[Arbor]'s diary

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Written about Thursday 2005-03-31
Written: (7155 days ago)
Next in thread: 539022

"Rin's Song"

In the mountain
in the forest
in the wind
in a dream
Where are you Sesshoumaru-sama?
With an ally like Jaken?

"Rin."

"Oh? Ha! Sesshoumaru-sama!"

"We're going.
Let's go."

"Ok!"

I will wait alone until you come!
Sesshoumaru-sama, please return.


from InuYasha (damnit, auntie! ;))

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Written about Thursday 2005-03-17
Written: (7169 days ago)
Next in thread: 525227, 554617

I feel like I am a disappointment, sometimes...

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Written about Thursday 2005-03-10
Written: (7175 days ago)




001: Name: Laura Kathryn Lendvay

002: Nickname: Mommy(more like a title, but whatever), Yoa, stupid

003: Country of living: USA :)

004: Birthdate: September 26, 1982

005: Hair Length: Quite long again...ick....

006: Eye color: GREEN ^.^

007: Shoesize: 9 (US-women's, of course)

008: School/work: Work right now

009: You smoke: No :P

010: Hobbies: writing, running

011: Brothers/Sisters: William, by blood; Alicia, by marriage :)

012: Relationship: married ^.^

013: Piercing(s): No :P

014: Tattoo: None as of yet, I have lots of scars though

015: Favorite Country to go to: How can I say when I have never left my own country?

016: Are there people you wont reply to?: Nope, but if you are crude then I block you. ^.^

017: Nicest person you met this year: Cara at the Deli?

018: Person you rather not have met this year: almost everyone

019: Who would you like to meet: LOGAN!![LustForLike] and Pedro Soares[Azagthot]

020: Who do you admire most: my husband and my daughter

021: Most sexy person(s): Michael, Pedro, a few others I would rather not mention ;) But no celebrities, i hate those!! :P

022: Favorite Pajamas: no pajamas; well, maybe my forest friends

023: Favorite Car: an old police car

024: Favorite Movie(s): How am I supposed to name one?! A list, then? Okay! 12 Monkeys, Apocalypse Now, LotR, Titan A.E., American Beauty, The Last Unicorn, The Secret of NIMH, Mulan, Braveheart, Chronicles of Riddick^.^, Dances with Wolves...

025: Favorite Music: hardcore and punk (both christian); classical

026: Favorite City(s): I really hate cities

027: Favorite Plush: Cannot choose just one

028: Favorite Cologne: none

029: Favorite Magazine: U.S. News and World Report

030: Favorite sound: Hmmm...

031: Favorite TV-series: Fairly Odd Parents or Mystery Science Theatre 3000

032: Favorite Writer: Gael Baudino

033: Favorite Nickname: Mommy

034: What is on your mousepad: Touch Pad

035: What all is under your bed: geology books and the mounds of things I have written over my twenty-two year lifetime

036: Favorite color: Green and grey

037: Favorite Song ever: “Existence in Despair"--Soul Embraced

038: Favorite song at this moment: "The Bridge at Khazad Dum"--Howard Shore

039: Favorite food: soup

040: Favorite class in school: Geology and English

041: Favorite drink: hot tea

042: Lucky number: i have none

043: What do you think is greatest about yourself: how much of an asshole I can be

044: What deodorant do you use: Degree

045: Favorite shoes: Bare! Second are my Pumas

046: What time do you go to bed on weekdays: any time is bed time

047: What word do you use most: hey

048: Most romantic moment in your life: tehe....which one...?

049: Most embarrassing moment in your life: Nearly every moment...

050: You spend your time rather inside or outside: Outside

051: What do you do in the weekends: Work, hang out, or FRAG!!

052: What class in school you dislike most: Transcendental Functions (algebra)

053: Your Breakfast: no time for breakfast

054: What do you really, really dislike to eat: red meat

055: Pets: Heisenburg, Thucydides, Jack, and Rin Turing. Kitties!!! *purrs* Also two betas called Herodotus and Darwin.

