had another erotic dream about her, felt real this time
ive been down on my luck lately, cant find a job, only have 40 dollars and cant find a place to get any more money, even the plasma centers wont let me donate, bc of my tatoo, which is bull shit, ive been taken my frustrations out on one specific person and she knows who she is and im sorry for the txt and everything i said in it, i know you will probably read this, its just that ive applied at so many places only to get denied bc of that one mistake a long time ago. it just aggrivates me sometimes, truth is sometimes i miss you, and with the way my life has been lately i seem to take it out on you, and im sorry. back to my job searches
if you are reading this you chose to. you chose the path in your life and you chose who you wanted in it and who you forced out of it, you are responsible for the misery in your life now, no one but you...
Cecy called me a bitch in her diary so im calling her a bitch in this one...Cecy is a bitch
I wish i had some freaking friends to hang out with, but im not allowed to have any, just my wife. i wish i had a job to, so i could make some money and go have fun.
im falling in love with my wife all over again! i have made alot of stupid decisions in my life but im not going to lose my wife and my son. The last few days have been great, Cecy and i are working things out and we have some really good ideas to better our relationship. i really hope we can be happy again... like we used to be...thats what i want..its what i dream....there is no one in the worl like Cecy, and ive taken that for granted, i wont do that again, I love her, and i married her for a reason, we are meant to be together...and we will be together..fore
I love you Cecy.
Hey if you guys want to work as a ChaCha Guide let me know, what a chacha guide does is the same thing as google, except its a live search engine, meaning someone (you) will searching for results for the customer, it starts out at around 5 and goes up to 20 dollars an hour, there are no set hours and you can work as much or as little as you want, let me know if your interested
people from Norway are fun to talk to
Cecy is in labor if you want to know how she is doing add me to yahoo
Nevinz111
at work..bored...
Thank you for those who came to the wedding party:
Lori and her mom
Jen
Eric
Kristin and Amanda
Craig
Angela for stopping by to congratulate us
the mexican families that were there with us who DIDNT know us at all, thank you for your support
and thanks to matt.. the only one thats not in our family who showed up at the actual ceremony unexpectedly
BIG THANKS TO THE 7 OUT OF 60 INVITED FRIENDS WHO CAME FOR CECY AND I
this is the only wedding Cecy and I have together so thank you so much for making it a special evening for us both!
-Our Wedding-
We are finally getting married!!!
I will make a list of who is invited, because everybody wants to know who is going be there... if your name is not in the list and you wish to come, please tell me, or Chris, so we can add it, We haven't asked everybody in the list if they are able to come, so don't feel obligated to come. Anyone who talks to us is invited. And you can bring someone too... and if you do tell us, anyone from your family is invited too. oh and try to dress black.
If anyone is interested to come to the court house to watch, let us know and we will give the info.
-Address and time for After party-
August 3rd
2112 Windsor ave.
After 6:00pm
If your able to come, please let us know as soon as possible, if able please try and contribute something to the afterparty, we are not rich so we cant feed everyone so if you can bring food, music, movies, games, drinks, anything of the sort please feel free to let us know....please NO ALCOHOL OR DRUGS...
remember....gi
if you need directions or any info contact me or chris[Nevinz] 254-230-8066
Mayra G.
Bri
Bush
Trent
Andre
Mary
Ashlee
Sarah
Rachael P.
Tracee
Jimmy
David F.
Chris S.
Steven
Aubrey
Erica
Casey
Angelo
Alisha
Zoe
Dylan
Tiffany V.
Eli
Julie T.
Frank
Jackline
Jin
Jacob
Lore
Blake
Nick P.
Augustine
Dotti
Heather
Raul
Ivonne
Sean E.
Kyndall
Stephen
R.J.
Roxie
Lisa
Julian
Scott
Jp
Kara
Audrey
Amanda
Michael
Craig
Naomi
Angie
Kristen
Whitney
Angela
Shannon
Lauren
Emily
Maryellen
Stormy
ps. no messages saying that you aren't comming because some other person is comming too, make a better excuse.
