Fluid, brah. Fluid.

Things.... are freakin' sweet.
I'm guna take my driving test tomara...
And I got to see Summer Scott today at school. She was in a car wreck, and was limping. lol
But She's okay.... and She took her GED today.
Nice.

Okay... last week of school!
Right now, I'm just kinda typing up my research paper and chunks.

I've got social distortion on my MP3, and I'm getting ready to go work at the AWS.
They need some help.... so I thought I'd volenteer.

Righto.....

Peace. Love. Chunks.

P.s.
My recent house update has nothing to do with you guys reading this.
[Friends only.] ^__^


AND FOR THE PIC!!!
I'm like Jesse.... I get new peircings when I feel really bad. The nose one HURT!!!!!!!!! OMGAWD. I started like-- crying. lol It didn't hurt at first.... but it did later!

I don't feel like a complete idiot... Har.
Jamie Grimes, my friend and classmate from my English COMP class went though the same thing I am with her ex-boyfriend. Bizzare! lol

So I got some tips. Yayness.

And Matt's being really cool too. I don't get to call him [all the time] or nothing. And I wouldn't want to with him having a girlfriend and all....
But he's being cool.
Not mean and sadistic.
Awesome.

Sometimes I have these lasps, and I get to really missing Tai.
But I can get over it.
I have to.
I have to get over him and move on to stay in school.
I'll be 17 before long, so I can just keep it chill.
I'm just done with boys and all.
They get me in nothing but trouble!!!!!

Fluid, brah. Fluid.

Irie... I'm out. Got orientation for my job.

Friday was awesome. Went out after midnite to get the new HP book. Saw Stephen at McDonald's with some people. He didn't notice me. I didn't talk to him. Whew!!

Saturday I thought of Tai.... weird right?
Just found out I am indeed not pregnet. Started scaring me there for a little bit, it'd been two months since my last period.
My mom was freaking out, I was freaking out.... and my dad well--- hasn't been happy about the whole thing since the beggining.
But everyone's cool now and we can start to go back to normal!
I guess deep down I knew I wasn't.... cause Tai was really careful.... And I belive him saying he was a virgin... so when I have to get my blood checked, I belive that'll come back negitive too for STDs or whatever.
I think my parents are overreacting... but it's okay. They're starting to cool off a lot.
Basicly, my punishment is no boys for the rest of my 16th year.
They're confident I won't make that mistake again! ^_^v
They don't think I'm a slut or nothing.

Sunday was crazy! lol
I took the trucks off my old skateboard and put them on my scooter!!!! AWESOME!!!!!!
It's like... woah.
Then, I took the other two wheels off the other trucks, put them on a longer bolt on the back wheel, and now I have a 5-wheeled schooter! It's friggin' schweet.

I've thought about Tai a lot this weekend. I found that lil' box of stuff that I have of all the stuff he's given meh.
Har.

It sucks he hates me.

I don't know if Mr. Moore was just trying to be nice or what... saying that Tai wanted to see me too?? 0_o

Woah.

Okay, by the by--- Like I've told Jesse, I just can't get drunk again.
I found out I'm an angry drunk.
lol
I'm a fantasic high, but an angry drunk.
Both of which I haven't done in months....
Cause the last time I got high, was when I was with Stephen....
And the last time I got drunk was the day I got caught.

Well.... last week of school!
Hopefully I can finish with these essays so I can go this fall!

Going to the S.S.S. to pick up a job form today!

Peace. Chunks.

MUWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Must. Find. That. Job. Form!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMGosh. Need it! Need it! Need it!!!!!!!!!!

Har.

Here:

sip_this_rawr_514: no kidding???
redheadedterror: lol
sip_this_rawr_514: so have u got 1 in the oven?
redheadedterror: Huh?
redheadedterror: What are you talking about?
sip_this_rawr_514: u know have u packed a basterd boomer?
redheadedterror: WTF!?
sip_this_rawr_514: lol
redheadedterror: What are you going on about?
sip_this_rawr_514: R U pregnet or something?
redheadedterror: Oh!!!!
redheadedterror: lol
sip_this_rawr_514: u don't hav to tell me jw
redheadedterror: Haha... i just thought you were possesed.
sip_this_rawr_514: that's what im wondering.
redheadedterror: You are possesd matty.