056: Laugh or Dream: Dream

057: Serious or funny: Serious

058: Fast or slow: Slow

059: You prefer being alone or have a relationship: Relationship

060: Simple or complicated: Simple

061:Cremate or Buried when dead: stuff

062: Sex or Alcohol: SEX :D

063: Stay up late or go to bed early: Stay up

064: Light or dark: Dark

065: Speak or Silence: Silence

066: Tall or small guys/girls: whatever :)

067: News paper: local news

068: Hug or kiss: hugs, kisses...sure!

069: Happy or Sad: Happy

070: Life or Death: ...De...Life

071: Gig or Disco: Gig

072: Left or Right: Right

073: Sausages on top, or on the side: On top! With lots of syrup!!!

074: Dark/ red/ Blonde: Dark

075: What would you ask God if you could ask him 1 single question: Who wants to talk to that guy? :P

076: You believe in reincarnation: Yes

077: You believe in Aliens: Yes

078: When you die, what will be your last words?: I have no idea.

079: Does true love exist: Yes!

080: How many kids would you like to have: One, I have one.

081: What is the one thing you can't stand: Christianity :P Well, maybe just organized religions...

082: Best feeling: Love, love of a family

083: Worst feeling in the world: Laziness

084: What are you afraid of: Large bodies of water, and nuclear bombs

085: Are you an emotional person: Yes

086: Do you ever cry during a movie: I have been known to cry.

087: Your goal in life: I have so many...

088: What was the promise you made to yourself at new years eve: Not into that, really

089: Favorite art-artist: Alicia Lendvay

090: As what animal would you like to reincarnate: some bird of prey, or a raven

091: What is the most beautiful part on the male/female body: everything on a male, basically; the back and shoulders of a female

092: Most original place to ask your love to marry you: my dining room floor, under the dining room table :)

093:What do you think of Elftown: *wubs*

094: Is there something you miss about elftown: NO! I only miss it when I am away.

095: Where did you get this question list: Lance! I stoled it!!

095: Besides elftown, what do you do most on your PC: music...write

096: Is there a question you missed in this all: certainly

097: Favorite Actor: Kevin Spacey....stupid celebrities! or Morgan Freeman

098: Favorite Actress: I really hate celebrities...I mentioned this....but if I must I adore Alexa Davalos

099: Favorite Animes: Spirited Away, Devil Lady, Princess Mononoke,

100: Favorite Mangas: No, no mangas

102: What super power do you wish to have: some form of super-endurance

103: Your gender: female, wonderful

104: Straight/gay/BI: Straight, although people accuse me of being bi because I often check out girls

105: Single: Nope!

106: Want to be: i would die if i was single...

107: Age you act: LOL

108: Age you wish you were: I like 22

109: Your height: 5'5"

110: Happy with it: Yes!

111: The color of your hair: Light brown

112: Happy with it: Yes!

113: Left/right/ambidextrous: right

114 Your living arrangement: family

115: What's your job: f***ing work at a pizzeria

116: Piercing: No :P

117: Obsessions: Stavsacre, Underoath, writing, dragons, my little ponies, coffee, tea, Chronicles of Riddick, macintosh

118: Do you speak another language: not quite...i know some latin---very rusty, however

119: Have a favorite quote: "The horror. The horror"--Colonel Kurtz from Apocalypse Now!

120: Do you have a WebPage: No

121: Do you live in the moment: No

122: Do you consider yourself tolerant of others: Certainly

123: Do you have any secrets: All humans have secrets

124: Do you hate yourself: *tear* often

125: Do you like your handwriting?: Yes

126: Do you have any bad habits: talking before thinking

127: What is the compliment you get most from people: I do not take compliments well, so if I am complimented I quickly forget it.

128: If a movie were made about your life, what would it be called: You must be stupid to waste your money on a ticket for the movie of my life. :P

129: What's your biggest fear: death

130: Can you sing: No!

131: Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool: No

132: Are you a loner: Occassionally

133: If you were another person, would you be friends with you: Certainly

134: Are you a daredevil: No! I am like Chuckie from the Rugrats

135: Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself: *sighs*

136: Are you passive or aggressive: passive, feeling more and more aggressive as time passes

137: Have you got a question: Why are we dumb?

138: What is your greatest strength and weakness: My strength is that I am loyal. My weakness is that I am an asshole *shrugs*

139: If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be: One thing?!

