Update. The girl I am in love with. Just made me happy! w00t!

Well this is great. Just fucking great. Well lets see the girl i love is sad now. Because i told her that the only way for me to get over her completely is to go out with someone. (for those that don't know we were together a while back but i fucked up a couple times and we never got back together, she moved on) So i told her that and she all sad and depressed, she claims that its not me but i know its me. Now i'm with another person. Yup. Moved on and feeling like shit. YAY! LIFE SUCKS SOMEMORE. GOD REALLY HATES ME!

Well, Its been a while since i typed in my die-ary heh. But well nothing has really change, Me alone. My frineds are still cool. And well I don't know there is a concert this friday, and my friends tasha [Orange_Skittle] keeps asking me if i'm going. So I might just show up. Well i guess this is the end.

Elftown gave me another chance......i dont care. No one cares why the fuck should I?.....Life....is so fucking lonely....and tis is my own damn fault. But remember no one cares.

Well here i am again writing in this fucking journal...diary...or what the fuck ever it is...i don't fucking care anymore. Im fucking tired......I'm tired of people fucking hating me...im tired of my dad and his fucking problems...I'm tired of people that say there my friends and then go around and call me an asshole for being nice.....I'm tired of my head hurting, heartbreaking, and Life. Ah yes Life... FUCK IT! I FUCKING HATE WHAT THIS SO CALLED GOD DID THIS TO ME. FUCK EVERYONE THAT BELIEVES IN THAT PIECE OF SHIT. FUCK ELFTOWN AND THERE "COPYRIGHT" BULLSHIT! FUCK EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING THAT FUCKING MOVES THERE JUST A FUCKING WASTE OF FUCKING SPACE! JUST FUCK IT ALL! ALL.....

Once again another day i woke up and i'm still alive....damn god why me.....well anyway....Later to day i almost got jumped by a bunch of fucking niggers!!! YAY!! me and trent [GradeZero] and don't start with the races mail....theres a difference.....Nigger - someone that picks on someone for who they want to be. Black Person- Someone that accept me for who the fuck i am!

MY FUCKING HEAD HURTS!!!

Well yet another day of me sitting here....BORED!!! i want to go to the concert but i dontk think i will..........wip de do!!! God i hate this....

Push my fingers into my eyes...
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache...
But it's made of all the things I am today...
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside...
If the pain goes on...
Aaaaaaaah!

I have screamed until my veins collapsed
I've waited last, my time's elapsed
Now, All I do is live with so much fate
I've wished for this, I've bitched at that
I've left behind this little fact:
You cannot kill what you did not create
I've gotta say what I've gotta say
And then I swear I'll go away
But I can't promise you'll enjoy the words
I guess I'll save the best for last
My future seems like on big past
You'll live with me 'cause you left me no choice

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!

Pull me back together
Our seperate the skin from the bone
Leave me all the Pieces, and then you can leave me
alone
Tell me the reality is better than dream
But I found out the hard way,
Nothing is what it seems!

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the thing I am today
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!

All I've got...all I've got is insane...
All I've got...all I've got is insane...
All I've got...all I've got is insane!
All I've got...all I've got is insane!

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the thing I am today
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!

Well havnt type on this in a while....well i had an awsome weekend......i mean hell i go to shekins to the skatepark then to the abanded k-mart get caught back to shekins then back to the skatepark....man what a wonderful friday...
Saturday i wake up clean my room, go to hastings to go see a concert Locus was playing.....then go to shikens then to courtney's then back to shikens......
Sunday....well sunday sucked but the rest of the weekend was awsome thx yumm tasting Ovaltine.....^.-

Gut seinen einen anderen Tag mit mir beschwerend mich. Noch wieder Lebens saugt. Ich verpasse sara gerade darf sehen sie. Aber ich verpasse sie. (Prob ertönt gruselig) Aber mein ehemalig gf Janis ist aufgelöst worden mit ihrem bf gestern nachdem er hat betrügt auf ihrem dem Ganzen messen Zeit sie sind gegangen aus. der,,, . Sie hat mich erzählt, daß sie weiß, wie ich jetzt gefühlt habe. .....and ich habe erzählt, daß es ihres nicht ausmacht. .....time hat vorbei. .....

