my face? Will
you know me when you
speak my name? Will
you love me like you
did before I destroyed
everything we know?


"Eventually" © Deidre Jones, 06/01/06

So, another day without lunch. That's fun. Maybe I'll buy something later.

Probably not.


I should just be anorexic.
Maybe I'd look better.

[1] I have read a lot of books.
[_] I have been on some sort of varsity team.
[_] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.
[_] I have been to Canada.
[_] I have been to Europe.
[2] I have watched cartoons for hours.
[3] I have tripped UP the stairs.
[_] I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
[_] I have been snowboarding/skiing.
[4] I have played ping pong.
[5] I swam in the ocean.
[_] I have been on a whale watch.
[6] I have seen fireworks.
[7] I have seen a shooting star.
[_] I have seen a meteor shower.
[8] I have almost drowned.
[9] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.
[10] I have listened to one CD over & over & over again.
[_] I have had stitches.
[_] I have had frostbite.
[11] have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.
[12] I have stayed up til 2 doing homework/projects.
[_] I currently have a job.
[13] I have been ice skating.
[14] I have been rollerblading.
[15] I have fallen flat on my face.
[16] I have tripped over my own two feet.
[17] I have been in a fist fight.
[18] I have played videogames for more than 3 hours straight.
[19] I have watched the power rangers.
[_] I attend Church regularly.
[20] I have played Truth or Dare.
[21] I have already had my 16th birthday.
[_] I have already had my 17th birthday.
[22] I've called someone stupid. And meant it.
[23] I've been in a verbal argument.
[24] I've cried in school.
[_] I've played basketball on a team.
[_] I've played football on a team.
[_] I've played soccer on a team.
[_] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[25] I've played softball on a team.
[_] I've played volleyball on a team.
[_] I've played tennis on a team.
[_] I've been on a track or cross country team.
[26] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
[_] I've bungee jumped.
[27] I've climbed a rock wall.
[_] I've lost more than $20.
[28] I've called myself an idiot.
[29] I've called someone else an idiot.
[30] I've cried myself to sleep. 'Cos I'm emo like that. XD
[31] I've had (or have) pets.
[32] I've owned a spice girls CD.
[33] I've owned a britney spears CD.
[34] I've owned an N*Sync CD.
[35] I've owned a backstreet boys CD Egh... Alright, that's enough of making me feel like a loser. e.e
[_] I've mooned someone.
[_] I have sworn at someone of authority before
[36] I've been in the newspaper.
[_] I've been on TV.
[_] I've been to Hawaii.
[_] I've eaten sushi.
[_] I've been on the other side of a waterfall.
[37] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.
[38] I've watched all the Harry Potter movies.
[_] I've watched all of the Rocky movies.
[39] I've watched the 3 stooges.
[_] I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica.
[40] I've watched Looney Tunes. Hellz yes!
[_] I've been stuffed into a locker/I have stuffed others into lockers.
[41] I've been called a geek.
[42] I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade.
[43] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it.
[_] I've hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs.
[_] I've hugged my dad within the past 24 hours.
[_] I've met a celebrity/music artist.
[44] I've written poetry.
[_] I've been arrested.
[45] I've been attracted to someone much older than me.
[46] I've been tickled till I've cried.
[47] I've tickled someone else until they cried.
[48] I've had/have siblings.
[_] I've been to a rock concert.
[49] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it.
[50] I've been in a play.
[51] I've been picked last in gym class.
[_] I've been picked first in gym class.
[52] I've been picked in that middle-range in gym class.
[53] I've cried in front of my friends.
[_] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages.
[_] I've played Halo 2.
[54] I've freaked out over a sports game.
[_] I've been to Alaska.
[_] I've been to China.
[_] I've been to Spain.
[_] I've been to Japan.
[55] I've had a fight with someone on AIM
[56] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face.
[57] I've had serious converstations on any IM.
[58] I've forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me.
[59] I've been forgiven.
[_] I've screamed at a scary movie.
[_] I've cried at a chick flick.
[60] I've watched a lot of action movies.
[61] I've screamed at the top of my lungs.
[_] I've been to a rap concert.
[62] I've been to a pop concert.
[63] I've lived in more than 2 homes.
[64] I've driven on the highway/been on the highway
[65] I've driven more than 40 miles in a day/been in a car that went more than 40 miles in a day
[_] I've been in a car accident
[_] I've done drugs.
[66] I've been homesick.
[67] I've thrown up.
[_] I've puked on someone.
[68] I've been horseback riding.
[69] I've filled out more than 10 myspace surveys.
[70] I've spoken my mind in public.
[71] I've proved someone wrong.
[72] I've been proven wrong by someone.
[_] I've broken a leg.
[_] I've broken an arm.
[73] I've fallen off a swing.
[74] I've swung on a swing for more than 30 mins straight.
[75] I've watched Winnie the Pooh movies.
[76] I've forgotten my backpack when I've gone to school.
[77] I've lost my backpack.
[78] I've come close to dying.
[79] I've seen someone die.
[80] I've known someone who has died.
[81] I've wanted to be an actor/actress at some point.
[82] I've done modeling.
[83] I've forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings.
[84] I've taken something/someone for granted.
[85] I've realized how good my life is.
[_] I've counted my blessings.
[86] I've made fun of a classmate.
[87] I've been asked out by someone and I said no.
[88] I've slapped someone in the face.
[_] I've been skateboarding.
[89] I've been backstabbed by someone I thought was a friend.
[90] I've lied to someone to their face.
[91] I've told a little white lie.
[92] I've taken a day off from school just so I don't go insane.
[93] I've fainted.
[_] I've had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not.
[94] I've pushed someone into a pool.
[95] I've been pushed into a pool.
[96] I've been/am in love.

96 out of 158. Hm. 61% >.< Bleh.