fuck you jeremy..that all i can say right now..

so lifes good....I mean..yeah...my grandfather died, my brothers in jail, my sister may be put in jail, and I cant do anything right...but still its good I mean I try to foget my problems and just be happy....and thats what I do look to the positive like...my friends..my new boyfriend who understands me I should add..and everything eles that could go good....so yeah I'm not complaining....

i made a song!!! its ok but not great...

        ITS NOT
When everythings what it seems its not
Theres not happyness my hearts gonna rot
I'll never love what im not sure of
Nothing makes sence when your hearts in a ditch
I cant get away nothing seems okay
So give life a stire when everythings a blur
My emotions died theres nothing inside
Im halo Im halo
Theres nothing there for you anymore
It like my heart said no and closed the door
Theres nothing left but this blank stare
No words can ever make this fair
So.........
When everythings what it seems its not
Cause Im halo Im halo
And this smile on my face
Has left without a trace
Its like a wave from the ocean
Washing over me taking my emotions
Now the lights turned out and im not gonna pout
Cause i know not what
When every things what it seems
ITS NOT
   By: Monic Armendariz
Writen 6/30/04

im good today! a friend told me a couple days ago what kind of person i was and he told me to look to everything good and i did and now i feel great! ooyeah this guy likes me but he lives in oklahoma city but im going to oklahoma again for about a month so i'll get to be with him! i dont need them any more im still monic with or without them and fuck them if they dont like it!!

my brothers an facehole as alli would say.......i feel like laying down and never geting up......i wanna be invisible..i wanna get on a plane and just fly fly somewhere anywhere just away from here i hate it here i cant stand them im going insane yeah! sure y not i bet nobody would notice if i just got on a plane and left i wanna go somewhere where nobody really knows y i am the way i am and they dont ask!....nobody can fully understand me i mean i cant even fully understand me ok i guess thats all i gotta say bye......

ok i dont love trevor sherry he's a shitface...............my b-days in 2 days............bored as fuck...............i seem to become invisible when i want to be seen but still im invisible when i dont want to be seen...........................i wish some day i can get away from this madness in my life i wanna go far away and never look back........................................some day..........

at the moment i feel loving!!
i love trevor sherry,me,all my friends, my sisters annie cherish and whitney who arent really my sisters but more than my sisters ever were! if u got that good if u didnt o well! i also hate many many people! like hump-for-free i hate her more than many people i hate! i think thats about all i gotta say so bye bye 4 now

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I AM BORED HELP ME BE UNBORED!!!!!!!!!