140: There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose: Creativity

141: How do you vent: Hit things or run a few miles

142: Do you think you are emotionally strong: Yes

143: Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life: What does it help to regret? Everything is a learning experience.

144: Do you think life has been good so far: Yes

145: What is the most important lesson you've learned from life: love life

145: What do you like the most about your body: hands and feet, and eye colour

146: And least: eep

147: Do you think you are good looking: Not particularly, just a plain little girl :)

148: Are you confident: Not so much

149: What is the fictional character you're most like: Been told Mina from Dracula (that was Lance)

150: Do people know how you feel: Yes, I let it be known

151: Are you perceived wrongly: Yes

152: Smoke: No!

153: Do drugs: No!

154: Read the newspaper: rarely

155: Pray: Never. Pray to what? Maybe to a tree or the earth...but no, no praying.

156: Go to church: F*** that! LOL! Church?!

157: Talk to strangers who IM you: perhaps

158: Sleep with stuffed animals: Not usually

159: Take walks in the rain: Yes, but running in the rain is better!!

160: Talk to people even though you hate them: Not if I can help it.

161: Drive: yes

162: Like to drive fast: No, i fear fast

163: Liked your voice: not too much

164: Hurt yourself: I used to, liked to make them scar

165: Been out of the country: No

166: Eaten something that made other people sick: Yes!

167: Burped: I am the BEST!!! *bows proudly*

168: Been unfaithful: No

169: Been in love: Yes!

170: Done drugs: NO!!

171: Gone skinny-dipping: Yes

172: Had a surgery: somewhat

173: Ran away from home: Used to be constantly ready to runaway, but I never did.

174: Played strip poker: No, I have never played poker.

175: Gotten beaten up: No

176: Been picked on: in school, relentlessly

177: Been on stage: No. *shivers*

178: Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath: Never been drunk, not even slightly

179: Slept outdoors?: Yes!

180: Thought about suicide: Hmmm...twice...

181: Pulled an all-niter: Rarely

182: If yes, what is your record: 48 hours

183: Gone one day without food: Yes

184: Talked on the phone all night: Yes

185: Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: Yes

186: Slept all day: No

187: Killed someone: No

188: Made out with a stranger: No

189: Had sex with a stranger: Nope

190: Thought you're going crazy: Often, at work when I am surrounded my co-workers who speak no English

191: Kissed the same sex: No, but there was potential a long time ago

192: Done anything sexual with the same sex: No, that thought (of me and another girl) turns my stomach. :(

193: Been betrayed: Yes

194: Had a dream that came true: Yes

195: Broken the law: Yes, minorly

196: Met a famous person: No

197: Have you ever killed an animal by accident: Yes

198: Stolen anything: yes

199: Been on radio/TV.: No

200: Been in a mosh-pit: No. :'( I WANT TO!!!

201: Had a nervous breakdown: Not quite

202: Considered religious vocation: Funny stuff!

203: Been criticized about your sexual performance: Not really, I never take it as criticism...but what about constructive criticism?

204: Bungee jumped: No

205: Had a dream that kept coming back: Often

206: Believe in life on other planets: Yes

207: Miracles: I suppose

208: Astrology: Yes, if you really know what you are doing

209: Magic: Yes

210: God: No

211: Satan: Not really...

212: Santa: Making Christmas...? :)

213: Ghosts: Yes

214: Luck: sure

215: Love at first sight: Yes

216: Yin and Yang: Yes

217: Witches: Yes

218: Easter bunny: LOL It's cute!

219: Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever: Yes

220: Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow: it is not there

221: Do you wish on stars?: My daughter does

222: Do you remember your first love?: Yes

223: Still love him/her: We are friends. I have my loves now.

224: Do you consider love a mistake: No

225: What do you find romantic: Not much

226: Turn-on: Kilts (LOL)

227: Turn-off: repetition (mostly of pointless words)

228: Do you base your judgement on looks alone: Not often

229: If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel: I would be slightly flattered, but nothing else.

230: Do you prefer knowing someone before dating him or her or going "blind": Know them

231: Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out: It isn't?!

232: Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: Yes

233: Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking: Ummm...I not know O.o

234: What is best about the opposite sex: hmmmm...?

235: What is the worst thing about the opposite sex: not know, homophobia??

