The second diary of the day >.< Right if any of you live in Europe and would like to meet me when I go on my trip around Europe either this year or the next then, take a look at Firenze's Eurotrip and let me know ^_^

At the moment I have had enough of everyone and everything and wish that they would just drop dead or that I was dead instead. I try my hardest to keep people happy and not insult them and all this polarva but what hurts is when it is all thrown back into my face and basically treated as nothing...

I hate being alive, I wish there was just a nice hole for me to jump in and be buried alive so I could just die of suffocation and the weight of the earth crushing my body. I know this is all emoish but I have well and truely had enough, especially after a certain event last night, involving two others, one that I am particularly close with and the other not so close with, where they fell out and because of their fall out I also end up being involved somehow and all relations terminated. Plus numerous other things that have happened over this festive period. I have come to realize this pitiful existance of mine is pointless and I might as well be dead.

I hoped to enter the new year happily but it seems I won't, just like last year the new year begins sadly again...

After hours of cursing, bitching and moaning at this stupid ipod, I got the bloody thing to sync yay! Now I have a load of music on it and am happy ^_^

On another note, I have been driving in my car with my £500 new mp3 car stereo that I got for Christmas and have had it up full and my ears almost popped... It was so freakin' loud

Well joined the band wagon of the whoever is...wiki's, thus falls upon you poor unfortuanate souls my one, muhwahahahaha!

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If anyone has any Christmas photos they would like displayed on my house in Photography Weekly then drop your submissions by and I will put a selection up next week!

Well it will be soon time to break up for the Christmas holidays and during that festive holiday will be mass revision for my chemistry, psychology and sociology exams in January which I am dearly not looking forward to, so am making revision guides for 2 subjects as one of my subjects provides a decent guide worth having. But I reckon if I do my guide over the weekend for sociology, my teacher will be like 'Ooooo...that is nice, do you think I could photocopy that for the entire class...', I think not, if those lazy asses can't be bothered to write a decent set of notes for themselves and do additional work then tough shit on them, I work my ass off on my work...*sighs*

To be quite honest I am growing tired of doing exams after exams after exams and then more coursework, it is like never ending *dies* Thank goodness I am leaving next year! But then it is just getting into another college to do the course I actually want to do as I have heard they are not taking on anyone that have previously done A-Levels *cries* Life is just a bitch sometimes.

Now to write some more up on my darling sociology revision guide packed full of what I need to know and probably more, lol.

Okay so as everyone probably knows by now, I am off sick *blech* I have been bored shitless, been doing the work that has been emailed to me by my teachers so I won't fall behind and all that jazz. But today I couldn't be fucked to do any of the work that they sent to me today, it all bored me. So I went downstairs and spent the day watching TV ^_^

Whilst watching TV, I came across Pride and Prejudice with Keira Knightley in it, I was like ooooo...I have been wanting to see this film for a while now, so I sat and watched it and as soon as Mr Darcy came into the picture I was like he's cute *is now glued to TV* I loved the film and now want to read the book so will go and buy it tomorrow, even though I shouldn't leave the house...blarg...*sniffles*

I have seen some truely fucktarded things at my college but this is by far the most fucktarded thing....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aLdH_ASCOp8

Okay here is the story, broke my right arm and hand horse riding, am training again in jockeying as a result, hand is in cast and I am right handed so now having to write, draw and do everything else with my left hand...was home off ill today...so ended up doodling and thus comes the left handed drawing...

   

w00t! It is the 1^st December, that means 23 more shopping days till Christmas wheee! That means grabbing all my male friends to come shopping with me to help carry the pressies, teehehehe, they only reason they put up with it is that they know they will get their shopping done as well and they will have a pizza brought for them at the end of the day ^_^

Well I have presents and such for some of my closest friends online and have to bug a few people for addresses and such so I can send them a Christmas card :P

I get really hyper around Christmas as it means shopping for me ^_^

At the moment I am in an amazingly shitty mood...I have had the worst month ever and December and January are going to be none the better! I hate this time of year, I hate Christmas as everything goes bloody wrong this time of year for me, Gah!

