Applying for.
so, im mena be round sams right now having fun, unstead she chose kelly over me cuz kelly, being the spoilt smarmy bitch that she is got her own way yet again !!!!
Its not my fault my mum wanted me home early, and all kelly could do was take the piss! and im always her main target and now im fed up of it, so i had a go at her cuz im already pissed off, shes mena be one of my best friends and she bullys me, i mean i get enough of that at school let alone one of my best friends doing it too!
and Sams no better, she SO stuck up for kelly. maybe people should try and understand me for once. I've only just relaised houw much i value my old friends such as Emma, Becky, Hazel and the rest!!! and my newly made friends from jcc, not to mention my EmoGurl Kayleigh!!! <33 (luffluff to you guys!)
I only wish i could spend my time with Andy more. as he probably is my one and only true friend. He's always there for me, i fxckin hate the distance!!! mayjor LUFF to him!!! i love him with all my little broken heart.
then theres Martyn, somehow he does, no idea how, but he makes me smile muchly. and really effects me in an amazing way, maybe its because i like him, but hey who knows! and who attually really cares! he makes me happy thats all i can say. and for now thats good, cuz not yet has he hurt me. hes always sending me caring texts and always wants me to be happy. i just really wanna see him and just hug him and let all my effection pour out on him. cuz im not the only one that deserves a bit of happyness, he does too! cuz hes an amazing guy and he deserves the best. hes a genuin gentleman.... [<3333 luff to him also]
so .... heres the end to my ramble about so called "friends" and to those who mean summink!!
Laters //\\ x+x
everyday i regret what i did. i regret the fact that i know i cant have you, and now i miss being around you, and having your kiss. i dint go off you. never think that. cuz i love you, probably now more than ever. being wihtout you has made me realise how much i love you. but i just dont wanna be in a relationship when i dont wanna be close to anyone, and i dint wanna fuck things up between us, which i most probably have now. i hate the fact were not close no more. it sucks cuz your friends keep looking at me like im a bitch which i most likely deserve. am i a bad person for not wanting to hurt you? or maybe i did hurt you. but trust me, it hurt me more, ive cry'd myself to sleep everynight since weve been apart. i cant bare it cuz i love you and yet were appart. i fuck everything up. i just hope your ok. and i want you to know. i love you with all my heart.
i love you so much ricky *kisses and huggles* you mean so much to me............
Peace out!
xXx
omg yesterday was so funny, me n sam skived off school and decided to start drinking, so we started drinking at half 9 lol we were downing shots of ouzo and bacardi and rum and we had a glass of champain and i had some wine, then we went round sams and had more alcohol. then ricky n blower came round and we drank more then i started to get tipsy and i fell over a few time then we just chilled in sams room we were goin down stairs and blower was tryin to push ricky down them.... in result blower fell down XD it was sooooooooooo funny me sam and ricky wet ourselfs!
urghhhhhhhhhhh
hehe i was with davey and Ricky, callie sam and the 2 sophs wednesday and we played hide and seek in the ashby rd grave yard.... it was dark and i got paranoid! hehe then me ricky dave n soph went back to sophies watched tv and then crashed.... then on thursday soph sophie and daveid went lester so mne n ricky came back to mine dropped my stuff off and went back up town and met up with callie and sam.. we hung out then we all went home hehe.... fun fun fun tahas been a hectic week..... but a bloody fun one!!!! .... but personally tuseday was the best! noone beats andy in my eyes, hes the bestest mate anyone could ever have! anyways
Peace Out!
omg today was soooooooooo amazing i went to nottinham and met up with andy and brandon. then we went back to andys house and went in andys room *feels priviledged* and and and we did stuffs and had a laugh. it was just soooooooo amazing. then we had to leave :( i cryed on the bus ...... it was so horribal leaving them ....... but dont worry im gonna go see em again soon!
this is the longest time ive been away from ricky! 2 days! 2 fuckin days and i gotta put up with it untill wednesday! anyways weve been together 4 weeks today :D yayyyyy plus im seeing andy on tuseday! YAYYYYYYYYY and daveys coming down wednesday too! yayyyyyy
ok so i guess everyones fed up with hearing abour ricky from me. yeh? well heres summert new, ive decided what tattoo im gonna get for my 18th, Andys designing it. were both gonna design each other a tattoo and get it and put each others names at the bottom of it ^_^ yayyyy hehe. He mes the absolute world to me. seriously, i whould of killed myself in the past few months if it wasnt for him! i know i seam like a happy person, but deep down there alot of proplems and i can get very insecure. and the only one i can openly talk about them to is andy.