236: What's the last present someone gave you: A my little pony

237: Do you consider your significant other hot: Of course!

238: What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot girl standing on the sidewalk: Check out that sexy bitch! :)

239: Favorite weather: Cold! Snow! ^.^

240: Astrological sign: The Scales. Libra
504643  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2005-02-24
Written: (7190 days ago)

Alicia: "I'm gonna skin the kitty."

Laura: "Let's make gloves."

*alicia mumbles*

Laura: Wha? You could stick your wha in his wha?!" O.O

*smiles* Alicia: "I could stick my carcass in his feet."

O.o





*both laugh hysterically due to the fact that they are ridiculously sleepy*





(not ten minutes later...)
Laura: Mushroom... *looks at mushroom photos in Skydancer's house*)

Alicia *eats cake*: Yes, I am.

*both laugh hysterically*



Laura: "What else is there that's Chinese that I can stick in my mouth??"

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Written about Saturday 2005-02-19
Written: (7194 days ago)
Next in thread: 501628

I love you. I love you all. :) Even if I hate you....

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Written about Friday 2005-02-18
Written: (7196 days ago)

How am I feeling...*searches for the right song to illustrate it*


Okay, so maybe it's not exactly how I'm feeling, but it is a great song...


"Napolean Solo"-at the drive in
cut and paste
were you sitting down
on the beaded impotence of new orleans
a hint of suspense when that telephone rings
this is forever

it paved a wave of distance
between the syntax error
from austin's yellow brick road
this is forever

from this texas breath exhaled
no sign of relief
this you know, this you know
this is forever

march 23rd hushed the wind, the music died
if you can't get the best of us now
it's because this is forever

makes no difference
our alphabet is missing letters
seventeen, embalmed and caskets
lowered into the weather
a drizzle, brisk and profound

from this texas breath exhaled
no sign of relief
this is forever

strum this broken harp
we were struck by the chords
set from their hearts
this is forever

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Written about Monday 2005-02-14
Written: (7199 days ago)

Apparently, I am many types of dragon; this time i am a spirit dragon. Had it before...
I also get amethyst dragon a lot. A few times I got spectral...SO does this mean I am an amethyst-spectral-spirit dragon?

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Written about Monday 2005-02-14
Written: (7199 days ago)
Next in thread: 495778

 It's a very odd feeling when you think the world of someone, you think you understand a little bit about them that others do not, and then ...something changes. Not sure just what it is, not sure just what pisses you off about it either.
 Everything is closed; I see the disinterest in one and the shocking turn in another. There could be jealousy involved somewhere, and insecurity and ignorance. Ignorance--yes! That is the word for which I have been searching for days!
 I felt petty for some of the things I have said recently, but I do not think I was in the wrong. And there is no way for the truth to come out to those it really matters. 
 But honestly, no one fucks with my Auntie and gets away with it. Not one. Not even if you think you have done nothing 'wrong.' Even if I am stepping out of my bounds...I shall not stand for it.

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Written about Wednesday 2005-02-09
Written: (7205 days ago)
Next in thread: 497091

"I want to get an Odpi shuffle...and odpi shuffle...wait, what did I just say?!"--Auntie

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Written about Monday 2005-01-24
Written: (7220 days ago)

How about apathy? Is it possible to feel such a strong sense of apathy coupled with an equally strong sense of love? It must be, for I am experiencing it now.

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Written about Monday 2005-01-24
Written: (7220 days ago)
Next in thread: 479467

It's not fair; I can't stand it. I am so lonely, why can't you be there? Anyone? What's wrong with me?
This feeling is recurrent and it baffles me ...why do I feel this?

There is love, trapped within me. I feel it for so many people that it really is quite astonishing.

Ah, well, I fear it is time for sleep. Fitful rest darkened by strange dreams....Fare well, to all my loves in this world.

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Written about Sunday 2005-01-23
Written: (7221 days ago)

What's with the feigned persecution and the adopted defiance? Who stands as the greatest majority of religion in this country? How much harassment can you possibly be given in the name of your religion, and for many of you was it not fairly brought? I should like to make a point that I am very f***ing proud of my beliefs andd I am not ashamed of them. :P Cry for your unfair treatment; I'll stick your Bible up your ass. Homophobe.