Its a boy!! go to this link http://s18.pho
Today i took off work to accompany my love to the hospital for a checkup, when we were in the doctors office, the doctor decided to try and find the baby's heart beat, when he found it, Cecy and i almost cried...it was a very very strong heart beat, the heart beat sounded kind of like when you put water in your mouth and shake your head.something like that, but it was awesome..i cant wait until i see the ultrasound on monday
not much has been going on lately, Cecy and i got back from mexico at the start of january, then we went to school, i might be getting accepted at an aviation college in tulsa, ok. hopefully ill be getting a haircut soon, ill cut everything but the front, i like that part long, ive got an appointment with the college advisor today, i hope it goes well, nothing exciting has happend lately, hopefully cecy will write her diary soon, i do love her, no matter what mood i am in, i do care about her despite what some might think....im bored of typing,..back to making a drinking bottle in 3d, i made an entire train in 3d, why have i been reduced to a bottle
This is the worst birthday i have ever in my entire life had, all i wanted to do today was have a good day, and i did for about an hour this morning, then it went downhill from there.. i have recieved nothing today, not even kindness from the one i love. i wish a simple im sorry would make things better but it never does.. i guess this is what i deserve in my entire life, no one knows how i think, feel, or mean by the things i say, no one ever believes my truths, im always just the liar, the untrustworthy
cecy and i went to leander with jp and his mom to play paintball again, i shot cecy twice once in the wrist the other place i dunno, then i snuck up on jp, his mom, and cecy and listened into what they were talking about, then i took out jp and cecilia then grabbed the flag and headed back to the base. we went down sixth street again and saw alot of weirdos, then i had to work yesterday as soon as i got back from austin, i had fun this weekend
its been a while since ive written in here, cecy keeps telling me i need to, anyways a few weeks agoa cecy and i had a small party with JP, Jackline, Julie, Scott, David, Aubrey, Casey and ourselves, well we watched a movie and the asians had way to hard of a time finding exit 340, go figure, well we caught up to them at blockbuster when i had picked up everyone besides david, he hadnt come over yet, well we watched a movie then jackline and julie left, so we picked up david, then drove over to jp's so he could drive aubrey and casey home, after that we all that were left went to walmart to play a game of tag, we got security called on us because some black bitch 30 yards away said we scared her and almost made her drop her baby, so i caught up with everyone and told them that security was after us and jp and scott headed to the car while cecy and i went to get david, while we were walking out the door the lady who called security asked us if we wanted to wait a second and we said no, then she started to talk to someone around the corner and Cecy looked at me and yelled RUN!!! so we took off and jumped in the car, i had to scoot back the seat start the car and drive at the same time because my legs wouldnt fit bc cecy drove there, ok then they spent the night and blah, the next weekend we went paintballing with Jp, we went down 6th street in austin and yelled at people, Jp gave some little kid at mcdonalds a cartiac arrest, and then we made the people at whataburger pissed at us, fun fun, then the next morning we played paintball and i got shot and it hurt like a mo fo, but ihad fun, i got shot in the head the chest the back the legs and alot in the ass, then we headed home the next day and last weekend jp stayed at our house and played on the internet all day, hes addicted, he says hes going through withdrawls, and now tonight is the punk show, we are heading home after this to get ready and get dressed in our costums, then to austin after we leave the concert for more paintball, yay!
lets see today after school Cecy and i are going home to pick up a cup and feed luna, then we are going to hot topic to pick up my check then to walmart to cash it then to the theatre to see a movie
I learned a few interesting facts today, did you know that the glass pyramid in front of the louvre has exactly 666 panes of glass? and that the governer or whatever of paris demanded it? or that the true name of god as it says in the bible is unsayable by any creature and has exactly 216 letters? did you know that 6 times 6 times 6 equals 216? think about that 666, meaning that the true name of god, must have something to do with the mark of the beast? i started thinking and i wondered, was the bible written by people who could have been under the influence of the devil? or possessed?, i mean you really have to think about that, what if the devil wrote the bible in order to steer us away from the real "god" if thats even what we are supposed to call him, one of the commandments says not to worship false gods right? what if the devil wrote the bible to cover up the real god, make us worship a god in the bible, the one he could have written, if thats true, then everyone is worshiping a false god, and we will go straight to hell if there is one. its got your mind racing or your so utterly confused at this point, so if this is true, what is the real god? or is there one? could the devil be messing with our heads or where the ppl way back then just so twisted that they decided to mess with the future humans mind? i read an article on the bible code, according to it there is supposed to be an atomic holoucast in 2006? could this be the real one? the end of mankind? if it is, thats it we lose, if theres a hell we go straight to it for worshiping a false god that the devil created, is there a true god? if so who is it, we cant just simply worship god, bc we dunno which one to worship, the true god, or the one depicted in the bible, and we cant call him god because then we dont know if we are praying to either one, we are doomed, the devil as almost won, hes got us so blinded, anyways write be back about this topic, im thinking about starting a wiki for it
Chris
C+C
Also another thing that comes to mind at the moment is could the devil have possessed a man (Jesus) and given him supernatural powers in order to fool ordinary people into believing he was the son of "god" dooping people into false beliefs, creating the religions today, most religions have some sort of godly human figure, could the devil have done this in many cultures?