To those who haven't recieved photo's for Photography Weekly it is because I have been busy with my studies and really have not had the time to go out and take photographs, hopefully tonight though I will have a load of photos weather permitting as it looks like it is about to piddle down with rain right now, it also depends if I can get my Grandad to go on a walk with me as my town ain't that safe at night and there are some beautiful shots in my town at night time...

Aside from what I ranted about yesterday, it seems my dear parents have decided to fuck up my internet connection and say it is my laptop fucking up when my laptop functions perfectly well, it is their fuck up that is causing their phone not to work, not my net connection....

Thus until the issue is fixed I have very limited internet time, since the fuckers are saying that they need their phone when no one actually calls them on it and if they do it is usually telemarketers, more people just call them on their mobiles...

The second diary of the day >.< Right if any of you live in Europe and would like to meet me when I go on my trip around Europe either this year or the next then, take a look at Firenze's Eurotrip and let me know ^_^

At the moment I have had enough of everyone and everything and wish that they would just drop dead or that I was dead instead. I try my hardest to keep people happy and not insult them and all this polarva but what hurts is when it is all thrown back into my face and basically treated as nothing...

I hate being alive, I wish there was just a nice hole for me to jump in and be buried alive so I could just die of suffocation and the weight of the earth crushing my body. I know this is all emoish but I have well and truely had enough, especially after a certain event last night, involving two others, one that I am particularly close with and the other not so close with, where they fell out and because of their fall out I also end up being involved somehow and all relations terminated. Plus numerous other things that have happened over this festive period. I have come to realize this pitiful existance of mine is pointless and I might as well be dead.

I hoped to enter the new year happily but it seems I won't, just like last year the new year begins sadly again...

After hours of cursing, bitching and moaning at this stupid ipod, I got the bloody thing to sync yay! Now I have a load of music on it and am happy ^_^

On another note, I have been driving in my car with my £500 new mp3 car stereo that I got for Christmas and have had it up full and my ears almost popped... It was so freakin' loud

Well joined the band wagon of the whoever is...wiki's, thus falls upon you poor unfortuanate souls my one, muhwahahahaha!

Firenze is...

So please feel free to write what you think of me ^_^

If anyone has any Christmas photos they would like displayed on my house in Photography Weekly then drop your submissions by and I will put a selection up next week!

Well it will be soon time to break up for the Christmas holidays and during that festive holiday will be mass revision for my chemistry, psychology and sociology exams in January which I am dearly not looking forward to, so am making revision guides for 2 subjects as one of my subjects provides a decent guide worth having. But I reckon if I do my guide over the weekend for sociology, my teacher will be like 'Ooooo...that is nice, do you think I could photocopy that for the entire class...', I think not, if those lazy asses can't be bothered to write a decent set of notes for themselves and do additional work then tough shit on them, I work my ass off on my work...*sighs*

To be quite honest I am growing tired of doing exams after exams after exams and then more coursework, it is like never ending *dies* Thank goodness I am leaving next year! But then it is just getting into another college to do the course I actually want to do as I have heard they are not taking on anyone that have previously done A-Levels *cries* Life is just a bitch sometimes.

Now to write some more up on my darling sociology revision guide packed full of what I need to know and probably more, lol.

Okay so as everyone probably knows by now, I am off sick *blech* I have been bored shitless, been doing the work that has been emailed to me by my teachers so I won't fall behind and all that jazz. But today I couldn't be fucked to do any of the work that they sent to me today, it all bored me. So I went downstairs and spent the day watching TV ^_^

Whilst watching TV, I came across Pride and Prejudice with Keira Knightley in it, I was like ooooo...I have been wanting to see this film for a while now, so I sat and watched it and as soon as Mr Darcy came into the picture I was like he's cute *is now glued to TV* I loved the film and now want to read the book so will go and buy it tomorrow, even though I shouldn't leave the house...blarg...*sniffles*

I have seen some truely fucktarded things at my college but this is by far the most fucktarded thing....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aLdH_ASCOp8

Okay here is the story, broke my right arm and hand horse riding, am training again in jockeying as a result, hand is in cast and I am right handed so now having to write, draw and do everything else with my left hand...was home off ill today...so ended up doodling and thus comes the left handed drawing...

   

w00t! It is the 1^st December, that means 23 more shopping days till Christmas wheee! That means grabbing all my male friends to come shopping with me to help carry the pressies, teehehehe, they only reason they put up with it is that they know they will get their shopping done as well and they will have a pizza brought for them at the end of the day ^_^

Well I have presents and such for some of my closest friends online and have to bug a few people for addresses and such so I can send them a Christmas card :P

I get really hyper around Christmas as it means shopping for me ^_^

At the moment I am in an amazingly shitty mood...I have had the worst month ever and December and January are going to be none the better! I hate this time of year, I hate Christmas as everything goes bloody wrong this time of year for me, Gah!

I wish that just one year would go by where something just didn't go wrong, I mean how hard is that?

Anyway here is the list of things that have put me in this foul/depressive mood this year:

1) Arguement with Psychology teacher over attendance to his class = On the verge of being kicked out of college.
The reason I haven't been attending his lesson on a Friday is quite simple, I have both physiotherapy for my ankles and I have to see a psychiatrist for certain issues, both of these appointments are on a Friday and I have to travel to Exeter Hospital to do so and to get to Exeter I need to catch the train and miss his lesson, the minor problem with this is that I miss some notes which I catch up on anyway and have the notes ready for his lesson on Monday, issue here he thinks that I should not be making appointments during his lessons, NOT MY DAMNED FAULT THEY CAN'T FIT ME IN ANY OTHER TIME!!!

2) The family issue that my house is subsiding at the back after it had been bricked up by fucktarded builders who think that a building doesn't need foundations, thus we sue their asses but the downside to that is we have to move out for 2 months, I will be netless and we are moving through one of my crucial times of the year, a time where I have EXAMS!!!

3) My family are demanding £400 rent when I am only supposed to be paying £50 a month, so where the other £350 came from is beyond me and if I don't pay it, I am kicked out my house, so thus no net again and homeless and no christmas presents for family.

4) I have to revise shitless during christmas to pass my exams in January, so that is even more stress.

5) Exams in January.

6) Family holiday to Turkey in August 2007 has been cancelled because the company which we were booked to go with have stopped the contract with the hotel we were supposed to be staying with and we can't afford to go anywhere else. I am majorly pissed at this as I was looking forward to it, I am going to make sure the £2000 I put in is back into my account as I will most likely use it to go to the US for a few weeks to see [Ultiem] and other friends.

All my major stress issues at the moment and to be honest I am on the verge of a mental breakdown, I have had enough shit from everyone, I feel like getting a knife and killing everyone because I have had enough of people bitching about me in college as well as at home...