From where did this bitterness come? Now, from my totally biased opinion, it is not unreasonable nor undeserved; but, stretching hard and far beyond my increasingly narrowing sight, I seek an honest answer to my hatred of a simple aging cult, a cult that has spread like a virus to poison the natural human spirit, and I am not talking about the holy soul of a Christian person. No, really, now...my objective view...*L* I know it's here somewhere...Let us just take a moment to search....

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Written about Wednesday 2005-01-12
Written: (7232 days ago)

*points to mood* LOL! *rolls on ground* hehe...cheesey...

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Written about Tuesday 2004-12-21
Written: (7255 days ago)

Fill this out about me **BUT FIRST** Send a blank copy to all of
yourfriends (including me) so they can fill it out about you! Got
it??!!BE HONEST!!!
YES or NO

1. Have u ever been my gf/bf? No
2. Ugly? Yes
3. Kind? Yes
4. Quiet? Yes
5. Loud? yes
6. Shy? Yes
7. Weird? Yes
8. Selfish? Yes
9. Ghetto? No
10. Crazy? Yes!!
11. Hot? Yes, temperature-wise ;)
12. Cute? Yes
13. Pretty? No?
14. Sexy? No
15. Nice? Yes
16. Mean? Yes
17. Immature? Yes
18. Rude? Yes
19. Cool? No
20. Brat? Yes
21. Stupid? Yes
22. Caring? Yes
23. Mature? Yes
24. A friend? Yes
25. More than a friend? Yes
26. Talkative? Yes
27. Boring? Yes
28. Beautiful? No
29. Creative? Yes
30. Smart? Yes
31. A flirt? Yes
32. Slutty? No
33. Psycho? Yes
34. Athletic? Yes
35. Confusing? Yes
36. Sweet? Yes
37. Mood swings? Yes
38. Attractive? Yes
39. Annoying? Yes
40. Funny? Ha! I wish!
41. Hyper? Yes!
42. Laid back? Yes
43. Perfect? No
**JUST SOME QUESTIONS**
1. What is my phone #? um....
2. (a) Do u think I'll get married? Yes
(b) If u do..who do u think I'll marry? Lauren Aubel lol
3. When is my birthday? May...or June
4. Who is my best friend? Michael or Nikki?
5. Where did we meet? not sure
6. Have you ever had a dream about me? Yes
7. If you could change one thing about me what would it be? Your sadness
8. Describe me in 3-5 words: Cute, picky guy enjoyable presence
9. Am I a virgin? Yes
10. If u could tell me one last thing what would it be? You're a great friend!
11. If u could ask me anything..what would it be? Are you REALLY a virgin??
12. What do I look best in (clothing wise)? Jeans and white tee shirt
**PERSONAL (OPPOSITE SEX ONLY)**
1. I am the__ ______ person u know. Nicest
2. Would u like to kiss me? Yes...but..
3. Do you want to be my bf/gf ? Yes
4. (a) Do u ever think about me off-line? Of course!
(b) On a scale of 1-10 (10 being high), how much do you think of me
each day? 8
5. (a) Would you ever ask me out? Well...
(b) Right now, what is the chance of that happening (in %) 0%
6. (a) Have you ever had a crush on me? lol
(b) Do you still? Nah
7. On a scale of 1-10, what would you rate my personality? 8
8. Pyhsically, what's my best feature? hmmm... ^.^
9. Mentally, what's my best feature? You're wit
10. What do u like about me? everything, it all makes you You!
11. Do u wish we were closer? We're close, no?
12. What would you love to see me wear? a hoodie and a beanie
13. State here your completely honest opinion of me
 I love you and really feel that you are one of my best friends.

430610  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2004-12-01
Written: (7275 days ago)
Next in thread: 430842

I did it! I did it! I did it!

Katryn started school today!! Eep!

And final count (for now): 50130!!! Another year. *passes out*

Did I mention that I did it? Oo

*drools*

424577  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2004-11-24
Written: (7281 days ago)

Fuck all you bastards. I am so flaming mad and I have no outlet for it; i think I might have a stroke, it just raging inside of me. I want to fucking punch one of my neighbors, I want to move, I want to fight with my landlords--it's inevitable, though. I want to hit something so hard that it breaks my hand. Damnit...

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