KKs.... LOL Here's some cool neat stuff that 1) I found and 2) Matt wrote! ^___^
1) I wrote this up From: The Quiet Things that No One Knows.
Whatever poison's in this bottle will leave me broken sore and stiff.
But it's the genie at the bottom who I'm sucking at. He owes me one last wish.
So here's a present to let you know I still exist.
I hope the next girl that you kiss has something terribly contagious on her lips.

But I got a plan (I got a plan)
Drink (drift) for forty days and forty nights.
A sip for every second-hand tick.
And for every time you fed me the line, "you mean so much to me...".
I'm without you.

So tell all the English girls you meet, about the American girl back in the states.
The American girl you used to date.
Who would do anything you say.

And even if his plane crashes tonight he'll find some way to disappoint me,
by not burning in the wreckage, or drowning at the bottom of the sea.
"Boy, I still taste you, thus reserve my right to hate you."
And all this empty space that you create does nothing for my flawless sense of style.

It's 8:45. The weather is getting better by the hour.
I hope it rains there all the time.
And if you ever said you miss me then don't say you never lied.
I'm without you.

No more songs about you
After this one, I am done
You are, you are, you're gone

And from Matt.... we were chatting online yesterday, and he's been well since the motocycle wreck a while back. ^__^

Haven't seen him in FA.....EVA!
"Roses are red
Violets are blue
I can not believe
I got so attached 2 you
You were like barbered wire
Wrapped around my heart
With ever breath i took
You Ripped me apart
Each little beat Is another small cut
I dont know what it takes
To sew it all shut
Losing my trust
Watching my broken memories
Fading to dust."

He says that's his 'juggalo pledge...'
LOL
The trust/dust thing was my idea! WOOOT!

KKS.
Kinda cool.

So I saw Mike yesterday. GRRR! He's guna be driving before meh! I swear!!!!!
Gah.
Hate it.
But it's cool. It's cool.

Life is FANTASTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gawd.
Not nearly as miserable as I was yesterday.

So I applied for a $7/hr job, and HEEEEEELLLLLLLLZ yeah.
It's awesome.
Just a couple hours a day.
Wicked siked.

Well, peace and chunks. Meeting Jess and Matty at the library.
Matt's blonde now. He's funny lookin!!!!!!!
0_o
He looks like a prep, sorta. LOL
Cept for the black bandana and the led zepplin tees-- you'd beive he was, too!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, that was unessariliy rude of [SkyeDrake]'s dad... I don't need to take that shit from anyone.
But I guess he's right... I'm not a priority. =(

Why is everything so freakin' fxcked up?!

Tai swore he'd meet me on Friday-- and it's friday....
*sigh* Guess what, he can't go. Or more won't.... I guess. Whatever.

Shooter asked to hang out today, but I called and he's going to Joplin, to the theather, with his friends tonite. I can't go. Obvious reasons.
I saw him yesterday in his red car. Hard to belive he's guna be 17 so soon. Yipes... everyone's growing up, yeah?
Sucks.

Why do I feel like Tai-kun doesn't like me anymroe?? Everything feels real different. I still love him, but I think it's just weirder not being together than it is being together.
Gosh... I just wish someone would tell me everything and clue me in. I'm so confuzed now! I though everything was going so perfect until the other day!!!!
Why did Tai have to go and do that?????
Really unfair, man.... really unfair.

And he wants to know how come I never come over???
I'M OUT AND ABOUT EVERYDAY WITH SOMEONE OR ANOTHER!!! I could've gone over a zillion times this past couple months.
But... I'm not really welcome there.
He's dad has been quite obvious about that, and although his mom doesn't really show it, I get the feeling she isn't really too keen on me either. Because on some degree or another, the parents ALWAYS agree with eachother.

But what-the-fcking-ever, dood.

Eck. Life. Sucks.

I wish everything could go back to being normal!
Actually, I wish it was summer, last year, again! Where the good times never ended, the most complicated thing to deal with was having enough money to buy the food to throw at the cars that drove by, and my friends were my family.
That was so much fun.

Tai: Get over it and fix yourself soon, please??
((*scoffs* as if he'd ever read this anyways))
Let me guess, you won't be able to make it on my test day either, right??? =.=""