im so miserable, life is shit for me and nothing is ever going to go right, i try and try, but never succedd, i would kill myself but i dont have the guts to, amnesia would be fucking great, so i could forget who i was and this pathetic life and completely start over, i discoverd today i have dual citizenship, i am an american and german citizen so if i wanted to i could move to germany with no problems and forget this world, go somewhere were no one knew me, where my ex couldnt stalk me and where my life couldnt find me. i probably wouldnt do it...but its a pleasent thought.
lmao... your fucking fault..and its never happening again..
seriously stop haunting me
Goodbye...ever
soo, she fucked up my life yet again,,.. what else is new? thats all the bitch is good for, fucking up lifes.
had another erotic dream about her, felt real this time
ive been down on my luck lately, cant find a job, only have 40 dollars and cant find a place to get any more money, even the plasma centers wont let me donate, bc of my tatoo, which is bull shit, ive been taken my frustrations out on one specific person and she knows who she is and im sorry for the txt and everything i said in it, i know you will probably read this, its just that ive applied at so many places only to get denied bc of that one mistake a long time ago. it just aggrivates me sometimes, truth is sometimes i miss you, and with the way my life has been lately i seem to take it out on you, and im sorry. back to my job searches
if you are reading this you chose to. you chose the path in your life and you chose who you wanted in it and who you forced out of it, you are responsible for the misery in your life now, no one but you...
Cecy called me a bitch in her diary so im calling her a bitch in this one...Cecy is a bitch
I wish i had some freaking friends to hang out with, but im not allowed to have any, just my wife. i wish i had a job to, so i could make some money and go have fun.
im falling in love with my wife all over again! i have made alot of stupid decisions in my life but im not going to lose my wife and my son. The last few days have been great, Cecy and i are working things out and we have some really good ideas to better our relationship. i really hope we can be happy again... like we used to be...thats what i want..its what i dream....there is no one in the worl like Cecy, and ive taken that for granted, i wont do that again, I love her, and i married her for a reason, we are meant to be together...and we will be together..fore
I love you Cecy.
Hey if you guys want to work as a ChaCha Guide let me know, what a chacha guide does is the same thing as google, except its a live search engine, meaning someone (you) will searching for results for the customer, it starts out at around 5 and goes up to 20 dollars an hour, there are no set hours and you can work as much or as little as you want, let me know if your interested
people from Norway are fun to talk to
Cecy is in labor if you want to know how she is doing add me to yahoo
Nevinz111
at work..bored...
Thank you for those who came to the wedding party:
Lori and her mom
Jen
Eric
Kristin and Amanda
Craig
Angela for stopping by to congratulate us
the mexican families that were there with us who DIDNT know us at all, thank you for your support
and thanks to matt.. the only one thats not in our family who showed up at the actual ceremony unexpectedly
BIG THANKS TO THE 7 OUT OF 60 INVITED FRIENDS WHO CAME FOR CECY AND I
this is the only wedding Cecy and I have together so thank you so much for making it a special evening for us both!
-Our Wedding-
We are finally getting married!!!
I will make a list of who is invited, because everybody wants to know who is going be there... if your name is not in the list and you wish to come, please tell me, or Chris, so we can add it, We haven't asked everybody in the list if they are able to come, so don't feel obligated to come. Anyone who talks to us is invited. And you can bring someone too... and if you do tell us, anyone from your family is invited too. oh and try to dress black.
If anyone is interested to come to the court house to watch, let us know and we will give the info.
-Address and time for After party-
August 3rd
2112 Windsor ave.
After 6:00pm
If your able to come, please let us know as soon as possible, if able please try and contribute something to the afterparty, we are not rich so we cant feed everyone so if you can bring food, music, movies, games, drinks, anything of the sort please feel free to let us know....please NO ALCOHOL OR DRUGS...
remember....gi
if you need directions or any info contact me or chris[Nevinz] 254-230-8066
Mayra G.
Bri
Bush
Trent
Andre
Mary
Ashlee
Sarah
Rachael P.
Tracee
Jimmy
David F.
Chris S.
Steven
Aubrey
Erica
Casey
Angelo
Alisha
Zoe
Dylan
Tiffany V.
Eli
Julie T.
Frank
Jackline
Jin
Jacob
Lore
Blake
Nick P.
Augustine
Dotti
Heather
Raul
Ivonne
Sean E.
Kyndall
Stephen
R.J.
Roxie
Lisa
Julian
Scott
Jp
Kara
Audrey
Amanda
Michael
Craig
Naomi
Angie
Kristen
Whitney
Angela
Shannon
Lauren
Emily
Maryellen
Stormy
ps. no messages saying that you aren't comming because some other person is comming too, make a better excuse.
Its a boy!! go to this link http://s18.pho
Today i took off work to accompany my love to the hospital for a checkup, when we were in the doctors office, the doctor decided to try and find the baby's heart beat, when he found it, Cecy and i almost cried...it was a very very strong heart beat, the heart beat sounded kind of like when you put water in your mouth and shake your head.something like that, but it was awesome..i cant wait until i see the ultrasound on monday
not much has been going on lately, Cecy and i got back from mexico at the start of january, then we went to school, i might be getting accepted at an aviation college in tulsa, ok. hopefully ill be getting a haircut soon, ill cut everything but the front, i like that part long, ive got an appointment with the college advisor today, i hope it goes well, nothing exciting has happend lately, hopefully cecy will write her diary soon, i do love her, no matter what mood i am in, i do care about her despite what some might think....im bored of typing,..back to making a drinking bottle in 3d, i made an entire train in 3d, why have i been reduced to a bottle