I may be forgetful, or perhaps today really was the first day I saw my birth certificate. Very interesting. I now know my real middle name. I already knew the place of my birth has been closed down for some years now, but I still find it intriguing. Intriguing to be born in a place nonexistent, save for the memories of others like me. I also realized I was born at midnight. It's no wonder why I love the dark so much, is it? And that makes me smile.

I was relatively bored and so posted a quiz here earlier, but I didn't really like it I later noticed.

A friend of sorts sent me a song and I've been listening to that, along with my other mp3s, since. On my playlist, for your temporal amusement of course, are the following:

Jack Off Jill -- Vivica
Loser's Luck -- Move On
Placebo -- Every You Every Me
Plumb -- Damaged
Like Linus -- Six Inch Blade
Krafted in Korea -- Fight Song

Three of those bands are from the St. Louis area and you can download them from stlpunk.com which is a site with local-ish bands. I'm also listening to six other Japanese songs, heh, one being the ending theme song for Blue Seed. Pretty sweet.

Lovely, I'm listening to my parents fighting right now. I turned up the music minutes ago to Rooney, but I still hear them. I guess it's because there's no door separating me from them. My mother's crying, my father keeps saying he'll die soon, what am I to think? I kind of wished they could get along.

Sorry for this post. I'm just kind of sad, but I should probably keep further thoughts inside.

I'm not sure why but writing here has been strangely addictive. It's only a shame I have nothing of worth to write about..

I decided tonight that I'd like to create a new layout. I know of a great website that will host freely and without ads, so I thought I'd give that a try. I haven't really thought what to put on the site though, when I get hosted, which I need to create as a requirement for being hosted. Probably some standard personal things like late night ramblings and all the useless information one could ever dream of knowing.

Maybe I'll scour my computer folders and dig up some old artwork and poetry to place up there. Who knows. I'd love to have a wacom graphire3 tablet though. Ooooh nice. I'd draw all night and most of the day, and when I slept I'd be dreaming of what to draw. Until then, though, my dreams will continue to be filled with darkness, loneliness, and an unimaginative realm of my imagination. Kind of boring, wouldn't you agree?

The past few days have been well. There has been plenty of good-humoured jokes passed around and a lot of laughing took place, it's just been great overall. My family has the strangest relation to each other, in that we care much but have an awkward way of showing it. Like swearing profusely as a greeting, stuff like that. It sure makes every day interesting.

Also in in the past week I've received two Elftown relations! Weee! It's a nice feeling to be reassured that you do exist as a person, even in a huge online community like this. I suppose that's a somewhat saddening way to look about it.

Well, it's been rather cold these days. I believe Missouri had an ice storm of sorts, or something of that nature, not too long ago. Just today I was wandering aimlessly around the house and glanced out the kitchen window to see a glittering landscape. There's a winter-induced barren field past the backyard that is the view from the kitchen window. With the coldness outside, little droplets of rain froze on everything; the grass, skeleton of trees, a concrete birdbath--just essentially everything within view, covered in beads of ice or decorated by strings of icicles. The sun's fading rays continue to dance lightly over the ice, creating and preserving such an illuminating scenery. It's absolutely gorgeous. Bleak and hauntingly beautiful.

Moments like these that I wish I had a camera on hand but, I know, the picture will remain frozen in memory, much like it is frozen on the earth and holding onto its eerie charm. Beautiful, and everlasting.

Christmas went surprisingly well. I got a few things that I've wanted for some time now, like a leprechaun book, so I've been thoroughly pleased with that. I also got to spend time with my oldest sister and she gave me a neat marker kit that makes such a huge mess. (But I've never known an artist who didn't make a mess!)

This holiday has been kind of lonely though, with only family to spend it with. I had an online friend for a few weeks that was just an amazing guy to chat with, but tonight he decided to end the friendship. That has me bummed out, just a tad. And I lost my only friend in town earlier last month. It's been a very lonely time of the year for me. Hopefully things will brighten up for the new year.

Heya everyone. I haven't stopped by Elfwood or Elftown in ages! I'm just making a quick stop in tonight and hopefully I'll make a few more visits before the end of the year is over.

Not much has been going on for me in the past few months. Life is a little hectic.. and I haven't been drawing much at all. I still owe plenty of people drawings though! It motivates me unlike any other so I'm forever thankful for all the great people and artists I've met on these websites.

My biggest problem right now is that I don't have access to a scanner anymore. That kind of put a huge hold on a lot of drawings I wanted to place up in my gallery. I can't say when I'll get a scanner, or hopefully a new computer, but I can only wait and draw excessively until then.

In other news, I've been reading more lately and I've watched a few good inspirational movies. I've met some incredibly radiant people as well and so things are looking much more brighter than they used to. I'm glad to be surrounded by such positive influences, even though I've always aspired to be a dark artist. But, as I say, any influence is good influence.

Hope to get back into gear with checking the art forums here and seeing how I can help others out. Hope I find a resolution to the lacking scanner problem as well. Until then, an early Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night. ;)