UPDATE FROM LAST ENTRY: ok well it turns out the fucker has a gf and has had one... he lied to me about loving me and everything he said to me..... i just totally fucking give up on guys!! my life fucking sux... he was the only person that kept me from killing myself b4.... now what do i have?? NOTHING!!! what a fucking dick!!!!

ok remember how i was so in love with this one guy?? *points to first diary entry* WELL SOMEHOW I THINK I FUCKIN BLEW IT!!!! He sent me and e-mail that said, "hey sexy.........................whatcha doin" well it wasnt just sent to me.. it was sent to another person... Tracy Jones (i changed the name cuz i didnt want him to be even more pissed).... so im thinking who is this.... maybe hes playing me??..... so i write back and ask hom.... than all of a sudden i hacked to his computer cuz actually "Tracy" is his instructor........ I dont know how to hack and idk why hes accusing me.... maybe hes looking for a way to get rid of me? idk...... i was hoping you guys could help and let him know im not like that.. all of you that are my friends please tell him! Cuz I DIDNT DO IT!!! send him a message [shanethedude]... THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!

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omg... i am so in love..... he makes me feel so special... ha always makes my day... he so amazing and i love him so much...... i cant wait until we get to see each other!!!!! omg i am so excited you dont even know lol.... this is so exciting and yeah.. i cant wait XP

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