What power it is that you have over me!
You can make me bleed
Or make me burn.
Do as you will...
I am nothing without you to make solid my Shadow.
And all things will bow to me...
No darkness envelops as does mine,
No breeze as cold as my wrath,
No blaze can rage as my hate.
And you will feel nothing
but Rapture...
No sight as captivating as my earth--
My element, my calling, my joy.
Yet...
There is but One who knows my weakness--
My fear...
And I shall perish...
All things will rejoice...
My spirit cries out--
Let the water never greet me,
Let it never take me, and use me,
And enslave me...
...so...sleepy
My poor, little, Titanium g4 Powerbook is going to die!! A small portion of the lcd is destroyed (the crystals ruptured or something X.x)...And the stripes will spred, and then, good-bye to my Mac!! *sniffles* It is like my other baby. :( VALETEAMO
See the palid flesh
So new, so warm.
Hides the blood,
Hides the spirit,
Hides the darkness.
My home-my body
The knife-my fire.
When the world rushes at my door
And mars what once was my only sacred place
I find my flame,
I find the flesh.
The door flung wide-
The spirit is gone.
And the blood-the blood flows coldly,
now fetid, now soulless.
I am in love with Soul Embraced...so excellent!! Especially, 'cause of the connection to Living Sacrifice, as I have mentioned before.
"Wishing I were dead/ i'd leave all this behind and let it end/ another day blackened by hate/ another night could seal my fate/ it's so hard but i try to live/ to the sky my heart i give/ my god come down and save this soul/ trapped in fear and the unknown/ the darkness surrounds me embedded in death/ taking my last breath/ i've been the enemy/ i am my enemy/ my life descending slowly/ i reach out as i'm drowning/ in emptiness i am dying"--Soul Embraced
Rejoice in all that is dark and beautiful!! Elfwood is up once more!! My heart is singing, not only for this reason; I bought new music today!! When I found out that two of the members of Soul Embraced are actually from Living Sacrifice, I just had to but S.E.'s new album Immune. It is totally descent music--have to listen more to give myself the hook and become obssessed with it! Music makes me feel all...*sigh* hehehe
"The part of me that will become the darkest place of all/ one thought/ one spoken word/ all of this exist unto you/ in everything i believe and see/ that confirms the love we have all perverted..."-
"Why did you go away?/ the sun won't come out today/ you've taken my world away/ why did you go away?"-- DOGWOOD
You know, Matt Aragon was a really great album by DOGWOOD. *sigh* Music moves me like nothing else can; I think it is the only thing that I am addicted to--well, there is caffiene but who is not addicted to that in one way or another?
I think one of my coworkers gave me mono: how swheet of her!! Just hope my daughter does not get it!! :P to you katrina, damnit!!
Yep, just fade into the music for tonight....fad
I feel like quoting!! Aye!! Quoting some of my favourite bands!!
"do you remember all the bad times/ when precious few were found by my side?/you stood by/ while others whispered word of my demise/ your presence, a comfort in the longest of nights/ I cried and cried and you let me/ hide behind the love you always gave"-- stavesacre
"My assumption that if I could find some way to get back there/ intervention straight to your heart/ without it everything is so perfect/ why can't I just hide the past/ forget about the good times?"--DOGWO
"praying heaven will open wide/ and hold you tight/ as for me, I'll be all right...but for now/ i hope you can hear me as I cry/ I love you and good-bye"--und
"Nameless faces and sounds/ voices screamin' in pain/ huddled shadows and sirens voices calling my name/ Well I can't sleep but I'm not awake to this hazy dim version of reality"--Stru
Is it wrong to want someone? Is wrong to dream of him in the ways I would want to have him? My dreams are only visions; they themselves are not mutinous. I would be, though, if I acted out those scenes I have seen in my dreams. How far am I prepared to take this? How heavily will it weigh on my conscience?
I seriously think the only reason humans are alive is to hurt each other and make each other miserable!!
How horrible am I?
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I have this habit of cutting myself...when I get severely depressed or what not. It is an inescapable urge; I have to fight to resist taking the knife to my flesh. When I get really desparate and feel I need the punishment, I make a salt water solution and rub it into my wound--continu
Definitely feeling like crap right now. I just...want him!! Why? Why can't i be a good girl! I know that I shall try my hardest to get him...then, i shall have caused an unquantifiable amount of trouble, hurt, and confusion for more than two people!! Can i hate myself any more.
I swear the only reason I am still living is for my daughter...
I decided to go for a nice, long run through the Mill Creek Park trails. Well, I ran my a*% off and then got sick; I had to leave work. No money for yoa!! Time to sleep some more, me no feel well. :(
cannot...stop thinking...abo
(really craving a cup of Earl Grey)
(really craving someone's kiss)
Nothing goes as planned, correct? My night f#@&ing went all to hell, and i think I shall have to cry myself to sleep to diffuse all of my pent up frustrations!! I would rather have been giving birth again than have lived through this night-at least labor yields something joyful. This night just absolutely sucked my a$@!! RAHHHHHHHHHHHH
Good day!! Trying to clean the house for company tomorrow. I want the house to look decent when the sitter comes over. My friend Nicole-who is so so cool-is going to watch my daughter while I go to Cleveland to see Blindside in concert. They are an awesome Christian hardcore band from Sweden who are making their way in the music world-just now getting radio-popular in America. Toured a few years ago with POD.
Time to go clean, clean , clean! (with Katryn's help of course!!)