Dear diary, i hate you stinkin guts you make me vomit your the scum between my toes love Bob
Well i had alot of fun today, i got to hang out with the bestest Friends i haved, she is coolest, i r likeing her, we took pictures, killed my lil bro and sent him to tiwain, but they sent him back bc we didnt have enough stamps, damn postal service, so picky
oh she is scared of roaches, i ran my finger tips up her arm like bugs were crawling up them and she freaked!!! it was funny, then i walked her to her car and slipped, that was a good impression, and my dog poppy, got the special treatment from Shannon, oh and Shannon she took advantage of u.......i cant believe u made out with my dog and not me :'( i guess that makes her a lesbian since she is a female dog, anyways, she is cool, and i definetly need to spend more time with her
umm.....yes a simple math problem that all should learn
Skateboard+Hil
If u dont understand that then i might as well tell u, i got grabed a skateboard, walked up my hill, stood on the skateboard began rolling, skateboard stops i go flying, land head first on road, tear up shoulder, back, hip, knee, there is blood on the hospital wall, they made me wait to long so i thought i would bleed on there stuff,and im still bleeding, this bandage wont stop anything, it just keeps coming, so if i dont drown in blood by tomarrow i will go do something else stupid, oh yea, im hurt someone comfort me, come to my home (plz be someone i know) or call me 755-6892 rather the first one, well now that im done being pitifull, um goodnights
"I cant love what i dont know?" how the hell am i supposed to get to know someone thats never around?
All i know is that i loved the time we had together, if i could try to spend more time with you, i would have, but now i know that wouldnt have made a difference, you made up your mind about me a long time ago, i wouldnt have done wat i did if i didnt care about you, but now i know i shouldnt have, i have learned more than you think about what happend that night. maybe it was for the best, you hurt me more with those few words than i could have ever hurt you, i know what i did was immature, but i was nervous and scared, sometimes i think you really never cared, through our so called "relationship" i loved you, but i always ended up gettin hurt, im not saying u never go hurt, but i dont think u did, it was a short lived relationship, all i have ever wanted is a relationship like Mary and Drews, i want someone i can hold, kiss, cherish, and love more than anything, i know when i find that person i wont be nervous around them, i can tell them anything, u were that person for about 20 minutes that friday night, after that i felt guilty, i fucked up 2 peoples lives, i should have just left everyone alone, kept it to myself, like i do everything, i expect you are critizing me by now, if only you knew the truth, but you wouldnt listen. i know theres no second chance, even after i know only a fraction of what u really thought of me, how come you never told me that? You lied to my face, and i dont like that, i never lied to you, i said i was sorry and i was, but now im not so sure, if u want we can talk but i doubt that will ever happen, have a nice day
Well i lost the wonderful person, at least she had the guts to tell, me, i think those days of her not acknowledging me were meant to prepare me for what was coming, she left me, which im glad she did, i hate breaking up with ppl, its feels so much better when she broke up with me then i thought, at least now im free. i can be myself again, instead of being worried and nervous all the time.....I still love her, i love her even more than i did b4 now, bc of how honest she was, and the favor she acually did for me, she reminded me of what love and pain felt like, i hadnt had a relationship in a long time, bc i move around to much, but i believe my final stop is here at least until college, i thank her for what she has done and given me, i still love her and i will always be here for her, but yes i will move on............
Today i finally learned wat i did wrong, guys talk to ur g/f about your problems, its best to talk to them then someone else. tomarrow i will try to patch the hole i created between me and Becca, i love her alot, and i need her, she is my everything. i think of her all the time, theres nothing more i cherish. i love her and respect her, she is my one and only, and if i screw up again i will fix it, i told her i was sorry for what i did and wat i will do, im glad im not goin to lose such a wonderful person
ok ive been thinking for a while, and i think that, maybe i should keep trying, she came back toMary, maybe she will come back to me, i miss her alot. tomarrow morn im going to try and talk to her, i just need to be alone with her, but i think that will be the hard part, getting her to be alone with me. i love Becca, i want her to be happy, and i want to be happy, if wat she wants is not me, then i will leave, if it is something else i will stay if i can. all i want is a relationship like Mary and drew have, thats wat i need. right now im dying inside, ive wanted to just break down all day, i cant think of anything else but becca and wat i did wrong, and if its not me then why do i have to suffer........
- :'( Topher
I dont really keep a diary, but i feel i need to write this down.
Becca i feel like ive torn you apart, and im sorry, i love you very much. Lately ive been feeling that what i did my not have been the right thing to do. I made you stretch you heart into two directions, and made you choose, which i really didnt want to do, im sorry. Becca your the only person who can really make me truly happy, and i want you to feel the same way. I love everything about you, the way your so curious about things, and you could take the most serious thing and turn it into something funny, the way your eyes wonder when you are thinking, i love the feel of you in my arms, i love spending time with you even if we havent got to spend any outside of school yet, i love the feeling of your soft lips pressed against mine, i love how you think making out in the rain is romantic (Personally i think anything involving water is romantic), i love the way you can say or do anything spontanious, i love the way you act when your embarresed, i love protecting you when someones chasing you, most of all i just love you for you. I would tell you that everyday if you wanted me too. I care for you alot, more than you think, I just love being with you, you can ask Mary, shes always hearing about it. Just one day dont be surprised if i walk up to you and just take you away so we can be alone for a little bit. We havent had anytime alone since that friday night. Becca i love you, be good, you can talk to me about anything, im always here for you. -Christopher
I dont really keep a diary, but i feel i need to write this down.
Becca i feel like ive torn you apart, and im sorry, i love you very much. Lately ive been feeling that what i did my not have been the right thing to do. I made you stretch you heart into two directions, and made you choose, which i really didnt want to do, im sorry. Becca your the only person who can really make me truly happy, and i want you to feel the same way. I love everything about you, the way your so curious about things, and you could take the most serious thing and turn it into something funny, the way your eyes wonder when you are thinking, i love the feel of you in my arms, i love spending time with you even if we havent got to spend any outside of school yet, i love the feeling of your soft lips pressed against mine, i love how you think making out in the rain is romantic (Personally i think anything involving water is romantic), i love the way you can say or do anything spontanious, i love the way you act when your embarresed, i love protecting you when someones chasing you, most of all i just love you for you. I would tell you that everyday if you wanted me too. I care for you alot, more than you think, I just love being with you, you can ask Mary, shes always hearing about it. Just one day dont be surprised if i walk up to you and just take you away so we can be alone for a little bit. We havent had anytime alone since that friday night. Becca i love you, be good, you can talk to me about anything, im always here for you.
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