I wish that just one year would go by where something just didn't go wrong, I mean how hard is that?

Anyway here is the list of things that have put me in this foul/depressive mood this year:

1) Arguement with Psychology teacher over attendance to his class = On the verge of being kicked out of college.
The reason I haven't been attending his lesson on a Friday is quite simple, I have both physiotherapy for my ankles and I have to see a psychiatrist for certain issues, both of these appointments are on a Friday and I have to travel to Exeter Hospital to do so and to get to Exeter I need to catch the train and miss his lesson, the minor problem with this is that I miss some notes which I catch up on anyway and have the notes ready for his lesson on Monday, issue here he thinks that I should not be making appointments during his lessons, NOT MY DAMNED FAULT THEY CAN'T FIT ME IN ANY OTHER TIME!!!

2) The family issue that my house is subsiding at the back after it had been bricked up by fucktarded builders who think that a building doesn't need foundations, thus we sue their asses but the downside to that is we have to move out for 2 months, I will be netless and we are moving through one of my crucial times of the year, a time where I have EXAMS!!!

3) My family are demanding £400 rent when I am only supposed to be paying £50 a month, so where the other £350 came from is beyond me and if I don't pay it, I am kicked out my house, so thus no net again and homeless and no christmas presents for family.

4) I have to revise shitless during christmas to pass my exams in January, so that is even more stress.

5) Exams in January.

6) Family holiday to Turkey in August 2007 has been cancelled because the company which we were booked to go with have stopped the contract with the hotel we were supposed to be staying with and we can't afford to go anywhere else. I am majorly pissed at this as I was looking forward to it, I am going to make sure the £2000 I put in is back into my account as I will most likely use it to go to the US for a few weeks to see [Ultiem] and other friends.

All my major stress issues at the moment and to be honest I am on the verge of a mental breakdown, I have had enough shit from everyone, I feel like getting a knife and killing everyone because I have had enough of people bitching about me in college as well as at home...

w00t! Get your bottoms into gear and check out secret santa 2006 if you feel in a christmassy mood already ^_^

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Um...today was rather...well odd...my psychology teacher who hates my guts has actually been really nice to me today which is kinda scaring me *sighs* I guess I can't win 'em all >.<

Anyway, does anyone know how to do the Mann Whitney U Test? Or even how to work out rank orders? I need help, don't understand the theory or anything so am completely stuck! Help!

I am not a happy bunny...coming into college was a complete waste of time today, I could have stayed home for the morning and come in this afternoon for my only lesson of the day since sociology was cancelled because bloody moronic never absent teacher Ms Cameron was surprisingly not in! *whines and moans about having to stay in college for 5 hours before only lesson of the day* I would have gone home for the day if it weren't for my psychology teacher cycling up the road as I was heading into town with my friend Hayley to go to Wetherspoons for breakfast and a cup of tea and to do the sociology work set, of course the work never got done as we ended up talking about past friends and school including a friend of ours who has died but we both agreed that the old primary school class should all get together again in a reunion sorta thing *sighs*

I am just annoyed at what is happening in college and am about an inch away from quitting and just saying sod it, had enough of the bullshit. It is bad enough having to come in after taking medication prescribed to me by my psychiatrist and feeling drowsy as shit in the mornings and not being able to concentrate...bah!

Now I am having to wait for my lazy ass mate to turn up so we can do this chemistry presentation ready for tomorrow...today is just not my day...

-EDIT-

That is it I have had enough with my retarded psychology teacher...he is the biggest pain in the arse in the entire world, an even bigger pain in the arse than all the emos on the internet moaning about their sad pathetic little lives. Why can't teachers just bugger off and not care why you are away it is not like I don't turn up to the lessons for weeks on end...I turn up to 80% of his lessons the other 20% I am in hospital or crashed out sleeping because of insomnia. Grrrrrrr...he just boils my blood.