weeeeeee hello everyone, i saw him today once thismorning and at break and on my way to english *drooooooooooo
ok so today was the first day at school....omg i could not stop drooling when i say him (not nameing no names:P) twas a fun day i guess. but i finally found out that blazers are fuckin annoying but the pockets are usefull. everyone likes my nose stud. health and social care was like the funnest it was like westfeild reunited ^_^ there was me, nicola thornber, becki buswell, reianon delo and becci patty OMG we had such a laff none of us could stop laughing and there all so funky ^_^ i mean reianon's just like uber gothtard, then theres me, who i just cant lable and becki the ...turning skater girl and nicola whos like not changed :P and becci with the only change of her grown her hair which looks unber crap but oh well shes still kool anyways we all had a laugh ive decided its like the most funny/best lesson so far ^_^. omg today was the best with fit guys and how much laughing i did.... school rocks! maybe not....its just ok...(ok proper retard)WHEEEEEEEEEEE omg kellys gonna be a bitch and talk to him (nameing no names again) i dunno weather i want her to or not.... omg omg omg anyways yeh laterz!
ok i found the meaning of life. its love, none of us can live without it.... you have your family. they all love you for who you are. then we have our close friends. and then we have our relationships.
Peace out :P \m/--(^_^)--\m/ rock on
ok so todays been fun, i woke up from an amazing dream, then i like had a shower n got ready and went round sams. i havent stoped laughing since but now ive stopped cuz shes gone home ....ohhhhhhhhh
today has been the best. except for the dentist! well i woke up got ready n stuff and my auntie caz came round (yesh ive been very close to my auntie caz atm!) then she took us up my nans ans we stayed there for a while then me n my mum went up to the dentist, it went fine, but i still hate going! cept he said i clean my teeth really well... what a weirdo.... i really regreat the fact that i dint bite him now :( i came back and serched in the cupboard under the stairs for my guitar folder which resulted in me tidying the bloody thing out! and end result.....no folder which ment no guitar lesson off my dad! then sam came round and we went out n sat in the carepark at the park and just talked about loads like friends, boys, clothes, her up and coming party (which i cant wait for) and other random stuffs! she really cheered me up!!!! me loves mah sam! anyways we had a right laugh. and i havnt laughed like that in ages! so yeh im a pretty happy bunnie ^_^ yeh sop im gonna say goodbye for now and love to you all..... CHEERIO!
ok weeeeeeeeee good day today .... i think. well i went shopping with my mum. yeh wasnt that fun, all i got was stuff for school so yeh. got back did stuff. i decided to be alone in my garden and it just kinda cleared my head and like...... it started raining and it was like a sign to me........ or maybe ive smoked something and not realised it XD. nargh im just on a mayjor high ^_^ ....maybe the black coffee. fuck this i cba i'll update later when ive calmed downa nd i can type.....
ok so on a happyer note im good, and have been the last few days. i dont know why but im not questioning it cuz im happy so screw you all WUHAHAHAHA. dont we all just love cothes? ok im being random. urghhhh i had to go to the doctors with my mum cuz she dint wanna go alone ....... i mean think of how many germs and shit were surrouding me and i dint even have to go...... i bet i become ill before school :( i REALLLLLy cant wait to get back ^_^....well to go there i mean im changing schools and all, yeh i bet your all thinking "CRAZY GIRL you WANNA go to SCHOOL...menta
oooooo on about social life........ you all know sams going out with my ex vinny right? well yeh she is so yeh. but anyways sams birthday is on the 6th of saptember....b
ok so im writing alot this time maybe i should quit but hey i have alotttt to say.
oh yeh me n sam have sorted everything out now so :P yeh i guess its all kinda gooood
welllllllllll im happy so yushhhhhhh i am good i'll probs update another time. see ya'll soon!
woah. i got a speshal feeling about friday the 3rd of september ... dont ask why, cuz im only telling CLOSE friends. .......but you'll garantee this will make me the happest ive been in AGES! woah damn this better happen now
ok this has been the most boring saterday ever. ive sat in home all day, well most of the day. in the morning i found my roller blades out and rolled up n down my garden as i was soooooo bored.
