Well i lost the wonderful person, at least she had the guts to tell, me, i think those days of her not acknowledging me were meant to prepare me for what was coming, she left me, which im glad she did, i hate breaking up with ppl, its feels so much better when she broke up with me then i thought, at least now im free. i can be myself again, instead of being worried and nervous all the time.....I still love her, i love her even more than i did b4 now, bc of how honest she was, and the favor she acually did for me, she reminded me of what love and pain felt like, i hadnt had a relationship in a long time, bc i move around to much, but i believe my final stop is here at least until college, i thank her for what she has done and given me, i still love her and i will always be here for her, but yes i will move on............
Today i finally learned wat i did wrong, guys talk to ur g/f about your problems, its best to talk to them then someone else. tomarrow i will try to patch the hole i created between me and Becca, i love her alot, and i need her, she is my everything. i think of her all the time, theres nothing more i cherish. i love her and respect her, she is my one and only, and if i screw up again i will fix it, i told her i was sorry for what i did and wat i will do, im glad im not goin to lose such a wonderful person
ok ive been thinking for a while, and i think that, maybe i should keep trying, she came back toMary, maybe she will come back to me, i miss her alot. tomarrow morn im going to try and talk to her, i just need to be alone with her, but i think that will be the hard part, getting her to be alone with me. i love Becca, i want her to be happy, and i want to be happy, if wat she wants is not me, then i will leave, if it is something else i will stay if i can. all i want is a relationship like Mary and drew have, thats wat i need. right now im dying inside, ive wanted to just break down all day, i cant think of anything else but becca and wat i did wrong, and if its not me then why do i have to suffer........
- :'( Topher
I dont really keep a diary, but i feel i need to write this down.
Becca i feel like ive torn you apart, and im sorry, i love you very much. Lately ive been feeling that what i did my not have been the right thing to do. I made you stretch you heart into two directions, and made you choose, which i really didnt want to do, im sorry. Becca your the only person who can really make me truly happy, and i want you to feel the same way. I love everything about you, the way your so curious about things, and you could take the most serious thing and turn it into something funny, the way your eyes wonder when you are thinking, i love the feel of you in my arms, i love spending time with you even if we havent got to spend any outside of school yet, i love the feeling of your soft lips pressed against mine, i love how you think making out in the rain is romantic (Personally i think anything involving water is romantic), i love the way you can say or do anything spontanious, i love the way you act when your embarresed, i love protecting you when someones chasing you, most of all i just love you for you. I would tell you that everyday if you wanted me too. I care for you alot, more than you think, I just love being with you, you can ask Mary, shes always hearing about it. Just one day dont be surprised if i walk up to you and just take you away so we can be alone for a little bit. We havent had anytime alone since that friday night. Becca i love you, be good, you can talk to me about anything, im always here for you. -Christopher
I dont really keep a diary, but i feel i need to write this down.
Becca i feel like ive torn you apart, and im sorry, i love you very much. Lately ive been feeling that what i did my not have been the right thing to do. I made you stretch you heart into two directions, and made you choose, which i really didnt want to do, im sorry. Becca your the only person who can really make me truly happy, and i want you to feel the same way. I love everything about you, the way your so curious about things, and you could take the most serious thing and turn it into something funny, the way your eyes wonder when you are thinking, i love the feel of you in my arms, i love spending time with you even if we havent got to spend any outside of school yet, i love the feeling of your soft lips pressed against mine, i love how you think making out in the rain is romantic (Personally i think anything involving water is romantic), i love the way you can say or do anything spontanious, i love the way you act when your embarresed, i love protecting you when someones chasing you, most of all i just love you for you. I would tell you that everyday if you wanted me too. I care for you alot, more than you think, I just love being with you, you can ask Mary, shes always hearing about it. Just one day dont be surprised if i walk up to you and just take you away so we can be alone for a little bit. We havent had anytime alone since that friday night. Becca i love you, be good, you can talk to me about anything, im always here for you.
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