See the palid flesh
So new, so warm.
Hides the blood,
Hides the spirit,
Hides the darkness.
My home-my body
The knife-my fire.
When the world rushes at my door
And mars what once was my only sacred place
I find my flame,
I find the flesh.
The door flung wide-
The spirit is gone.
And the blood-the blood flows coldly,
now fetid, now soulless.
I am in love with Soul Embraced...so excellent!! Especially, 'cause of the connection to Living Sacrifice, as I have mentioned before.
"Wishing I were dead/ i'd leave all this behind and let it end/ another day blackened by hate/ another night could seal my fate/ it's so hard but i try to live/ to the sky my heart i give/ my god come down and save this soul/ trapped in fear and the unknown/ the darkness surrounds me embedded in death/ taking my last breath/ i've been the enemy/ i am my enemy/ my life descending slowly/ i reach out as i'm drowning/ in emptiness i am dying"--Soul Embraced
Rejoice in all that is dark and beautiful!! Elfwood is up once more!! My heart is singing, not only for this reason; I bought new music today!! When I found out that two of the members of Soul Embraced are actually from Living Sacrifice, I just had to but S.E.'s new album Immune. It is totally descent music--have to listen more to give myself the hook and become obssessed with it! Music makes me feel all...*sigh* hehehe
"The part of me that will become the darkest place of all/ one thought/ one spoken word/ all of this exist unto you/ in everything i believe and see/ that confirms the love we have all perverted..."-
"Why did you go away?/ the sun won't come out today/ you've taken my world away/ why did you go away?"-- DOGWOOD
You know, Matt Aragon was a really great album by DOGWOOD. *sigh* Music moves me like nothing else can; I think it is the only thing that I am addicted to--well, there is caffiene but who is not addicted to that in one way or another?
I think one of my coworkers gave me mono: how swheet of her!! Just hope my daughter does not get it!! :P to you katrina, damnit!!
Yep, just fade into the music for tonight....fad
I feel like quoting!! Aye!! Quoting some of my favourite bands!!
"do you remember all the bad times/ when precious few were found by my side?/you stood by/ while others whispered word of my demise/ your presence, a comfort in the longest of nights/ I cried and cried and you let me/ hide behind the love you always gave"-- stavesacre
"My assumption that if I could find some way to get back there/ intervention straight to your heart/ without it everything is so perfect/ why can't I just hide the past/ forget about the good times?"--DOGWO
"praying heaven will open wide/ and hold you tight/ as for me, I'll be all right...but for now/ i hope you can hear me as I cry/ I love you and good-bye"--und
"Nameless faces and sounds/ voices screamin' in pain/ huddled shadows and sirens voices calling my name/ Well I can't sleep but I'm not awake to this hazy dim version of reality"--Stru
Is it wrong to want someone? Is wrong to dream of him in the ways I would want to have him? My dreams are only visions; they themselves are not mutinous. I would be, though, if I acted out those scenes I have seen in my dreams. How far am I prepared to take this? How heavily will it weigh on my conscience?
I seriously think the only reason humans are alive is to hurt each other and make each other miserable!!
How horrible am I?
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I have this habit of cutting myself...when I get severely depressed or what not. It is an inescapable urge; I have to fight to resist taking the knife to my flesh. When I get really desparate and feel I need the punishment, I make a salt water solution and rub it into my wound--continu
Definitely feeling like crap right now. I just...want him!! Why? Why can't i be a good girl! I know that I shall try my hardest to get him...then, i shall have caused an unquantifiable amount of trouble, hurt, and confusion for more than two people!! Can i hate myself any more.
I swear the only reason I am still living is for my daughter...
I decided to go for a nice, long run through the Mill Creek Park trails. Well, I ran my a*% off and then got sick; I had to leave work. No money for yoa!! Time to sleep some more, me no feel well. :(
cannot...stop thinking...abo
(really craving a cup of Earl Grey)
(really craving someone's kiss)
Nothing goes as planned, correct? My night f#@&ing went all to hell, and i think I shall have to cry myself to sleep to diffuse all of my pent up frustrations!! I would rather have been giving birth again than have lived through this night-at least labor yields something joyful. This night just absolutely sucked my a$@!! RAHHHHHHHHHHHH
Good day!! Trying to clean the house for company tomorrow. I want the house to look decent when the sitter comes over. My friend Nicole-who is so so cool-is going to watch my daughter while I go to Cleveland to see Blindside in concert. They are an awesome Christian hardcore band from Sweden who are making their way in the music world-just now getting radio-popular in America. Toured a few years ago with POD.
Time to go clean, clean , clean! (with Katryn's help of course!!)