I have nothing better nor anyone better to talk to ....i sit here alone listening to the beat of music created by the band linkin park...i have no better ideas of what to type or what to see....im bored as hell and yet..im still hungry...i have school tomarrow and the labour of cleaning the house before my parents get home....then another yet unchanged day of school..the only unordinary fact of that day is taht i have to go in for oriantation for the new job i have recieved....fo
umm i was bored most of yesterday...af
came home..was bored....went to sleep...Shauna called around 1:30 am...and i was more asleep then awake....and i didnt know who i was talking to until about half way through the convo....at first i thought it was god...for some reason....and i remember something about camo boxers.......a
Last night i went to Shauna's..i had alot of fun....we helped Trever with his homework....an
Yesterday i went to the dentist and then went home...they told me i needed to stop with the altoids...like im going to......anyway
hmmmmmm...lets see.....today i fell asleep at 1:30 am...after laying in bed around 10 and not being able to sleep......i woke up at 5...worked on my essay...then i took a shower...went to school...all that good stuff.....came home..eager to see Shaunna...mowe
Today when alright at the beginning...th
thought: GOD WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING?
Music: the hum of the computer
whatever goes here: ????
Ive had a great day today..i woke up not remembering it was the 11th then i went to auto zone and got glue for the rear view mirror..and then i went to Lisa's i fixed Larry's bike then we watched a movie...argued
okies....today was kickass!!! i hung out with bri today..i had a shitaki load of fun, we went to the mall and wondered around aimlessly went from store to store....got lost in jc penny i had to ask for directions, oh ya..only man that will, then we went to best buy saw a fridge with a tv on it..boy is america getting lazy...messed with computers and then cameras..games then sat in some comfy chairs and watched all the big screens....tal
YAY!!! well now shes out of the hospital its 7:11am on a thursday morning..im getting ready for school and hoping scott will give me a ride...during the weekend..if i get another weekend pass im going to go see Jackie!! see how funny she looks....i keep hearing about crutches and a neck brace....i wanna see for myself..plus i didnt get to see her in the hospital bc my dad didnt think it was important..whi
well this sucks monkey nuts, my good friend Jackie is in the hospital....i hope shes ok...
a movie, hide and seek at walmart, dinner at wendys, and a midnight walk on the dam with Gina, Heather, and Nick
oh..and i saw k.b. at walmart
Why does she love him when hes not there?
Why cant she love someone whose already here?
I love her with all my heart, and a hell of alot more.
when i try to tell her how i feel...i open a door, just to find a wall....
theres nothing i can ever do...but wait in pain.....
some people tell me..all my patience is in vain.....
she will never love me, never see me as more
they say she walks on me..just as she does the floor...
we been through thick and thin...
some of the things we've been through would make your head spin....
But i do love her...so....il
Lisa i love you and you know it...i thought of you most of this week, im starting to wonder if you did at all.....right now im grounded...and i wont be able to see you much...for about a month....ive been with you almost every chance i had this summer....im going to go insane if i cant.....im trying to negotiate with my father on letting me see you at least once or twice a week......and hell....if your mom calls him and asks for me to tutor you...i would get to see you....ive talked to her about me helping you....il be with my sister at the house alone until sunday....i wish for you to stop by....we could watch a movie....i know your mom wouldnt leave you..so i wouldnt care if she stayed.....she also knows and can tell how much you mean to me....we had a nice talk about it when she was dropping me off last monday.......i need to go....my sister wants on.....so when you read this..please call me...no matter what time........
-I Love You
-Chris
well this past week i have been at discovery camp...i had alot of fun..met alot of new ppl and have expressed plenty of new feelings......
well today was good and awful
i was awoken at about 8 30 by scotts phone call, then rushed by Angel to get ready to go to Lisa's...i was a lil pissed bc i had a small hang over and was just pissed by things earlier that morning......i was ready for an hour before i acually left for Lisa's....i didnt eat anything for breakfast....i got there about 11:20 hung out..then left about 12:30...i was irriated by almost everything today....i rode home..and took the long way.....it added over 2 extra miles to my trip....i wanted to collapse in the road and not get back up....when i got home i was drenched in sweet..and surprisingly in a pleasent mood.....scott came over and i talked to jaqulene and Kayla on the phone for a lil over 2 or 3 hours, scott joined in on the convo and we prank called a few ppl, then they came over....the party was a mo f'in bust..there was four of us....and one chick was a conceded bitch the other was too quite which didnt bother me..i just wished the other would shut up and leave...we ordered pizza...then her cousin was online and he watned her to flash him....she did a few times...it was fucking dumb....i was sitting there...of coursed i looked but it was fucking disgusting...i
ok today was fun.....i went to micks...we went to jq's g'pa's casa hung out there...went back to micks his stepdad came home....jq and i tried to sneak out ...she ran behind him while he was in the car.....not a good idea..lol....s
oh man tonight was good and bad!! first of all mick came over to mi casa at about 1:30 then we left for CiCi's, we had trouble bc of cars and just having one bike...so we added a few mins to our estimated arrival
we got to 42nd street and was followed or being searched for by some dude in a red car with his bass way the hell up....then the unthinkable happend....MIC
ok..umm..today i talked to CiCi on the phone for a bit...then i joined her and two of her friends to see "The Village" i had fun even though the movie sucked ass..i wasnt satisfied at all.....not scary, the plot was ok, but the twist at the end was shitty, well...i had fun bc i was talking to CiCi during the movie...she makes growling noises when she gets scared....its funny...she grabbed my arm once when they were opening a damn box...now thats scary....all in all i had alot of fun......yay for me....maybe shes right...i could be obsessed....bu
got my ingrown toe nails taken out...lots of blood and tissue and ripping noises...but great entertainment.
ive been used yet again...and it hurts like hell.....i need to get out of here and find someone that will truly care about me.....this shit is what makes me so ready to leave....im moving again for those of you who even care.....but for some im not even a presence....an