Definitely feeling like crap right now. I just...want him!! Why? Why can't i be a good girl! I know that I shall try my hardest to get him...then, i shall have caused an unquantifiable amount of trouble, hurt, and confusion for more than two people!! Can i hate myself any more.
I swear the only reason I am still living is for my daughter...

I decided to go for a nice, long run through the Mill Creek Park trails. Well, I ran my a*% off and then got sick; I had to leave work. No money for yoa!! Time to sleep some more, me no feel well. :(

cannot...stop thinking...about...him!! *sigh* Shall I ever be sure? What is this disease in my heart? How can hurt those I adore? One thing is for certain: It is far too easy for me to worship people.

(really craving a cup of Earl Grey)
(really craving someone's kiss)

Nothing goes as planned, correct? My night f#@&ing went all to hell, and i think I shall have to cry myself to sleep to diffuse all of my pent up frustrations!! I would rather have been giving birth again than have lived through this night-at least labor yields something joyful. This night just absolutely sucked my a$@!!  RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

Good day!! Trying to clean the house for company tomorrow. I want the house to look decent when the sitter comes over. My friend Nicole-who is so so cool-is going to watch my daughter while I go to Cleveland to see Blindside in concert. They are an awesome Christian hardcore band from Sweden who are making their way in the music world-just now getting radio-popular in America. Toured a few years ago with POD.
Time to go clean, clean , clean! (with Katryn's help of course!!)