im sad very very very sad. i miss my bf justin very much. he wont talk to me. right now im waiting only 10 months and 4 days left.... til april 22 2005. justin if you read this. you have until my 15th bday to call me or whatever. if you dont i just give up. im waiting for you now. i love you with all my heart. i have something for you.

nothing has come to mind. so im going to bitch out my vice bye

ok tonight grumble is guys who think they own their gf's. that makes me soo mad. ok i know a girl who put something on her site and her bf got mad over it. or my friend who's bf treats her like shyit she takes it cause he says he loves her. love is great and yet it can kill you. sometimes justin thinks he can tell me what to do but he knows better than to try. i can be a cold frigid lil wrech.i speak my own mind and personaly if he doesnt like what im saying then he doesnt have to listen. yes i love him and i would die for him but he just cant tell me what to do. ive been in too many relationships where the guy ran things. and he told me when to breathe im not geting into another one of those. so justin if you looking for a girl like that then you better keep on looking i would hate to lose you but im tired of keeping my mouth shut. from this moment on i refuse to let whats on my mind pass i speak everything now in the blunt truth. thank you and good night

blessed be,
megg
ps i love you baby

screams< this sums up todays grumbles
http://www.illwillpress.com/rant.html

ok ok sorry i havnt been on my mum had a heart attack. but anywayz. my grumble is sex. yes sex. i like sex scratch that i love sex. its just people. people say im a slut because i enjoy sex. so what. if you have a great guy who is AWESOME at sex you would enjoy it too. i love justin and i believe we are strong enough in our minds and in our relationship to be having sex. many couples have sex and then break up. that to me isnt love. the girl if she loses her virginty to a guy and then they break up she will do anything to get what they had back. a guy he loses his virinty to a girl and they break up he doesnt care once in a blu moon he will but ladies dont expect him too. so becareful. i would hav elove to lost my virginty to justin but i didnt find him in time. im never letting him go. so wait and find the perfect guy. it should be special.

ok since you all want it you get it tonights grumlbe is my theory on goths
okpeople who say im so gothic arnt. if they say im not gothic im me and they are kinda morbid and dress in all dark colors its makes them appear gothic. to be truly gothic you musnt claim to be gothic. and when you do claim you arnt goth you are truly gothic. if in your mind you say im not goth but you do like the sound of it. well idk take it where you want it. people lable me a freak so be it deep inside i know im megg. so be yourself and dont judge.

blessed be
megg
i love you justin

GRUMBLES GOLORE

ok i have lots of grumbles tonight
ok lies i hate them people who lie *grr* i cant trust anyone. people have to ruin it for all. girls are such back stabbing lil witches. you cant trust a girl. there is nothing meanie and crazier than a tennage girl. they lie steal and cheat. they will rob you blind if you dont watch out. ihave had so many bf's stolen by my best friends than anyone. and rule #1 dating you best friends ex is never ok. EVER!!!ok not that i care ive gots the best guy of them all. and now girls are trying to steal him right in front of my face.>screams< i hate you people. now my bf's best friends gurl says she's kewl with mme right in front of my face. behind my back she tell my bf i was telling people he treats me like crap. and i love him with all my heart i would never say that so yeah lots of grumbles tonight.

megg
love you baby

ok no grumbles tonight im to much in love with mr fancis. so tonight is going to be all lovey dovey. get out before you throw up from all the sweetness.ok justin i love you and yes i want to be yours forever. yes im ready for our dreams i would have told you but i was bing stupid. but yes yes yes yes i am ready for our dreams. and i cant wait till july 22, 2007 then we can be together forever.and i cant wait to have the family i see in my dreams. we will be perfect. all of us you sean and me. forever.

love
megg

ok today is how to ask out a girl

do you ?
a. say wanna go out wit me?
b. wanna hang out and have coffee?
c. wanna leave this palce and go have some real fun?
d, hey sexy. i wouldnt mind hitting that shit tonight
e. >weeze< hi... will you be my gf?
f. are we going out lets flip a coin.

ok before me and justin  got together we acted like it so everyone thought we were. so we were talking on the phone and he asks" are we like dating?"
i said " i dont know"
he said i dont either gots a coin?"
i said "yes why?
he said "heads yes tails no"
and after that night weve been together since and plan on being togerher for a long long time. also i had been thinking in my mind. "i would really love to marry justin and have children with him"
i got trashed out my ass and it slipped. you can figure out the rest of the story.


megg

ps
 i cant wait for sean.

today i ask myself.....Have you ever looked at a person and said wow i could spend the rest of my life with them?
yes . the day i saw justin i knew there was something special about him. as i started talking and listening to what he was saying i knew that he might be the one. i was afraid to love again. i had just gotten out of a horrible relationship with one of my close friends it ended badly. so i was hurt. but justin made me feel like there was hope. without him i wouldnt be here now. i owe my life to him next time you look at your special someone ask your self "wow i could spend the rest of my life with them?" because i would could and want to be with justin forever. but im afraid thats not what he wants.

i love you justin.
megg