im fucking pissed off with klee and i'll never be her friend EVER again. ive made up with sam and everything between us is good, which is great. im not gonna have her back to best friends but, were still gonna be friends, cuz noone can replace danni now. shes my best friend and thats how its stickin.
ok so absolutly no luck on the love front...... as usual. so yeh that bit kinda always sucks.
im lookin forward to meeting matt. it'll be so much funnnnnn man hes a great friend. speshally when hes not batterd hes kinda sweet and innocent, attually no forget the innocent he can never be that lol.
then theres andy were still getting on GREAT as usual. i love him so much. hes the best ever. i mean hes the one that always listens to my problems and he always makes me smile. i dont know what id do without him. he makes me truely happy. i kinda feel bad for him now. speshally what hes goin through and stuff, but i cant tell anyone so yeh. hes the greatest mate ever.
ok im so bored i dont even know what to write about.
oh yeh last night i took my nose stud out and put a smaller one in ...... BAD idea, speshally after only having it done for 3 days. so i put the big one back in which was uber painfull , so ja. and i gotta stop saying ja its doin my head in. anyways i might update soonish, like you wanna know anyways. byebye for now.
ok so today been pretty ok, ive been with danni n steve for most of the day. me steve n danni all had a big play fight with a towel, that was quite amusing. then i got home, read something, which put me on a MASSIVE downer. so yeh im feeling pretty crap.. i just feel like hiding in a hole shriveling up and dieing. i just dont see why i should stay on this stupid earth and torcher myself anymore, im just so fed up of waking up day after day knowing im eaither gonna get myself down or just being bored all day, i need something to do, something thats gonna make me happy, or just something to get me outta the stupid life im living atm. i hate myself and i hate life. ARGh i just need one thing and my life will be compleat ........... but that one thing i doubt will never come to me........... i hate myself
ok so i was totally wrong about sam and klee they are right bitchs that always get me down the only really good desent friend i have lives in nottingham and then theres Danni ... and ive already explained about Danni, as ive said yesh shes the best, shame shes a townie though. but shes an amazing person i mean she dont care what i look like, what i listen to she knows im just a friend for her wheneva she needs to talk, plus i can have a right laugh with danni, thats if were just sitting about on the net round hers or just hanging out somewhere, or even at school. shes so dense sometimes but i guess thats why most of us love her. her and steve are just so perfect for eachother there so sweet together its so lovely to see em together , now all i wish was i could have someone perfect for me. yupyup i lead a sad and lonely life i hate myself sometimes. speshally when youve not been truely happy in 3 weeks you see your cousin who you love dearly that you aint seen for ages and then you are truely happy n then two of your sposed ot be closest friends make you so upset to the extent it makes you cry... yeh i think my life sucks. the only real desent friends i have down hear are Danni and my cousin Sophie cuz there always there for me and i love you both to bits!
yeh enough for now, maybe an update later ....
ok so im starting my diary over again. my life is sad and boring. ive just got back off holiday and i got fuck all to do. im fed up of being single and i think its my height that puts lads off. argh i hate being tall its sucks like fuck man. i need new cooler friends, not that the friends i have at the moment are lame its just that sam and klee are so fucking fake one min there townie next min there alturnative, i get so confused! and danni alothough shes a townie shes a great friend! but still i want people who are crazy and like the same stuff as me, yet i dont want to abandon my old friends cuz i love em so much. there always there for me wheneva i need em speshally klee when im upset or down and i really need to talk but nvm life kinda go's on..... happy or sad. i dont know if im happy or sad, i mean on min im fine having a laugh and enjoying myself then the next im really down and i feal isolated in my own little world and music just doesnt seam to help me anymore. i think i need to start education myself in more things other than just sitting around all day. take up a new hobbie like skating or maybe a band. if only i could play guitar better, plus i need a better singing voice but that will never come .... im so unlucky but so lucky in many ways. anyways on a higher note.... im getting my nose pierced sometime soon. and ive designed the tattoo that i want aswell soooo . i guess somepart of my lifes ok i just need to move on to better things im gonna end this now and say night night and i'll maybe update soon