YAYYYYYYYY me go see him next tusedayyyy ^_^
hehe anyways ive been with Ricky like just over 3 weeks now, its so amazing, hes another person thats made my life happyer LOTS more happyer, im so happy to be with him, weve seen each other almost everyday since weve been going out ^_______^.
but the thing is why are people suddenly turning into compulsive lyers and lying all the time to me...... well i guess i cant say people. its just one person really. someone i thought i could trust. the they go and really hurt me....... Thanks alot!
but i dont care. i have the main people in my life, my boyfriend, my well...Andy and my parents. thats all i want and its all i need, so peace out
Rickys the best thing thats ever happend to me! i love him so much and i never wanna loose him!
i hate you so much right now!..........
i LOVE you ricky
and i love you andy
you 2 are the only people i want in my life atm..... i hate some people i really do
I've been with Ricky 3 weeks today ^_^ and im the happyest ive even been. I love him sooooo much. todays been fun ... and cold :/ but ive had ricky to warm me up hehe. anyways ........ peace out
being with ricky is sooooooooo amazing, im so damn happy im with him ^_^ id be so lost without him now. i love him sooooooooo much and i really mean that i love him.
these are the people that mean something to me :-
Ricky
Andy
Sammy-jo
Callie
Sam
Mum
Dad
Sophie
Soph
Klee
Kelly
Leon
Daveid
Gracie
Milly
Annie
Auntie :-
Nikki
Peta
Caz
Anne
Steph
Tracey
Linda
Mel
Uncles:-
Tony
Tony
David S
Hayden
Chris
Sean
and i'll carry this on later........
Caio for now!
Thismorning i woke up to this song and sang it ^_^ it means so much to me cuz it reminds me of my cousin gracie
TINA ARENA LYRICS
"Chains"
Your arms are warm but they make me feel
As if they're made of cold, cold steel
A simple kiss like a turnin' key
A little click and the lock's on me
Can't move my arms, can't lift my hands
I won't admit to where I am
But I know baby, I'm in chains
I'm in chains
I pretend I can always leave
Free to go whenever I please
But then the sound of my desperate calls
Echo off these dungeon walls
I've crossed the line from mad to sane
A thousand times and back again
I love you baby, I'm in chains
I'm in chains
I'm in chains
I'm in chains
Should have known passing through the gate
That once inside I could not escape
I never thought this could happen to me
Never thought this is where I'd be
But baby, baby, baby, look at me
Baby, baby, look at me, I'm in chains
I'm in chains
I never thought this is where I'd be
Never thought this could happen to me
Also thismoring ive thought about Ricky... as i do every morning.... and probably every minuet im apart from him :/ i hate leaving him him and i love being with him . i
its amazing how being with someone can make your life so happy, Rickys made me so damn happy over the past 2 weeks. I love him sooooooooo much!!!! i love spending time with him. i love my hugs off him. i feel safe when im with him, I just wish all my friends could be as happy as i am. i want them all to feel the love that i feel. i get so upset when my friends are unhappy :( but i know that there all there for me. and im so lucky for what ive got. i love you ALL every single one of you!
thats all for now....
Peace out (as aley whould say)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KLEEEEEEEEEEE!
AND OMFG. Danni had the cheek to wolf whistle and say "awww bless" at me and Ricky today. fuckin bitch shouldnt dare fuckin look at me let alone speak to me, .... yeh you really cause shit about your 'best' friend and then fall out with em cuz ya boyfriends told you too.... then start being nice to em again..... well put it this way, she can FUCK OFF, and that way put in the nicest possible way...... ^_^
ive ran out of things to rant about so
bye for now and remember ...... Laura loves you!
hello everyone! today was great, i spent all my breaks with ricky! i love him ^_^ hes amazing! hehe you all better be nice to him else i'll beet your weany ass!
ok ^_^ so my life is great! hehehe im going out with ricky and its made me really happy :D weeeeeeeeeeeee cant think what else to put. talk soon!
OMFG i cant stop shaking, ive just been told the best thing ever!!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEE love you sam (pay)!!!!! *cuddles and steals her hair*