Где - любовь в мире! Никто, кажется, не любит меня мой папа, Моя подруга только как друг для нее. Мой друг даже не действует подобно этому ......... бог, я ненавижу этот мир.

Wenn der Tag ist, den ich mein Selbst töten kann, das ich wünsche, daß ich tot irgendwann ich hier war. Leben saugt, Mein Vater Saugt, warum nicht ich kann, bin tot. Ich bin tot, sage ich, daß diese Briefe DWCTUA bedeuten!

Days....sucks why am i here.......truely am i suppost to hold my dad back luck.....do i have to be like this i thought my dad beating the shit out of me was enough no......apparently because Saturday Night.....sara made out with her ex Andrew....(hope the fucker is happy) now after this point she might see him somemore notice that she still likes him and break up with me for him (Well i guess i deserve it completely) dont know why but i do.....then im going to just like my little duck Courtney wishing everyday i was fucking dead when i wake up.......Thank you so sorry piece of shit of a fuckin god.

Yet another day of bordom......never got to see sara miss her but didnt get to see her. She said that people write to her saying i go a little overboard with her.....like I write my mood and it has her name on it everytime....or i write something about her and she says "creepy". Maybe i am i dont know it hurt my feelings never met a girl that said i was creepy. I truely dont know.... I just like her alot....thats all. Maybe i should stay back a little....

Well it is another day where i didnt get to see sara....and yes i am a sad sad panda....but hopfully i will get to see her afterschool....school my own worst enemy...sara is at home sick i think....i hope she feels better. Not much to type but yea....

"Hey LoopHole don't be mad and kick me. All these people f*cking sit here and complain on how the game sucks yea... well it does have some turn downs but it also have some turn ups. I enjoy the game and i am at school right now. So i read and type things in the forum....see the reason i typed this is because all i read is This game sucks, or there cheaters that dupe(dont even think thats possible), also Char wipes (next person that suggest it im gonna kill) and last but not least the actual game Yes item are a little over priced for our level a broad sword shouldn't be 15k (not exact 15k more like 14,387 i think.) and it takes a century to get to just lv 10 but see people are still playing it, they want to better than everyone stuff like that is gonna happen. But people should just sit here and complain go out there and show those rich people whos boss. Just one more thing (because i don't think you people want me to keep talking) Quit being mean to Newbies god you people were newbies before in a life time give them a chance if there is someone in need of help you should help them. I dont care if yea they ask stupid questions. Its all because they don't KNOW WHAT THE HELL THEIR DOING. So they have every right to ask questions......From TheSethProject (And yes i do have a penis....so f*cking laugh for once.) a newbie expert......"

I wrote this today in 7th period for Lineage 2 http://boards.lineage2.com/tm.asp?m=152947&mpage=1&key=&#153289
i thought it was awsome so i decided to post it up.

Well today im at school missing sara as usual. Last night i played Lineage 2 till 10. I got a new sword broad sword that cost me 9k damn it took me forever. I met a these 2 guys they're were lv 7 & 6 and they said they would help me start a clan when i get to lv 10 which shouldnt take long....

Today.....im so fucking lonely i want to shekins to see my beautiful Sara. But she didn't even talk to much i think all shit said was hi. then bye. But hey im ok...its not like i had to sit there watching other people make out while she watches Love Hina (good anime) hey...im cool though
she was watching a good anime so it makes up for it....i guess......did i mention we didnt sit next to each other the whole time..Oh well can't wait to see her tomorrow ;-P but other than that i stayed up all night with my dad doing nothing. At 7:00 i went to bed and Tash and Cyn came and woke my up at 10:00 so i only had 4 hours of sleep. Its all good(real weird never used it before) we went to the mall and i play DDR*cheers* i love that game! Sara I MISS YOU ALREADY!!! there got that off my chest well there isnt much to say now. so ill end this now.....

Guess what....another bad day didn't get to see my sarah. No instead i work my ass off. Yup ALL FUCKING DAY!! I had a hammer chunched at my leg and it hit my ankle and its all hurts. But other than that matt came by and he chilled at my house till like 12:00p.m. but its pretty cool. Well i guess this is all i have to say........pretty much.

Today is a bad but awsome day, well i got in trouble and im grounded right now im not even suppost to be on here but i am. Bu other than that i got a new gf :-D